SnOwFlAkE *

:: 2004 21 October :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: touched

brooks n dunn!

tomorrow

wHoOp!

xO*
ash!

4 wishes | shooting star

:: 2004 21 October :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: over and over

people!!!
ok well today i was in a pretty good mood until becca started bitching at me.. like i really need that shit right now honestly.. like i wasnt even mad becasue im just trying to let everything go.. i got put on Zoloft today so hopefully it will help me :/

ya so i wasnt mad until she blamed me for "leaving her in the middle of the street where anything could happen" well i talked to amanda, Dj, and bil;l and they all sed that i was the ONLY person trying to keep becca in the car.. so that just upsets me to think htat if anything did happen if she would like blame it on me ya know? ya but it just made me sad becasue i thought she forgot about my birthday.. like i think about how close we used to be and my 8th grade yead that was honestly the best year of my life.. and i see how much i miss her.. and i guess i try to push hewr away becasue being mad feels better than missing her without seeing her.. i dont really know what im saying.. im probobly the only one this makes sense to but whatever.. i just hope she is still going to my party :(

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I can't wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it's a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she's leaving
Ooh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do
(I Can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again yeah
And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it
Nooo

I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keep playing in my head
Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she's leaving
Ooh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do
(I Can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo

(Now that I've realizes that I'm going down
From all this pain you've put me through
Everytime I close my eyes I like it down
I can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo

Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it's all in my head

:: 2004 21 October :: 6.41am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: some weird bomb nose my comp is doing..

Birthday!!
ya so my birthday sucked..

the people i thought were my "Best friends" i.e. BEAN.. half of them didnt even wish me a happy birthday.. like honestly what kind of friends are those.. its just like the other day i was getting bitched at for not wanting to go our to dinner.. so we were on our way and then one of them flipped out and got out to do "more important things" well i dunno what ot do about this but i happens wayyyy to much.. i cant entirely blame BEAn becasue Amanda White is amazing.. i love her sooooooo much.. she made me brownies and then i was sad last night so i went over there with dj and bill and we watched the game.. and we WON!!!! hell ya..

ohhh ya and they did end up saying happy birthday.. but only when my birthday was already over.. seriously now i know who im gunna be wishing happy birthdays to this year..

anyways.. back to the SOX!!

i was really excited that we won on my birthday but someone pointed out that we won at exactly 12:01.. ohhh well!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG GENE WHITE!!!!!

ya so basically my birthday sucked.. i hope big Genes is better..

well i did get my permit.. that made it a little better :/

-Nik

1 wish | shooting star

:: 2004 20 October :: 9.57pm
:: Mood: crappy

please oh please
okay okay.. i need your help!

i really need this grade.

so whatcha gotta do for me is answer the following questions.

leave a comment with::

your name

and if you::

strongly disagree - disagree - strongly agree - or agree

i need ten of you..

thanks a million x 10!

1 . Do you believe all citizens should have a freedom of speech?

2. Do you feel there should be an age restriction on owningm buying and carrying a weapon?

3. Do you think that soilder should have the right to stay with someone without their say so or prior knowledge?

4. Do you feel that there should be a law that rpohibits searches and seizires without a warrant?

5. Should all citizens have a fair trail in a court befor being prossequted?

6. Do you believe that befor being acused of anything you should have the right to a lawyer?

7. Do you feel only larger court cases should be asured a jury?

8. Do you think that there should be unusal punishment, excessive fees and unwriten laws to be punished by?

9. You dont have knowledge of a certain law, do you believe you should be deprived of it then?

10. Do you feel that all states should all have the same federal laws and citizen rights?

i know most all of them arnt things you give a crap-ola about but i really need the grade... so thank you

<3
xO ashh

12 wishes | shooting star

:: 2004 19 October :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: calm

listening to orders...

school:: had a great day actually

work :: was pretty good, rather busy

and afterwards danny came over and that just made my night! <3

sO im off to bed now. or something im sure sweetdreams

xo-ash

12 wishes | shooting star

:: 2004 19 October :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: none..

im in english
ok so im in english right now.. my birthday is tomorrow!! yay!!!

anyways.. i had a really bad day at practice yesterday.. like i was honestly seriously thinking about quiting.. obv. im not gunna quit but i dunno about basketball season.

ok so we were doing our lib and i thought it was going well.. then stacy told me to bring it above my head, so i tried but either virginia or cait was pulling it out.. then she kept yelling at me but i was trying really hard..

then she told cait she should main base becasue she was doing all the work even though that is bullshit!!! whatever i just cant stand the way varsity is always mean to jv and they say comments that arent needed.. like i like stacy becasue shes usually always nice to me and all that shit.. and i know she wasnt trying to be mean.. but it just really upset me..

im already so sick of how this team doesnt care and everybody goes to practice when they want to.. and that like 5 people have quit.. w arent even going to comp.. and we are only having like 3 games so theres really no point of even having a jv.. i guess im just not good enough for cheerleading and thats why im on the suckey team..

if i do try out for basketball season and i dont make varsity im done with cheerleading forever.. its a waste of time and money..

ok those are my feelings for now..

