. LyFe SuX .
Wut a fuckin nite!! Omg, i fuckin wish todaii never ever happened. Iz lyke nuthin can ever go rite for me. I thought tonite was guna be s0o much fun too. Nd Eddy, holii shyt..u r the biggest -a-s-s-h-o-l-e- in thiz whole world nd i cant believe i gave u a second chance knoin the same shyt would happen. U make my lyfe miserable! AhH, here comez the tearz. Well, i guess i'll tell the storii lata cuz rite now iz not a good tyme at all. x0x ..KiSsEs..

. No SkOoL_YaY! .
H€₯§!! WaSsuP?? HaHa, me dun gotta go to skool tomorrow. I was sposed to watch GaV but TiFf juss called nd said RoGeR was sick, but im not guna tell my mom that till mornin nd maybe i dun gotta go to skool tomorrow. That would be awesum. Nd since i dint think i was goin to skool tomorrow i was juss guna straiten my hair for KeL'z partii tomorrow but if i go to skool i wont have tyme to do all that shyt nd look all cute for the partii..HeHe. Holii shyt, i can't wait. The onlii thing bad iz that KaTiE'z partii iz Saturdaii nd i wanna go cuz i dint go last yr but it startz earlii nd i dun wanna get there t0o0o late s0o if i get home before it startz then i'll go cuz i kno thatz guna be super funn. I was funa go to Am'z partii too but me nd her rnt rellii friendz, she juss seemz to onli wanna talk ever since she invited me lyke she wantz me to go but i'm not spendin money on her to go to a partii that i dun wanna go to nd me nd KaTiE r closer than me n Am s0o thatz prolli wut im funa do OR i mite juss chyll over KeL'z Saturdaii nd then come home late. I dunno yet tho, i'm still decidin. Todaii was relli fun..LoL, i cant believe i said that but it was. Lyke in first hour me nd CefaLi were paintin FaNNy'z project for him nd we put i heart LeXi GoNzoLeZ on it nd he got relli pissed at us, but in Spanish we wrote literallii 20 notez to him to saii we're sorrii nd he forgave me, but not StEpH cuz it was her idea..HaHaZ. Nd it was juss prettii coolio. Newho, Eddy iz lyke relli startin to piss me off nd i luv him a lot nd i dun want him to do this again nd i promised myself i wouldnt let him, but i juss cant....let him go. I love him nd i bet half of ppl my age have never felt thiz feelin before!! Iz .a.m.a.z.i.n.g. nd i dun wanna lose it. Welpz dawg, i gotz nuthin more to saii s0o i'm outt. Nd EriN, i'm s0o0o0o sorri bout last nite nd i kno ur funa read this s0o plz call me wen u do..i dun wanna lost my OTHER HALF over this stupid shyt. Ur my gurl nd i heart u. Member..we never let shyt come between us. LoLz, i seriouslii am sorrii. x0x PeAcE ..KiSsEs..

. GuYz SuCk .
I swear..there'z not a time in my lyfe where atleast 1 thing dusn't go wrong!! First, me nd Erin weren't friendz nd now that we're back to normal, Eddy has to go nd be the same old asshole nd im gettin realli realli sick of listenin to excuse after excuse. We havent realli lyke had a good talk in lyke 2 fuckin weekz. I mean, iz hard enough never seein him, but not talkin to him? The one guy that iz supposed to care more bout me than his drugz nd his friendz? I juss wish that one day..juss one day..in my lyfe where everythin was rite!! But i guess i cant change it. Newho, LoLo u NEED to break up wit Jenkinz!! Ur guna get urself into sum shyt nd the longer u wait, the harder iz guna be. U dun wanna go thru wut i went thru last yr wit Eddy. U saw how bad it hurt me. Plz trust me on this one. Ur lyke my best buddii nd i realli dun wanna see u get hurt lyke that. But i guess iz ur choice, nd iz up to u. Okie dokie, iz gettin late nd me gotz a headache so im funa go to bed..i think. LoLz, this wkend iz gunna total crazii madness!! WooHoo, 2 Fast 2 Furious FINALLY!! LoL, KeL. x0x Ok dawg, im outt. ..KiSsEs..

