Well, I'm bored out of my mind. tony isnt home so i cant talk to him and my mom is being a mother nad being weird. So I decided to listen to my Britney Spears CD because I was bored with my punk music. She is such a slut! this song that I'm listening to is like a sex song. its all like " what would it take for you to just sleep with me?" Seriously! Anyways, I think things between Tony and I are going great I think we'll hook up soon. Its so much fun to talk to him! We talked for 2 hours Friday night so I didnt go to bed till midnight. Him and i are so similar which is awsome! They say that the relationships where you and your partner are alike work out the best. Anyways, I have to get going. Oh you all need to go see Lord of the Bumblebee Crabmeat 1 and 2 on Wednesday in the Auditorium at 7. Its gonna be great! ALyways, buh bye!

*Get Nasty*
Jules

friday
Well, today was a good day! Except that Martino wouldn't play my music video but other than that it was fun. I did get a bit jealous at one point today but then was reassured afterwards! Nickie knows what I'm talkin about and so does T-Bone! Yeah anyways, while I'm on the subject of Tony, I went to the movies with him today! We went and saw Bruce Almighty. That was a kick ass show! It was so funny! Tony held my hand and all that good stuff. Then we went back to his house and watch part of Lilo and Stitch. I love that movie! He was rubbing my stomach and it was so cute! Then he was tickling my arm and it was so funny! Yeah anyways, things are looking up on that situation! I'm very happy. We do have some things that we need to talk about but other than that, its going great! In no time we'll be a "couple!" Anyways, I got a check today for 83 dollars for working 12 hours at my mother's work! Its great! I'm getting a tattoo hopefully soon! Its going to be a star with little squigly lines in between the points and then at the points are little dots. Its pretty sweet looking. I designed it myself so, its great! I'm dying my hair this summer! I'm going to have hot pink tips and I'm thinking i might cut it short. Not sure yet! Hey Brad if you read this, you owe me like 3 bucks for food like two weeks ago!! ANyways, I've got to get going i have a phone date!! Buh Bye!

Julie Slow**

I have a question! Why's everyone depressed and shit? I dont get it!
Yeah well I guess I dont want to know either...
Well, I have to say that this weekend sucked. I went to my dad's house Saturday morning, and did absolutly nothing. We went to Lowes and to my g-ma's house but she wasnt home and then came home and sat around. So I watched about 4 episodes of Punk'd and 2 episodes of Jackass. Then I watched Jeepers Creepers which was in my opinion a really really bad movie. Oh i did watch trading spaces also! I love that show. Anyways,I had to work yesterday and I made a very very losy 4 bucks in tips when I worked for 5 hours! pfff... Oh for the record and it was amazing, my stepmom(the bitch) did not yell at me once this weekend. I was so happy to actually go to my dads for a peaceful weekend. Um, I'm supposed to go to the movies today with Tony but I havent decided if I want to go. In the end I know I'll go just to get out of the house because I"m here by myself and all. OH OH OH I finished my Jackass music video on Friday! Its awsome I think! I skipped two classes and my lunch to finish it and I think it was awsome! It will debut on Announcements this week I do believe so watch for it! WOW, this weeke I have 2nd seg drivers training and then after that I have to take myt road test and then... FREEDOM!! I'll be able to drive my car which i alreadly do but no need to tell anyone that! Ok, I think I'm going to get going. If anyone is bored and feels like going somewhere and needs a friend to go along, CALL ME! I'm sitting here doing nothing so I"d go. Anyways, 9 more days of school then we're out. TTYL

