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2004 26 January :: 11.14am
:: Mood: chilly
:: Music: nothingface
aright, so yesterday was ok. i woke up at like 8 and went to my sisters birthday party at mcdonalds (she's 6) then after that i was supposed to go to my dads house to open presents and shit but my dad ended up thinking that me and amy weren't coming so he stopped at the store before going home so my mom,me and amy waited at his house for like 25 minutes and then we left because amy had to eat. we went to wendys and that was funny as hell. we got online ordered our food and the 3 funny things that happend where when i took like literally 15 straws,amy breaking 2 salt shakers and me throwing out the 2 pepper shakers that weren't even broken. haha funnyyyyy ass times. lol, ANYWAY when we got home we chilled around the house or whatever and then at 10:15 or so my mom went out and then i tried to get chris o. over my house and he said he would but idk i guess things didn't work out, OH WELL. well anyway, todays a new day and im not sure whats going to be happening. i have no midterm today but tomorrow i have my global midterm from 9:30-11:30, wednesday i have earth science from 9:30-11:30 and math at 12:30-2:00 and then thursday i have italian from 8:30-10:00. i still have no clue where i stand in taking the italian regents. friday is my last day of school in erock im SO excited. well, thats all for now !!!
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Im-Sorry
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2004 25 January :: 1.10am
:: Music: Kryptonite
Angsty Avenger
I feel bad for not talking to any of you lately... I'm just having some problems right now, but I'll be back more when I've fixed this. ciao.
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2004 25 January :: 1.08am
I think its safe to say boredom took over me
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im-sorry
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2004 24 January :: 10.53pm
Sorry Im such a fuking moron. Sorry I was ever born. Sorry I ever had to get in your way. Sorry I have an opinion. Sorry I was born when I was.
Im sorry Im not FUCKING PERFECT.
Sorry Im a wast of time..
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2004 24 January :: 4.40pm
goodbye woohu...
*for a while at least
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2004 24 January :: 11.21am
:: Mood: alil hungover
:: Music: endo
wow, last night was crazy!
haha last night was fuckin insane. well, i called greg and he said he was gonna come over so i was like 'aright, cool.' so i was already with amy (i had my dance show before and it turned out good.) anywayy greg comes over with his friend armad or something like that and then he was like 'imma go see jake' so i was like 'aright' so, im waiting for greg and he doesn't come back to my house AT ALL so whatever. amy called brian and kurtz and they came over and brought vodka. amy had about 2 shots and i had 6 woww <3. i was soo fucked up and then whatever and whatever happend and i dont feel like explaining the rest of the night, lol. well, its 11:21 on saturday and im just a tad hungover but not really. oh well. my mom took amy to the hospital :-/
im going to my moms boyfriends ex wifes house today for kimberly (my moms boyfriends daughters) birthday party. that should be fun, i'll update later<3
od<3
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2004 24 January :: 2.24am
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Vandura - Read these actions
going places...part two
yea i just got home from hanging out w/ pay david and joe, before that i was at work
i made 363 dollars on my paycheck like wat ugh!
tomorrow i open the store
um i got a new cell phone. for all my friends the number is 716-8371, i'm still anticipating a call from some who said wanted to chill but she wont call ;)
i was grounded for a week from my car recentlyand i have it back
when i got it back i hit a duck and it crashed on my windshield, and cracked it. i got it replaced tho
i got my report card, lol not good.
i'm out cuz i have to work tomorrow
-Peac-E
-Hamon
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2004 23 January :: 3.56pm
:: Mood: i hate myself
feel for once what it's like to rebel now, I wanna break out now, let's go.
Dinner was nice with my dad, it was. My Mom is driving me nuts. I think she's more excited about my photo project then I am, I mean, yeah I'm happy for myself, but geeze, she needs to chill the fuck out. It's making me so discouraged. You know what one of the hardest things to do is? I'll tell you. So you become good friends with this guy, not best friends, or anything, just good friends. And then you realize that your falling for him, and your clueless on whether your feelings are mutual, but you would never dare to say anything, or act upon your feelings. He tells you about his girl problems and all the girls he likes and you do everything in your power to help him, and then..all you wanna do is do everything to stop him, but you can't. I hate being a girl, i hate being me, I hate everything. And ih ate my digital camera, all I wanna do is play with this one picture, and I dont know how the fuck to do it.
I wanna cry, that's all I want.
-mandyy
[[edit: contrary to populare belief, this isnt about ryan, sorry.]]
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2004 23 January :: 6.31am
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: sevendust
last day of school before midterms
well, you'll see that my mood says grateful and gd am i grateful that today is friday and all i come in for is midterms and then maybe the monday after that of east rockaway. i've had an eventful 8 1/2 months in this school and im sooo freaking happy to get out !! oy.
my midterm schedule goes like this:
monday 26th* 8:00-11:30..english (it's only supposed to be from 9:30-11:30 but since i missed so many days of english she's making me come in early so i can finish the rest of the test (ohh fun stuff biznitch)
tuesday 27th* 9:30-11:30..global (essays)?
wednesday 28th* 9:30-11:30..earth science with all my 9th grade retarded friends...hmm
12:30-2:00...math AE2 midterm :(
friday 29th* NOTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
saturday&sunday-probably nothing cuz im grounded and then monday idk if i have to go to school because its the last school day before i go to pace...alil excited alil nervous!!!
...timothy odonnell is my love <3...
