<b> dream</b>

2 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 20 September :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: dorky

dont get my car back untill friday ;[
saw him...had a great night

<3333

5 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 20 September :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: i woke up in a car

i love my friends!
your so simple: hey <3
slider rebel23: hey
your so simple: how are you
slider rebel23: okay haning in there
slider rebel23: how r u doing
your so simple: thats good :-) did you have to work tonight?
your so simple: ehh... im alright i guess..
slider rebel23: no work....whats wrong
your so simple: eh im.. drained..
slider rebel23: thats what drugs do to u
your so simple: i dont do drugs damnit.
your so simple: :-(
slider rebel23: o okay ;-)
your so simple: i swear
slider rebel23: i believe u
your so simple: idk that boy confuses me.
slider rebel23: me?
your so simple: no lol
your so simple: i like dont ever talk to you anymore, i never say hi to you anymore, i never hug you anymore. its because you hate me.
slider rebel23: no i dont hate u ....
your so simple: ...
slider rebel23: u can talk to me all u want
your so simple: eric, u give me the WEIRDEST looks when i see you, ashley says u look @ her like u hate her.
slider rebel23: i just dont have much in my vocabulary
your so simple: hah
your so simple: you boys auck.
your so simple: suck*
slider rebel23: well i hate ashely!
slider rebel23: lol
your so simple: why!
slider rebel23: j/k
slider rebel23: i dont really i give ever one bad looks
your so simple: ;-\ thats what she thinks..
your so simple: idkkkk
your so simple: ima start sayin hi to you again, i got caught up in josh and i caught up in gundy now
slider rebel23: well for now on ill say hi and smile real big when i see u both and give u big hugs
your so simple: promise?
slider rebel23: a guys promise never last but this one im going to make it last for atleast a day!
your so simple: yay!
your so simple: isnt that that truth.
slider rebel23: u saying guys r all jerks
your so simple: 99.9 % of em.
slider rebel23: and do u kno anyone not in that 99.9%?

your so simple: yeah
your so simple: actually i do
slider rebel23: who?
your so simple: you see, there this Eric Greene kid, whos not always a jerk.. And Gundy isnt one to the least.
slider rebel23: :-D
your so simple: ;-)
your so simple: <33
slider rebel23: i can be nice
your so simple: i know you can..
your so simple: slider rebel23: u can talk to me all u want -- thats being nice...

OoOSHTson: bery good
your so simple: hows carruthers clas?! lol
OoOSHTson: lol I dunno, alright I assume
your so simple: lol
OoOSHTson: and your class with him?
your so simple: exact same.
your so simple: how odd.
OoOSHTson: wow naughty
OoOSHTson: I know what are the odds
your so simple: crazinesss. but ya know? i hve this awesome kid that makes funny faces at me all period!
OoOSHTson: oh really? now I have these 2 girls who sit close to me and tell me they love me all period...kinda weird, and they talk about me behind my back
your so simple: are you sure they talk about you behind ur back? bc usually thats bad, but what if they are sayin how awesomely cool you are? and what if they DO love you?!
OoOSHTson: well when I said behind my back, I think they say nice things about me...and what if they do love me?!?!
your so simple: well then ur loved damnit! and im sure its all good!
OoOSHTson: lol it better be good
your so simple: i promise lol
OoOSHTson: cuz today it looked like u guys were saying stuff about me, cuz I turned to ash and u guys looked at me funny and laughed
your so simple: lol no, its all good i promise lol
OoOSHTson: lol alright
OoOSHTson: brb restarting
your so simple: kk
OoOSHTson signed off at 8:42:28 PM.

:: 2004 20 September :: 5.47pm
:: Mood: wo0p!
:: Music: ashlee

:-d

you are so awesome

and i love you!

heartsbroken

:: 2004 19 September :: 4.56pm
:: Music: over and over

idk i hurd this part and i just thoght of dee
I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath
You took right in front of me
When you said that you would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you
Or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keeps
Playing in my head
Over and over again
It play in my head
Over and over again

...im tryin to do suttin and send it to dee but its harder then i thought...heather i need your help....

