Kimmay2007
|
::
2005 3 May :: 1.33am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Sarah McLachlan - I Will Remember You
Sad!!!!
friday after i updated i went to church cause i had to be around someone i couldnt stand staying at the home no more cause all i was doing was crying....... so i went down to the church and hung out with patty and tater tot..... and tater tot made me braclet (spelled wrong) thing that says in memory of Robert J. 4/27/05 but i think im gonna go have actual braclets made that say........... in loving memory of Robert A. Jeffers 4/27/05.......... if anyone wants one you have to tell me so i can know how many to order...... after i find out how much they will be i will put that on here too.................. anyhoo..... me and Patty left the church at like 9 something and came to my home cause i needed cheering up.... he actually made me a little happy till he left..........then after he left i looked at the paper... it made me soo mad........... later i tryed going to sleep in my room but with it dark it made me soo scared..... i have never been scared of the dark but like now my heart starts racing and i feel like someone is there.... please tell me there is others thats feeling that way? and im having the worse dreams of my life it makes me not want to sleep at all...................today nothing really happend i cryed alot and mom yelled at me for not feeding the dogs and then Grace went off on her.... she took up for me i was soo proud ...... then Grace came in my room and i made her cry cause i was talking about the good times with Robert and everything...... i broke down i couldnt take it anymore it was soo bad..... then mom came in my room adn told me she was sorry and told me she knew what i was going thru...... even tho she has no clue no one does Cept the 10th graders finally i left with Grace and went to point thinking i could get all this off my mind... it didnt work i went to Walmart and started crying while talking to Reane cause she asked me how school was................ i really cant take this anymore............... welps thats all i can say.... Much love and God Bless!!
Eric- thanks soooooo much for always being there for me you always seem to help you dont even know how much it means to me for you to be there.......love ya lots!
has anyone even noticed in life when you are extreemly sad it rains?...... or at least in my life it does... anytime i am like really really depressed it rains
Kimmy!!
Friday, April 29, 2005
monday nothing besides taking Grace to the ER in the middle of the night.... tuesday slept cause i didnt get home from the ER till like noon or so... Wendsday Went to Marshall and toured it .. it was dumb but at least we all had fun..... then i had band and then went to Church with Tater tot... then stayed the night at her home....... Thursday i had to get up way to early cause she has to get on the buss at 6:30. and things was boring as usual at Hannan then at lunch there was the biggest Shock of my life...... i didnt believe it till about 3rd sometime.... i was told Robert Jeffers Died.. i really didnt want to believe it at all i wanted to think it was just people saying Horable things..... but then i realized it was true........ im not going in to details of what happend but i will say him and lucy are both gone............ in 3rd and 4th all i could do was cry... cause our graduating class is soo close i mean we will not even date anyone in our class cause we are like brothers and sisters....... we would do anything for any of us....... and Robert was one of the nicest i knew..... he was always there for you no matter what.......... me and robert didnt talk alot this year but we always have b4........... its not only we lost a friend yesterday but we also lost a brother... one of the best there was too.............. it was just soo unreal the way things happened..... big will showed up and told some people and then it was just awful after that.......... ....... i seen the CSI crew go down the road during 4th and i lost it i couldnt take it anymore..... last night all i did was Cry and Cry i couldnt help it.... i didnt want to talk to anyone i just couldnt do it..... i would much rather be with friends but i couldnt go.............. last night i had the worst dream of my life..... i dreamed i was there it was soo scary i woke up screaming at like 3:30 this morning.... today at school was just as bad..... i couldnt take it i was fine till Mr hughes talked to us.. hes not good at talking about it at all...... there was alot of conclers there too.......... well i cant talk no more im going to church ill update later maybe..... Much love and God Bless!!!!!
Kimberly Dawn
R.I.P Robert & Lucy Jeffers!!!!!!!!!
4 comment |
leave one
|
Kimmay2007
|
::
2005 3 May :: 1.31am
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. color of eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our ...friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
What Would You Do If:
I cried?
I said I liked you?
I kissed you?
I stole something?
I was hospitalized?
I ran away from home?
I got in a fight and you
were there?
What Do You Think of My:
Personality?
Eyes?
Face?
Hair?
Voice?
Humor?
Choice of Music?
Mannerisms?
Family?
Would You:
Tell me the truth, no matter what?
Lie to me to make me feel better?
Spread rumors about me?
Keep a secret that i told you?
Tell me if someone was talking bad about me?
Loan me some cash?
Hold my hand?
Take a bullet for me?
Keep in touch?
Try and solve my problems?
Love me?
leave one
|
pinkicing11
|
::
2005 2 May :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: [Diamond Rio ... One Believer]
In Loving Memory - Robert Allen Jeffers
So....today was the viewing and funeral. It was pretty harsh. I cried much worse than I thought I would. There were sooo may people there and everyone was just soo emotionally torn. It was terrible to see everyone like that. It went the same way most do, he didn't look anything like himself. They didn't even put his glasses on him. Ugh...I just keep thinking of the way he looked walking down the hallways and the smile on his face when he would laugh. I had Art and Health with him last year and when I think hard about things I can hear his voice and his laugh. That cheers me up a little. When we were drawing the big house in Art, he always got mad cause I begged him to help me cause him and Lance were just about the only ones who could do it half way right...lol. Alotta people cheered me up today, so i'm really thankful to have friends and family who are there for me through the good and bad times. I have had a headache all evening, I suppose from thinking about all this so much. I guess you never know how much you will miss someone until they're gone. We were gonna go to the cemetery after the funeral but we got mixed up in traffic and couldn't find it.
