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2004 2 April :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: kinda happy
:: Music: cradle of filth
im in my new apartment :) most of our stuff is in here except that i don't have a bed or any furniture, lmfao. well, im really tired and my back is KILLING me. i have to hang my clothes up and stuff and blah blah blah. well, i hope that everyone's weekend is going well i will update when i actually have something to write about - I LOVE YOU GUYS!
->brian i love you, thank you for all the hard work you put in helping me move in :P xo <3
iheartderek<3
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2004 2 April :: 3.42pm
What? People in Iraq don't like us? Why, I mean, we've done SOO much for them. Take over thier turf and kill hundreds, if not thousands of innocent people.
I work at a newstand, so of course I seenewspapers every day. yesturdays breaking news, was how there were american bodies hanging form a bridge in Iraq. some lady came into my work and saw the cover and called them animals. well, what does that make us?
Bush sent troops over there to help rebuild and save their country. RIGHT..... it had everything to dowith oil, and yet our gas prices are record highs. if he cares so much about helping out other countries, then where the hell was he when all that shit was goign down in Haiti? ohhh right, there's no money over there..so he doesn't care. Hundreds of dead women and children were being found over tehre, and he only sends twenty men to guard our embassy. i would feel damn useless going off to fight for a cause and then standing behind a gate watching terror rain on the other side.
did you know that in the last few months, over 200 american soldiers have committed suicide in iraq because our beloved president keeps promising them that they'll be home soon...and yet..... in june he is sending even more out.
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2004 1 April :: 1.08pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: story of the year
i feel like i have a broken wing. and i want someone, anyone just to pick me up and mend it back.
i have too much baggage. all these memories i wish could just fade away. but i try so hard to forget them, that they end up consuming me. things are better now, but i just remember how they used to be and those memories hurt.
but whatever, it aint no thanggggg
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2004 31 March :: 11.35pm
There is no such thing as "pleasing your parents." I brought home my report card today and I was so fucking excited, 2 A's and 5 B's, that's the first time in 3 years that I've gotten all A's and B's, and my mom still find something wrong. "MANDY?! why do you have 6 absences in Holocaust, that is unacceptable!! All I wanted was a 'Wow, Mandy great job, keep it up.' instead I got an unacceptable, heh...great. My birthday's on Tuesday, and as of right now, I just don't care.
-mandyy-
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2004 31 March :: 11.09pm
Today was interesting. I had it off, so i was kinda bummed that i had to go babysit, but how are you supposed to say no when the guy calls you and says his wife just had a nervous breakdown and needs to go to the hospital? exactly, i couldn't do it. seriously, i love those kids. i have been babysitting for this family for about 5 years now...i've watched the 2 and 1 year old grow up...since before they could hold thier own heads up. i would die for them.
i get a call from this kid brice today saying he has extra tickets to slipknot and that he'd give them to me if i bring other chicks (shows what kind of horny bass poop he is)..
even though he is kinda odd, i go...hey, free tickets. it was a bust, nobody was into it, everyone was just moping around, and brice was following me around, so i dipped before slipknot even went on... oh well, i couldn't have stayed anyway...(CURFEW).
lakehouse this weekend...can't wait to cuddle with a zebra. :)
i hung out with moody today...we used to be at each others hips. me her and heather, never apart. but we've grown apart a lot this year. it was good to hang out with her tonight.
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2004 31 March :: 12.04am
You don't make me smile any more. I am giving up on the hope that you will.
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2004 30 March :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: the reason-hoobastank (its me and dereks song)
1) Using band names, spell out your name:
Maroon 5
A static lullaby
Rage against the machine
Incubus
Sepultura
Slayer
Atreyu
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?:
lol, i've tried
3) What song makes you cry?:
good charlotte - hold on
4) What song makes you happy?
the reason - hoobastank (because its me and dereks song)
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
anything really
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 4'10" and proud mofo
HAIR COLOR: dark brown with blonde highlights
SKIN COLOR: peachy?
