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shit i just wrote this whole great journal entry then i pushed a button soo itsw all gone!!!!! fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!! well today is sunday and sfter church i came home and watched Jeepers creepers 2 with mi little brother... it wasa shitty movie, dont waiste ur time then everyone magically disappeared off into their own places...so i was alone, the way i like it. I then watched Uptown Girls..and it was a really good movie, I cried a lil too,,,so im a wuss, oh well. after that i ate some food, then continued mi movie watching fest. so I watched American Pie: American Wedding..i watched the unrated one so there was alot of boobies and explict words and fun stuff like that.. ya no.. it was just ok,,,some parts were funny. So yesterday was saturday and i went to the bears house and ashlie and her lover andrew were there. we hung out there for probaly a total of like five mins... then we walked to dannys house, he was not there so we stood outside in thre cold for like an hour and a half at scarecrows house (its directly next to dannys)...... finally danny comes home..so all of us then went to the movies where we saw " My babys Daddy" it was a surprisingly funny movie. I got to hang out with ashlie alot too and i got to no her better know her better and she is a very cool, funny girl.. i hope that we get to be goo friends!!! ahh i havent talked to zack since school and i miss him... i think i will talk to him soon though so thats good***After the movie we walked around for like 2 hours it was really fun..and danny is a really funny person..so it was cool..but for somr reason i think teddy bear wasnt having such a god time!! i hope not.. i wub u!!..omg when i came home friday night mi stepmother reminded me to feed mi mice and i then remembered that i haden't feed them in over 2 weeks...yAh shit..so i went out to check on the five of them and out of the 4 boys and 1 girl that i had..there was only the one girl left..who bi the way was the mom of three of them,,haha..well not realy ha ha but ya. So i think they got so hungry that they just started eating eachother,,or she just ate their dead corpses when they died i dunno.. oh well.. n o more mice..well accept one, ahh so yah..i guess that is all for mi exciting weekend so im gonna go now and do whatever it is i do!! fun fun BI

Thursday lyrics!! A very good song!!


Cross out The Eyes

Let's call this the quiet city:
Where screams are flet as a wave of stoplights
Drive through the the streets as gunshots punctuate the night
The sides we take divide us from our faith
And the morning dove gets caught in the telephone wire

Asleep you set the fire in your own house
And the night was a knife that cut
And I'm paralyzed

Cross out the eyes
Blur all the lines
Tearing this canvas from the wall
We crossed out the eyes
Put lines through these cries
We pulled all the leaves from the trees that fall

A silent dance that we did into this hospital bed
Hear voices from another room
"It happens all the time"
But July in the sand
Then the leaves that fall
And counting down our days to live....
Drain the blood from this valentine.

"We can rise on the wings of the dove
See blue skies getting caught in the trail of all this smoke
We can rise like candles in the dark your always"
and an envelope marked with your new address

It was the first time face to face
I'm crossing the line
Talking to the other side of death
Hearing the words that choke memories into flatlines
I'm calling your name hoping for something to wash these dreams of you away

Our fence was blown down in a winter storm and this field
stretched out of this world into the sound of a trace of blood in a love song
What can we do to put a stop to the coming white days?
I'm hoping the snow will push these dreams of you away

wow what a night!!!
wow what a night...i went to the movies at like 6:45...it was an very interesting night..at first tyler was ok with me but then he started acting like a little bitch when he got around phil..like everyone is when they get around phil...see phil has a way of ruining people in his own special way...... he talks sooo much shit about everyone behind their back then when he sees them in public he acts like eveyone is cool, and tries to get them to talk bad about their friends...like for instence...phil tries to get teddy to talk bad about me ...but he dosent thats y i love him!!! neways Phil is an asshole and one day he will see, how it is..hes dumb. whatever.... but besides that whole episode..it was a good night. i hung out with Katelyn and she is really really cool...i hope we become good friends. She is like the mommy in the group....dont slip...no dont do thta..."oh dont get introubl" hehe it's funny but cool... i luv ya!!! i miss zack too..im not gonna get to hang out with him till like next week :*(.... and tonite i found out who mi real friends are....Teddy, Zack and Danny!!! not the guys that i used to call friends...all they are is mean people who like to put down others because they get a rise out of it...there mean lieing a holes and i really dont care if i ever hang out with them again...EVER....lamar is really cool too and so is ashlie, tarek and josiah!!!! tomorrow im going to teddys house with ashli, Katelyn, Danny, andrew,and lamar...were gonna have a "tea party" hehehe...funny..and im goin somewhere with mi parentals and the grandparents.. fun fun..he..he and then when i got home i was on the comp..and eric imed me and it was tyler and phil (who were at erics house) and they were bein all dumb and sayin a bunch of mean nasty stuff,,,but Jimmy is really really cool!!! he called me me while they were iming mean stuff to me and i was on the phone with him...he was in the samr room as all the shit talkers..and they didnt no that i was on the phone,,, he told them that i was tommy htat he was talkin to...heheh so i heard all the shit that they were sayin....and im glad to say that i didn't hera eric say anyhting about me..so i think we might be friends again..so thats good...well i must be gouing now.. i need to get some sleepage!!! i luv u teddy!! and everyone elese!!!

