so tonights update involves weird dreams, sitting on my butt, and bowling.
there has been a battle in my head about various things in life, and afterlife, questioning my beliefs and such. I'm not sure what I believe right now, Almost like I'm scared to believe. weird isn't it?
Anyways, Tonight I sat around and pretty much did nothing, I talked to Erin and noc online and now i'm laying in bed, fuck i forgot my pushups and crunches, so i'll be doing those right after this entry.
I bowled tonight, Nothing great, a 144 was my high game :( we got raped tonight, everyone on the other team was bowling much much better than we we're. oh well, shit happens.
Erin's coming soon, I'm excited for that. Really really excited.
I need to find a new job soon, I want alot of stuff and I can't afford it driving pizza. Its just not worth my time to do it anymore :(
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2008 22 February :: 12.45am
:: Music: temple of the dog
i shot ten minutes of b-roll, and twenty minutes of interview today. so, nobody can say i'm slacking off. i have a com midterm tomorrow at two. filming some more b-roll from 3 to 5. not sure what's happening after that. possibly another interview.
saturday morning i have the studio from 8 to 10, so stewart can come in and lay down some phat bass grooves. midday might do some more interview action. and in the evening, kevin requested my company doing god-knows-what.
sunday i planned on doing church, lifting, maybe a movie, and then making up a bunch of shit for that scriptwriting assignment i wrote about last time. i also have an article due monday by two, so that might happen sunday night as well.
it looks pretty when i say it like that. very neat and orderly. everything fits.
however, reality is very very different. reality includes all the stuff i know about but didn't add to the schedule. it also includes all of the unfortunate (and sometimes fortunate) random shit that i'll never see coming, no matter how hard i try.
i don't know which i'd prefer, the reality as it is now, or the reality as it would be if it followed the paper exactly. the paper would be boring, but i feel like i'd be much more productive and much less stressed out. and i wouldn't feel as guilty about forgetting people (since it wouldn't happen) and i would never have to deal with the trauma of "picking favorites" (regardless of whether they're actually favorites, or just necessary damage control).
meh. life treats me well though. far better than i deserve. i just hope to god there's a light at the end of the tunnel. because, it feels like there is, but that it's never going to come. as we all know, light moves faster than i do, so i have zero chance to ever catch up with that shit. none whatsoever.
but i guess i'm supposed to be okay with that.
thanks once again, mr. j. for letting me bitch into you, and for having you not judge me. or even notice me at all, really. i appreciate that sometimes.
For Sale
I have some Infinity platinum car speakers for sale.
I have a set of 2-way 300 watt 6 x 9's and a set of 2 way 150 watt 3 1/2 front speakers for sale.
Asking 75.00 for the rears and 40.00 for the fronts.
I paid 159.99 for the rears and 45.99 for the fronts. They can be looked up on best buys website, they are about a year old but were only used for a couple of months.
I am only selling these so i can Pay to get one of my cars moved from my old place before something happens to it.
so i honestly just fell asleep during my chemistry midterm. i mean it's not a huge deal since i still was able to finish it on time, but damn. i'm 99% sure that in the midst of my nap, i laughed outloud during the total silence because i was having some sort of dream thing and laughing at something roman said... it kind of jolted me out my sleep momentarily but yeah i'm pretty sure i did a snort/kind of laugh thing. embarassing. also my professor came up to me i'm not sure if that's what woke me up or if i just felt her presence and woke up on my own .... i was just like "sorry" and she was like "oh you're just takign a break" and I was like ummm yeah but i'm done so its okay...even though i wasn't.
i can't take school anymore. every test i take i just want to get done so bad i just fill in letters. god i'm so bad i know. i just ...........ugh i hate tests.
ughghghgh i seriously just want to quit school so bad. i want to! i have these major doubts i wont make it all the way through so why am i wasting my time now. what will happen if i get a bad grade in even ONE of my classes? i will lose my scholarship and then what? i have no idea. maybe roman and i should just move to ohio and he should work for his dad and make big bucks.
I'm busy and I'm stressed out, still...always, forever, I suppose.
I keep putting off things that I should be doing. Laundry, a four page paper due on Thursday.
I like not doing anything. Coming home, watching t.v for a while, going to bed. It's wonderful.
I feel like I"m at a time in my life where I should be doing great things, where I should be getting ahead for my career(s), where I should start impressing some important people. Except...I'm stuck. All my extra time is spent working at Meijer, and when I have a day off, I use it to sit around and do nothing in an attempt to recover. I hate living like this. It's so hard.
