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2004 6 April :: 3.40pm
Aww, I have such amazing friends. Thank you to Lauren, Heather, Drucker, Paige, Jessica, Sarah and Maria! I got awesome balloons and Lauren, Heather, Paige and Drucker decorated my car, how cute! Thanks guys, youre the best<333
<3dowdster.
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2004 6 April :: 1.07am
still can't fall asleep...
i am being wieghed down
with each beat,these pounds of pressure
just keep building up
i know it's in there
but i keep choking it down
it's gutting me from the inside out
boucing around inside myself
with my silence i am digging my own grave
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2004 6 April :: 12.21am
i pick up another heads up penny
just another unfulfilled wish to add to my
collection
yet, this one seems to shine brighter than
the rest
the copper screams promises
promises of another life
promises of happiness
this is my last hope
my last heads up
i have bent over too many times for a wish
my back is breaking,
and my heart is heavy
yet this penny screamed so loudly on the
pavement, that i couldn't resist
this is my last hope
my last heads up
So today, i was walking in the mall parking lot, and this old man with a cane happened to notice a penny on the ground and tried to bend down to pick it up. and i mean REALLY tried, but he just couldn't do it. So, i ran over and grabbed it for him. And i couldn't help but wonder, if he was getting it because he was still in that childish state of mind where he wishes...or if he was just another old jewish man picking up every penny he finds. well..that just got me thinking about pennies and it's late and i can't sleep.
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2004 6 April :: 12.10am
:: Mood: discontent
argg...i hate being a girl! i was just trying to go to sleep, but i was wide awake, so i came online and did the myspace thing for a little bit.
well, i was looking something matt wrote emily(chicago), and it just sucked. he was talking really emo and wrote down some sappy lyrics saying they reminded him of her. i don't care that he's going out with her, and i am happy that we are the way we are now, it's less pressure and now i can just have fun hanging out with him w/o all the worrying about serious shit. and they've both had bad luck with relationships, so i wish em the best of luck. but it just sucks because he's never said anything like that to me. i mean, i wasn't like in love with the kid or anything like that... i liked him, and to be honest, it wasn't even THAT strong of a like- i never got butterflies or anything like that. he just played hard to get so well and i am not used to that sooo.....but it i'll admit, i wish he heard a song and it reminded him of me.
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2004 5 April :: 11.28pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Nirvana..... it's one of the days that you kinda have to
As we trudge along through the mud
And we tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one, for one, for one second
Never have
been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive
As we trudge along through the mud
And we tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one, for one, for one second
You showed me how
You seemed to find a hole
But I just laughed and smiled
Begged and rolled my eyes
Even cried
And denied the truth to you
Just like the truth to me
Mostly lied
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
White it out
(like) glittering
wax butterflies
~the used
i didn't get home till after one last night. i had to lie to my rents about so much this weekend i know i'm goign to loose track of one of them and fuck up. oh well... it was good times:
~sunrises and sunsets at the ranch
~waking up to smell the salt at the bay
~getting to see a zebra
~buying my mommy a present at the art
festival
~going shot for shot with lauren (i won)
~realizing that matt and i are better as
friends
~listening to the entire first album of
matchbox 20 on the way to sebastian with
Panjo- the only guy who <3's them too.
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2004 5 April :: 9.16am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: something corporate- konstantine
well, last night was aright. my mom didn't get up till like 4:30 and then we went out to dinner to iHOP and then to the supermarket and then i came home. i came online and talked to chris (from bellmore) and he picked me up for alittle and we went to coldstone but it was SOOO busy, grr i was soo in the mood for coldstone. thennn we drove around for alittle bit and then he decided to drop me off and we'd hang out another time when he had more time and we'd go to the brew :). i found out that he's going to ozzfest (and so am i) so im going to hang out with him there too. after he dropped me off i saw kristi and paris, last night was a pretty decent night :)
me=guy confusion :-/
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2004 4 April :: 3.50pm
:: Mood: Blah
:: Depression ::
My state of
depression
is only feuled by
my state of
annoyance
And
annoyance
is just another hollow
feeling
that has no meaning to
me.
