i've always wanted to use that mood =)
um..weekend was ok..bowled a lot....i sucked even more..if i dont make the team this year, it's kinda sad..

I made myself a goal for the school year: become better friends with the drama ppl...like...feel welcome..that type of thing..


And also..Saturday night was awesome just the last 1/2... ;]


<3
mandyy

sick and tired
grrrrrrrrr >:O!!

I'm going to my dads this weekend, i'm not looking foward to it what so ever, you know, i've been trying to be so optimistic lately, and everything just back fires in my face..do i have to be a pessimist for things to look good. :-(


<3
mandyy

p.s. pray for sunshine of saturday so it can be a beach day...i'm out :-(

better then expected
Ok, so first day of school is over, it definitly started out kinda bad...like first of all i set my alarm for 6:00am, yeah no, i set it for 6:00pm. so i woke up at 7 today, in a panic! but i made it to school just as first bell rang, got to first hour, English 3: Ms. Nesbitt but i walked in with Jessika, and we found miss jackie, so that swas cool, sad thing, i might be getting out of that class. Then on to second hour Drama 3: Ms Hasko, everyone's in that class, 45 people. Then third hour, omg omg omg American History Hon: MR MURRAY i love him, haha, found samahab and paige, exciting. Then 4th, Pre Calculus: MR. Cinelli seems ok, Ivy, Alex, and Sam, and oh yes joey are in that class, hehe. 5th hour can die Drawing 1: Mr N it's so gay and pointless for me, but samahab's in it again..wheee. Chemistry: Mrs. Chandrasekr (?) i love it lol, it's me, miss jackie, stephenn and pj..I'm soooo excited. Then 7th hour...bleugh..Marine Bio 1: Mr. Servos i only found Julia Gordon, and oh yeah, laura burstell..but she talks alot..oh awit, i kinda made friends with Danny McFadden lol he's in there.

So all in all, i'm ok with my first day, tomorrow my mom is calling to get me into photo, 1st hour and move my english to 5th our, that'd be so awesome, cause then i'd have 2nd lunch, with everyone, and hopefully i'll get heirholzer and have english with jenna<3. if i get 2nd lunch, paris hott boy searching <333 haha

oh yeah, went jon hunting today, never saw him once, talked to him all day, couldnt find him, hmm?

<3
fanda-pop


p.s. I made friends with a girl named precious...haha, she said she's the tightest freshman ill ever meet <3 ha

i apologize to you
sorry, i guess you can say i've been neglecting you, sorry, i forget about woohu sometimes, im beginning to like my other journals a tad bit more, but its ok lol.

Well summer is coming to an end, and tomorrow we start school, thats gross. Last night as an end of a summer thing, i guess, i dont know, anyways, it was ok, for the most part, i've just never met such a sex driven group of people, can they ever have a get together without someone hooking up, or without a penis being touched?...lol no biggie

Today, i got up to my cousin standing over me telling me to get dressed and we were going out to eat with my grandma, i claimed sick so i didnt have to go, i jsut didnt feel like 2 hours of them, sorry.

I got up, watched Mr. Deeds <3. Then sat on the computer for over an hour with ms. jackie, fixing my virus, and fixing my computer, i thought for a minute i lost kazaa, i was gonna have a heart attack, last night i finally got up to 1004 songs...amazing :-).

THANK YOU JACKIE FOR ALL YOUR HELP

Tonight is the American Idol concert, the concert I should be at, the concert I should be going to, and getting ready for, and is that happening...no. FUCK YOU! ....sorry, but i cant belive you're mom paige, thats fucking bull shit she's taking my ticket...fuck that, fuck you.

I'm off for now, sorry if its lengthy, but i missed woohu <3. haha. ill write again tonight.

xoxo
<3mandyy

p.s. I wanna give my journal a make over, maybe something celestial, i dont know, maybe something to do w/ weather..lol, i dont know, anyone have any suggestions?

p.s.s. i got the tan back pack <3

p.s.s.s. I think I'm falling for you, Im not suppose to, but i am. eh, no worries, you dont even read this...doubtfully

where's all the rum gone? haha
01. I hurt: when im alone
02. I love: making new friends -)
03. I hate: being so shy
04. I cry: enough
05. I fear: myself
06. I hope: ill find love sometime
07. I sadden: thikning of you
08. I feel alone: always
09. I kill: my dreams
10. I talk: to you about my dreams
11. I listen: to every last word you say
12. I break: my heart
13. I see: more than whats there
14. I smell: failure
15. I taste: confusion
16. I work: at getting what i want
17. I remember: everything
18. I hold: onto the moments
19. I hide: behind a fear
20. I pray: one day
21. I walk: to a goal
22. I drive: to the end
23. I read: to learn new things
24. I burn: nothing
25. I breathe: for every living moment
26. I play: with my thoughts
27. I miss: you
28. I touch: my pain
29. I want: to be yours
30. I wish: that i wasnt me
31. I know: its never giong to happen
32. I said: I wanted you
33. I dream: about love
34. I have: no chance
36. I fall: for the wrong things
37. I wait: impatiently
38. I need: what i dont have
39. I live: to one day have love
40. I die: alone

yeah, not what you people think -)

I need your opinion
Ok, i found the backpack that i want, it's the normal jansport one andd it's corduroy!! I've found it in black, baby blue, tan/"caramel" and light pink. I cant decide which one i want...any opinions?

