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innocence

:: 2004 28 November :: 10.29pm
:: Music: k i s s meeeeeeeee - mariah carey

holy christ!!

holy christ! lol. this weekend was unbelievable i had butterflies 3 days .. scratch that, 4 days in a row. heres what went down.. -~-~>

friiday -- okie dokie, me paul and aunt lee go to the isle [ long island] .. we get there around 3'ish. nobodys home so i start my homework, we dilly dally, finally aunt dee gets home. next thing i know, my aunt patties calling, so i answer it. i get invited to go to the movies. so me rob paul n jimmy go to the movies, we get in to see national treasure, which in fact, is a damn good movie. so, its this order in seats from left to right .. jim me rob paul, so me n jim share the drink he bought, im leainin towards him, hes leaning towards me..nothing happend, just a smidge of innocent flirting. after the movies i get dropped off back at aunt dees, then the kids come back over and we played texas holdem, i gave r o b a massage, and then we all passed the fuuck out.

saturday - omg what an incredible day i swear to you. ok so i get up at 10 something to a text message by jimmy, we talk for a bit, then he invited me to the mall. so he picekd me up, we went to the mall, bought a few things, got in massage cfhairs -- those shits are ill as fuck -- then we went to tgif and we had lunch -- he paid for me. then we went back to my aunts house, played cards, then we had to leave quick cuz we were going to the movies, again, he paid for my ticket, but i snuck in the money to buy the drink. SCCCOORE lol. it was so cute, he was gonna get pepsi, thn saw they had cherry pepsi, he asked me if i lieked it so we coould share it i was like awwwwwwww lol.. the movie we flirted, leaned towards one another.. holy christ i wanted to make my move haha. then we picked up the goonies, went to aunt pats, then he brought me back to aunt dees and dropped me off, he woulnt leave until i was in the door.. awz then he came back over w/ the goons, and we played cards, he got an incredible back massage, so did i , i know he looved it lol. he loveed it, the moans comin out of is mouth lmfao.. then i started massaging his neck and arms, oh baby .. yeaa lol yes, mucho flirting, i was leaing on him n just WO lol. he smells soo good lol. i can say soo muich more about this night, but i gotta go in like 2 min

then sunday, aka today i played pool and txted jim all day long. idk i wanna confront him about me liking him czu if he dont know hes kina retarded ... but i dont wana be rejected, omg id be soo happy if he liked me back.. theres just a few little bumps in the road lol right lovie.. well i gotta go b4 my aunt rips me another asshole...

hellpp .. omg i hope he likes me ...... lol to confront him or not to confront him!!!?

When I see him, I got nothing to say -- cause the damn urge to kiss him takes my breath away...

xoxo
cruushin'
i could wake up to that face everyday.. plus, we're both good massuses hehe.

:: 2004 28 November :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: crazy

You get drunk everynight and
question what my life is worth ?

:: 2004 28 November :: 2.06pm
:: Mood: curious

IDEA! ligth bulbs are goign off!
okay so i wanna see polar express. at the imax theater! come on, any takers?!

i want danny to go but i dunno if i can push that one ;\ i deff gunna be trying :-D

Ox

ps. i know the journal = ugly but i have to go to work ill fix it later <3

:: 2004 27 November :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: aggravated

im bored =[

llala heyy guys whats up? im sitting in dannys room.. ~~kinda~~ bored :-P talkin to jen. i dont really feel good and im in a bad mood :-\ we havent done too much today me him nd cor whent to ft lauderdale to get his boxes. they look really pretty in his car witch is good and he was really excited over them :o)but yeah we got back here at like 330 and cor left aqnd nate come up. theyeve been playin halo ever since, nates eaving at 9 to go to his brotheres show. and then i dont know what dannys gunna do think he wants to go out? witch means ill have tog o home =[ gayy but yeah im so broke.. i need to go christmas shoping too i dont know what ANYONE wants thoi it sucks [ im sure i can come up with something...??!? who knows you mught ger lucky ;] ha anyways i guess imma go watch halo some more ;] byeee guys

i love you baby!

10 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 27 November :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: cranky

grrrr

heyyy!! guys i REALLY need help with my math project its due on tuesday and i have NO CLUE how to do it...
someone please help

:: 2004 26 November :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: chipper

today was good
it was cold out this morring :o)

got my nails done (( they are way too short))

picked up danny <33 for lunch

decorated for c h r i s t m a s ! hung lights and put out the deer its starting to look pretty hehe i love ch rist mas time

Your my life i love you danny !

:: 2004 25 November :: 4.15pm
:: Mood: pissed off

thanksgiving !!
welp i woke up really early due to all the "happy thanksgiving" textmessages and layed around for an outragously long time.=) when i finally did get up i cooked =( my aunt and ray came over around 1:30 and everyone ate. i hate thanksgiving food. yuck! ::sticks tounge out:: and i was sitting out with everyone and my grnamda pissed me off and iv been in my room ever since. with the exepction of taking my aunt to dunkin d's! and then my mom pissed me off so i just decided to come back to my room.

thats my thanksgiving!

hope everyone had a fantastic day!
i love you danny!!

