One day, I promise, you'll be everything you see in your dreams

2 kissed me to die | with a smile on my face

:: 2004 7 January :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: poop

Mr. play it safe, was afriad to fly, packed his suitcase, kissed his kids goodbye.
Everything can be summed up with one word, interesting. I'm opening my eyes up to everything around me, and taking it all in, piece by piece, bit by bit. I went grocery shopping today, I kinda liked it, except the paying for everything part, that kinda sucked. Oh, so everyone knows, I've been writing in my livejournal more often, and it's friends only, so if you wanna be my buddddy on LJ, holla. www.livejournal.com/users/fandapop . I'm talking to Co right now, he's my chinese friend, but he's sooo nice. God, I miss everyone at work. o0o0o Co told me that the deerfield boys, are all playing football on Saturday, now I have to find a way to weasel my way into going, I wanna see Pat, Mike and Mauricio. hmm..ok I'm off to dinner with my dad, maybe things won't be that bad. xox

<3mandyy

p.s. Patrick Moran, if you see this...call me.

:: 2004 6 January :: 9.50pm

Wow, just when I was beginning to think not too many people cared, and I was in this for myself..I got a voice mail from the unexpected. Thank you Pat Moran for that message, you made my day. xo

<3

:: 2004 6 January :: 9.43pm

I'm starting fresh, clean slate, heh...it's all over from here

;x

2 kissed me to die | with a smile on my face

rachel

:: 2004 6 January :: 8.03pm
:: Mood: energetic

i drove to naples by accident
today consisted of:
getting up early
going to school
butterflies <3
schedule change
rehearsal (and it got delayed another 2 weeks)
activity bus
fooooood
tv

:)

:: 2004 6 January :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: ozzy osbourne

okkkk so today was fine. i woke up at 6 took a shower,did my hair,and woke amy up (she slept over my house) then i went to school and whatnot. during lunch my mommy picked me up and got me wendys and then she sent me back to school (oh what fun!) well whatever, anyway after school my mom picked me up and then we came home and i decided that i wanted to get my new nextel. ack soo we wait alittle or whatever and i went on the computer and then we left and i got the new i730 nextel. bleh its such a hot phone! tomorrow im only going to 1-4 and my moms picking me up 5th period because im going to pace for that interview or w/e. well, that should be fun, ACK my mom is sleeping in the city friday & saturday and coming home sunday night. me and amy have the house ALL TO OURSELVES. boy do i love my life. well, sometimes, haha........

My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?

[[haha amy look, my life is rated nc-17 too]]

i.heart.you.muchly.timothy.odonnell.<3

[[ ...*theres no one left thats real*... ]]

:: 2004 6 January :: 6.42am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: headstrong- trapt

ok well today was the first day back to school from the long ass winter break, ugh. well, school was nothing i went in did my shit and came out then i went to mcdonalds, ate there and then went to pick amy up and then i chilled at my house with amy. her friend mario came over and we just hung around and shit. then mario went home and now its 12:44 and my mom went out alittle while ago and amy has been sleeping for about an hour. i need to go to sleep soon so i can get up to take a shower and get ready for school. well, today i found out that wednesday im going to visit pace for an interview at 12:30 and my mom is picking me up at 11:30 so im leaving during my lunch period. well, a lot of shit has happend lately idk i miss samm, she's coming home from italy tomorrow. ack im soo excited i missed her sooo sooo much. my mom is going out next weekend and staying in the city so i can yay have fun! omg im soo excited, xox.

i/heart/tim/odonnell/<3

[[ ...*theres no one left thats real*... ]]

1 kissed me to die | with a smile on my face

theintervoice

:: 2004 5 January :: 12.03pm
:: Music: some fuking all american rejects song in my sisters room

the day after

yea i just woke up

i dont remember what i did friday...weird

saturday i worked in the morning and i chiled with joey and pat, i snuck out of my house @ 2 and we drove to cumberland farms and went around causing anarchy all between boca and coconut creek. we then went stealing emblems....and then fucked up some people chritsmas decorations good night, i then snuck back in my house at 10 in the morning which leads us to sunday morning