. EriN WoN HeR CoMpeTiTiOn .
HeyZ!! Howz it goin?? I'm s0o fuckin tired rite now cuz i went out last nite wit my sis nd we dint get in her house till 3.30 am. Then we smoked out nd played video gamez till lyke 5. Looked at lyke 5000 picz nd we finalli fell asleep around 7.30 am. LoLz, i luv goin to my sis' houze. It'z one of the funnest thingz sidez partiez nd chyllen wit EriSiTa!! HeHe, congratz on last nite gurlie!! Newho, juss chyllen. My mommii got back Fridaii nd i went out to eat nd then we went shoppin. I missed her s0o much. We're relli relli close nd im happii we r cuz i can lyke tell her nethin. Lyke i told her i smoked nd she dint even care. Iz all good. Me nd Eddy r prettii much shyt rite now but i aint guna say shyt bout it cuz it hurtz wen i talk bout it. But wutever, iz alwayz the same shyt..lyke Erin alwayz tellz me, it never guna change nd i think im finallii figurin it out..LoL EriN, u startin to change me. Nd there'z other funnii shyt goin on..HaHaZ!! Well, iz Sundaii alreadii..AhH! Todaii, me nd Erin r funa drive around nd chyll nd then i gotta come back nd do my homework. WooHoo, cant wait till the partii next wkend!! LoLz KeLbeL!! Ok, im outt. PiZneAce nd i HEART u!! x0x ..KiSsEs..

. Er iZ tHe BeSt .
Wuddup Dawg?? HaHa, im s0o0o0o hyper rite now!! I juss got home from drivin around wit Er Bear. It was a CRAZII fun tyme! LoL, we saw School of Rock nd then after we went to 84 nd these lyke 6 guyz beeped at us. Then we drove by RF to see who was there nd then we went by my skool..lyke 1000 limoez. Then we went to Sunview Park nd down 31st. We were pimpin in the van..hahaz!! Nd we went on Mapquest to find how to get to Oakwood witout takin the highway nd we got lost s0o we turned around nd got there lyke rite wen the movie started. LoL, but it was crazii cuz we got to Hollywood nd Boomerz ((around there)) in lyke literallii 3 minutez cuz she was goin 90 milez an hour on 95..wut a fuckin rush!! It was awesum..i had lotz of fun. LoL Er, every weekend now..iz a new tradition. Last nite, i went to the HomecominG game. It was awesum..LoLo nd Laura picked me up, but i met up wit Kel, Chels, nd Jen Jen ((LoL)) so i hung out wit them n Fan_Fan. Nd i got c James..LoL, i missed u dawg!! HaHa, how YOU doin?! LoLo left earlii nd i didnt wanna leave that earlii so i got Jen Jen'z mom to take me home..HeHe. Lyke az soon az i got home i fell asleep. Nd last week was crazii wit all the Homecoming shyt nd _iCeY_ called me Thursday nite ((2am..LoLz)) nd we had a GREAT convo nd i love him s0o0o much. YuP YuP, iz been a great weekend soo far!! Ok, well im tired nd shyt so imma talk to my babii nd go to sleep. x0x0 -- EriSiTa!! I'm s0o0o happi we almost back to normal. I missed chyllen wit u cuz we alwayz have s0o0o much funn..LoL, who wouldnt miss their own brain..LoL!! Luv u gurlii, nd HE did think u were hott..hehe!! x0x0 ..LoVe..

