my weekend
edit- changed my journal a bit. check it out. hope it brings you to peace.

it flew by so fast. damn. i have to go back to hell.

friday, my family and i ate dinner at danielle's house with her family. yum yum. it was nice. i believe that was the first friday night in forever that i went to bed before 12. i was just soooooooooooooo tired. i woke up at like 9 though. so its not like i died. it was great to sleep though.

saturday, i went with my dad and mother to eat lunch and then to a flower show on flagler. it was nice, my mommy and i got all dressed up to take pictures with the flowers. i ended up sitting under the sun in a rose garden, rereading snow falling on cedars. it was beautiful. then we left and in the car my mom was like "that was nice wasnt it? for 11 bucks to see those flowers... did you like it?" and my dad goes "i liked it.... ticket to enter a flower show: $11... spending time with wife and daughter: priceless." i was like awwwwww. then we picked up my lover danielle and we had a nice double date with my parents. ate japanese. ice cream at mizner while hearing elvis costello in concert. eurotrip at the movies. sorry bout the dress danielle... i didnt remember! then went home.

today. i woke up at like 11. called nicole because it was her birthday today and she picked me up to go to the beach. her sister had a nice rental car, so we drove to lake worth beach with the top down. it was nice. but we couldnt find parking for like 45 minutes so we went home to our neighborhood pool for like 15 minutes then had to go home. mommy got me taco bell and then we went to get some art supplies. in the car, i was just playing konstantine while looking at the clouds through the sun roof. another beautiful moment. then i came home and TRIED to create a masterpiece but it didnt work. oh well. it's alright i guess. eh. i really thought i had more homework to do, but i guess i don't. that's a pleasant surprise. i should get ahead on my other homework now. ugh. stupid endless homework from zacher. it's a shame that i can't hate her for it.

a beautiful weekend. but i feel so weird about it. i think it's because we didn't go shopping at all.

i . sigh .
i updated in livejournal if you care to see it.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
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guess i'm kinda normal after all.
<3 * shrug *

nice ballad for my soothing sense of self.
couldnt love my friends more. a nice day with many smiles.

siiiiiiiigh. i feel like i need to be doing homework. hmm? i just hope epstein forgets we have to write a bill.

altan is excited for danielle and ashley to help him change his lifestyle for the better. lol. cute.

and so. since altan is comforming a bit to become the best he can for me, i shall try to lose weight.

do not worry.

this song has helped me feel a lot better.

i've always been in love with you
i guess you've always known it's true

pointless thoughts.
today, my experiences led me to a lot of "there's nothing worse than"'s. so here's my list.

there's nothing worse than:
. not having enough sleep
. not having time to get ready
. watching someone walk away when you want them to stay
. realizing you didn't do enough to succeed
. realizing how pointless your day was
. hurting someone you would never want to hurt
. not being able to explain without self-incrimination
. not having enough time to explain
. arguing with your parents over lack of sleep
. feeling guilty
. making multiple mistakes
. when there is something you love to do, but you just can't seem to ever do it right

yeah. so that was my day so far. lots of those.

nothing worse than not living up to expectations.

further bitching
it's been a bad day
another bad day
and all i wanna do
is look at you
and know i'm okay

when i wake up in the morning
is it gonna be another ugly day?

never too busy to update in woohu.
pina coladas induce happiness. if only there was more.

ever have that day where you procrastinate so much cuz you're just like "well there's not THAT much to do, so i'll be fine, i'll just go to bed a little late tonight"
and then
you go to do your work and you're closing in on the last of the REAL work (not the studying) and then you think about the next day and your classes
and then
you remember this one class that you don't usually have homework in. but you realize that you have homework in it.
and so
you cry. and it sets you back and brings down your morale. and then you realize how much you really do have to do, and you realize.
that was my day.
i might not get much sleep tonight.

hey! get get get get get over it.

wonder when vacation will actually mean vacation.

<3

mmm.
good valentines day with mi amor, danielle. true, i missed my boyfriend. but valentines day is about all kinds of love. and i love my best friend more than anyone else in the world and there's nothing like loving your friends which is why i made those cd's for people. because they express in music what i cannot express in words. some people got sad because it's apparently full of love songs. but do you wanna know why it was full of love songs? because thats what i feel for everyone. whenever you call, i'll be there. and i want people to feel that. that's all. i didnt intend for people to get sad over it (especially if they dont have a boyfriend or girlfriend). i intended it for people to feel the love i feel for them.

we shoulda had a pajama dance party at my place today. dancing in the fridge! hotness. sigh. nothing like sweet movies, laughs, and i love you's.

christine, katherine, liz, rachel... thank you for all the love. twas the best birthday ever. childhood memories. offer for a male stripper. great magic show.

amazing photos, weird friends of her brothers, and conversations on christine's roof until the morn. <3

i miss danielle so much. i talked about her so much. sigh.

how can i ever repay people for loving me so much? only by loving them back.

hmmmmmm.
need sleep. cant seem to get it... my dreams have flown away from my memory every day now. seems i think a little too much about other things. *shrug* ehh. life is really the same right now. i just don't know what to say. to anyone about anything. i'm content, but everything seems a little off lately. my friends, the schoolwork, other little things. who knows what i'm talking about...

i can't wait for valentines day. i always enjoy it because i get to show how much i love my friends. wait til you see what you get. ;) hee hee.

need to get some cd's i want. ben jelen is in cosmogirl. DAMMIT. thanks to ashley though, as always!

also can't wait for dirty dancing havana nights. it's awesome. like the commercials on tv make it seem a little cheesy, but if you had seen the full preview in the theatre... damn. looks like it could be a next favorite movie, if its done right. it looks so hot. plus mya sings in it! definitely seeing it. i'm officially in love with the site, with the music that makes me wanna go on vacation and to a club in havana. i'll probably get that soundtrack. try to see the trailer.


one last question that's always on my mind.
what can i do so that everyone is happy again? =\

chillin with danielle...
its been a great weekend away from school. we just love being at home and/or out. last night we saw butterfly effect.... whoa. yeah... whoa. just see it. danielle and i have been spending good quality time together because we dont spend time in school together. <3 yep yep. home is where the heart is. today we woke up at 12:30, caught up on missed sleep from the week, and went shopping. i bought something great. but shhh. its a secret.