It's so hard to have to miss out on so many things and miss opportunities, and the best part is, I wouldn't have to work if I was a first generation college student, or I was an "under represented minority in the college environment." I could get all kinds of money. But no. I work my ass off, and what will I get? Twelve thousand in debt and grad school. Maybe things will be different by the time I get to grad school...but yet again, that's nearly three years away.
Until then, I"m stuck here, living in some kind of American dream that really feels like hell.
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2008 19 February :: 4.32pm
:: Music: Kottonmouth Kings - The Munchies
Great Song
(DADDY X)I got the munchies im feelin kinda hungry
Im at the grocery fillin up the humvee
These cereal boxes is lookin kinda funny: captain crunch, sugar smacks, and that trix bunny
Its like loadyland, disney for a stoner
Or viagra for your needy boner
Aisle after aisle I forgot what I came for
The store is closing but I gotta get me more munchies for a big night of kickin it
We bought an ounce an we packin it and rippin it
Richter go fire up the flame pit, grab the acoustic, strung naturalmistic
Hot tub yea you know its bubblin, but first I gotta stop my stomach from grumbling
Tasty, all aphrodisiacs, I got the munchies, weres the snack pack
(RICHTER)
bbq chips, and plenty of refreshments
Gummy bears, microwavables, mini thinmints
Ice cream, beef jerky, and candy bars
Del taco, get a number 4 with no sauce (extra cheese)
Vanilla shakes, sugar outta a straw (pixie sticks)
Now and laters, peach jolly ranchers, and buttered popcorn (I got the munchies)
Chocolates, fizzie sticks, cookies and otter pops
Reeses peices cups, tangy taffy, cracker jack box
My stomachs so hungry I need some mad munchies
How many g’s we’d smoked nobody ever really believe
Felt like a track meet meet, inhaling smoked heavily, barely time enough to take an air of breath and breathe
Now in straight cravin a BLT with extra bacon
No onions I don’t need my breathe to be stankin
Now for deserts let’s see what we got for some options
Dairy Queen, Marie CalendarS, or Baskin Robins
The clerk was cool at the 31 flavors
He let everybody make their own shit and yes he gave us…
…everything for free 50 free no charge
So we got an 8th of weed and two girlies in his car
Passably stoner Plus my gut was still growlin louder than a pack of coyotes for moon howlin
3 am 7-11 thankin god cause stoners heaven 24 theY never ever close the shop
(DADDY X)
(munchies) kisses and coco puffs
Fritos, chili cheese, Crunch N' Munch,
(I got the munchies) drumsticks, chocolate, cookie dough
Cheetos flaming hot and mangos
(I got the munchies) Smoothies, burritos with extra cheese
Jalapeños, hot sauce, or jolly lemon squeeze
(I got the munchies) nachos, pepperoni pizza
Hot wings, french fries and slurpees
(I got the munchies)
(D-LOC)
Im hungry as a motherfucker you know I got the munchies
I keep it gangsta, start dippin Oreo cookies
Soak em till they get soggy, let em fall apart till the bottom of my cup
Turn it up and drink it like coffee
You know I got the munchies when im at 7-11 gettin a slurpee and some nachos then bounce out to Del taco
Go get a chicken casadilla then I bought us some vato
Just ask my girl about my munchies holmes
Where the weed I need a ripp
Hurry up, pack it quick, light it up, let it fly
Feel the bud get you high
Take a trip, im gon’ dip, into space, off the kind, in my mind, imma find another place for my rhyme
I got the mother fuckin munchies
So I think ill go eat this one girl named Allison's pussy
(RICHTER)
Cherry icees, whatchamacallits,
twizzlers, bubbalicious, nachos and chili dogs
(I got the munchies)
Hostess, fruits pies and cupcakes
Twinkies, zingers, crumb doughnuts with some cool-aid
Rice krispie treat, Ritz cheez-its
Frozen grapes, grilled sandwiches with ranch please
Banana splits, string cheese, double-doubles
Golden grams, cinnamon and sugar covered churros
(I got the munchies)
I GOT THE MUNCHIES
I GOT THE MUNCHIES
I GOT THE MUNCHIES
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
(SWEET DICK WILLY) THEM MOTHER FUCKERS GOT THE MUNCHIES
I went to pay my ticket and the envelope said it was $70 and 3 points, I get there and the lady tell me its going to be $80 because they raised the prices.