. iMMa BaD gUrL .
Hey Heyz!! Well, i had uno crazi tyme last nite! I took the Honda out for lyke 3 hourz n juss drove around wit Jess. We met lotz of guyz n gave a couple mi numero!! It was lotz of fun..i was makin crazii turnz n shyt n i cut off this one guy n he was lyke beepin n shyt but o wellz. Wen we got back to my houze one of the guyz called n he was lyke yea, so wut r u doin n i was lyke nuthin..u wanna come over my houze? So him n his cuz Rob came. Yea, Andrew was prettii coolio (( i HATE hiz name!! )). He smoked out wit my sis n i smoked out wit her lata. Then we went to Wendyz n then Jess hadda go home n me n my sis did the bong..crazii shyt rite there!! We chylled till lyke 1.30 am n then she left n i fell asleep s0o0o fuckin fast. But iz actualli good she showed up wen the guyz we're on their way over cuz they woulda ended up rapin me n Jess..im lyke almost positive. Yea, i dunno wutz goin on wit me n Eddy now but im sick of guessin n playin hiz fuckin lil gamez. I needa guy that wont break my heart n stay wit me from the start..A man that trulii lovez me n placez no one above me!! HaHaZ, yea i love Eddy tho..i seriouslii do. This iz the first time i've ever been IN LOVE n i cant get OUT of it no matter wut i do. Newho, imma go cuz i gotta get readii n take my dog to the vet n then imma go to Target wit Jess. PeAzE ..KiSsEs..

. i MiSs mY BeStii .
Heyz! Chillen chillen..lotsa shyt been happenin..got into an accident last nite n i didnt even get outta my front fuckin yard!! Then me n Erin arent realli that good of friendz nemore which SUX!!! I hate it cuz iz juss lyke i dunno but we both feel the same way..lemme put the im in herre:

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Auto response from x0x S i S i x0x: Wen partiez include less clothez n more beer..u kno that **SoPhOmOrE** year iz here! LoL, n wen u gotz a shyt load of homework. Yup yup, s0o i'll talk to u lata. ilu _iCeY_

Be back soon. x0x SiSi x0x

P.S. ErBeAr, i still dun think this shyt iz worked out cuz we aint talkin realli but i dunno wut else to say that im sorri for makin u upset bout the whole Eddy thing..newayz, i guess i'll juss ttul! x0x0

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x LiLkRaZiE87 x: i dont think it is either....there are just some things that bug me a little....anyways...ttyl
x0x S i S i x0x: lyke wut
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: i dunno...like how u thought i didnt give a crap
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: i dunno really...im not sure wut im thinkin
x0x S i S i x0x: well, i didnt think u did cuz it juss dusnt seem lyke it nemore..lyke we never talk..n i kno u said ur busii n shyt but we could still talk
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: i kno...but when i get hom from band i do hw and sumtimes go online and we talk there...but sumtimes we only talk on the phone, we dont say anythin after like the first 15 minutes
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: and we used to talk for hours
x0x S i S i x0x: i kno
x0x S i S i x0x: n i dunno y but i kno n i hate it cuz it used to be lyke i can tell u everything n iz not lyke that nemore n i kinda miss it
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: me 2
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: i feel the same way
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: its like we're actually growin apart...but i dont want to ...and we cant..lol
x0x S i S i x0x: i dunno but i wish we could juss get this shyt over wit cuz i feel lyke im losin my best friend
x0x S i S i x0x: thats how iu feel newayz
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: i feel like that too
x0x S i S i x0x: but i dun wanna it to be lyke that nemore..cuz it sux n it makes me sad
x LiLkRaZiE87 x: yeah it does
x0x S i S i x0x: well i gotta go do hw..but it cant be lyke this no more! s0o i guess we're juss guna have to change it..but call me lata or sutin
x0x S i S i x0x: i luv u xoxo bye

Yup yup, s0o thatz how it iz rite now..it sux but wutever Newayz, i was sposed to be leavin for GA at lyke 3am last nite but i neva went. I wasnted to run away n be wit my babi!! N i'm still not sure if i regret my decision or not but i guess we'll juss have to see! Ok, well, im tired n i dun feel good s0o imma talk to my babi n then get some sleepi sleep. ZzZzZ nite nite! x0x0

