:: 2008 25 August :: 6.11 pm

im so happy i could cry
so its finally over and done with and i could not be happier!!
i am now MRS. ERIN MICHELLE HOLBROOK

its weird to say, its weird to call him my husband buts its done

im just so happy everything went so well and now im married and i get to spend the rest of my life with the wonderful man i love.

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:: 2008 21 August :: 5.23 pm

got my hair cut and colored today and it looks awesome!!!

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:: 2008 17 August :: 11.42 pm

i dont know how to feel
i am home alone at the moment, tj is up in Mi for his party and i miss him horribly. so that "friend" that i had who was supposed to be in my wedding be decided her stupid ass was more important a basically quit on me. she went to a friends wedding in MI with her BF and wore the dress i picked out for her to wear in my wedding. AND I AM PISSED!! here she is having fun in a dress that should make her sad. i know its stupid to say but god damnit im mad that she ruined a good friendship cause she couldnt act like a fucking adult.... people are so fucking stupid

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:: 2008 14 August :: 2.45 pm

Random ranting, read if you really want to but it makes no sense
at the current moment i am about to fuking burst!! im so fuckin mad that nothing could make me happy!!! we have no money cause i just paid the church the alomst 700.00 we owed them for this f*ing wedding now we have like 300.00 in the bank, bills to pay, bills over due cause someone mixes them up with random paperwork and dosent tell me they are here, and he needs to make it up to MI this weekend. some how i could have never fathomed this, i was hoping for help from my parents to pay for some part but since my dad has no jog i have to pay for it all and it is rally kicking mya ss. a few days ago everything was ok but since that check hasnt come yet i am going sooooo far into debt its horrible. not necessarily into debt cause i dont owe really anyone tons, but the money i need for next week isnt here and i dont know how i am going to pay for anyhting and i am waiting for the fucking 3 grand to get here already and even if i do get it tomorrow i cant deposit it until monday cause thats how bad my life sucks balls and tj thinks he cant go to MI for his party and i dont know how is going to get there and back and all this shit is making my fuckin crazzzzzzy..... DRAMA of the worst kind and i am ready for it be over~!

and the funny thing about it is i just wrote about how good i am with $$$ god this is fuckied up.

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:: 2008 13 August :: 5.46 pm

so nathan comes home today,,, im happy and sad all in the same feeling

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:: 2008 12 August :: 11.36 pm

either me and tj are just that f*ing awesome or really really lucky.

everyone around us is having $$$ issues, my parents, his dad all out friends, but in all honesty we are doing good. we oay our bills, and never bounce out checking account, i must be good it has to be it!!!lololo

in other news, 11more days until our wedding and its coming toooooo fast i have soo much to do yet its crazy. to all of u who wont be there...WTF!!! i understand but u are all going to miss a big party.

its amazing how u realize how much u truly love some one when you spend a weekend apart. i could not wait until i got home. and since ihave been home everytime he's around i get all happy and giddy n such. absence truly makes the heart grow fonder

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:: 2008 10 August :: 10.52 pm

so mayhem fucking rocked, it was one of the best days ever. i was so close i could literally feel david draimin sweat on me!!! omg i am just so happy that i got to go, all my pals check out my pics on myspace...www.myspace.com/musicislife7657

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:: 2008 4 August :: 10.46 pm

Bachelorette party
going to be in MI this weekend anyone who wants to party let me know i will be in grand rapids friday night....yayayay

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:: 2008 4 August :: 4.42 pm

and the week continues and the plot thickend but i still feel less and less amuzed with the whole thing

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:: 2008 1 August :: 8.16 pm

well today has been an adventure......to say the least

it started off ok then i get a call from my Brother that my dad has yet again lost his job because he decided to go to work DRUNK AGAIN>>>i know its an addiction and i know i need to be there for him but i feel like i am someitmes at a brick wall. my mom gave him 2 months to clean his act up or she is "leaving" i dont really know what that means but i know her and nate are going to be completly selfish about this and it makes me sad. yeah it messes with thier life but my main focus is getting my dad better. no matter what the cost. maybe im just naive and stupid but its my dad and i love him and i am willing to do whatever for him ah well he has me and maybe thats all he needs.

THEN,
when i was doing laundry a got stung by a bee, which i am allergic to. raced home and took some meds and i feel ok my arm is throbbing but pain is a necessary evil and i can handle it.

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:: 2008 31 July :: 2.30 pm

i finally got all of the stuff for the hall taken care of... at least i think i did. i have all the music and all the d-cor and i think in terms of wedding i am almost done with stuff....(doing the happy dance)

my mom finally is ok with everything, i thnk oh well.

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:: 2008 28 July :: 11.27 pm

ok so i have decided that no matter how much i truely grow up my mom still thinks i am stupid.... really. me and tj decided to have my work cater for the wedding, yeah it may be a little more work and such but in total we will be saving almost 500.00. i dont know about you but i could care less about a little more planning and sorting if i can save that much it is definetly worth it right!!!

Not buying a house just yet. we can save up more money if we stay where we are and just bank for a year... they rate we are saving now in a year we could have like 3 grand saved and that makes me very happy, that is it will once we can pay off all the credit cards and be ok on bills... being an adult is hard but i know together me and my soon to be husband ( its wierd to say that omg how corny am i?) cang et though it all...

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:: 2008 27 July :: 10.37 pm

Today was my day off for the week it was a good one too!
trying to get all that last minute bull shit for the wedding all together and my wonderful fience is NO HELP... boys suck balls

anyways, lifes great just chaotic such is such

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:: 2008 23 July :: 11.03 pm

today was ok,,, worked till bout 10:30 and now i am sitting at home while tj makes HIMSELF something to eat and didnt even bother asking me if i was hungry...i would figure after 2 years living together he would at least do that.... wtf

wedding preperations are making way, the actual ceremony is all i really have left. im going to talk to pastor on sunday and pray the organist doesnt have plans that day or i am fucked!!!

no real drama to speak of today things are actaully going real well, me and tj are not fighting anymore and for the first time in a long time i am actually happy.,.. believe it or not i am.

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:: 2008 23 July :: 12.33 am
:: Music: tj random verses

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