<3
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2004 4 April :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: drained
So i have been wondering why Matt was so distant towards me recently, and i found out yesturday. remember that girl from chicago that came down to visit? i was bummed, but i knew she was only down for a week so what's the worst thaat could happen.... WELL...as of three days ago...they're going out. i guess he is goign to try the long distance relationship thing. but here's the wierd thing...i don't care. and i'm not just saying that..i really don't. i was already starting to realize that i didn't want anything serious with him because he isn't really the type of guy i could do that with... or maybe he is but i never saw his emo side b/c he never really liked me all that much. that's the only thing that bothers me. the fact that for the past two months he never really liked me...only in that "this is fun sorta way"... not that "this girl is awesome and i really like her" sorta way. maybe i am just the moron for believing that he could have.
but now that i know...he doesn't have to worry about leading me on any more, so we are cool. he's just fun to hang out with.
three of the 12 that are on this trip were just sent to the hospital... great way to end a relaxing weekend get-away huh? they were on this beastly cart, and the driver (muffy), lost control and went through a barbed wite fence, and they were all thrown out. one of them, broke his collar bone and the side of his face is all cut up. muffy has some deeper cuts on her neck- they say she needs stitches, but i don't think they were that deep. the other two aren't too bad, a few cuts here and there. i don't know
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2004 4 April :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: crampy
:: Music: nothing
i miss joey
i miss marlo,eddie,ryan,denny & jack
i miss my old house
i miss my messy room :-/
i miss how we used to have fun together
i miss jenna<3
i miss seeing sammi and laina every weekend
i miss late night phone calls with jaymes
i miss shows with jenn
i miss colin and the glen cove bowling alley
i miss him pretending to care
i miss his touch
i miss us bitching at eachother all night
i miss 'the crew'
i miss broadhollow theater (camp -kim,chris,and kevin)
i miss the monster in the corner at the mall
i miss going to the mall with *him*
i hate the way he makes me feel
i hate regular snapple and soda
i hate that i love him but i hate him
i hate that i can't get him out of my head
i hate having cramps
i hate being me
i hate when people yell at me
i hate having only 1 bathroom in my apartment
i hate living on the second floor of a house
i hate that i can't stop thinking of him
i hate that i like too many people
i hate that he has been away from me for too long :(
i hate being without him
i hate when people piss me off
i hate a bitch from lynbrook on my boces bus
i hate how he makes me feel
i hate fighting and hatred
i hate people who are racist
i hate the racial slurs people make about me being jewish
i hate when people don't answer me online
i hate when people are sarcastic (it clashes w.my personality)
i hate a lot of rap
i hate bathing suits
i hate the beach
i hate when people steal my cell phone
i hate when my phone dies
i hate cleaning
i hate male chovanistic guys
i hate when girls get bitchy over nothing
i hate PMS
i hate reading books that are boring
i love derek
i love making fun of people who make fun of me
i love my cell phone and the computer
i love drinking
i love being myself
i love urban outfitters
i love pac sun
i love when i talk to *him*
i love woohu.com
i love my friends on woohu
i love hanging out with sherri
i love going to ozzfest :-D
i love josh & timmy
i love being in plays
i love erica
i love singing in the rain
i love my black planet chair
i love having him there for me
i love the mall
i love the color red and black
i love having tips
i love the song 'the reason' by hoobastank
i love dancing to funny rap songs
i love being stupid with my friends
i love going to concerts
i love the downtown
i love walking around aimlessly
i love just being on earth
i love samm,scutch,jenn,vix,and lauryn
i love maris,jessy,krys,and chris :)
now you go.
i miss____
i hate____
i love____
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2004 4 April :: 11.29am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: toxix -britney spears
i am an indie snob!

