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2005 22 November :: 10.39am
i know it seems like i havent posted at all but i reallly havent had a whole lot to say, Just keeping busy with school and work, and now that the hoildays are approaching fast trying to figure out where were going and what not. Right now i almost just want to get away for a couple of days go up and see my sister and grandma and everyone up in Muskegon. But for what i know is that were going to josh's mom which i am very unsure of right now....
Lets just say he isnt very happy with me right now, but he's just i guess under the mind set that the only reason im goin to katelyn's bday party is for me to see and hang out with kurtis. he asked me last night when i was going to get over kurt, but i asked him what does that have to do with him calling me. just because he calls me doesnt mean i havent gotten over him. THe only reason according to josh is that i got invited by katelyn to go to the party is because kurt told her to invite me. Thanks josh for making me feel not important to katelyn. So he is very upset because i told him i was going. He even tried telling me that i had to take his truck because my car was goin to be in the shop, and i asked him when he was going to inform me on that one, and he was likie well i wasnt. its goin in to get a car starter put on, so of course i asked him where that money was coming from. becuase i know for a fact i am not buying all of his presents for him family for christmas that is his obligation not mine. i have my own to worry about. I guess im just tired of supporting him, sorry for alll the bitchin i just really have to get it out..
I havent talk to Brandin at alllll... so i misss him again more then ever, i told courtney that maybe i will call him and go visit him to get away from this place for a little bit. because if i dont get away for even a night or a weekend . Something goin to happen and i can fully see it not being a good thing.
Nick isnt coming home for thanksgiving sooooooo SaD im goin to miss him, hes been home for everything important my bday and all the small hoildays its goin to be weird not to have him here.. i love ya
Kane is coming home so that is a wonderful thing. i havent seen her in what feels like forever. see what kind of trouble we can come up with.... US NEVER!!!!! go shoppin or out to eat or even both.
But class is almost over and i have to go find out how i did on my business law test hopefully very w ellllll!!!!!! Wish me LUCK
Happy Thanksgiving to EVERYONE
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2005 17 November :: 12.38pm
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IM GEED UP FROM THE FEET UP, SON.
so. whats been going on hoes? i got my hair cut... again! Briana did it. its the sweetest. i need to hurry because i have 5 minutes left in here.. yeah sucks. so anyway, i like this new kid Stephen. he knows now because his cousin samantha told him.. but whatever. i like him alot. he has so many things ive been looking for in a guy. :) except for one thing.......... a girl friend. i dont know if he likes me.. next time i update ill put pictures of when he came over. well i think im gunna go...
i only have a few minutes.
PEACE OUT NIGGAS.
♥
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2005 8 November :: 9.46am
well i finially have gotten to talk to brandin, he is alive and what not, but of course he came up here about 3 weeks ago for his cousin wedding and didnt even call, damn him. but i had to forgive him because he was with his girlfriend so he was kinda liable in a way but he could of at least called. But hes coming home again but not until feb. thats a long time away though, soo we just have to wait. He said he Promises that he will come see me and we will go out and do something even if he brings his girlfriend with him. he is going to leave her at home... lol sillly him. i miss him though..
Nick is coming home this weekend so im excited i hate him being in chicago, but he's comin home on friday and i guess on saturday he is goin to canada but i hope he has ALOT Of FUN. he asked for me to go with but i have to work soo BOOOOO work..
Kane tell ur sister congratulations on the engagement and what not, her picture looked very well in the paper the other day but what is going on with her and him at the Gull LAKE COUNTRY CLUB??? it seemed kinda odd.. oh wait he is kinda odd ... lol well i hope things are getting less stressful each and every day. i miss you and love ya ..
well i gotta get working on something in class , since im sitting in english class doing my journal and not my paper.. oppps. oh well damn that 10 to 12 page paper.
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2005 2 November :: 12.29pm
so i managed to live through my 21st birthday this weekend, and of course i do not remember much of it. but then again if i did i probably wouldnt of had any fun. so i did very well. Friday my parents josh and my brother took me out to eat and everything and then we went to Friends to have a drink. Nick called while we were there it was soo good to hear from him and wished me a happy birthday and that he was sorry he wasnt there with us. and then from there we went to weezers where one drink after another shot took place i dont think i have done that many shots in such a long time and then christie took us home which i do not remember at allllllll but we love her, i was very surprised though on saturday that i wasnt hung over or anything i felt almost perfect so i really couldnt ask for anything more,
Josh took me to a mudd run that morning which was alright other than the fact it was in GR but oh well then we came back and had dinner with court and matt. and started drinking all over again. so yes i celebrated my birthday very well.
but i have some accounting that i have to do soo im out for now...
kane whats this about u moving to hawaii???
