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ok i changed my mind i shall write in this thing yay okk lol um today was ok i babysat with yaminah and then i was gonig to bake but some thing happened that i was crying in albertsons bc of stuff that happened and it also got me irritated so im there and im pissed off so i was yelling at the lady working there but for real shes like 'how many items do you have' and im like 13 and shes like you have to have 10 and im like OH MY FREAKING GOD 3 MORE ITEMS BOO FRICKEDY HOO IM SORRY ITS GOING TO TAKE UP 10 SECONDS OF YOUR PRECIOUS DO NOTHING TIME and by the time i was going to say something else my mom kind of covered my mouth and yeah she said i was sorry but i was not and i refused to say i was so we left. than baked with my family and stuff it was fun and i got home and did nothng so today was a day to do alot lol

today was like one of the worst days i could ever have. i woke up and i tripped over something and fell.. but then my mom was all yelling bc the dog got out so i ran out in 40 degree weather with shorts and a spaghettis strap- no shoes chasing him through every yard and all around the neighborhood after i caught him i went inside and yeah.. my mom and i went out and thats where it kind of started to get really bad, but ill skip the whole thing and put it to the point that marcus broke up with me... than my day consisted of crying my eyes out.. and my annoying mom coming in every 3 seconds "are you sure your ok" "can i help" blah blah... i told her it didnt bother me and i would live just so she would leave me alone but i was crushed and i swear to god i felt my heart break i noticed it when i was on the phone with sammy that was yesterday and today im probably going to mope around and be all depressed yeah, im not afraid to say it, but i still love him alot and i really wish we didnt break up. its going to take a long long long time to get over him and it wont be easy... im just in the process of thinking what i did wrong

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well.. today was such a crappy day, my knee is compleatly fucked up and i got into a fight with my good friend.... we made up like not too long ago but still... it happened.. im having bad flashbacks and i looked through alot of photo albums and saw things i really didnt want to see, people, places, objects... blankness idk i love marcus so much and yeah... only my close friends are gonig to know what else there is to it.. im not mad at all im just... confused?? idk even know how i feel.... moving on i think im getting depression again because i am going really down, and im doing.. thinking you all know what kind of thinking it is and its just so tempting when i go into the kidchen or look in one of my draws, but im staying strong scary thing is.. no ones home right now its just me but im also thinking remember? so thats occuping me yep im just trying to go through all the stuff thats happening its wierd putting all this in a journal when who knows who is reading this but before someone asks me "whats up" they will get an idea. im gonig to spend the rest of my night in my room.. thinking more yep, the only thing i do is think so that means there is something in my head right?? im not compleatly stupid lol ok night dont get bad dreams because of me

ahhh again last night was the best.. ill start with the day, i had to model at a fashon show and i knew alot of the girls bc i went to imta with them so that was cool. then me and my mom went on a shopping spree and than i went back to marcus's house marcus's brother was there playing a game while marcus and i were in his moms room, laying on her bed... hehe okk yea than after that we all went to a hockey game and just hung out.. hey Jessica- i saw Scott Maul last night oooooh hehe... just for the record my dads mean to me!! ok he dropped me off at marcus's house for like 10 mins while he went to the store so he came back and gave me something--- and it was a lollypop, WITH THE CAT IN THE HAT ON IT!! so, i screamed and threw it at marcus... so they both laughed at me isnt that nice?hehe oh well yeah i got to see marcus alot that was the best!! and i went home and cleaned my room again than i went to bed

ahhhh tonight was THE BEST night ever i said night by the way not day. my day sucked becasue i spent ALL DAY with my parents and at home, i didnt have school but i wish i did bc my day would have been 10 times better... but the night was perfect.. i was at marcus's house practically all night and it was PERFECT its really hard to describe and say what we did so ill leave it at that.. marcus i love you!! lolol than i got home and talked on the phone to kelly for the rest of the night than i went to bed... yeah... it works

i took tests.. and thats it lol i went to school and got good drades in bible (yay)

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today was good.. i went to school... lol i switched lockers with brittany haley so if you been putting notes in my locker..thats not my locker anymore it is #785 lolol um than after i went shopping with my mommy and she was SO mean to me. im not gonig to say what she said but i was like crying... and yeah well marcus helped me yesterday i forogt to mention when i was all upset he made me feel so much better. you gotta love that marcus! <3 mwaaaa!!! im polishing my nails and there going to be purple bye

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today was so good especially the last part.. i stood in the poaring rain for 45 mins and i was soaked!!! than i went to kellys and tudored her in algebra than me and my dad went out to eat at yesterdays.. ok i spilled olives and my drink in like 10 seconds omg i was so hyper!! lolol

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today is a wierd day the weather was SO hot!!... i stayed home from school b/c i was sick and fell asleep and discovered i am so scared of the cat in the hat. for real!! that things sooo scary... well at liek 4 nikki and cynthia called my house and cell at the same time so that was funny lolol umm what else happend? marcus called me :0) and kelly died her hair lolol

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i forgot all about this thing until angie said "hey lisa when are you going to update your journal" so i remembered anyway the weather today was nice it was breezy and it wasnt too hot thats a good thing it always gets hot down here. i was on the phone for like 2 hours with marcus <3 hehe tomorrows halloween and our one week ago he asked me out day!! oh isnt that fun!?!? lolol well what else im failing chemestry like the rest of the kids... umm Mrs angry matian hates me even though she said she doesnt. but when someone comes up to you and says yeah.. im going to strangle you and bite each one of your eyes and ears off thats pretty odd. ok what else happened today well i went to school dressed as a renissance princess and i hated the dress my god it was so long i like fell down the stairs i know what your saying "what else is new" everyone said it all day but i fell down the stairs in a new way!! okk anyway joy was a vampire and nikki was nothing cynthia was a babay and i have no clue what anyone else was.. my school is crazy there were kids with buckets attached to their feet ok have a nice day bye

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i ht fake nails they bite i cant type for crap i want to rip them off.. than my mom will kill me so whatever i dont care. well.. before that i went to the stadelemans home.. it was better than i tought because jordan didnt go :0) i just hung out with richard caroline and deanna i watched tv because i had bad cramps haha i ate the cookies jordans mom made haha than.. me and mother went to get our nails done it was ok there were a bunch of wierd people there i just ignored them haha i was looking through my purse discovering new things lol. umm than i went shoppin and it was raining i fell a few times but one time was realy bad... i tripped and fell over some lady and this other kid fell on me and dragged her husband down too omg i was crying it was soooooooo embarrasing!! to top it off my ex boyfriend was there with his girlfriend ahhhhhhhhhhh lol now im just reting with BRUISES EVERYWHERE ahhh im going to eat more of those cookies haha

today me and cristina went to sun splash and sara came too... we met other people there and yeah got home later on and we were soo burnt omg only my sholders and face got burnt cristinas got burnt alot but yay i finally got tan! than we went to the movies and saw 2fast2furious. everyone said i'd hate it but i LOVED it! it was sooooo good we went with kelly and isabel and met some other people we were soooo hyper than we went to bed.. me and cristina watched this friday the 13th thing with jason haha it was funny but i closed my eyes b/c i hate seeing red liquidy stuff yeah lolol