. Iz ThiZ g00d Or BaD? .
Can u say a-s-s-h-o-l-e?? Lots of shyt happen this weekend!! Let's juss say Andrew's the **BiGgEsT** a$$hoLe in the whole world. I cant even explain it..omg!! But iz good tho cuz me n Eddy r now reallii g0o0o0od friendz n im s0o happii n i hope it stays that way!! Hopefullii, even if juss friendz but u kno how does he consider me 'juss a friend' wen he sayz 'i LuV yOu' to me?! I dunno..shyts confusin but tomorrow im goin to STA wit NeS NeS to get books for Soph year. Yup Yup, i get to see everyone again!! I dun wanna go back..summer went way too fuckin fast!! Holy shyt!! Well, i dunno wut else to say cept Andy turned 21 today..HaPpY BdAy mi amigo..haha, member?! I dun feel no different cuz ive been drunk since i was 15..natural high? Dun worrii bout it!! U s0o0o funnii!! Newayz, itz funnii cuz i juss got over Eddy n now we're talkin again. But im outt cuz i juss am..LoL!! XoXo, lotz of luv!!

. Iz CrAziiNeSs .
Krazie (Lyke Erin's sn..LoL) week!! Lotz a shyt happened lyke me n Erin werent friendz for lyke not even a day n then we couldnt stand not talkin to each other..well, i couldnt..n we started talkin again n im happii bout that cuz i dunno wut i would do witout her in my lyfe..luv ya g-h-e-t-t-o-g-u-r-l!! So0o0o0o juss chillen waitin for Drew~Babii to call me..hehe. I stayed at my sis house last nite to watch Andy. It was fun cuz it juss was. HaHa. Omg, n then today i was drivin home wit my sis n i cut this guy off n he kept beepin at me s0o i thought he was mad cuz i cut him off so i looked over n he was wavin n shyt n then he pulled next to me n was lyke talkin to me n my sis n was lyke 'U shuld come home wit me. I'll follow u if u pull ova'. LoL, it was prettii funnii. Yea, s0o my sis iz lyke one of the coolest ppl cuz she understands me but sumtimes she acts too overprotective n yesterday she called me a h-0-e. LoL, i was s0o pissed at her. N then today she told me she totalled my Honda n i was pissed at her again n shyt. LoL, good timez..ill get her back tho! Oh n i found out the elective they put on my schedule iz for seniorz so i gotta get it changed to a Soph elective. Yup yup, s0o juss chillen lyke a villen..do villens chill?? HaHa, Erin, that was s0o0o funnii. Newayz, imma write back lata. Yea, s0o ill ttul!! XoXo

. HaTe ThE SiCkNeSs .
Hey Hey Hey! Wow, i had lyke the awesumest weekend. HaHa, well, Saturday nite, atleast. I was over my sis' house wit Erin n bunch of ppl n we went shoppin at 2 in the mornin n then got back at 3.30, made a cake n started drinkin sum good ass liquor..LoL, s0o good i dun member wut happen after that. Yea, so i dun think i realli went to sleep until lyke 4 in the afternoon yesterday. But i got in a fite wit Andrew cuz im a stupid drunken bytch. LoL But yea, he was tryin to help me cuz i was lyke so fucked up yesterday n i juss cursed him out n shyt n i'm sorri for that! Yup Yup! I havent written for awhile. Ohhh, Eddy sent me a pic of himself juss to piss me off n a pic of his "gurl" Ashley. Y r guys lyke s0o fuckin immature? I mean, even wen there lyke almost 20, they still are?? Wut the fuck is up wit that?? Neways, i sent him a realli nice email n i dunno y i was s0o nice but i was. Is weird, he's the onli person that i dun want mad at me. Lyke i'll get in a fite wit neone else cuz i dun care if they're mad at me but wit him, i'm afraid to n i dunno y, but sumhow i always end up fitein wit him newayz. Ok, enuf bout him, is makin me sad!! Yea, s0o juss sittin here AND Andrew's online. Yay!! That means he musta went to skool today. I'm proud of u..LoL! Nuthin else realli tho. Skool starts in lyke 2 weekz. I wanna go back but then I dun. I dunno..is confusin shyt but wuteva. Ok, imma talk to Drew n then try n lyke go to sleep cuz I'm sick AGAIN. xo

. SuMoNe SaVe Me .
WoW!! Is been awhile. Nothin that new realli cept i'm bored as HELL cuz no one's home this week n it sux s0o extremly bad!! Andrew's supposed to be comin over today lyke realli soon so i gotta be all ready n shyt. I sTiLL dunno wut me n him r but it seems to me lyke we're more than friends..actualli, it seems lyke that to everyone but i dunno cuz he never realli asked me he juss lyke sumtimes calls me his babii n his gurl n shyt. But wutever, as long as we're friends n we take it SLOW cuz i hate becomin a couple wit sumone before u even kno the skool they go to or wut their number is..sounds crazii but it happened to me before. Neways, juss chillen n shyt..missin hangin out wit all my friends. The onli bad thing bout summer is not seein everyone u usualli see n it sux ass but i cant believe we onli have lyke 30 days left till skool starts..shyt goes by WAY too fast now!! Ok well, that's all the stupid shyt i have to talk bout. tTuL XoXo