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2005 19 October :: 1.31pm
so i received this phone call yesterday from kurtis , he wanted to inform me that he got a full time job at one of the factories in town. he seemed very excited and everything so i was happy for him. we talked about a whole 6 minutes i think it was, nothing to thrililng he was just alll excited and telling me about all the health benefits that he is going to receive. but how is someone supposed to respond to that when you havent talked to him in like twoo months, i was just kinda like ummm thats cool, i mean i know he wanted me to be all excited for him... i guess its a big step into moving on and trying to grow up. '
so now josh is back to worring about me going and hangin out with kurt, he believes thats all i do, when its not so again i lost the trust issue and its really starting to bug me. i cant help who calls me. so i guess its going to be a interesting couple of days a nyways. because he doesnt trust me anyways because of a phone call i couldnt help from happening. sometimes i wonder if its really worth all of this??? '
Nick is coming home this weekend i am sooo excited i have missed him sooo much. he has to come and get his new car that his mom and dad got hi m, but im just cant wait till saturday well sunday because i dont have to work..
well back to doin nothing today.. talk to everyone soon.
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2005 13 October :: 10.27am
so another week has passed basicaly and i still have managed to get the internet at my house, but then again i dont want to spend the 60 dollars a month so i have just been using the computers at school to get on line, yes im sitting in class right now supposly working on my english paper, oh well,
well my puppy is doing very well i think she is almost house brokin i really really hope so anyways. i started to paint my computer room yesterday its going to be orange and yellow, you know my favorite colors anyways. but other than that things are going well and everything. Josh and i went and saw maddie yesterday she is getting so big though, she's soo much fun though, i believe on saturday were all going to the apple orchard so that shall be fun .
my birthady is coming up like in 15 days very exciting anyways. and i beleive nick is trying to cme home that weekend soo i am v ery exciting i miss him soo much soooo much. i havent talked to bdin either lately kinda wondering if everything is alright with him.. i missss him too he should be coming home sooon.. and kane how can ya not miss her... she just KANE!!! loves too alll three of u and hopefully u all come home sooooon .. :)
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2005 6 October :: 1.03pm
so i know its been awhile and last time it was a very short entry, i guess that is what happens when you dont have the internet and you try to get online while you are in class oh well i paid my dues for school.. well we are all settled in are house have been there about 2 weeks and it is home for me. it has taken some time to get used to but its working, im feeling more and more safe every night even when josh and emily are gone. so its been fun anyways.
josh got me a puppy the same week we moved in. she has been very good though, only gone to the bathroom a couple of times in the house, but she is getting better, its soo hard to be mad at her thought. shes getting bigger though every day. im going to miss her being a puppy and being able to pick her up so easiely.
well other than that things have been going well with school and everything i wish i could say the same for work, but i have been stabbed in the back this week so i am really not looking forward to goin to work tonight or this weekend, but courtney and i decided to give it a try i n the new way but in about 2 weeks were goin to have problems and hopefully things go back to how they were or joyce is going to be losing some of her best staff... does she want that??? well i guess we will find out.
been talkin to lauren alot lately :) i miss her but shes coming home soo im soo excited i havent seen here in forever it seems like, so of course were goin to ha ve to do something rather FUN.. alright well i gotta get ready to go to work. so i will talk to everyone later..
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2005 4 October :: 9.41am
so we finially moved in to are house last week it was pretty much a easy thing, we still have alot of things that need to be put away, but oh well, josh got me a puppy last week so i am having fun playing with her. but now class is starting so i have to leave this wondeful internet that i dont have at home...
Kane have a wonderful week at school, love ya and miss you ...
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2005 13 September :: 8.48pm
SIlver lake was fun at least the amount of time that we spent up there. we actually stayed in the dunes until dark and basicially just watched everyone drive out. it was really nice just be out in the sand in the middle of no where anyways. Ate drank and was out in the sun alot.
since all of my family thoough was in muskegon we mangaged to come back on saturday to spend time with them. it was soo good to see all the little one especially nick because i havent seen him he is one big 9 month old but he was cute...
nicholas was home this weekend but i wasnt able to see him. i was able to talk to him so i guess that will work for now, i miss him sooo much though. but i am PROUD of everything that he is doing i love you and miss you .... keep up the good work and stayin out of trouble...
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2005 8 September :: 11.31am
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you my dear are the one I fear tonight.