<3
mandyyy

bah!
New York/New Jersey is ok, we got in on friday to NJ at like 2ish, and i went to sleep til 6, and then we went to eat at this place called Harold's, it was soo cool, the cakes were this big [------------------->and so on].

Then Saturday got up, drove into NYC, soo much fun, waited online at tkts, saw liz <3... got tickets to URINETOWN, oh man, i'm in love, like i just cant stop listening to the music, so good! oh yeah, also had dinner at Mars 2112...weird lol...aliens, alllll over

Sunday, went to this place called Woodbury Commons HUGE outodoor mall, got some new dickies, and this coat, that i love, just dont know when ill wear it lol

today, monday, went back to NYC, got there, and walked 20 blocks to Hard Rock Cafe, then went to the Harley Davidson store, got a hoodie, it's ok, but w/e another sweater <3 i wanted more. saw melanie griffith walking down the street with her kids, shes perty. lol then went to FAO shwarz...got out and it poooooored like monsoon's, so we went and found the subway, then penn station, couldnt find where our train was, so was there forever, finally got back at like 8 after getting lost, lol who knows.

now, talking to people, and packing up again, tomorrow we're going a little more upstate, and visiting some people, and then going to the sussix county fair, w/e lol. i come home wednesday, i'm already sick of my mom, ok, lets go home!

oh yeah, jenna congrats on the tattoo!!! i'm so jealous i didnt get to go, and shoelace did <---havent called her that in a long time.

<3
mandyyy

do do do do

bye bye birdie hello alexis <3
today...
woke up late, got to JCC 30 minutes late, no one noticed, muahah. show went good, then left with jecca and mike and went shopping at the wellington mall, mike went into girlie stores, buahah. then went back to mike's, then to chaz's (bah) <3. then i had to be back at the JCC by, 5:30, cause we had another show at 7:30, i dont know why, but i had sooo much fun, like i dont know, maybe cause "annoying people" were gone tonight, and i was on head set, and i dont know, funstuff. Justin Braun came to visit the JCC and was swarmed by the acmpers, they all think he is jenn's loverr hahahaha. I saw max polin for the first time in over a year, he's changed, his style, him, but i dont know, he's different, bad different. He kept i dont know, emily noticed too, but whatever. Then we went to denny's after the show, emily, jen, alexis, taylor, lauren, max and i. it was fun, lot of laughing, and it was the first "drama experience" ever, that i felt like i belonged. i had fun thank youuuu <3. Also i'd like to say hello to my favorite buddy, Stephanieee, i saww you tonight, i sawww you! "I heart you stephanie" lol.

Right now, i'm writting a special letter to Emily, and Jen, cause i dont know, they've been beyond nice to meee lol, and including me, and heh, first time not feeling liek an outcast, in a drama related thing. weird.

Tomorrow...
We have one last morning show, and then strike, i was gonna try and leave again, btu i think i might stay and hang out, we'll see. I dont knowww.

<3
mandyyy

p.s. sierra..aka alien, favorite camper,...just with the face alone <3

confrontation and me dont blend well
hiya. well since i last wrote, i ahve a sunburn, it's bad, really bad, kinda funny actually, but its bad, and it hurts, but what can you do? I'm going to New York/New Jersey on Friday, so excited <333333. Bye Bye Birdie opens tomorrow, and i have to give the show a lot more credit then i have been, it's a million times better then Cinderella. My mom's been like crazy busy lately, she cant pick me up from places, and expects me to get a ride home, but of course, not from teenage drivers...wat does she want from me?

There's tension btwn me and Joey Vetere now, and it's weird, cause i havent talked to him, but it should beinteresting when i see him, i didnt mean to say anything, it happened, and well he started it, so i shouldnt feel bad.
I asked jon, why he hasnt been my friend, adn then i felt like crap for saying anything, i'm just gonna keep my mouth shut from now on.

I hate it when people write an entry and then erase it shortly after, what's the point? I'm soo tired, but i can't sleep, so im just gonna be a grump again tomorrow. Blah Blah Blah..i'm out

<3
mandyyy

stolen from oompa <3

unkown source

too many to handle
i have another new journal click meeee


I'm ok, I've been working at the JCC all week, and all next week too, it's ok, the people there are ok, I love emily and jen tepp, their so amazing lol. <3

I'm playing with Jecca tomorrow night, i'm excited, and then this weekend, is Warped Tour and I'm spening the weekend at Lauren's I can't wait, AND danielle is gonna be there on Friday...wheeeeeeee <3

I'm realllly scared for school, everything's going to be sooo different, i dont know why, but it is...


<3
mandyyy