rays over, im listening to nelly and he is sword fighting with my little brother....Hmmm good times :)

from the way that you acted
to the way that I felt it
It wasn't worth my time
and now it's sad cause all I missed
wasn't that good to begin with
and now I've started you begging
saying things that you don't mean
it isn't worth my time
a line's a dime a million times
and I'm about to see all of them

Goodbye to you
you're taking up my time

you call my name when I wake up
to see things go your way
i'm coughing up my time
each drag's a drop of blood a grain
a minute of my life
it's all I've got just to stay down
why the fuck am I still down
I'm hoarding all thats mine
each time I let just one slip by
I'm wasting what is mine

I'm about to see a million things
I thought I'd never see before
And I'm
I'm about to do all of the things i dreamed of
And i dont even miss you at all

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to you
you're taking up my time

~The USed_Bulimic

....this song describes exactly how i feel about a certain few people that i used to associate with. Last night was so amazing i went to rays house and we hung out and it was soo much fun and last night along with many other times that i have been with him have made me realize how much i love him!!! :)

my other lover is comming over soon (ashlie ) were gonna go to the mall then to that party tonight, it shall be fun. well im gonna go now

~stefanie~

My dick in your mouf
my chcikens are really loud...MMmmmMM i think im gonna make me some chicken nuggets...;) tee hee hee

Fuck, that party..on saturday, ne one going?

~Peace nigga~

I love Ray

I got CHICKENS!!!!!!!!! ....i went over to rays house yesterday and he lives on a farm kinda and they got 26 new little baby chickens and they said i could take one home...and i named it bandit, and i think it thinks im it's mommy cause it follows me everywhere. :) its sooo cute though and then they were like well your gonna have to take another one so he dosen't die of lonliness...so i got another one..and i havent decided on a name yet im either gonna name it ducky or smokey cause its gray and black and white. and Bandit is yellow and white,but there both boys which mean's there COCkS heheh and all that good stuff but eventually im gonna bring them back to rays house cause they will be too big and they will be full grown roosters and my dad wont let me have them running around the house..there soo loud though..and they peck everything. i was laying on my bed with them and one of em pecked me in the eye :( ..heheh and right now i ahve them up on the computer desk and he started pecking at the screen where the mouse was moving around on the computer...it was very funny...yes well besides my new chickens :) i think im suposed to be going to some party in Briarcliff this weekend...hmm with a ashlie and ray and Christian and a bunch of people i don't know...but it costs 8 bucks to get in so i dunno...last weekend was fun we went on my boat and went tubing. ashlie and ray came and we all got very sun burnt...umm friday i spent the night at ashlies...Lots of fun things went on there all throught out the night ;)...yeah i m really tired though so im gonna try to sleep though i doubt ill be able to with all the chirping..what ebba..

~peace~

I just woke up yayy...i was very tired, I was suposed to go to some latin rythem club at school with ash-leigh but she didn't go cause we didn't have a ride home so we didn't go :(..whatever, dance isn't really my thing ne way art is :) :)...yeah so last weekend was pretty fun, well atleast friday night at the movies was.....but were not gonna get into that, then saturday me and ash-leigh hoplessly wodered what we would do all day. so we decided to walk to subway..cause were pimps and subway is cool, then my dizz-ad came and picked us up and we went to the mall for a little shopping...thats always fun. then we came home to my house and ashlie had to leave shortly after, then i demanded to my dad that he would let me go driving...and he was like no my back hurts...so i was like wahh and i sat on the computer some more then a little while later he came out and was like ok lets go..i was sooo happy, he drove to prime time Video then i was liek can i drive now so he let me drive all the way to home depot in south Ft. Myers, then to the wall mart next to it, then when we were done at wally world he let me drive all the way home..it was exciting concidering that i have only drove like 3 times before that and im not even 15 yet....woot......then sunday was mothers day...blah, church then brunch at Brixz, but then i got to drive home from Brixz...fun :)...now im listening to Lost Prophets, Shnobi Vs. dragon and it reminds me of that hoobastanl and lost Prophets concert and the huge pit that opened up in this song it was soo fucking crazy, and those stupid ass preppy chicks that me and ashlie decide that we would..hmmm...*Mosh* with even though they werent even moshing but we decided that it would be fun to kick there ass's, lOts O fun ;)....Yes Indeed

yesterday i went to Rays house :). when i got there he gave me a shirt that he got me at the blink 182 and Taking Back Sunday concert he went to. its Bright green, My favorite color and it says Taking back sunday on it, i felt all special and stuff...

