man, i really suck at first-person shooters. and apparently they give me headaches too.

so i'm done with those.

i miss my girly. i really hope she can come up this weekend.

i guess dad planned a skating party over at plainfield on sunday for libby's birthday.

i'm way too tired. far more than i should be.

and this headache stuff is bullshit.

i can't even think. not that i really could to begin with, but you know.

i work tomorrow. that's exciting.

mothers' day
well, i finished making mom's present. i just wound up doing what shannon said, since i figured mom would appreciate the creativity, and i didn't get to stop by the crafts store anytime this week.

and i had to ditch on kevin tonight. and i'll have to tomorrow as well, or, at the very least, postpone it until later in the evening, depending on how late we wind up staying at grandma's.

working saturdays sucks. especially when you're not getting paid overtime for it.

i assume i'll feel better about everything once i get my first check. which should be friday. so, less than a week and i'll be seeing a couple hundred bucks. that should shut me up some.

although, if i were working full time, like on my own-ness, life would suck. i'd have no friends. and i'd barely be scraping by. seriously. let's do the math a second:

$11 / hr.
40 hrs / wk.
= $440 gross/ wk. (= approx. $300 net)
$300 / wk.
52 wks. / yr.
= $15,600 / yr. INCOME

rent = $300 / mo.
utilities = $100 / mo.
food, etc. = $100 / wk.
= approx. $10,000 EXPENSES

= $5,600 miscellaneous expenses, savings, etc. / yr.

not to mention i'd be completely miserable. i personally don't know how dad does it. i mean, i just couldn't keep plugging away with that staring me in the face.

but in all truth, sometimes i don't see me keeping plugging away as the current situation sits either. i mean, i'm making maybe $6000 / yr. instead; and i have MORE expenses ($15,000 +) than i would if i weren't going to school, and the only thing i seem to have going for me is the fact that i'm NOT completely miserable, and hopefully when all is said and done, my school will have paid for itself, and i'll be able to be un-miserable, and more financially productive in my given field.

i just don't know if it will work. it's a good theory. but will it work?

at any rate, 'tis a far, far better thing to go to school than to waste away in some factory.

however, looking at these numbers, i won't be able to start a family for at least another 5 - 10 years. not that i'm in any great hurry. i just think it would be nice to have a family and a home. and i would potentially like to start on it before i'm 30.

man. i probably shouldn't make a habit of this having a nightcap after work, but gol' durn it sure is nice.

i mean, it's really cool to have my body go numb and all the little noises to go quiet before i go to sleep. and it's not like it's so much as to cause a problem in the morning. it's just enough.

i don't think it's a problem. i could stop if i wanted to. like this weekend. that'd be good.

wheee. i should've seen this coming. i just enjoy the fact that i can't feel my face far too much. but yet i can still type and stuff....

meh. i don't think it's going to be an issue. i mean, it might be, but as long as i just respect things for what they are.

no sangria tonight though.

tonight is white russian. it's much better when its not 2% milk and orange rum, let me tell you. there's a fun story.

it involves kevin having sex in my parents' waterbed.

good times, good times.

charlevoix was fucking sweet. i want to go back there and stay in that place and that moment forever and ever. but i can't.

that being said, i started work on tuesday. and i'm making calls about living arrangements for next fall. so far no luck.

work is pretty cool. the guys are nice and relaxed, which is cool. and the work is sort of interesting. i'm basically unloading semi-trailers right now. and sorting the stuff that we're unloading. it's lots of pushing and pulling and lifting and stuff. but tomorrow i take my hilo test. hopefully that goes well. there's a written portion, as well as a practical, with an obstacle course and everything. hopefully i do alright.

friday morning i made an appointment to take the truck into the shop and have them replace the steering relay rod. apparently it's like a 4 hour job. and it's all free, because it's a recall part. sweetness. maybe i'll get an alignment out of the deal. i'll be sure to bring a book.

so, life keeps on trucking, faster than i can keep up. but that's okay.

i don't have to keep up. because everyone is so wonderful to me.

alas; earwax.

one more day. and i've done absolutely nothing to prepare for the journey. or even the simple fact that it's been a week.

i'm supposed to be waiting for a package to arrive. no word yet. if it's not here by noon, tough shit, because i have to go to orientation for work. but i can't find my birth certificate. and tomorrow i need to go to grand valley in the morning blah blah blah.