How indie are you? test by ridethefader
You're just too cool for school, aren't you? You're pretty narrow minded
and opinionated with regards to music (and probably most other things
as well). But you're allowed to be, because you really are better
than everyone else. You take pride in obscurity.
You probably prefer vinyl too, you elitist bitch.
indie snob?!?! huhhhh what?!?! crazyyy
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2004 3 April :: 3.08pm
I'm sorry that I loved you.
I'm sorry that I still do.
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im-sorry [ 0x-FwAh-Em-ChAn-x0 ]
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2004 3 April :: 1.23pm
:: Mood: Blah..
:: Music: My own humming.
Eh..
Well hello.. it are the saddest.. for everyone is sad.
But what is sadness, I inquire.
Another hollow feeling?
A feeling we fake?
Something to reflect upon?
But you must know..
Nothing is really....
real.
<3
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2004 3 April :: 12.42pm
:: Mood: grr...pissed
:: Music: eh, some cooking show
[ series 1 - your ]
-- Name : marissa
-- Birthday : nov 16th 1988
-- Birthplace : oceanside, NY
-- Current Location : east rockaway, NY
-- Eye Color : hazely
-- Hair Color : brown with blonde highlights
-- Righty or Lefty : righty
-- Zodiac Sign : scorpio
-- Font : tahoma baby!
[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : anything really - rock,metal,punk
-- Cartoon : umm rocket power?
-- Color : red/black
-- Rose: i love red roses :)
-- Slushy Flavor : umm idk
-- Magazine : cosmopolitan (theres sex stuff in there)
-- TV Show : any day now,everwood,7th heaven
-- Song at the Moment: the reason (hoobastank)
-- Language : english (cause i can speak it)
-- Spice Girl : i dont really remember...
-- Food & Beverage : cheesy fries from outback and uhh diet coke
-- Subject in School : ummm lets say health issues
-- Weekend Activity : going to concerts
-- Ice Cream Flavor : cake batter w.crunch bar from coldstone :)
-- Roller Coaster : i dont like em
[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : lol,brb,bbl,bbs
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : derek<3
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : eyes
-- The Best Name for a Butler : maxwell
-- The wussiest sport: not sure....
-- Your best feature : my hair
-- Your bedtime : umm i dont really have one
-- Your greatest fear : umm idk
-- Your greatest accomplishment : honor roll?
-- Your most missed memory : the cruise :)
[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : mcdonalds
-- Single or group dates : single
-- Adidas or Nike : adidas
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : chicken fingers baby
-- Dogs or cats : cats, my cat
-- Rugrats or Doug : rugrats
-- Single or taken : taken
-- Monica or Brandy : i can't tell you, i dont really know
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : neither
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : fuck you with all your BS music
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : nesteaaaa
-- One pillow or two : one
-- Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : hot chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee : coffee
-- Boxers or briefs: boxers baby ;)
[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : pretty much
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : yes i do :)
-- do you think you've been in love? : yes
-- Want to go to college? : uh huh
-- Like high school? : no, i hate it
-- Want to get married : yes i do
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : yeah i do
-- Believe in yourself? : not at all
-- Have any tattoos/where? : don't got any
-- Have any piercings/where? : 1 in each ear :)
-- Get motion sickness? : in elevators
-- Think you're a health freak? : not at all
-- Get along with your parents? : with my mom, but not with my dad at all
-- Like thunderstorms? : ah, they scare me!
[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : 23
-- Number and Names of Children : 2 adopted, shoshanna and ryan
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : college
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : just being with the man i love all night long <3
-- How do you want to die? : in my sleep
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : psychologist,radio broadcaster on like z100 would be fun too
-- What country would you most like to visit? : austrailia
[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : blue
-- Best hair color? : dark brown
-- Short or long hair? : crew cut :)
-- Best height? : 5'6" or up
-- Best weight? : that doesn't matter to me
-- Best articles of clothing? : pants?