Then i show up late to work because i was at the court house longer, Bill was opening today, for those of you that don't work at hungry howies, bill is the district manager, He wasn' t pissed thank god.
I had to close with him tonight though, we had the entire place ready to close at 8:30, I was impressed with how he did stuff.
I get home, played some Q3 with the rabid-duck crew.
Now my arms and abs are sore from the pushups and crunches i just did.
It feels good.
i'm completely overwhelmed by this assignment. i think it's really cruel to make us go right into writing a full-on script. i have NO ideas. none! i like documentaries, because you can just find something to observe, and then manipulate what you see into something artistic. i like working with small groups of people, where you collaborate and build on each other's ideas. not like this. i'm so small and alone and insignificant and inexperienced. i suck at writing scripts, because - while i am good at writing, at least in certain ways - all of those qualities are things that don't make a damn bit of difference in scriptwriting. i have NEVER done theater, whether writing or performance. my short stories have all been bad - with some good parts in there - but as a whole, bad. and i understand that the point of the class is to get better at it. but i don't see how you're going to get better when you're bogged down and stressed out and completely nonplussed. i mean, i can look at a script, once it's written, and probably pick out some of the things that are good and some of the things that are bad. but in the process of writing it, i'm so lost in the formatting and the coming up with any ideas - anything at all - that i have no attention span left for critical analysis.
i'm just pissed.
calm down chris. you're okay. you're going to the studio tomorrow night, and it will be beautiful. you're done for the day, you only have one class tomorrow. it'll all be just fine. quit being a fucktard, and just enjoy it.
the one time i forget to copy my text before i submit, is always the time the whole entry gets deleted.
anyway, kevin:
dad's getting a band together. i want you to come try out. i will get you more information as soon as it's available. even if it's only for the summer, it'd still be fun.
also, i'm going to try applying for my passport this week. wish me luck.
You dont know Shit.... about Horse Shit that is..
So i just got back from a hard day of work, and nobody can tell me, that i have an easy job, well working at the quick lube shouldn't be bad, but i also work at a horse farm now.. Thankfully the smell of horse shit doesn't bother me, but man was i happy to smell dinner on the table when i walked through the door.
Today i had to dig out 5 stalls that haven't been done since august, which was about 15 large wheel barrels, feed, water and put the horses in their stalls and fill the chest back up with grain, which was about 25 5 gallon buckets worth.
And i did it all with a terribly blown out back. All ive got to say is.. Thank god for Vicodin.
All ive got to ask is.. Who's goin with me?
DRAGONFORCE CONFIRMED FOR 'ROCKSTAR ENERGY MAYHEM FESTIVAL' MAIN STAGE
Posted Friday, 1 February 2008 - 0:48GMT by Webmaster
Official Press Release
MAYHEM FESTIVAL PRESENTED BY VAN’S WARPED TOUR/ROCKSTAR TASTE OF CHAOS FOUNDERS IN ASSOCIATION WITH LIVE NATION. ROCKSTAR ENERGY DRINK IS THE TITLE SPONSOR. FUSE-TV AND REVOLVER MAGAZINE ANNOUNCED AS MEDIA PARTNERS; JÄGERMEISTER ON BOARD AS STAGE SPONSOR
TOUR TO KICK OFF JULY 9 IN SEATTLE
BURBANK, CA (January 31, 2008) – In what’s sure to be the hottest concert ticket of the summer, multi-platinum rock acts SLIPKNOT and DISTURBED will lead the first-ever ROCKSTAR ENERGY MAYHEM FESTIVAL, a riotous road show packed with some of hard music’s most influential artists and a plethora of the genre’s most exciting young voices. The tour is set to kick off July 9th at the White River Amphitheatre in Seattle and will hit 30 cities in the U.S. and Canada between early July and late August (a full itinerary will be announced in the coming weeks).
Joining Slipknot and Disturbed on the main stage will be DRAGONFORCE and MASTODON. In addition, the tour will have two second stages: one sponsored by JÄGERMEISTER and featuring SEVENDUST, AIRBOURNE, FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH, 36 CRAZY FISTS and the JÄGERMEISTER Battle of The Bands Winner. An additional second stage will feature MACHINEHEAD, BLACK TIDE, SUICIDE SILENCE, THE RED CHORD and WALLS OF JERICHO.
08/06/2008 Clarkston, MI @ DTE Energy Music Theatre
Start stashing some cash cause this is going to sell out quick!