Bi

Guess what??
Guess what...me AND ZACK got our tickets last night to the Thursday..a.f.i and cohhedd and cambria concert at techo arena on march 7th i think......well anyways im sooooo excited i cant wait to go!!!!! we got floor seats.... everyone knows that all the fun stuff goes on down there!!hehe i love thursday soooo much..zack says that he thinks he is gonna cream his pants when they come on...hehe sry zack!! lol !!!! yah but today was a boor besides that..i was really kinda sad. but im ok for know.. i think, just think posative thoughts!! Thursday... Thursday...Thursday!!!! hehe ok better!! ne ways well thats about all...a nd i guess health class isnt that bad..the teacher is very interesting...kinda weird..oh well..

BI

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today was the first day back to schooll...blah ...boring..poo i should have been sleeping!!! I dont have art anymore and that makes me really angry... now i have health instead, and i have to sit in a cold boring plain classroom for the rest of mi 9th grade year for 1st period and listen to some weirdo coach tell me about penises and wrapping it up. and stds and all that fun shit that i already learned about in 6th grad...so that makes me angry...cause instead i could be painting...but no!!!neways...theres no one online right now to talk to ...i want t o talk to someone for some reason.its boring right now. i need to find some new cool websites to go to...if u have any suggestions ,,tell me... no porn please!!!! i wish zack or teddy would come on.. yah but me dan kaitlin and ashlie all got our lunch changed to 2nd shift wich is reall ycool casue hunter andlydia adn josiah and all the cool people r there so its cool!! i think, well theres not much more to say so i think im gonna go and fuck with tylers journal..hehehe i no his password!!!! ok

BI!!!!!!!!!!!

im home...finally
hehe today was really fun...i went to zacks house..well read mi most recient entry to hear about our exciting dY..ANY WAY SO I JUST GOT HOME...I TOOK A CAB it was the fist time i did...see zacks mom was gonna take me home but she took somthin for her back pains that made her realy tired...so it was best that she didnt drive. And his step dad was drunk...dont worry htere not drunks he he lol!! any ways she called a cab for me and gave me 30 bucks for the ride...the guy was kinda crepy lookin and he smoked cigarettes..eww yuk!!. so i called tyler and talked to himt he whole time to keep me company so the guy didnt pull over and rape me lol i dont think he would have Ihope :( neways so when i got home i called zack to tell him that i made it hopme safe cause he told me too cause he is a caring concerned friend (i wub u zack) hehe well thats all for mi adventures for today....Bi everyone!!!!!

Howdy Folks
hey...yah im at zacks house rght now....seamus left like and hour and a half ago..we had "emo" time before he left...we listened to Thursday and i layed on the floor and thought..it was fun tho...But before that we watched Half Baked..I love that movie..last time i was here i watched that too. I think that t is a really funny movie!!!!, after seamus left zacks mom made zetti and ceaser salad it was really good...then me and zack came in his room and played Tony Hawk underground. Right now im listenin to Dashboard and writing this zack is playin his G tar!! Zack is super cool im really glad that we are friends..he is like one of mi best!! if ur viewing mi journal right now u probaly hear music..Its thursday(durh) the song is called consealer..isnt it cool!!! shame on u if u didnt no who it was..ther like mi fav. band!! yah and bi the way zack set it up for me.. thanks buddy!!hehe today was fun..the two days before werent. all i did was sit home and sit on mi comp. So i auctually went somewhere today (zacks house) i was gonna take the bus but mi grandpa offered to take me so thats coll!! tomorrow is the last day before we go back to scholl, and im gonna go shopping at the mall with mi buddy tyler im gonna get some new clothes and im gonna bye the thursday-war all the time cd!! yay ... well there snot much more to say so im gonna go and hang out with m super cool friend zack k?! peace out niggas!!! hit me up with some comments hehehe!!! BI

look at me!!! i'm emo!!!hey douche i dint write that...meanie poo teddy wrote that!!!!!!...ok thats it Mr. Im changing mi password!!!!!!

i feel really content right now... I talked to an old friend last night.....we weren't friends for a while...auctually he ios mi most recient x boyfriend..but when we were goin out we wer like best friends..ne ways he dumped me and i was really sad... but he sent me a message on mi phone before i went to the movies yesterday...so when i got home i noticed that he was online so i imed him and we both agreed that we definatly wanted to be friends!!!! im glad because that was like the only hting that ever really made me sad...now i dont have to be!!!! hehe so im happy...Yha anyways its like 1:45 i went to bed at like 3;30 last night so yah i just woke up a lil while ago..fun fun...im all alone at mi house!! (the way i like it!!)