:: 2004 25 November :: 11.44am
:: Mood: anxious

HAPPY TURCKY DAY!

:: 2004 25 November :: 1.43pm
:: Mood: amused

lol

What kind of disease are you?

ashley:

ashley is caused by Satan.

ashley will slowly turn infected subject into a dinosaur.
ashley is curable by singing Michal Jackson songs at the top of your lungs, forever. You can never speak again, or you will die.

1 dreamer | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 24 November :: 11.21pm
:: Mood: exhausted

this ones for you
i began to update like really update cause i havent for awhile but i cant bring myself to im too lazy or something.

so im not going to but...
i did get to see my honey tonight
witch always its a plus to my day <3

i love you danny <3

innocence

:: 2004 22 November :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: get low remix

suck it suck it suck it lick it lick it lick it -- lolol strawberry

okay.. well my weekend was pretty freaking awesome -- if only just a few more things went my way..

i shall start off with friday, friday went to school. exciting right? i wore my skirt outfit and two guys named mohammed yes two guys names mohammed hit on me.. reaallly weeeird! lol. anyway, so i met up w/ lovie at bayside, and then we went to my house. we hung out with paulie for a while and then john took us to a movie. we saw after the sunset. movie was good, john fell asleep so lovie and i shot spitballs at him -- SOO FUNNY. then on the car ride to the pool place we shot them all over the car, he didnt see one, amazing that guy. pool was fun, then i came home talked to my babby <3carly then*jimmy* and then laur and i went to bed in my room.

satuurday -- omg the most nerveracking day everr lol .. woke up at 825 so laur could go to her dentist thing and then when she left i passed out til about 1130. woke up, watched laguna beach, lovie came back over, we just hung out, then i packed and got ready for loong isslaand woot woot. it was a while til we were leaving, so me laur and paul all laid in his bed and played w/ our cell phones lol. soo bored, rearranging our contacts into groups -- what nerds we are!! then me john and aunt lee left to go to the island.. we arrive there and go to my aunt dee's house, they're all talking about politics.. then aunt lee and john go out to have a cig and me and aunt dee talk.. shes like .. you know, jimmy broke up with his girlfriend lol. and i was like oh i know.. haha. so anyway, i finally get in touch with jim and rob so i get dropped off over there and we played texas hold em the whole night and we were up til like 1 sumthin playing, i did good for my first time, partially b/c of the r o b . after that everybody passed out cept for me and *jimmy* so he played halo and i watched him, then when he was done we started to wach freddy vs jason, but we both passed out b4 it was over. soo we fell asleep on the floor.. omgggg i wanted him soo bad lol. i was gonna make a move.. but i didnt!! wonder what he thinks ..

sunday ... woke up with him by my side, oh i could go for that again lol. its a great feeling. hehe. my gram cooked us pancakes.. we had a uhm, interesting conversation during breakfast and a few flirty looks [ i think ] and then after that the boys played halo, and my r o b went to the hospital, he makes me so nervous. so after that rob came home and we all hung out. played smash, had lunch, more looks. .. played more cards, kinda flirted with gijoe .. played a good game then got picked up to go home :-( saddest part of the weekend forrreaaal.

but i solemly swear -- jimmy has the nicest eyes i think ive ever seen. theyre soo blue, but not ugly blue, beautiful cleary blue.. wher it looks like an ocean i swear.. its amazing the feeling i get when i look in his eyes. and his voice.. aahh so hot lmfaoo. i swear, id be so happy waking up to that face. hes soo awesome, i havent found a flaw yet, cept that we live in diff cities, but im moving to his town next yr, so it all works out i guess. but i really hope i dont get disappointed.... blecghh

pros
SOO HOT
nice voice
loove his eyes
awesome personality
has a car
friend of the family
sweet
FUNNNNNY
etc..

cons
JUST broke up w/ his grl.. only wants to play for now
21 yrs old
lives an hr away
not sure how he feels about me

god, i want this to work soo bad, his last two grls fuckd him over completely, and im not like that. i wouldnt use him, fuck w/ his head, cheat on him, make him spend all his time w/me, be up his ass. i would be soo good for him and he would be soo awesome for me.. wish me luck guys, i need it and i reallly think this would be good for me..

i really wanna tell him how i feel, but i think its too risky.. ahh hellpp. im going all gaga..

but im out, or else ill keep rambling x0

<333 cruushin hardcore

5 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 22 November :: 6.56pm
:: Mood: bitchy

you have promises of a better life,what wrong with the one im leading? everyone has a different fight

what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

so fall asleep tonight, cuz' that brings me closer to you

i remember when a hello melted you away. one smile would have brightend you day.

you're so not making this easy.

:: 2004 22 November :: 1.01am

gr someone should take my journal and make it pretty for me. i give up its bedtime

1am

:: 2004 21 November :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: party for two

dew for an update or something i suppose
It's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe we can make it through anything
'Cause when it all comes down
And I'm feeling like I'll never last
I just lean on you 'cause baby
You're my better half

i updated :o) i love you!!