check out dungeonman 3, with new l337 gr4f1x. it'll kick your ass before you knew what hit you. but in a good way.

shannon's last weekend was fun. i had a good time. met jesse. met uncle dan. had dinner wit sum folks. it was nice.

i'll be going up to charlevoix with them this coming weekend. i'm looking very much forward to that.

ummm... other stuff...

got a 98% on my stats exam.

the GTI is dead, and we're not going to insure it anymore. hopefully i can get it running still, so if we wind up selling it, we won't be entirely raped. i don't want to sell it though. it's a fun car. but if i can't drive it, then what's the point?

steelcase this summer. orientation thursday.

wednesday i'm going to chicago with mom and libby to get some work done on the mini.

stuff, etc.

i'm getting distracted and forgetful. i'll come back later when i'm more sharp.

last weekend of the semester....

so, friday was pretty busy. class at 10. class at 2. radio show at 5. open swim at 7. dishes and dinner after swimming. then it was off to the big lake at 11. we left the big lake around 1 or so, having done all that we set out to do. saturday was moving moving moving shit, and going to the bank for cash for tuesday. i hung out with mom and bruce for a bit. then i came back to campus. placed the drink order for tuesday with andre. helped katie and ellen unloft their room. proceeded to unloft/clean/vacuum my room with jim. everything's all squared away now, i think. well, not everything. but as much as i could do. today shannon's coming back, i need to start my honors essays, maybe study for stats and german a little bit.

stats exam tomorrow at 2pm, i think ... i have it written down somewhere. Deutsche Prüfung dienstag um 12 Uhr. honors essays are due tuesday at 4pm. after 4, we're getting dinner i guess, then party at hunter's tuesday night. wednesday i have a meeting with my advisor, and jim and i are moving out of the dorm. thursday i need to go into adecco and do all my paperwork stuff for steelcase, and maybe a drug test, and shannon is moving out, and i'm going down to richland with her. marty's doing a play on friday, so i guess we're going to that. saturday shannon needs a ride up to muskegon, so we'll do that, and then i'm home for the next week or so. then work starts.

that's chris's tentative life ina nutshell at the moment. it helps me to get things out of my head and onto, erm, paper. and hopefully it helps those of you who are wondering what the hell i'm up to all the damn time.

shannon is super-sexy

Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

1. How am I feeling today?:
2. Will I get far in life?:
3. How do my friends see me?:
4. Where will I get married?:
5. What is my best friend's theme song?:
6. What is the story of my life?:
7. What is/was highschool like?:
8. How can I get ahead in life?:
9. What is the best thing about me?:
10. How is today going to be?:
11. What is in store for this weekend?:
12. What song describes my parents?:
13. My Grandparents:
14. How is my life going?:
15. What song will they play at my funeral?:
16. How does the world see me?:
17. Will I have a happy life?:
18. What do my friends really think of me?:
19. Do people secretly lust after me?:
20. What should I do with my life?:
21. Will I ever have children?:
22. What is some good advice?:
23. What is my signature dancing song?:
24. What do I think my current theme song is?
25. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
26. What type of men/women do you like?:

answers:
1. Weird al yankovic – like a surgeon
2. Jamiroquai - loveblind
3. Dave Matthews band – rapunzel
4. Barenaked ladies – war on drugs
5. Jamie cullum – blame it on my youth
6. Lee Michaels – do you know what I mean?
7. The Beatles – because
8. Red hot chili peppers – californication
9. Frank zappa – tell me you love me
10. 3 doors down – By my side
11. Joseph Haydn – symphony no. 95 (3rd movement)
12. Morphine – a head with wings
13. Ladd McIntosh big band – taco tee shirt
14. Alice in chains – heaven beside you
15. Weezer – The world has turned and left me here
16. System of a down – holy mountains
17. Extreme – who cares?
18. Gorillaz – white light
19. Jimi Hendrix – bold as love
20. Homestarrunner – everybody knows it
21. Queen – somebody to love
22. Bing Crosby – Last night on the backporch
23. Ben folds five – selfless, cold and composed
24. Rush – by-tor and the snow dog
25. Dave Brubeck quartet – pick up sticks
26. Jet – cold hard bitch

*note: there were some edits made to avoid repetition of artists (some would say i cheated)*

this just in:
i'm tired.

be safe! stay classy!