.quotes of the day.
danielle: "take my bra off."
me: "i'm so happy we're going home and having fish rolls."

sigh. we know you probably won't find this funny... but it's just a documentation of our love/fun together. =D. <3

i am a butterfly.
so i feel like posting before i do anything. more procrastination! ehhhhh. i need to do lots of things today. gonna be that christina that works nonstop. hopefully i'll get things done. otherwise it'll be for nothing. this weekend has been weird! like my past weekdays have been. i think it's because i havent seen danielle that much. her parents wouldnt let her go to the movies on friday so i spent the night with my parents alone. it wasnt so bad, bonding with my parents. they probably miss me. i went to see win a date with tad hamilton all by myself in that boca muvico. everyone was with their girlfriends and i was just sitting there being annoyed and missing danielle.

saw the preview for confessions of a teenage drama queen - that's my movie. i can't wait for it to come out, cuz i wanna see it badly. preview for havana nights... sooo hottt. the movie itself? win a date with tad hamilton was not the BEST movie, i personally liked chasing liberty better but it had some really good parts. it almost made me cry cuz like... yeah you have to see it. it seems like it shouldve been longer. but oh well.

saturday went shopping with my boca chicas. must.resist.shopping. but i cant! man. i think my family is gonna have like a garage sale soon, because i feel like i've given so many clothes to the salvation army. and not that they dont need more clothes, but i kinda dont wanna give away clothes that have hardly been worn, it's like a waste of my moms money. so why not sell them? people would buy my clothes, right? right. i need to make room for the clothes i DO wear.

gah. need to cut this post short (in a manner of speaking) for i need to stop procrastinating and start working.

i'm getting addicted to this song now too. i'm so tempted to bring sc in for us to play in art. last class we played smashing pumpkins, was pretty awesome. but i dont think i wanna inflict my personal music interests on others who may not enjoy the same. some of the lyrics in no special order...
its a good year for a murder
reasons like seasons they constantly change
away with this spilt milk
all that he gave was a daughter
its me and the moon she says
i am a butterfly
her heart like a crystal she's lucid and departed
away with these nightmares
you give up your soul til you break down


You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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life as i know it.
when was the last time i posted? hmmph. i dont know. today was like weird. yes, like EVERY day! what is up with that? i feel like i have nothing to say. everything is the same. i miss wearing contacts. hopefully by monday i will have nothing on my face again. sigh. the week is over THANK GOD. it was a busy week. i only stayed up late once. next week however, is a different case. buncha stuff to do. yippee. i got an A on my math test. not a high one, but i'm satisfied for i was not here for stupid partial fractions. that debate. eeeh. tomorrow... time with some of my boca girlies. and south florida fair. and then lotsa homework on sunday! =D i'm planning to create a big art work for my art assignment. wish me luck! i wish i could spend more time with altan. it doesn't feel like it's anything. feels like just friends still. hopefully it'll change. i'm content though. i really think i am.

nothing to say man. i can't believe it.

you're my good feeling.
you are my reason for breathing.

sigh
i.... i feel like i need to say something, but there really isn't anything to say. still hating school, but dealing with it, so no need to really complain. still loving and supporting my friends. everything is pretty consistent lately. and i'm content. isn't that madd cool? that's almost never happened. haven't done much this weekend...went shopping. that's it. and had some nice family time. i love them so much. i dont know what i would do if... if we were ever broken apart. and my brother has led me to interesting coincidences. last night we figured out that vivi's boyfriend, greg, is the same greg that's like my brother's best friend. interesting. well... not really. but ya know. last night i played some guitar. i learned the love theme from the godfather. it's beautiful. i wonder if mrs zacher would let me perform it and count it as a poetry pitch... hmm.

i was supposed to go to the delray artfest. hmm. must compensate by going to a real art gallery. but i'm happy. it's kinda cool. weird change in me. though i have cried a lot this week due to the pink eye and the stupid crap... i'm good now. i hope you're good too. *hug* to everyone.

and i'd give up forever to touch you
cuz i know that you feel me somehow

and you cant fight the tears that aint coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
you bleed just to know you're alive.

TGIF
i saw jessica on trl!
katy rose reminds me of amber.

just gonna say a few things...

mm. today was nice considering it was an odd day.
organization line drawing = the devil
who's yo daddy?! <3
andrew is coming home...
congratulations to rich and jackie
i wanna learn piano.
he makes me happy.
sigh.
economics test... i have no idea.
food is really good.
i wish i could lose some weight.
no initiative.
school.... yeah it's there. it's ... it's ok.
i miss my vietnamese boy. <3

i want someone to sing this song to me.
*i wanna know she'll be coming here to me. come on. without you i'll never feel the love inside. you know that we belong. thinking back before her, i never knew the meaning of alone.*

danielle is coming to me soon.

i predicted i would be anna.

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