I dont no whAT Im goNNa do today yet..i might go to teddys... i might not..i might sit here on mi comp all day..i might get dressed and do somthing.... or i might go out to eat with the family.. i dunno yet!! oh wellyes well i m gonna go now and go to thursdays website cause thursday rock!!!

I think teddy bear is mad at me i dont no y tho...but it makes me sad (tear) .... im gonna cry...

bi!!

hey everyone hows it hangin..this isnt mi journal entry for today..look at the one before this!! but i just wanted to tell everyone to add tyler2miwhore to ur friends list...hes a cool kid u should get to no him..he dosent really have many friends cause his parents always move around,,and he lives on the beach so read his journal,...he just started it so bear with him!!! ok luv ya lots- stef :)

boo hoo
today was weird..alot of boringness went down today.. i woke up at like 12:30 went directly on mi comp. Talked to teddy and zack and Lamar....spent like 3 hrs slowly getting ready and randomly cleaning stuff..then at like 5:10 i left to go t zacks house... his mom then took us to the movies..where we met up with the bear.Together we saw Peter Pan. it was a really really good movie..it made me cry towards the (tear)...it was good tho!!!!!!! then mi teeth really started hurting..alot.. i think i cept mi crest white strips on way way tooo long and the bleach got to them.they hurt like hell right now the only reason im on the comp is cause i cant sleep it hurts too much!!!!!! the movies was boring after the movie was over ..like no one was there even all mi enimies werent there..i guess everyon is starin to realise how lame the movies are. I was in way to much pain to even try to have fun so zack calle dhis mom and she took me home,, and thats where i am right now.i guess that is all fro now..tyler wants me to come over tomorro wi dont no if i will tho..i kinda want to ..i havent seen him in a day and when i did see him he was with me for like two days strait... but for some reason i think i miss him..oh well bye

arrghh
yah so today is the start of a new year..yippe skippee...just days untill everyone will break all those new year resolutions they made.. I dint really make any co i can't break any. Last night Me teddy and Tyler went to a Bon fire in bum fuck egypt..there was a trampeline too and fire works,....and smores and... yah u get mi point.. I was fun i would have been bored without the trapeline tho. at the end of te night we just started throwing everything in the fire.. at twelve everyone gave hugs and kisses and all the fun shit. We left at like 1:00 and took teddy bear home and Tyler spwent the nigth at mi house and we stayed up till like three watchin t.v and talkin it was interesting..but fun. He had to sllep in mi little brother michaels room( he has a bunk bed) and michael was in there too hehehe oh well.. i bet that was aquard, then when we woke up this morning i had very bad cramps and we had to help take down x-mas lights and if u saw mi house u would no that there was alot of lights on mi house...well i woke up at 11:30 and i went to wake up tyler and he wasnt there...so i went outside and everyone is already out there takin down lights including him!!! he made me loook bad infront of mi family!!meanie, then we chiled for a while after that and he came with me to mi ants house foe a whil then we came with mi gradparents back and on the way we went to Wal-Mart cause that store is the shit!!! anyway..me and tyler were walin on the toy isle and this mexican guy named Joe that worked there walked up to us and started talkin and he was llike so.... what did YOU two do on new years eve and so on and so forth and he kept talkin and he was like "yah im pretty new here , i just move dhere from Texas" and he was like "so< stefanie can i get ur #..You no just as "friends"..he was like"we can be good friends" and i was like no.. i dont think so ...sortly after that i was like Ok we gotta goand me and tyl;er walked away quickly...it was very odd ..for some reason this weird mexican guy that was probaly in his mid 20's thought that a few 14 year olds were gonna give in his number so we can be "friends".....aggg creepy!!!yah so then we came home...and tylers mom came to pick him up at like 10:00so ive been sittin in mi room listin to music and thinking...and bad things start to happen when i think and i get sad ....its a long story..anyway...blah blah blah you no the drill.....so i can finally get on mi computer when mi "step-mom" gets offf....and i decide to go to quizilla.comto take some quizzes and i stumble along one that sya "what swear word are u" so i take it and if u look down at the entry before this where it says "your shit" thats not me telling u that u are shit. That is what mi results were..just to clear that up!!! okie dokie?well there not much more to write today ws an ok day until i started thinking and getting "emo" which mi lover teddy bear tells me ot to do...who bi the way i havent talked to today...so he better get online..cause im not callin his house at the hour. His parentals would have a kaniption fit!!!! so bye e3veryone and if u want to take that pointless quiz click on the link on the entry before this. bye the way You put the fun in dysfunctional!!! hehehe