Im bored, i have a lot of home work to do...kinda and i have to go run so i think that will be all for now...oh yeah tomorrow im finally getting my hair colored for real, i even have an appointment..*!!!YAYY!!!*

Ok, bye everyone..

~~Stef~~

Certain things that i see just make me want to sit there and cry and all the things i remember and all the memories. things can never be the same once they are over and reuined ...people change and it sucks when people u really love are gone and changed forever and no matter what u wish u could do there is no way u can save them or bring them back to the person that u used to love. ..these past 2 and a half years have gone by so fast and there have been many people in my life who i have loved and lost....relationships and friends...and seeing them where they are now makes me really sad and i could sit there all day and remember all the mamories that we had together and wish that i could go back and relive the moments and make the outcome better...better than it is now...but then there are also the people who i have in my life now that make everything ok..and i know life will go on..and it will be ok...i just wish i didn't have to see these other people and what they are doing to themselves....its hard but i gotta keep moving......it's like any little thing...and smell, sight, place, person, thought could get me thinking all day and make me sad..i hate it but what can u do? nothing. yeah sorry if i confused a bunch of people by this, i don't really know how to say exactly what im trying to say myself...........but thank you ashlie for being there when i need you cause if i think about it. if me and you wouldent have become such good of friends i would have still been stuck with theses people probaly. doing bad things, alone, not really having anyone who gives a damn about me and im glad that i have u now cause at least i have one person. I love you!!!

yes i think that is all for now.....i could go on forever and ever but there is really no point so im gonna go and do something useful like study for spanish...Hmmm probaly wont end up doing that anyway but it would be good.....ok im out :)

~!!stef

Good morning day
Sorry I’m not there
But all my favourite friends
Vanished in the air
It’s hard to fly when you can’t even run
Once I had the world, but now I’ve got no one

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I drown….drown

Good morning day
Sorry you’re not here
All those times before
We’re never this unclear
It’s hard to walk when you can’t even crawl
Once I had this world, but now I’ve lost it all

your lipstick, his colar, dont bother angel, i know exactly what goes on.
Im bored as hell, im just sitting here, i think im gonna sleepsoon...maybe, today was ashlies birthday, i got her balloons in 5th period and i brought em out to lunch and one of em flew away!!:(, oh well she still had like 6 more so its ok...

sexy mohawk boy does that snuf, chewing tobacco stuff...eww.eww.eww i saw him spitting it out at lunch, there was this huge spit pile, then he showed me it in his mouth, i almost threw up :(, icky icky, ne ways, umm i think me and ashlie might go to the hoobastank concert this friday at the college, i dunno yet, if we don't were gonna go to the movies and hang out and walk to target and maybe barnes and Noble....maybe...

I have to hang out with julian more, he is my buddy, we are starting to be really good friends wich makes me very happy cause he is really cool, even though he is kinda dumb sometimes, we might get in too much trouble together though, ashlie will keep me in line though ;).....

yeha thats all im gonna go sleep and clean my room some more then talk to my lover Ray!~<3~

~~peace nigg-ass

*fuck me running rapidly, backwards through a cornfield*

TEE-Hee hEE


i have to kill a few people then everything will be ok :-D

~~~~~~~~~~~~STEF~~~~~~~~~~~~~


P.S: i have a obsession with touching my boobs. oh well

<3~~~HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLIE!!!!!!!!!!!<3


....surprises will come later!!! heheh ;)

I love u!!

~~STef's A MAJOR Pimp!!~~~