. a LiL SuRvEy .
Well, skool started! Iz ok..skool iz skool tho. Nuthin realli..still wit my babii. Sumone got on my s/n last nite s0o i had to change the password..Wut a loser wit NO lyfe! Newayz, i filled out sum survey lyke 2 dayz ago s0o imma put it in here. Tomorrowz Friday!! LoL, ok well, i'll write sum more another time! XoXo

HaVe YoU EvA..
.. Fallen for your best friend – Yea Kevin, but it was lyke for a day..hehe
.. Made out with JUST a friend – Lotsa times..Scott, Austin, Mike..
.. Been rejected – Yea..but his name was ‘’LimpDick`’ so it dusnt matter!!
.. Been in love – YEA..i am rite now! Luv u babii..hehe
.. Used someone – HaHa, yupperz
.. Been used – Yup, onli by the jealous ppl tho
.. Cheated on someone – Yup..n I dun regret it
.. Been cheated on – Unfortunately..but u learn to get over it
.. Done something you regret – Not realli..actualli yes, most DEF

WhO WaS Da LaS PeRsOn...
.. You touched – It dependz on wut kinda touch..but in that way prolli **iCe iCe**
.. You talked to – Talkin to **iCeY** on the fone rite now..he says WuDdUp..hehe
.. You hugged – I hugged lotsa ppl today s0o either Tom, Anthony, Jenn, Jenni…
.. You instant messaged – Jess Jess
.. You yelled at – My **iCeY BaBii** but iz ok cuz he yelled at me too
.. You laughed with - **iCeY** DuRrNeSs
.. you had a crush on – Well, the last before now was Andrew..before that, Randy..n the list goes on..

Do YoU...
.. Color your hair – Nope..iz all natural
.. Have tattoos – Nah, I will tho
.. Piercings - No
.. if not where u wanna get them – BELLY BUTTON..DeC 3!
.. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both – Both..LoL, JK..yupperz, my babii **Eddy**
.. Floss daily – Ur funnii…noperz
.. Own a webcam – Yea, dusnt work tho..piece of shyt
.. Ever get off the damn computer – Yea, u have to be a loser to alwayz be on..RoGeR

HavE You...
.. Considered a life of crime – HaHa, Bonni n Clyde ‘o5..Drew joke
.. Considered being a hooker – LoL yea, I have..but I wont
.. Considered being a pimp – I’m a mutha fuckin []D [] []V[] []D..LoL, nah
.. Are u psycho – Nah, that’s onli psychos..hehe
.. Split personalities - Nope
.. Obsessive – I’ve onli been obsessed over **iCeY** ((Wonder y? HaHa)) but evrything else..nah
.. Obsessive compulsive – Never!
.. Panic – Depends on wut ur panickin bout..but not usualli
.. Suicidal – Onli lyke once or twice
.. Obsessed with hate – Um no
.. If you could be anywhere, where would you be – Wit my **iCe iCe** or SeBaStiAn!
.. What are you listening to – I was listenin to my baby’s voice but now I’m listenin to Unwritten Law! **iCeY’s** better tho
.. Can you do anything freakish with your body – Maybe
.. Do you have a favorite animal- Puppiez
.. Current Clothes – Nuthin..LoL, jk..white shortz n a blue shirt
.. Current Mood – Horny! LoL JK. Sad..missin my **iCeY BaBii**
.. Current Music – MxPx
.. Current Taste – Water? LoL
.. Current Hair – Up in a bun..chillen..LoLz
.. Current Annoyance – Um..my bracelet!
.. Current Smell – Tommy Hilfiger Cologne..LoL **iCeY** itz ur smell!
.. Current thing I ought to be doing – Sleepin…ZzZzZz
.. Current Desktop Picture – Hotti EMINEM..LoL, I luv him!
.. Current Favorite Group – He’s not a group but EMINEM! But Mest, MxPx, n The Used r the best rite now!
.. Current DVD In Player – 8 MiLe..haha
.. Current Refreshment – Water
.. Current Crush – Edward Travis..LoL, my **iCeY BaBii** (( I’ve said it lyke 100 times! ))
.. Current Favorite Celebrity – EmiNeM! ilu