-- Best first date location? : walking around holding hands
-- Best first kiss location? : anywhere
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? : eyes
[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : not too long ago
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : depending
-- What's on your mouse pad? : nothing
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 4
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 7
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : i have wood floors
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : NEVER, i loveeee my hair!
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : nothing really
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? if she was better than everyone else
-- Would you marry for money? : nope
-- Have you had braces? : nahhh
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : no, i have my signature triangle on my left eyebrow
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : sometimes i dig my fingernails into my arm
-- Would you live without a computer? : no...lol
-- Do you drink enough water? : sometimes
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: not usually
-- What is your favorite fruit? : cherries, im addicted :)
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : wheat, cause thats what mommy buys
-- What is the last movie you saw? : i really couldn't tell you
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : sometimes...if it feels right
-- Are you photogenic? : not at all
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : i dream in both :)
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : acrylic tips with red polish!
-- Do you have any dimples? : dimples are only in the middle of your cheeks..no.
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : both
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: if im healthy, yeah
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : ummmm idk
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : salty - im a salt fiend
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : important? nahh
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : haha yeah
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : unless there extremely degrading to another person, yes
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : off
-- Do you believe in magic? : yeahh
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : no but i have WEIRD ASS dreams
-- Do you like your nose?: haha, yeah im happy i didnt get the big jewish/italian nose that runs in my family
-- Do you think you can draw well? : nahh
-- Do you listen to music daily? : yeahh
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : not really
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : over 10
-- Do you like your friends? : they wouldn't be my friends if i didnt like them
5 things that scare you:
1. dying
2. rapists
3. being in a car going really fast
4. the dark, sometimes
5. neat freaks
5 things that make you laugh:
1. idiots
2. my friends
3. people who are dickasses to you and then try to be your friend
4. prank phone calls
5. me- lmfao
5 things you love:
1. my friends
2. metal music
3. concerts
4. my cell phone
5. derek<3
5 things you hate:
1. when CDs skip
2. when people are mean
3. when people steal things
4. boy bands
5. the snow
5 things you don't understand:
1. depression
2. suicide
3. my life
4. why people steal
5. cliques
Right now you are:
1. talking to corey on the phone, ughh
2. talking to matt on the computer
3. being mad
4. thinking
5. loving derek <3
please fill out the entry before this :(
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im-sorry [ 0x-FwAh-Em-ChAn-x0 ]
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2004 3 April :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: creative
Hola, mi compadres o.o!
Fill this out and post it in the community
Give me three random colors
1. Purple
2. Black
3. Green
Your name is: Emily
You love: People
You want: to cosplay
You wish: that I came up with Dr.Pepper
You have: a messy room
You need: to clean it up and take a shower
<.<; Yes.. only the truths, my darlings.
I <3 YEW ALL! o.o
~Em-chan
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2004 3 April :: 1.16am
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: some TV show i dont know
1. Your name (optional):
2. What You Think About Me:
3. Am I one of your friends?:
4. Am I nice to you?:
5. HONESTLY do you think I'm Hot, Pretty, Cute, OK, Ugly, Disgusting?:
6. Do you ever think about me off line?:
7. What do you like best about me?:
8. What annoys you most about me?:
9. Two words to describe me:
10. Do you notice a strange habit I have?:
11. What is the nicest thing I have done for you?:
12. When you hear my name what do you think of?:
13. What is my best feature?:
14. What person do you picture me with?:
15: Where do you think we'll be in 10 years?
16: Do we spend a lot of time together? If so, what was one of the best times we've ever had together?
Opposite Sex
17. Would you ever go out with me?
18. Would you ever kiss me?
19. Would you ever take a trip to a deserted island with me?
Put an 'X' or a remark for Each one that Refers to Me
20. Outgoing -
21. Shy -
22. Caring -
23. Nice -
24. Sweet -
25. Mean -
26. Weird -
27. Crazy -
28. Smart -
29. Stupid -
30. Dark -
31. Bright -
32. Funny -
33. Freaky -
34. Say anything about me:
im lazy,fill this out...please?¿?
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