Julie Slow*

Today, I was told that I looked hot. I was shocked and felt like crying. Lately I've been feeling insecure about myself and today it just really lifted me up! People have this image of me, some think I'm a bitch, some think I'm a slut and some think I'm the greatest. I think of myself as a normal teenager who cant seem to get anywhere in life. I'm sick of people turning on me. people TRY to put me down but you know what, words CANT bring me down no matter what you all say. I dont critize you at all so why do you have to do it to me? I dont think that people think about what they say to some people. I have a friend that was put down everyday adn I would call her everynight to hear her cry and tell me that she had a knife in her hand ready to slit her wrist. You have no idea how hard that was for me. She is everything to me in the world nad I had to hear her cry everynight about people who dont have a heart. She would be so upset that she could only turn to me for help because she had so-called friends who never seemed to be there for her. I was. I saw her go through hell. I saw her take the knife to her wrist once. I felt like i was being torn apart when she did it infront of me. Lucky I scared her to death and she quit. But you never think that people are like that, till you are with them. Iwas just like her once and it isnt a great feeling to have people put you down for being you. I felt like I had to be like everyone else. Just this year I have started to change for my good. I have become the person I want to be always, a outgoing, enthuizastic spirit. I have friedns that listen to me but sometimes I feel like they dont care. So today when I was told that I looked hot, I felt like crying right then and there. no one has really ever told me that i'm a beautiful person. Life is starting to look up for the first time in a long time. Thanks to some great friends and family members, I'm finally able to look at myself and think to myself that I'm perfect. I know people cant be perfect but I'm perfect in my eyes. Because I am beautiful in every single way and words cant bring me down. So for now on, I'm me , I'm Julie Quick the girl who will look at the world from a different angle and the girl that will do everything to make something of my life. On a side note, thanks to all my great friends who see me for me. You are a gift that I cherish dearly! Love you all!
**Jules**

*Life Without You*

Its a beautiul life,
when your in it.
Just to be able to talk to you is a gift,
that I definitly cherish.
You light up my life,
Even the parts that have been dull for ages.
You havent just flipped through the book,
you've actually turned my pages.
You see me as a friend,
I see you as a hero.
You give me a reason to keep going.
Even if theres no tomorrow.
you give me the strength I need to proceed,
the strength I need to believe.
Life hasn't been the same since you've came around.
If not for you,
I would be face flat on the ground.
You keep me going, you turn me on,
You help me keep my feet on the ground.
Your fantastic & beautiful in every shape and form.
Bradley, I'm so happy you were born!

*By Julie Q* May 20th, 2003

Well, I rode the bus home for the first time in like a month or so! Bradley's a geek! jk! Yeah anyways, I got a big fat 'F' on my Julius Caesar test today! i feel so smart! Yeah, oh my god today in TV Pro i went to get into my music video stuff and SOMEONE deleted it all! I was pissed!! Beaver was sitting next to me and he heard everything that i was saying! So i had to start all over and make a new file nad program and everything! I have an idea of who it was but no need for names! ANyways, I'm bored and I want to go somewhere so if anyone is willing to come to my house and pick me up, please do! I'll talk to you later!
**Jules**

SEX
I had my first solo of the year tonight and I kicked ass I guess! I had people coming up to me left and right saying I did great! AH the sweet smell of success! Next step...a band! YEAH!! Anyways, I obsess too much i have figure that out! Yeah , you might all know who I'm talking about if you do then great, you'll understand then! I've been telling myself that I dont want to get attached to him at all. I want to just keep it going as friends because its a lot of fun right now, but then I'm totally starting to fall for him. Its just something about him that I can resist about him. GRR, I cant stop thinking about him. I talked to Nickie Hable tonight about it and all and she just asked me a simple question and it really made me stop and think about it for a moment. It was a 'sex' question and it involved this guy. She wanted to know that if he asked me to have sex with him and he was being totally honest, what would I say. It really made me think a mintue because I've heard that he will have sex with a girl and then just leave her I dont want that I know that for sure. I told her that I would have to say yes to the question which is kinda scary and all but I think I would be ready once the time came thats even if it does come!! Anyways, I think I've said enough! I'll talk to you all later!

Julie Slow**

*I wrote this last night at about 1 am*

When you come around, I melt & become nervous,
When you talk to me, I want to say how much you mean to me, but i think you'll just laugh.
You mean a lot to me, you have no clue.
We have a great time together, we laugh & screw around, its like we dont have a care in the world.
But when its time to leave, I always have this urge to hug you, this urge to kiss your sweet lips.
Just being able to look in your deep blue eyes & try to figure out your feelings is like a mystery that should be solved.
Just watching your body language seems to suggest that you have feelings towards me too, but they're decieving.
I wish I was right, I hope that there is something between us, yes theres a friendship, a bond that won't ever fade, but what about a relationship? Is it in the future?
Near...?

Far...?

Ever....?

*These feelings are so true, if only he had them too. I dont know if he knows about my feelings toward him at all but I hope that when he reads this, he will think twice. Hopefully.
**Julie Slow* (thats a clue to the guy who this is about...)