WoW, i didnt even talk bout Eddy in this one till rite now..LoL, good job Shawna. HeHe

. GueSs WhO'z BaK? .
YaY!! I'm finally back from NY..i mean, it was ok..kinda borin tho but wutever is good now cuz im here!! Neways, still unpackin..i hung out wit my Riri n Andy today n we went to see Vic n Tony n Bobby but Bobby wasnt there . Y do i still love Eddy?? Omg, i hate feelin this shyt..it sux..is lyke all i can think bout!! Wut the fuck is wrong wit me?? N is lyke every song reminds me of him! I cant wait till im over him..that will be the best day!! Neways, dunno wut else to talk bout s0o imma go unpack or sumthin..tTuL XoXo

. FaMiLy TyMe .
Hey Hey!! I'm in NY rite now visitin family n shyt..missin all my friends!! Specially Er BeAr..i dint get to go wit u to Lake Placid but is ok cuz we goin to Naples..LoL, yAy!! Haha, i luv u n miss u gurlie!! Neways, ive been talkin to Andrew a lot..i dunno..is realli confusin cuz i dunno wut we r n I'm still not all the way over Eddy even tho i need to be!! Well, i havent realli talked to ne of my friends since I've been up here cept for Erin n Andrew n sumtimes Jess n Lita..i miss u guys!! The one person i realli miss tho is Eddy..i miss wut we had n wut we were even tho i shouldnt miss him at all after wut he's dun to me but is gonna take me awhile to get over him. Ricky moved to NJ n it sux cuz now I'll NeVeR see him..not lyke he wanted to c me neway..LoL!! But nothin else realli..life is s0o weird rite now!! Well, i gots to go hang out wit fam (FuN FuN)..I'll talk to u lata!! XoXo

. FiRsT EnTrY .
This is my first entry in this WooHu shyt cuz i switched journal sites cuz my other one fuckin sucked ass!! First of all, i broke up wit Eddy..thats a long story but pretty much I juss called him n told him is over after literally lyke his 10th chance wit me..yea, he had sum other fuckin gurl on his answerin machine s0o after cryin my eyes out for 2 days straight i juss said fuck it..n i had all my BeSteSt FriEnDs to help me thru it..s0o thank u Erin, Jess, Lita, Katie, Jen, Jenn, Lauren, Jax, Kel, Ricky, Rianna, Chris, Andy, n Chelsi (Even tho we aint friends no more)!! N of course i cant forget my newest friend Andrew..LoL, crazy kid!! Neways, i guess im ok witout him but is hard cuz is lyke all i think bout n then i look back on our good times n i think y cant we still be lyke that but wuteva..not meant to be . Well, Andrew is a realli awesum person n he understands wut im goin thru cuz hes been thru it before n is funni how i met him..LoLz!! Well, im extremely tired cuz i had to get up early this morning to get books for Soph Year..haha, the new Freshmen r s0o tiny!! HeHe, but i dunno the other kid that i thought i was gonna get wit went his own ways but wuteva..fuck it!! Ok, imma put my 2 entries from last journal rite here s0o u kno wut the fuck im talkin bout...

4-13-03: All I can think bout is my baby, Eddy!! I miss him s0o much, but i juss dun understand y i have to do everything in this n he dusnt do shit n yet im still wit him..i dunno y im wit him either cuz he can be such an asshole to me sumtimes!! Shit..ill write lata..but i gotta go now!!

4-28-03: OMG, I am s0o0o confused!! No one understands wut i'm going thru right now..NOONE!! All i want is to be able to talk to sumone whos been thru it before!! Well, me n Eddy have been fighting for awhile n now i've found sumone new who i know will treat me better..i know the right thing to do is to leave Eddy but i juss cant seem to let him go!! I luv him s0o0o0o much but i know it would be s0o much betta for me if i left him cuz he's juss gonna hurt me more than he already has. He is always tellin me how much he loves me n shyt n i always believe even wen he puts me thru ALL this shyt!! I really think i'm feelin love wit him but im kinda hoping i'm not cuz if this is love..it fuckin sucks!! This new kid that has a thing for me n i have for him is s0o sweet n he's funny n i know he'll treat me good..i juss know it!! I can't be hurt by Eddy nemore!! It hurts way too much but there's part of me that say to give him another chance..lyke the 10th chance!! Until Eddy, i never knew one guy could tear one gurl apart in s0o many ways!! I kno wut to do but i juss can't!! It's all i've been thinkin bout is wut if i met the worng decision or wut if i regret wut i do make as my decision n wanna change it but it's too late?? God, i hate having to go thru this..it may seem fun for sum gurls to choose between two guys they really lyke but believe me..its a horrible decision!! You may not think u can lose but u can cuz eventually ur gonna have to lose one of them!! Neways, it's gettin kinda late s0o im outt..Lata!! XoXo

Yea..so thats all i wrote in my other one..neways, thats my life s0o far..ok, well im chillen at Jessica's s0o ill hit ya back lata..Peace!! XoXo