my man
this weekend was red flannel. my boyfiend was the biggest jurk ever. the entire weekend he was stoned and would barely spend anytime wit me. then he's yells at me when i don't wanna be around him. it like he doesn't love me any more i don't know what to do..... does everythin in my life have to suck?

me bad
today i feel like crap. lunch at school was once again horrible. my boyfriend is angering me. he broke his leg two months ago and the doc said he can walk on it but yet he makes me use the elevator wit him. my parents ar pissing my off more frequently. i just wanna kill um all oh yeah i just wrote this poem:
Deep in my soul
I can feel it crawl
further in my depths
confirming my emanate death
heavy on my flesh
granting hells wish
burning my bodies frame
crying out feeling insane
isolated child of hate
turned away at heavens gate
never accepted
always rejected
forced to be like them
falling to everlasting sin
devastation sweeps over all
granting life to fall
fatherless one of pains redemption
creeping onward in full consumption
of a helpless horrid chain
of nothing but pain
deceitful nothingness
of crimes to confess
convicting one to lifeless agony
no others could ever see
getting things never wanted
screaming of the haunted
deep in the trenches of we
no cure no being free.

death the everlasting cure
has anyone realized how awful this world is. how much pain everyone causes? i have and let me tell you it's sick. thats why the only way is... nothing there is no way out