-Nik

1 wish | shooting star

:: 2004 18 October :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable

im sorray
i don't really know why but i truley hate being here.

and i then i either get the guilt trip
or the raging bitch

either or puts me in bad mood .

it does not seem fair

ohhhhkaaaayyy dokkkieee i filled one out again

[[`bout u `']]

� name: ashley
� hometown: boynton
� highschool: lake worth-now santaluces
� current school: santaluces
� age: 16
� family: mom and dad

[[dO yOu like `']]

� your family: cant say i do
�your school: yeapp
�your job: its not bad
� your city: yess
� church: dont go..
�smokers: NO !! im in love with you tho danny!<33
� drinkers:noooopee
�partiers: i guess depends on what kind and whos there

[[favOriite `']]

� Color: blue
�Movie: 10 tings,a walk to rmembber, nemo, errmm a few
� Time of the day: night
� Website: journals
� Company: urm?
� Store: pac sun..sears
� Food: chicken fingers
� Place: with danny, beach a night
� Smell: tommy ;o)
� Sound: his voice.
� Animal:tiger
� Boy name: urmmm
� Girl name: ???
� Subject: history
� Word: ehh nd urm
�Phrase/quote: `follow yours dreams and dont let anyone get in the way.`
� Number:7
� Childhood memory: having no worries
� Boardgame: monopoly nd life
� Band: aye ?! uMm ..
� Outfit: no ideaa

[[either // or]]

� Hiphop/rap: rap
� Indie/emo: emo
� Adam sandler/jim carrie: jim carrey
� Soda/water: water
� Black/hot pink: black
� Halloween/easter: halloween
� Dark/light: dark ;)
� Night/day: night
� Anorexic/chubby: in dEe middlE
� Pop/punk: punk
� Pop/hip hop: hip hop
�cuddling/making out: cuddling.
� syke/riiight: riiiqht
� bed/floor: bed
� too much/too little: too much
� sex/druggie: neither :-D
� drink/smoke: neither!--> danny stop!!
� party/kickback: kickback

[[currently `']]

�Outfit: pj pantz `nd a sweater
�Eating: nothing
� Position: haha umm ?..
�Music: on the phone
� Favorite person: i love you baby <3
�How many im's going: 4
� Who's with you: my cat?
� Are you in love: very much soo
� Are you in like: wtf??
�Are you single: deff not!
� Mood: sleepy ..
�Caught up or way behind: caught up
�Horny: cant say i am :-D
� Miss anybody: dannny =\ he needs to come home
�want something you dont have: danny beside me! =)

3 wishes | shooting star

:: 2004 18 October :: 6.20am
:: Music: tobey keith x stays in mexico

yesterday!
hahah yesterday i chilled with julie and virginia and then we met up with jimmy (pickeles) ya so anyways im so proud of virginia shes fucking hilarious.. hahahahahahahahahaha i cant even write it in here its to fucking funny! hahahahahha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya anyways thats all.. nothing else special happened..

ohhh but our fucking burner wont work and i pissed.. i fucking hate this computer!

-Nik

:: 2004 16 October :: 11.20pm
:: Mood: drained

hellloooooOOOOO

whent to the mall today got three sweaters! :o)

whent to dannys <33..
we painted and he painted me!! he put it all over my knees on..purpose i put a little on his arm...;]
watched a movie.. it was a good movie.. but i wass tireddd

had a good night...;] love being with him hes amazing

10 wishes | shooting star

:: 2004 16 October :: 11.17am

ok ya so my c team girls had comp this morning.. i had to wake up at 4 30 and i went to bed at fucking 2 ! ahhh.. anyways.. they did so good and i was so proud!! 3rd place babyyy! ya but instead of doing 4 places like always they only dis first and second so we didnt get a trophy :( thats sucks but ohh well..

-Nik

:: 2004 16 October :: 12.52am
:: Mood: crappy

yeahh yeapp
saw sharktale--> gay !
very dissapointing. it was no nemo!
thanks for going dann

i love you <33

5 wishes | shooting star

:: 2004 14 October :: 10.20pm

ya so i changed my journal again! lol i have no life..

yea so my birthday is in 6 days.. im excited! but i dont think i get to go get my permit becasue my dads gay.. he sed i have to wait a month becasue i got sdetention.. well fuck that shit!

ya so we had little child practice..

bill and dj want us to go to some hell's gates tomorrow.. but im madd scared of the dark.. its probobly gunna be me, manda, britt, keri, bill, nick, and dj.. but i dont really wanna go cuz im terified of the fucking dark! lmao! i guess im gunna have to get over it soon! ok thats all for now cuz im getting ready for bed!

-Nik

mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 12 October :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: TV

woah
DUDE! it is october 12th 2004 and i have no idea when is the last time i updated this woohu journal seeing as i hold one on LJ now, but its crazy i found it because i thought i deleted it ... weird. anyway ill probably post this link on my other journal for curious ones. lol so if my other jorunal is where your from, then below is probably a graphic piece of my past, who i once was. please don't judge me now! <3

lauren