A little advice for everyone - Love with all your heart, don't hold grudges, and live life for all it's worth because it can be gone in the blink of an eye.......He was only sixteen.....
There are some roads you must walk yourself,
Just you and your own Faith: nothing else.
And on those dark days you're bound to go through,
Here's something to hold on to.
You got one believer,
One whose Faith goes deeper.
When someone loves you as much as me,
One believer is all you need.
This world's gonna try to bring you down,
But don't you let it: you just stand your ground.
Whatever happens, never forget:
Wherever you are, as long as I live.
You got one believer,
One whose Faith goes deeper.
When someone loves you as much as me,
One believer is all you need.
When someone loves you as much as me,
One believer is all you need.
One
Believer,
One whose Faith goes deeper.
When someone loves you as much as me,
One believer is all you need.
Oh One
Believer.
6 comment |
leave one
|
sweetiepie2006
|
::
2005 30 April :: 5.40pm
WHOA!! haha...hi...me and Shama are in the grand ol' Embassy Suites Hotel ma-jigger place...I feel rich when i come here...lol...I've had such bad luck lately...i can't begin to explain half of it...last night, we were eating ordervs downstairs and after we were done we went back up to the room....i noticed i couldn't find my cell phone....i was pretty depressed...me and shama like hurried back downstairs to where we were sitting and my cell wasnt there...and then this girl that was exactly like yulia...or however its spelled...lol...came up to me and gave it back...i was happy then...haha...and then a lil after that...there was a major embarrassing elevator experience for me and shama...let's just say it involved hot guys and gas...LOL....whoa...if u wanna know...ask...and yeah later that night, we ordered pizza..and it has this garlic sauce stuff to dip it in...well i was walkin to the couch with it...i just changed into my pjs...i thought about bringin two pairs of pj pants...but i was like ohh no..ill only need one....right about as i was sittin down it poured out all over my pants AND my shirt...omg...i have never smelled something so awful in my life...lol...i have such freakin bad luck...i like gagged becuz i stunk so bad...lol...i had to sleep in jeans...it wasnt the worse thing...but it was pretty bad...also...i found out that joe isnt gonna be able to come here next weekend..pretty depressing....everythings sad...i don't know if ima go to prom now...i might see if my family can go to Columbus and stay with my aunt and go shopping in tons of malls...that sounds fun to me awww and yeah i could watch my lil cousin Zack...i wanna kid that looks just like him...hes so awesome......i dont know tho...i wonder if mrs mabry will refund my money....i mean i know i can take my dress back...i think i'd rather go shopping neways...cuz yeah...i mean theres always next yr...its the most important one...well i'ma go...hopefully me and shama will have tons of fun...lol...and yeah i wish mom would add more flippin minutes to my cell phone...i feel so sheltered....ugh!! I hate pre-paid plans....i guess my life could be worse...i could not even have one...i'm so sad...I can't believe what happened last week really happened...i just don't see how someone who acted like they cared so much for a person...could kill them...and then kill herself...thats so messed up...that makes me think about how easy ur life could end...i'm so lucky to have the friends and family that i have...I LOVE YOU GUYS!! Well, we have to go eat...bye bye!!
3 comment |
leave one
|
pinkicing11
|
::
2005 30 April :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: amused
Hey everyone...i'm sittin here in the office at Embassy Suites with Jenn. It's pretty awkward...lol. Weird people keep comin in and out usin the phones. We have been at the mall almost all afternoon...all mom would let me buy was 2 shirts. It was pretty depressing!!! Oh well...some funny things have happened since we've been here. Literally, lmbo. Yeah...my butt fell off. haha. Jenn lost her cell for a minute, she spilled garlic for pizza all over her shirt and PJ pants and had to sleep in jeans, and then the elevator incident. If you wanna kno, just ask. LoL. There have been two different proms here since we got here and it's cool to see everyone all dressed up and pretty =] I can't wait till next weekend! Hopefully it'll be fun.
This weekend I was just really happy to get away from Ashton. Something really bad happened last week (Murder/Suicide) and it really upset and caused a big uproar for our community. I feel really bad for their family. Ugh..they lived on my dads property and rented his trailer, and that's where it happened. That's really freaky...I dunno. I have done really good at trying to get it off my mind this weekend, so. Hopefully I keep at it. RIP Robert...
Also, some bad things happened at school yesterday with my friends. It's really upsetting and I wish I wasn't in the middle of it. Blah!!
Well I think i'm gonna go get some h'ordervs, or however you spell it. LoL.
<3~Shamarie
2 comment |
leave one
|
|