FaVoRiTe...
.. Drink – DEF water..iz lyke all I drink!
.. Color – Black, lite pink, lite blu, n my baby’s color RED..hehe
.. Shoes – Sandalz
.. Candy – Hershey’s Candy Bar
.. Animal – Puppiez..dur!
.. TV Show – REAL RULES!! LOL Erin, Eminem shyt, Xtreme Elimination..EriN, Mornin After, Burned!
.. Movie – 8 MILE, Dude Where’s My Car (ErBeAr), Bad Boyz 2 (Awesum shyt!), Crazy/Beautiful, A Walk to Rememer (TeAr), Fast n Furious (2), ..more n more..HeHe
.. Dance – I used to for lyke 3 yrs but then I stopped

ArE YOu...
.. Understanding – I hope so
.. Open-minded – I hope so
.. Insecure – LoL, very!
.. Interesting – LoL, I hope so
.. Hungry - nah
.. Friendly - alwayz
.. Smart – Can be..but so can everybody
.. Moody – LoL, yea!
.. Independent – Nah, I got my babii wit me all the way..hehe!
.. Hard working – Can be..
.. Organized – HaHa, noperz
.. Healthy – I think so
.. Shy – Not realli
.. Attractive – I’m a sexi muther fucker..LoL, I dun think so n I’d lyke to thank ANDREW for that one
.. Bored Easily – Kinda..i guess
.. Thirsty- WaTeR..hehe
.. Responsible – When I wanna be
.. Sad – Kinda, cuz I want my **iCe iCe**
.. Happy – Yea..but not all the way cuz how can u be sad n happi?!
.. Trusting - Yupperz
.. Talkative – Yea, I dun fuckin shutup! LoLz
.. Unique – It sayz so on my door..LoLz

WhO Do U WanT 2...
.. Kill –No one at all..i juss dun lyke certain ppl (( U kno who u r ))
.. Slap – HaHa, lotsa ppl..no names tho ::cough Drew cough::
.. Look like – I wouldn’t be unique if I looked lyke sumbody..LoL, but um, I would say Jenna Jameson..shes pretti!
.. Be like – Myself! LoL
.. Talk to offline – Rite now..**iCeY iCe**
.. Nicknames - Lotz..SiSi, Alisa, NaNa, Nae, NaeNae, ShaNaeNae, Blonde, Dumbass, Mitsubishi, Saturn, Blonde, Eddyz Gurl, n sum other shyt.
.. Age – 1ne 5ive
.. Hair color – Blonde..LoLz Kev
.. Birthday – 12.3.87
.. Eye Color - Blue
.. Siblings – YEA!! I luv u RiRi..shes the shyt!! LoL, n her man Andy since I’ve known him forever! I luv u both!!
.. How do you describe yourself – Sweet, Cute, Bytchy (( A LOT..LoL )), Talkative
.. What's your sign - Saggitarius
.. Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend – HmM, I wonder! LoL, luv u **iCeY BaBii**

FriendS...
.. Best Friend(s) – ErBeAr..muahz, Lita, Jess, Kel, Jacki, Lauren, Katie, Jenn, n I consider my babii a friend too..hehe, my best friend n my luver..LoL iCe
.. Friend(s) you go to for advice – Mostli Jenn or Lita or Jacki
.. Friend(s) you have the most fun with – Um, y would I be their friend if they werent fun??
.. Friend(s) you've dream'd about – Cant member..
.. Friend(s) your tell secrets to – I tell everyone diff shyt..the onli person who knows mostli everythin iz Erin OR my sis who knos EVERYHING!