EYE COLOR: hazel
PIERCINGS: my ears
TATTOOS: nahh
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: my bat mitzvah pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: until the day i die - story of the year
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: nada
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold :-/
HOW ARE YOU?: i heart derek, other then that ehh
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: not really...except in hospital elevators
HAVE A BAD HABIT?:yahh
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: most of the time
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: any day now
CONDITIONER: herbal essences
BOOK: frank mccourt (im in the process of reading it)
MAGAZINE: cosmopolitan
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ice tea
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: skyy vodka and cranberry juice/mikes
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: parties,concerts,hang out with my friends
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: ummm lets say smile empty soul
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yeah
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yeah
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yeah i have
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes, i have
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: nope, can't say i have
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: she knew, but yeah
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: nope i haven't
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: lol deff
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeah, 8th grade was the last one
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: single...but i hope not to be soon cause he's amazing <3
GIRLFRIEND: never, im sorry
SEXUALITY: hetero baby
CHILDREN: i wanna adopt 2
CURRENT CRUSH: derek
BEEN IN LOVE?: yeah, and my heart was broken when he moved to florida :(
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: i miss joey <3
BEEN HURT?: yeah, i have plenty of times
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: going out with mafia man
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: umm no
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no, but i need one...you have one for me?
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: my mixtape of greenday,yellowcard,creed and hoobastank
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: black, definitly black
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with my friends
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: derek
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: im not sure
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: honest caring people
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: go to concerts
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: the other day
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: i dont remember
YOU GOT E-MAIL: yesterday
THING YOU PURCHASED: cake batter and crunch bar ice cream from coldstone
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: jerry springer
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: uhhh i dont remember
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: i dont really agree, but im kinda pro-choice
TEENAGE SMOKING: i haven't had a cigarette in 3 weeks, are you proud?
SPICE GIRLS: they were amazing
DREAMS: i have WEIRD ass dreams
i talked to derek today on the phone for a while and he played guitar for me and he called me to say goodnight. he is amazing. we decided today that hoobastank the reason is our song
dmbmustang8766: i love u 2 babi
->aw i definitly love this kid :)
i heart derek
i miss joey so much
i love bacci
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2004 30 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: outkast BIOTCH
my scale doesn't balance out...
I finsihed that book Stargirl...in it, the main character had a very good idea. What she did was she had a bowl on her windowcill with 20 stones. Everytime she was sad, she would take one out and lay it next to the bowl, if she was happy, she would put it in. It is to see how your emotions balance out.
I think i want to try this. But, not to sound all emo, but for some reason, i don't think i would have too many stones in my pot. I don't know why, but lately i havn't been all with it. I just keep getting so many little let downs, and they jsut keep adding up. I need something to happen, something crazy and out there. I need some more fun times. i need to meet someone new, someone who brings out my fun side...i don't know. if anyone has any exhilarating ideas...halla back
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2004 29 March :: 11.15pm
i just finished reading this book called "the five people you meet in heaven"...VERY GOOD. i suggest it to anyone. it is about how heaven isn't a place where you go and chill out after you die, instead you meet five people and the explain your life to you. they are people you may have never even met at all, but they greatly impacted your life w/o you knowing it..or the oposite.
it is cool because it says how everyone is connected somehow, which is true. i finished that one and just started this book today called "star girl"...this book is even better. i am almost done...(i know bookworm!). it's about this incredible odd new girl in a school and how this kid falls hard for her. nice teenage book.
i think it would be so cool to have a day where i have the time to jsut curl up on my bed and read for hours. i used to do this when i was younger and didn't have a life. now it is jsut so hard to find time to read with work and school and having friends and all. i have read HUNDREDS of books, literally about 150 this summer alone0 i'm a huge dork.
i think the cutest thing ever would be to lay in bed with my cutie of the time and just read with him. i know it sounds lame, but i love those small little things.
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2004 29 March :: 1.45pm
:: Music: matchbox 20...
i am sitting here holding bacon...what a cutie. he makes the cutest noises.....he is starting to chill out a little bit and isn't as jumpy..which is good.
today is one of those overcast rainy days. and i love it. i love days like this. everything is just so chill, nobody is in a rush AND everyone seems to drive normally for a day.
i have work at two....:( oh well, i can't complain i am broke. i bought my prom tickets today.i am excited...i never get all dolled up. it will be nice to get my hiar and toes done and cake on the make-up. i want to have one of those moments where my date looks up at me and is just like "DAMN" and decides that i look insanly hot. you know, like in She's All That.