Jeez I haven't updated this piece of poop in a long time. Well; I'm in my aiding class and we're in the library today. SWEEEEET. Heck yess. Well; alot has happened since I last updated. It's been what? 3 months. Like whoa. WTFFFF. As you see in my picture up there I cut my hair; myself. Yes; I'm talented. No need to tell me. Thanks. Lol. Well lets see what guys I've been involved with since the last time I updated; Phil; Tim; Hunter; Josh; Kiel; Jake; Anthony; Levi; Scott and Tom. But; I'm still with Tom. So; yeah. Wow. Looking at all those guys; it's kind of embarassing. Jesus. Anyway; so I have some new bands I like. Well not new now. But yeah. Underoath; From Autumn To Ashes; From First To Last; Portland View; Startled By Monsters; Hands To The Forsaken; The Sleeping; In Real Time; A Horror Story; Split Mirror Image; and WHITE PICKET FENCE (mine). So; I'm learning guitar. People say I've changed; when really.. they have. So many people hate me; most Sophomores talk shit about me. Actually; most of everyone in this school. Which sucks. But; It doesn't really bother me because I have friends and I know who they are. People just hate me because I'm not like them. Which totally pisses me off. I'm not a prep; let's hate me. Well I'd be glad to let you know that I have my hardcore friends behind me with their heart; and aren't willing to give me up for the world. It's a good feeling knowing you have friends like that. Amandas moving. I really have no idea what I'm gunna do without her. She's my other half. I love her so much. :) OH.I'm moving to California. How sweet. Dude; it's gunna rock so hardcore. I can't wait. Only 2 more years to go. ♥ Anyway; I went to the hospital the other night because I was Severly Dehydrated. I got an IV. And a Cat Scan. I have Chronic Sinusitus. I need surgery. Which sucks. But; oh well. Oh I got my permit about a month ago. Drove in drivers ed. With my new friend Liam. I think he's hot. But; he ahs a girlfriend and I know her; so that wouldn't be good. Oh well. And I have Tom sooo.. yeah. Lol. Well I can't think of anything else to say.
Later.♥
Well I'll leave you with some pictures.
Read more..
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2005 31 August :: 10.28pm
things around my family have been all stressful, my mothers father, therefore my grandpa passed away tuesday morning. My mom left for muskegon that afternoon, i am supposed to work tomorrow night but i asked if i could take it off because i just really want to be with my family especially my mom, i miss her soo much i just hope that she is doing alright. i think that is the hardest part of this, is that she is taking care and helping planning and none of her family such that my dad, me, chris and jo are with her. i just want to be with her at this time. Josh and I are leaving tomorrow right when i get out of school to go up, were goin to stay with my sister for the night, so i get to see my ella bear, she is getting sooo big .....
so silver lake is this weekend we were supposed to leave with everyone at like 7am but we will already have a head start, i am unsure about what time were goin to get up to silver lake if its goin to be friday or early saturday i dont think we have decided yet..
well i hope everyone is enjoying college and teh dorm life if ur in a dorm, kane and kail, i miss you guys tons, but u two have better things now than to worry about us down here in great BC... so i hope ur havin fun and staying out of trouble myuch love
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2005 19 August :: 1.19pm
a response was basically all i was looking for.
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2005 16 August :: 11.14pm
Be careful who you do cuz karma comes back around!
i have fully understood what that means...... and for my luck it was to late.
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2005 16 August :: 1.39pm
so i have fucked up in the last three weeks, i hate the way we dont talk, the fact we dont hang out, and really the fact that i was so stupid to lose my bestfriend, the one who has stood by me for the last 5 years.
im sorry that i took advantage over you, i really didnt think that is what i was doing, but yes looking back at the times i understand what your saying. i was frustrated and overwelmed and do say some things that i dont think about before i say them, i just felt that you really didnt care about me or wanted to go to silver lake or anything it just kinda seemed like it wasnt good enough for you, i was throwing a fit about something that was stupid,i should of just kept my mouth shut and just hoped that nothing would of came up on labor day so u would still want to go, but from my dumb ass i have ruined everything about you going not just to silver lake but everything that you and i have had over the last five years. and it truely sucks . i know you cant go back in time and all u have to work with is the future but that is up to u if u want to spend the time to try to start over, i know it wont be the same and it might not ever be the same but its just the fact of having each other around. Im SORRY AND I MISS YOU TONS
so over all things have just been going one day at a time nothing really to exciting, just have been thinkin alot about how careless i am when it comes to people i really care lot about, and would do anything for them. sometimes it might not show, but really its just a call kane and nick i miss you guys soo much ........
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2005 9 August :: 1.28pm
so in the last coupld of days i have expressed myself to w hat i have been thinking or at least feeling. it hasnt been the easiest of things to do but every day they slowly come out. i dont know if that is a good thing or if really its just making everything worse. so it makes me wonder even more. especially since it seems like i have been fighting with my bestfriend about really nothing other than the fact of two different pages...
i shoulds be happy with life, the fact that josh and i just got a house that sits on 3 acres, but it almost like i have no one to share that feeling with,
I called nicholas yesterday to talk to, he is doing alright out in chicago, i miss him sooo much though, he says hes goin to come home sometimes soon though well once we get all moved in and everything so he can come and see it, so im reallly excited about that. but i will just wait for that .
well i gotta get going have to llook some things about about school, so take care everyone,
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