SnOwFlAkE *

:: 2005 30 March :: 3.21am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: getting away with murder- papa roach

buuuurrrrr
well heyyy

everyone just left my house = \
lindsey went to go fix things with chris, cause they got in a fight, or something stupid and he was at his house...sooo shes supposed to be coming back butttttttt its almost 330 in the morning, so who knows.. im sure they will tho, and wake my ass up lol, anywho.. we were laying on the trampoline, and it was cold !!

yeah, so i havent updated in a while, aye ?! not much been going on.

_____* and I, are apparently no longer speaking, because
---> well ask him I couldnt tell ya.

school is goign good.

ehhh, been at the hospital ---> way to often --> way to many nights.
itsa really bad, but im not going into details, because if your special you know the problems, the attack i had, and the ambulance call, and all my test, and bla bla everything else. . .
its been really scarey =\ ... i hate facing it alone

im surviving --> so far <-- thought =)

PROM !! is next saturday

WHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOP !!

im so effing ecited.. i got my dress picke dup and bla yesterday, and everyone i know came over to see me in it today ---> befor the hospital.

nothing but amazign comments =))
hehe.. =) im so excited.

apparently --> ~~no more~~ date though
!?!? don't know what went on there either.. but... !?

14 wishes | shooting star

:: 2005 28 March :: 1.38pm
:: Mood: bouncy

You scored as The Beast. Your alter ego is The Beast! But that is only a name... you are kind hearted and sweet, people just misunderstand you.

The Beast
75%
Peter Pan
69%
Goofy
63%
Ariel
56%
Cinderella
56%
Pinocchio
56%
Donald Duck
50%
Cruella De Ville
50%
Snow White
31%
Sleeping Beauty
31%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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:: 2005 26 March :: 5.03pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: save a horse ride a cowboy x big and rich

life in general

i am begining to fall into a state of depression again.. usually for people they begin to sink into depression in the winter months.. but not that the spring is coming.. i feel that all the bad can melt away for ~~everyone~~ except myself nothing .. like i go out with my friends and thats all fun and a good time.. but thats not leeding me to love and i think that now more than ever thats what i need right now.. i mean just watching how everyone else can so easily find it.. and me.. the more i tRy.. the more i feel muself getting PuShEd away from it, and i dont know why this is happening.. and i dont want it to happen.. but i just feel like it.. i wish just somebody would LOVE me .. and im rambeling on and on about this but i cant help it.. i dont like what this is doing to me.. i started this entry talking about winter and the forming of spring.. and it somehow turned out like this..

colors swirl in this world of black and white.. vibrant ~~blues~~ and ~~oranges~~ in the world thats all black and white..

comment if you care

:: 2005 23 March :: 6.30pm

Im getting my liscence in ONE month! april 21st.. knock on wood

amanda's leaving for LAS VEGAS for her singing competition in 2 days!! woot woot

ya.. comment

1 wish | shooting star

:: 2005 23 March :: 9.49am
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: wedont giva fuck

grow the fuck up
you think you know, so god damn much.

you dont kno anything.

stop judgin what isnt yours to judge. you dont know him
you barley know me

all your dowing is pulling me down, why dont you take the time and understand why things are they way they are.

im so over this bullshit EVERYTIME with somone.

and im not your person fuckign taxi
dont you EVER fuckign call me for anythign again.
you wont fuckign be helped.

7 wishes | shooting star

:: 2005 23 March :: 9.46am
:: Mood: angry

72 missed calls
I THINK YOU NEED A FUCKING HOBBY !!

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope

4 wishes | shooting star

:: 2005 22 March :: 12.20am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: so cold

blahhhh
had a shittie day
night
time at work
got a flat
argued with him
relaized how distant we have become and how okay thats been...---> for you

had a better night
whent out.
cheesecake factory [[ yummm ]]
laughs, giggles
kristens new car---> whoop
chris & lindsey o4.21.o5

yah, night world..
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7 wishes | shooting star

:: 2005 20 March :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: laughing

talking to people
my conversation with Tracii! lol

x 6 TRACii 9 x: o0o idk
xNikkiE 435x: o0o..? couldnt oyu just say ooo or ohh
xNikkiE 435x: lmao
x 6 TRACii 9 x: no becuase im cool
xNikkiE 435x: hehe
xNikkiE 435x: NO
x 6 TRACii 9 x: haha
x 6 TRACii 9 x: SLUT
xNikkiE 435x: hhahaha SKANK ASS BITCHHHHHH
x 6 TRACii 9 x: ok are you talking?
xNikkiE 435x: ok i think i am!
xNikkiE 435x: APARENTLY i am
x 6 TRACii 9 x: who are you?
x 6 TRACii 9 x: do i know you?
x 6 TRACii 9 x: have we met?
x 6 TRACii 9 x: stop talking to me
xNikkiE 435x: my name is Nicole julie Anne Allen Cole Hand willens
xNikkiE 435x: NAACHW for short
x 6 TRACii 9 x: or as i like to call u FAGGOT for short
xNikkiE 435x: CUNT
x 6 TRACii 9 x: bitch
xNikkiE 435x: i love you
x 6 TRACii 9 x: i love you too
xNikkiE 435x: aww thanks skank

and my conversation with Dave!!!