Matt is my date, but if he has a show, obviously he can't be. or maybe there is a way to do both, like if they don't play until later we can do my thing and leave early. which i wouldn't mind at all, last year i left after not even two hours, it's not all that much fun. the limo bus and hotel were more fun...even though i dropped my date off at home on the way to the hotel-ASSHOLE. but yeah, it would suck if he can't go, but i can just call up someone like ryan or tom and be like...yo bitch, you're going to prom (and no, you're not getting laid). lol. well, off to work..later
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2004 28 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: i hate everything about you- 3 days grace
| Name:: | Marissa | | Nicknames?:: | riss,rissa,mariss,riss-ma,lil pisster,pissa | | Age:: | 15 | | Birthday:: | november 16 | | Where you living?:: | new york | | Height:: | 4'10" | | Weight:: | ummmmm | | Favorite Clothes:: | jeans and a tshirt | | Favorite Shoes:: | etnies | | Hair Color:: | brown with blonde highlights | | Eye Color:: | hazel | | Glasses?:: | nah | | Braces?:: | nope | | Piercings?:: | in my ears | | Tattoos?:: | nopes | | Choose or Lose | | Morrissey or Marr?:: | morrissey | | Wendy's, Burger King or McDonalds?: | wendys | | New York or Los Angeles?: | los angeles | | Paper or Plastic?: | plastic | | 1980s or 1990s?: | 90's | | Fruit or Veggies?: | fruit | | rock or rap?: | rock | | sun or moon?: | moon | | winter break, summer break or spring break?: | spring break | | Kerry or Bush?: | kerry | | good or bad?: | bad | | Now a bunch of giggling 10 year old girls run in | | gay straight or what?: | straight | | describe who you want to be in a relationship with: | derek<3 | | Describe your last ex: | ummm flamer. | | Now you name some favorites | | Movie: | schindlers list,gothika,jack,jawbreaker,shallow hal | | Song: | maroon5-this love | | Band: | korn,maroon5,something corporate,killswitch engage | | TV Show: | 7th heaven,any day now,everwood | | Fast Food Place: | wendys | | Class at School or activity at work: | activity at work | | Cereal: | cinnamon life | | Now I ask you about ur friends: | funny,nice,fun to be around | | Whos your best friend?: | sammi and jaymes | | Name the first thing that comes to your mind when u hear... | | dog: | barking | | trees: | tall | | dishes: | dirty | | Linkin Park: | numb | | Adobe: | huh? | | Paul McCartney: | idk! | | Hawaii: | hot | | Supply and Demand: | toys? | | Savings and Loan: | moneyyyy | | sex: | guys | | snow: | white | | past: | is gone | | regret: | everything i've done | | Mexico: | pretty | | drill: | saw? |
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2004 28 March :: 1.35am
:: Music: Massive Mother may eye
Really want some love.
Hey-This is Panjo,Yes Panjo,currently the lead singer of simplekill.i said that cuz we're a huge mtv band.I'm prettyyy drunk and i wanted to write in her hip livejournal .Why you ask?i have no idea , but she cleaned Jons rug in her Thong and Bra and i must admit i got a semi hardon.not a full on hardon cuz i didn't see any bending over, i most enjoyed when she turned around - i must say that was my fav part of the wholeee thingggg. I haven't drank in a lonnnng time and i'm fucking wasted. This bitch doesn't shut up about _____,non stop talking about ______,i thought she had a personality,but all she is a sarcastic clut bunnny from mars.
I'm wearing a really really big t-shirt,a silver chair t-shirt.
i needa drink some more so i can try and convince Stephanie to give me a blow job while Jon watches.
Stephanies awsome
Everyone wants t oblow her cuz she's a rock star.
I'm typing a Novel...a novel in may...
Sleep sleep sleep sleep
more green apple.
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2004 28 March :: 12.47am
i am hanging out at jons house fixin to get drizzzunkkkkk. i'm here with him and panjo. we decided that tonight is the night for me to vacum in my underwear....it's funny, i am usually so timid, hardly any of my friends have even seen me in a swim suit..and then tonight i'm in a thong and bra. hmm and only one guy has ever seen my butt, haha this is odd. what the fuck am i thinking? i don't know, they're just fun, and i know it's not a sexual thing for them b/c i'm just a friend...not a chick they want to "hit it" with.
matt.....you're missing out.
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2004 27 March :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: ace of base - its a beautiful life
fun with the boys and then the girls
soo last night was aright. i went to dance then came home and took a shower and then brian,joelle,and eric came over and we chilled in my house for a little then they decided to go to taco bell so joelle drove us and then i went back home and i got a call from kristi and her,leslie,and paris came over and then we drank. it was fun, i lovvvvvve the boces girls sooo fucking much :)
well, saturday was shit - went to charlie browns for dinner then got some coldstone. took some things to the new apartment.
i heart you od
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2004 27 March :: 12.54pm
as always...you wake up the next morning and you are calm and nothing seems half as bad as the night before.
i understnad COMPLETELY how he must have been freaked last night. it's not that big of a deal, i can live with it. all i want is to talk to him and just say how i felt. but the ass is probably still sleeping next to Chicago right now so he won't answer his phone.
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