Sunday- when i cam in at ten i slept for 30 minutes and headed off to work, jesus i was tired. i worked till five. from 6- to 7 is a complete blur :) then i chilled with josh and carlos till like 9:30, then i went to joses and met up with tommy and the crew at loggers run park we just chilled and i was speeding when i came in so a cop was giving me shyt but he didnt give me a ticket, damn str8
later on we went to some girls house and watched porno with all these gurls and did narrations

i'm out i'm still tired and i'm damn hungry

to be continued...

3 kissed me to die | with a smile on my face

:: 2004 5 January :: 1.31am
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: basketcase- greenday

well, yesterday (saturday) was one crazy mofriggin day. i woke up around 12 and i got ready for my hair appointment. i went to get my hair done around 1:30 and my hair looked mucho nice :) well, we got done kinda early and my mom took me and my sisters for dinner at subway..mmm. so after that we finish eating and then i got home get dressed and whatnot then amy comes over and gives me the shot glasses that she bought me on vacation (i collect them) and then we try and figure out what we were doing. well, i saw my ex on AIM and i decided to IM him and see if he wanted to hang out and he said yes and then right when we were about to finish the plans he signed off so i said 'fuck it lets go to bellmore and chill there.' ok, so we call a cab and go to the rockville center train station and buy the tickets to go to bellmore. while were there my ex calls me and was like 'wanna hang out' so i said sure, meet us in bellmore. we got on the train and amys blood sugar was low (my little diabetic) soo when we got off the train we went to the diner and she ordered a soda. while i went to the bathroom my ex called and said he was there so we walked to the train station to get him and shit then we hung out alittle and then he hadda go home. at 10 we thought anthony was going to come pick us up and he never showed up :-( so we took the train back to my house at 12:08 when we got back to my house my mom decided to go out so we invited anthony over and he came over and brought us mikes. amy got drunk but i didnt,and i talked to nick for sooo long on the phone. that was my CrAzZy night. soon, when i get my pictures online from last night i'll post a link for you to get them :) well, have a nice day and end of vacation....BLAHHHHH

timothy.odonnell.has.my.heart.<3

[[ *..theres no one left thats real..* ]]

1 kissed me to die | with a smile on my face

:: 2004 4 January :: 2.23pm
:: Music: linkin park // numb

I want what I had, and what I had wasn't what I wanted.
This weekend was an eye opener for me. I had too much thinking time on my hands is what I'll call it. I left Friday with Lauren, Dan, Heather, Brian, Matt, and other Brian for camping. It was fun, I loved it. I'm not so sure, how i felt about being there with the ones I was with, not cause I don't like them, or anything of that matter, I just felt so alone. All weekend, I had this pit in my stomach, of loneliness. We were on the beach on Saturday, it hit me hard. I had to walk away, and I cried and cried. A good cry can truly help sometimes. The other day, when someone asked me what was wrong, I said I don't know, I'm just kind of sad and alone, they told me it's called depression..I am not a depressed person, and that really bothered me to think I'm depressed? I don't know how I'm feeling right now, but I know for sure, I'm feeling regret, too much of it. Another thing that I thought about this weekend was Sunrise Cinema's and how much I want it back. How much I loved my work friends, and how good I had it there. But I fucked things up there with my boss, and I ruined my chances. Now, I'm screwed, and there isn't one thing I can do, to get it back. So I'm left here now, sad alone and regretful, and all want to do is talk, but the words won't come out.