PreFereNceS...
.. Chocolate milk or hot chocolate – Choco Milk
.. (chocolate /strawberry) – Strawberriez..sexi..LoL
.. McDonalds or Burger King – Burger King..cant eat McDs
.. Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend - LuVeR
.. Sweet or sour – Sweet AND Sour..LoL prolli sweet
.. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper - Root Beer
.. Sappy/action/comedy/horror - CoMeDy
.. Cats or dogs – Dogz
.. Ocean or Pool – Pool..i HATE sand!
.. Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheesier – Ranch..it has a better taste
.. With or without ice-cubes – Witout..i never use ice..LoL **iCe**, I never use him either!
.. Shine or rain – RaiN
.. Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring – Winter..Sebastian n Xmas n License!! Cant wait!!
.. Vanilla or Chocolate - Chocolate
.. Snowboarding or skiing – Um, I live in FL
.. Cake or cookies – Cake..LoL Sean, CAAAAKKE..good timez
.. Eyes open or closed – Dependz..HeHe! If I’m wit my babii, open so I can see his sexiness! LoLz
.. Fly or breathe under water – Fly..imma be SUPER MARIO! HeHe
.. Bunkbed or Waterbed - Water..s0o0o0o comfortable
.. Chewing gum or hard candy – Gum..most DEF
.. Lights on or off – Off, iz better that way

Fav'z…
.. Number – 420!! HaHa or 69..LoLz, seriousli 19
.. Holiday – New Year’s Eve!! Drunk as fuck n in Sebastian!! HaHa, good timez
.. Radio station – THE BEAT, 99 Jamz, Power 96, n Zeta
.. Place – SEBASTIAN!!, NY, Savannah GA ((LoLz)), n Naplez
.. Flower - Rose or nethin pretti..LoLz
.. Scent - Clinique Happi, Tommy Hilfiger (LoLz **iCeY**), Adidas..guy n gurl, Sheer Freesia..B & B

~ ShAwNa ~

. SkOoL aLrEaDii?! .
Hey ppl! Well, skool starts Tuesday..i kinda wanna go but i kinda dun. O well, i guess iz ok. So newayz, this wkend i got my eyebrowz waxed n my nailz dun n went skool shoppin n i stayed at my sis' Friday n smoked n shyt! Then yesterday juss hung out over Jess' n came home at lyke 12.30 n watched a movie wit my mommy! Tried to get in touch wit my babii but he didnt answer his fone last nite cuz he's at the beach wit hiz mom for the wkend s0o wutever! But i think he's mad at me..nuthin new! God, i luv him s0o0o0o much but iz s0o weird goin out wit him again cuz it seems lyke he dusnt wanna be wit me?! But then again, y did he ask me out if he didnt?! I dunno but i realli luv him n i hope we can work thru all of this cuz i truli am happii for once. I luv him more than words can say n i dun wanna be witout him. But yup that's prettii much it. Kk, write back lata. ..KiSsEs..

. GooD tO CaLL HiM MyNe AgAiN .
YaY!! Guess wut?! Me n Eddy r goin out again!! He asked me last nite. U kno how happi i am..omg, i have wanted this for s0o long n now i have him i'm juss s0o afraid to lose him again. I pray that i dun n i thank u God s0o much for this..this is lyke the best thing in my lyfe rite now n i hope it stays that way for a LOONG time!! I luv him s0o much n it feels so good to call him mine again!! LoL, i luv u babi s0o much..never leave me cuz i would be lost witout u in my heart!! Ok, well i went to SJS today to help out n shyt. Yup yup, onli lyke 4 more hourz n no more for the rest of Soph yr. Nuthin else realli to say but i gotz to call my babi s0o ill tTuL!! ..KiSsEs..