-michelle-

3 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 19 September :: 11.10pm
:: Mood: blah

you wernt ignoring me, but you wouldnt talk to me either is that how it works? ;[
my mom is taking her car in tomorrow so shes taking mine for the day .. i have no idea how im getting home from school now.. i refuse to walk though

you said you wernt ignoring me i wish i could believe that. ;[ feels like your mad at me, sick of me. i havent pin pointed it yet

got my textmessaging fixed today ;]

completely changed the journal.. wutcha think?

theres a half day on thursday and an lmt day on wed. no idea what im doing yet.

good luck tomorrow danny i loveyou.

---

he`s the one who`s cute n sweet
everytime i see him my <3 skips a beat
his smile always sweeps me off
my feet, hes the only one who makes
[*my life c o m p l e t e*]

----

innocence

:: 2004 19 September :: 9.51pm
:: Music: emmys

wedding // whits bday!!!

yealo. well i wont make this entry a long one. my aunts weddin was on saturday, that was freaking fun. i danced my ass off lol. white girl style lol carly and serious. then we got that country music on.. u know heath mich and wick lol. [save a horse ride a cowboy] then we were gonna play meatloaf lol aunt pat. my feet are still sore from all the dancing.

school tomorrow... which means i wake up at 5 a fuckin clock. at least i get to see a few people.. wink wink nudge nudge. lolol

by the way. this is a special shout out to my WHITTTNEYYY!! happy birthday girl. i know im early, but i didnt know if id be online tomorrow or not. also carly wtf do u want for ur bday!?! and wick. lemme know wat u want to. itll be late, but itll be there!!

speaking of bdays, moms and aunt lees is on thursday, mines coming up soon!! melll come visit meeee! lol but i guess im gonna get going cuz i gotta get up early. love and miss you alll..

colt -- wish i coulda been there n jess.. im writing u back now!! xoxox

rip mom. i love you soooo much. u dont evne know how much i miss you and how much im hurting. please help me to carry on and be a strong person.

love and miss all of you floridians!! ill try to be home soon. please dont forget me!! xoxxo <33

5 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

8 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 19 September :: 3.39pm
:: Mood: aggravated

toucan sam
im eating f r u i t loops! yumm!

took brittany home
cleaned my room
got my nails re done ! they actually look good !

ehh school again tomorrow..and im startin to feel better

nothin' really is new aye?

danny is ignoring me today

heartsbroken

:: 2004 19 September :: 1.39am
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: locked up

im so fucked up
immmmmmmmmmmm sooooooooooooooo ffffuucckkkkedddd up i need to go to sleep ....... ill up date later

<3 miche<3

----no love tonight----

:: 2004 18 September :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: crappy

I don't like who I'mbecomin'
I know I've got to do somethin'
Before my life passes right by
i wanna cry like the rain [cry like the rain], shine like the sun on a beautiful morning- fight with the devil and go down swingin, love like i aint afraid of bein alone- take everything that this world has to give:: i wanna live.

4 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 18 September :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable

its only the truth

If you look inside a girl's heart and see
how much she cries you'll find secrets bestfriends and lies,
but what you'll see the most is
how hard it is to stay strong when nothings
right and everythings wrong

:: 2004 17 September :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: cold

lala whattttss upp

today was -- good

pep rally rocked <3'd it!

dsl broke once again major dissappointment

dannys birthday! whOoP

1 dreamer | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 17 September :: 5.24pm
:: Mood: other.
:: Music: broken

--
If you look inside a girl's heart and see
how much she cries you'll find secrets, bestfriends and lies,
but what you'll see the most is
how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is
right and everything is wrong

1 dreamer | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 17 September :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Kenny Chesney- there goes my life

daaaaaannnnnnnnny!