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2004 22 January :: 8.42pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: sweet child of mine- guns and roses
aright...
ok well today was an OH SO FUN day. i went into school and was alittle late but whatever and as the day went on it was just a normal day in east rockaway. 9th period i get out of school and i thought that shawn was picking me up so i called him and ask him where he was - and he was all the way out east. i didnt have any money for a taxi so i walked home. it wasn't that bad, oh well. soooo i get home and just chill around the house. my mom comes home and i some chicken and whatever. around like 5:30/5:45 i got really tired so i layed down and went to sleep. its 8:45 now and i just woke up about 10 minutes ago. my mom was afraid if i went to sleep so early i'd never be able to go in at 10:30 but im madd tired so i will be able to. aright so everything is going good with the plans that im making with jenn,scutch,vix, jaymes,josh,tim,and lauryn and marisa. i got a phone call from chris today. he called my phone and then just stayed on the phone like he had no clue he was calling anyone - haha. well, i dont know what else to say. tomorrow is friday which means i only have friday,mon-fri of midterms,and monday i might have to go in but im not sure. well, im almost done with erock- you will be missed... NOT!!!. well, tomorrow is my dance show and im alittle nervous cause im kinda shakey on the dance. ohhhh welll :-/
timothy.odonnell.i.heart.you.very.muchly.<3
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2004 22 January :: 7.12am
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
this is stupid...
im going into school at 7:20 to take a test that im gonna fail, is that stupid or is that stupid? i dont have my books because i lost my backpack so yeah that sucks. today i have to start taking my english midterm, i missed 3 days of it - oh well, i dont give a fuck.
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2004 21 January :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: finch
have you ever wanted someone to say something to you, like you had this whole layout in your mind of what they're part of the conversation will be like.....and then they say the complete oposite? man, that's such a bummer.
EXAMPLE: i started this conversation with a guy about the difference between liking a girl enough to date her or just to hook up with her. and i was HOPING he would say, "like you....i like you enough to date, so i could never hook up with you"...well complete oposite. TOTALY OPOSITE. he ended up saying, i could hook up with you but i can't picture me dating you. OUCH'
see, the thing is...feelings towards dating and hooking up are COMPLETE different feelings. like, i would never hook up with a guy that i wanted to go out with-i'd be too afraid of ruining it. i hook up with guys that i am physically attracted to, but could never hook up with one that i REALLY REALLY like. i know this sounds crazy, but there is a point behind the madness. the reason is that(to me-maybe not every girl) if feelings get built up for just a lust buddy, then you just get hurt b/c you know it won't amount to anything more.
i am sick of not getting anything more. tired of jsut settleing for hooking up. for the past year that's all i've done. i'm ready for the real deal. V day is coming up and this year is going to suck b/c i have no valentine. :(. lol oh~well, maybe next year.
the thing is, i say i want a relationship, but right now, i have two prefectly great guys who want that with me...but i don't want them that way. they're cute and sweet and all, but for some reason i just don't like them. i hate how you never like the guys who you should...i hate how you can't control matters of the heart, and the more you do...the more it takes over. so it's not that i can't get anyone, just nobody i want.
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2004 21 January :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: content
school is fucking bullshit
ugh, i hate school.. today my mom woke me up at 6:30 and was like 'get up' and blah blah blah i was like what are you crazy, im not getting up this early sooo i went back to sleep and then at 7:30 (cuz my alarm didn't go off) my mom wakes me up and i couldn't get ready for school so i just decided to go in late. i went in for 6th-9th and a lot of shit happend in school. i really cant stand all this crap but whatever i have a week and then im gone, finally. well, the rest of the day was fine i took a taxi home and shit and when my mom came home she took me to green acres to get something to wear for dance. who wants to come to my show friday at 4:30???
-timothy.i.heart.you.mucho.<3
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2004 21 January :: 12.17pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: you and i both // jason m raz (sp?)
I'm breaking a habit, tonight!
Woohu is being really weird, and really gay. I woke up this morning on the couch in the living room and I have no fucking idea how I got there. But my back was killing me, and then i went to brush my teeth and my tooth started up again, so I stayed home today, i have a dentist appt at 2, and I have to go to the bank and such. So Ill get that stuff down, oo, that reminds me. Math homework. I went into work on Monday, and I was double checking my schedule, and I see that my Wednesday night was whited out, and Lauren's Friday nght was crossed out...I broght Maggie over (another hostess) and showed her and asked what I should do? come in? stay home? she said for both me and lauren to stay home. Lauren found out last night that Kara, stupid fat bitch, crossed off her friday night on her own, w/o permission, and she can still come in. So now i have no fucking clue if I'm suppose to come in, or not. I feel like shit, I dont want to work, I want the money, my check is only gonna be 250, I was hoping for more. But whatever.
Gah, so this whole mauricio/pat situation, i guess i'm kind of over it, i mean who was I kidding? :-(
I'm off to go run some errands, and hopefully FIX MY TOOTH!
<3mandyy
until the next time I can sneak on the computer, ill see ya whenever
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2004 19 January :: 2.05pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: me vs. the world
I would give you the world, just so I could get some attention
This weekend was okay, not the best. Sunday sucked, really bad. I woke up in a bad mood which just put me down for the rest of the day. My dad and I argued a lot, which I hate, and then I felt guilty, but I guess we're okay? I left my dads around 3, and went to work to get my schedule, I'm working Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday, so that will keep me busy, and hopefully keep my mind off things. I went to blockbuster after that and rented myself three movies, just so I could lounge the rest of the day. I rented Freaky Friday, Uptown Girls, and How to Deal. I watched Freaky Friday and Uptown Girls last night, both amazing. I really needed the chick flick movie night, made me feel better. This morning I woke up, brought my car to the shop, mom picked me up, we ate lunch, mom stayed at work, and I took her car with me home. I have to work at 6, so either I'm goin with her to get my car, or her and my step dad are later this evening, eitehr way, I need my car back, damn breaks. I think I'm gonna go watch How to Deal now, cause I'm in a mandy moore mood, I dont know when I'll update again..I'm grounded, I need to keep reminding myself that.
<3mandyy
x to the o.
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