werealljaded

:: 2004 4 January :: 1.24am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: something bitter

finally in the angry stage...
ARGGGGG!!!! sorry i havn't written in so long, but my computer won't allow me to look at websites so i can't ever get on. well, i am finally sick of putting of with GC's shit, i finally realized that the whole situation is unfair to me and i feel like i am being taken advantage of.
it's not fair b/c no matter what, he wins. he has three girls hanging from a thread tied to his fingers. we're all waiting to be tugged. and a few nights ago, i finally cut my string. now everytime i talk to him or see him, i just feel like screaming FUCK YOUUUU!!!!why is it that he gets to be so lucky that he has me and his two ex's waiting for him to choose. i think he must like it, it's like he gets to play God with our hearts.
i feel like i am being taken advantage of b/c he only wants to hang out when he isnt with teh guys or anything like that, liek HE chooses when we hang out. well fuck that, i'm not the whipped one anymore.

the thing is i used to never tell him when he pissed me off b/c i feared the confrontation thinking he would just leave me for tyler. i always felt like i was in a competition. well, now that i dont care (she can have him) i dont mind telling him EVERY little thing he does to piss me off. man i must come off as such a bitch. i am so proud of myself.

2 kissed me to die | with a smile on my face

:: 2004 3 January :: 2.04am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: fuck it dont want you back -eaman or however you spell it

aright well today was aright. i got ready and shit and i went to charlie browns with my mom,my sisters,her friend lonnie,and this kid richy. well, after that we went to see the lights at jones beach. after that i came home and chilled. tomorrow i might hang out with sherri but idk if she can. im def. hanging out with amy though and were hopefully were drinking. i might hang out with emilio. right now im babysitting and my sister is screaming at the top of her lungs and im like dying cuz shes pissing me off really bad.

i.heart.timothy.odonnell.with.all.my.heart.<3

[[ ...*theres no one left thats real*... ]]

:: 2004 2 January :: 3.37pm
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: korn- i did my time

well, i woke up today and cara,danielle, marissa,and hannah were already awake - go figure, lol. well, we hung around the house for alittle and then they left (well, not hannah) i looked for pictures of OD on my computer and i found them and i cried. i just thought about how much i missed him and how much im going to miss him when he goes back to college. ugh i think i love him :/ he has been there for me through thick and thin and i really have no clue what i would do without him. OMG he is thinking about going to college out of the country which means he wouldn't be a phone call away anymore. i got soo mad when he told me that and i told him that i hated him, i cant believe i could ever say that to him but we made up. well, i got ready and im waiting for my mom to do my hair because im going out with her,my sisters,her friend lonnie,and this kid richy. i made somewhat plans for tomorrow. sherri is coming on the train at somewhere around 12:00 and then at like 1:30 i have a hair appointment. after that i wanna go to kohls and FYE because i have gift cards for there. well, after that im going to hopefully be with sherri and amy and i really wanna drink. we'll find someone to drink with hopefully. well, my mom is finally going to do my hair. i hope that everyone has a fun last weekend of vacation !!!

i.heart.timothy.odonnell.<3

[[ *..theres no one left thats real..* ]]

:: 2004 2 January :: 3.50am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: anything from taking back sunday

wow its 3:51 in the fuckin morning and i am awake as i'll ever be. i went to be around 5:00 in the morning yesterday and i woke up at 2:00pm to find that my mom had not come home till 10:00am, lol. well i hung around then talked on the phone with brandon and whatever and then fell asleep because my neck was killing me. alittle while after that i invited [[dani,caz,riss,and hann]] over and they came over and we chilled. alittle while after that we got bored of eachother and we decided to invite some guys [[steve,od,ryan,jared,and rob,and jaymes]]. of course being the alchys that we all are our boys brought over some liquor for us. we all took about 6 shots of bacardi o and we were drunk, haha like always. we all chilled for a while and then about 2:30 maybe the boys went home. now its 3:54 and dani,caz,and hannah are sleeping and now its the 2 marissas that are up and were not even tired. well, im still drunk and if you cant tell lol then im just TOO GOOD! well, marissa is tired so she is going to sleep and leaving me awake all by myself. i think that im going to go to sleep in a few so i can wake up at a regular hour so i can make plans for something to do tomorrow, rawrr.

i.heart.tim.odonnell.<3

[[ *..theres no one left thats real..* ]]