snowboarder08642: :-\
snowboarder08642: i alomsyt got caught today
xNikkiE 435x: doing??
snowboarder08642: my dad dropped me off at his house right
snowboarder08642: and i was gunna smoke
xNikkiE 435x: ahhh.. sooo what happpend
snowboarder08642: so i got my dads smoking thing from like the 70's
xNikkiE 435x: hahhahaha
xNikkiE 435x: andddd...
snowboarder08642: and i got my trees and i was bout to smoke but i dudnt have a lighter
snowboarder08642: then i was like hmm i need to take a shit
xNikkiE 435x: .. soooo..
xNikkiE 435x: hahaha
xNikkiE 435x: thats lovely
snowboarder08642: so i brought the dougout and the baggie and the lighter into the bathroom
snowboarder08642: then my dad walks in the door
xNikkiE 435x: when your taking a shit?
snowboarder08642: yeah but he comes into the house
snowboarder08642: he was suposed to be gone for like 4 hours
xNikkiE 435x: omg!
xNikkiE 435x: so what did you do?
snowboarder08642: so if i hadent been in the bathroom with all the shit he woulda caught me
xNikkiE 435x: hahahaha
snowboarder08642: i through the stuff under thie sink and went back later and got it
xNikkiE 435x: haha thats a GREAT story
snowboarder08642: when i was in thhe bathroom and he wasnt home i was cleaning out the pipe-like thing and there was weed on the floor
snowboarder08642: and i almost lefct without cleaning it up
xNikkiE 435x: jezzzzz.. what were you thinking?
snowboarder08642: i dunnio
snowboarder08642: lol
snowboarder08642: last night
snowboarder08642: i was so high it wasnt even funny
snowboarder08642: i was smoking for like an hour straight
xNikkiE 435x: who were you smoking with?
snowboarder08642: couple of friends and joe alborgini
snowboarder08642: if you know him
xNikkiE 435x: im not sure..

lol

-Nik

shooting star

:: 2005 20 March :: 2.55pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: more than anythign in the world

its fucking sping break..

=)

whooooop

:: 2005 19 March :: 8.16pm
:: Mood: blank

with my lover T-Dawgg

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Nikkie
Birthday:	october 20th
Birthplace:	Natick
Current Location:	Natick
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	hmm.. reddinsh?
Height:	5'6"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Leftie baby
Your Heritage:	alot of things.. im a mut
The Shoes You Wore Today:	sneakers
Your Weakness:	love
Your Fears:	being alone ..
Your Perfect Pizza:	chesse and peppers
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	varsity.. but it wont happen :(
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol !!!!
Thoughts First Waking Up:	"whats the drama gunna be today"
Your Best Physical Feature:	nothing
Your Bedtime:	11
Your Most Missed Memory:	summer with tracii babii
Pepsi or Coke:	coke w/ lime
MacDonalds or Burger King:	neither
Single or Group Dates:	group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee coolata
Do you Smoke:	uhhhmm..
Do you Swear:	fuck yes
Do you Sing:	not well
Do you Shower Daily:	every night
Have you Been in Love:	no.. i feel like i never will be
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	i wish to get married
Do you belive in yourself:	.........?
Do you get Motion Sickness:	on busses but not in the water
Do you think you are Attractive:	no..
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	i get scared and hide under my blanket
Do you play an Instrument:	NO
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	umm.. i dont think so
In the past month have you Smoked:	yea..
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	.. only like perscribed shit lol..
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	uhmm yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes like every weekend.. TANCCK.. hell yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no... but now im in the mood
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	ewwe no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	too cold dude
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	a piece of friut from roche brothers
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	who hasnt?
Ever been Beaten up:	no.. i do that job
Ever Shoplifted:	yes.. :\
How do you want to Die:	quickly.. without pain
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	doctor
What country would you most like to Visit:	somewhere tropical
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	brown..
Favourite Hair Color:	i dont care
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	tall
Weight:	buit but not fat
Best Clothing Style:	who cares
Number of Drugs I have taken:	..? im not sure
Number of CDs I own:	like 45
Number of Piercings:	5
Number of Tattoos:	none.. but im getting one soon
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	mostly 1.. but i fixed it.. T-Dawg i <3 you
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

shooting star

:: 2005 19 March :: 1.40pm
:: Mood: bitchy

not all s c a r s show
not all wounds heal `
you cant always see
the pain someone
---> .f e e L s. <---

:: 2005 18 March :: 10.56pm
:: Mood: crazy

HELL YEAH !! heather quit sals..

biiiaaattcchhh mwaha, damn straight

:: 2005 18 March :: 12.55pm
:: Mood: sad

thinking about love..
i was thinking about ~~love~~, and no matter what i do, i can never seem to find it.. and im beginig to think i never will..

"Without love there are no ~~dreams.~~"

"You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it."

"Every time you smile at someone, it is an ~~action~~ of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing."

"Soft words hold more power than strong hands."

comment if you feel the same way that i do..

-Nik

4 wishes | shooting star