i may be fucked.

...

yep. thinking so.

but at least i have good music to listen to. is it weird that i miss her? she's right here, i know. just that i haven't seen her. and i'll be seeing her soon.

right. business.

except for not.

EXCEPT FOR TOTALLY!!! bwahhahahahaha... oh, i'm one silly bitch.

k.

"do you go 'round drenching everyone with flame retardent chemicals?!"

i got this like an hour ago (shoved through the crack under the door):

"although students do not need to vacate their living centers over spring break, those planning to stay for all or part of spring break MUST notify their living center director by completing an extended stay form which they can pick up at their front desk. students must register with their housing staff member no later than noon on tuesday, february 28th."

if i receive the message during class, to be retrieved when i get out of class at 4pm, tuesday, february 28th, how am i supposed to do all this running around filling out papers bullshit before noon today? i'm pretty sure that's not humanly possible. i just get sick of all the bullshit, and how i'm always the last one to know. like it's some big secret... or even if it isn't a secret, chris can't know, because it'll piss him off, and that'll be one funny reaction to watch. oh, what a laugh. (realistically, i know it's not a malicious thing, but still)

and like, katie calls me up this morning and is like "hey, we're gonna go get lunch and pick up our shirts that we ordered, since we need to do that by friday, or she's going to start giving them away". and i was like "frida... wha?!"
"yeah, it's on the message board downstairs, on the other side of the building"
"well, that's gonna help me a lot. you know what pisses me off? i sent her an email like a week ago, asking her when was a good time to pick it up, and she hasn't even replied to my message yet! and now she's threatening to give my shit away that i PAID FOR?!"

it's just little shit like that. always happening. homework assignments. get togethers. little shit. and i just hate that feeling of inescapable oblivion. it's not even blissful ignorance. it's the futile pursuit of enlightenment. and i hate the fact that it's futile. because apparently it's on a need to know basis, and i'm just not good enough to know. that's a sickening feeling. and i despise it.

thankfully it has not yet pervaded my consciousness completely. i've got many other, far better, feelings running around upstairs, to keep me good and distracted.

so, i have to finish two stats assignments, write a paper, lead a class discussion, do some german (but not much), vacuum, do laundry, clean the bathroom, fix the truck, get money, spend money, band practice tomorrow, hunter's party saturday, radio show friday, oodles of honors reading. and i have to clear out by 10pm on friday, since i didn't have a chance to fill out an extended stay form.

i'm trying really hard not to be angry, honest. it's just not working. time for food and loud music. then band tonight. but maybe i should get some pants on first...

cautionary tales of mischief and malevolence

garg. life hasn't been exceptionally hard lately, but i've been exceptionally slow. not stupid. just slow, if that makes sense.

another wonderful talk last night. that girl amazes me. and she listens, and doesn't stop me from rambling. which i keep telling her is dangerous. apparently she begs to differ.

i have a Deutsch Prüfung tomorrow at ten. that should be fun. but no class thurs. or fri. morning... das ist sehr gut. und mittwoch abend, ich will mit shannon treffen. ich treffe mit sie gern. wir sind fernsehen und Film sehen. das ist auch sehr gut.

oh, and i'm totally whoring up the intertron.

so, my woohu is spud.
my facebook is chris best
my myspace is chris
my open diary is space3monkey
my live journal is space3monkey

i still will only really use woohu. but i opened up the other ones to keep tabs on a certain someone.

oh and i'm also on the GVSU harry potter club boards. and mive, of course.

now i may NEVER EVER get anything done. maybe.

my weekend

it was a good weekend. friday... radio show, party at hunter's. that was good fun. saturday morning was band practice. then we came back here and shannon made some awesome chicken noodle soup, and kevin made empenadas. took kevin home, crashed at shannon's last night. five o clock this morning the fire alarm went off. that was obnoxious. and cold. but hey. nothing to put you to sleep like a really huge adrenaline rush. except for not.

and then today, just hung out. tried feebly to do some homework. read some. took shannon and sarah to see brokeback mountain. i didn't actually go in though, i sat in the lobby and did some honors reading. still not done though. but yeah. on the way there i spun the truck on a patch of black ice... that was fun. but i managed to not hit anything or kill anybody, so that much was good. and then the truck was acting up on the way home. it got gradually better, but it's something to do with the throttle, or the spark advance or something. just, something's not working right, and so i'll open up the throttle, but the engine won't rev... or the rev will be really inconsistent. or i'll hold the throttle and all of a sudden the rev will jump like mad. which, that one is kind of fun, because it's like somebody pushed the NOS button or something. but still, i don't like that i can't control it. i'm not sure what the problem is, but i don't have time to deal with it right now. i'll just not rely on the truck at the moment.

ryan came to practice saturday, that went pretty well. and i'm soon to be the official full time back up drummer for souls of rhythm, and that should be fun. he's gonna call me sometime this week. gaaa.

sleepy time. i wish. homework time. yup.

hrm...the 'dust' one made me laugh...

Froy Marriage Rating = -340

"Generally speaking, no woman with an FR of under 250 can be recommended, especially to our less experienced friends. FR-minus women are out from the start."

Approximate Risk of Marriage = 100%

http://kevan.org/froytest.cgi

blah blah blah
don't remember what my last update was. if i didn't mention it, president's ball was friday. that was fun. i got to dress up in my suit again. i realized i need a light grey shirt with a full collar and requires cufflinks, though...

yesterday we (shannon) basically lazed around all day. then went downtown for coffee and a walk. that was super cool. then today we went to the museum. which was also super cool. but i told her i need a breather... and she should need one too. so, we're planning on seeing the vagina monologues on tuesday. i'll hopefully manage to resist the urge to call her until then.

it's just that i need to focus on homework for awhile. and it's not that when she's around she demands that much attention, or any attention at all really, it's just that i lack the discipline to ignore the fact that she's here and she's entertaining herself and i need to get shit done. especially when it's shit i don't want to do. like write a history paper. or study for a stats test. or study for a german quiz. or write a german essay. or read a novel for honors.

speaking of which, my homework beckons.

i'm glad professor place is taking things into his own hands and ditching the auf geht's curriculum. the whole "immersion" thing is cool and all, but really, i need to know some grammar structure as well. that way i can recognize when things are past tense. or figure out what the subject is. like, i didn't even know "Hausaufgaben" was plural until like ten mins. ago. that's some serious bullshit. but i am definitely learning a lot from him, and i very much want to go to germany now. for serious. just to live and talk to people and stuff. by which i mean, listen to people, since i would be far too ashamed to talk. and they all speak english anyway.