Happy 18th Birthday!!!

i love you more than anything! xOxO

innocence

:: 2004 16 September :: 11.26pm
:: Music: talking to carly

schooool

hiii! today was my cousins birthday. happy seventeeth birthday paul!

in other news, started school on monday. what a bummer. my first class is at 720 in the morning, meaning i have to get up at 515, and leave my house by 615 to catch the bus by 635. i get outta school at 148 and get home at like 248. craazy right? yea, it is, -- but get this? freshmans and sophomores get out at 5:oo. thats freaking insane.

schedule is as follows ::
1st hr - earth science .... first of all, teacher is a biiitch .. i took that in 8th grade, so im taking it again b/c i need to take a regent for it. blah blah blah. at least my aunt is a earthscience teacher and can help me if i get lost
2nd hr - volleyball .... yea, i like volleyball - but i suck at it, what an embarassment, whatever tho, the teacher rocks my socks.
3rd hr - english honors .. so far so good i guess. so far we've had 2 essays, but the teacher seems nice.
4th hr - global studies .. teacher is so fuckin awesome its not even funny, she's probably my favorite teacher. so far so good in the class, the teach is realllly nice and seems like fun.
5th hr - on mondays i have lab, and tuesday thru friday i have lunch. lab sucks, i have it w/ my science teacher. fuckin wench. lunch is fun, since i dont know anybody i dont eat or sit with anyone, so i work for this guy in the lunchroom and get community service hours. whatever, at least im not twiddling my thumbs.
6th hr - math, easy shit, whatever, i wont complain
7th hr - omg my favorite freaking class lol, i wake up in the morning looking forward to this class its craaazy lol. kickass teacher, and its government, a senior class.. but whaterver im not complaining. i like it .. i like it a lot. omg the freaking hottest guy everrr is in that class and on the first day of school he talked to me!! woohoo the first person in the school to really talk to me, and damn was he hot lol. ill get into the story later.
8th hr - spanish, took it already, but whatever. kids in the class are pretty cool.

anyways, back to government. so yea, the first day of school theres this hot fuckin kid sittin down and so i walk into class and sit like two seats away and up. this other cute kid walks into class and sits behind me and next to the hot kid. the hot kid [jay for short] talks to me. we take attendance and him and his two friends just start talking to me and asking me questions and he really is just so fuckin gorgeous.. thats what he is, he is gorgeous. fuckin orgasmic. so anwyays, we really started talking and then i saw him in the hall and he said hey to me, he talks first which puts a smile on my face lol hey i aint gonna lie. but now in the class we have assigned seats and hes all the way on the other side of the classroom which sucks ass but on wed. jays friend [the cute one] screamed from across the classroom "hey florida" lol and i waved back, and then jays other friend simon staretd talkin to me a lot b/c he sits next to me soo hopefully we all chill sometime. but nothin really ever works out in my favor, but i can always hope. hes just soo hot i cant get over it hah. i just hope i dont get transferred outta that class lol.

other than that, life sucks, im not aloud to come to fl for my bday or for the summer b/c my family hates me. home life hasnt gotten much better. my moms bday is coming up ... idk what im gonna doo. aunts wedding is saturday, im not in the mood for celebration. im tired of crying. i want a boyfriend.

i feel like by the time i get backto florida, nobody will be my friend anymore, cept carly and maybe a select other few. i hate it. i hate my life. i do. really the only thing i look forward to is the hot guy at seventh hour lol. how pathetic is that. not like ill ever have a chance with that one either lol.

hell just be another landis another mike d another frank another danny another whoeeeeeeeever who i didnt get when i wanted them. whatever, life cant get much worse anyways. but i guess ill go finish talking to carly and then go to bed and dream about jay hahahaha. jk jk. i love and miss you all.

mel call me asap. and i have more shit i could write, but i gotta get up early.

later! xoxox --- i love you mom!

5 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 16 September :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: catch 22

whipped cream anyone?
had a really good day