I have been listening to a lot of The Cranberries, No need to argue Cd a lot lately. And also the Mix tape Christopher made me.

I have just been so happy. I know why. It seems like I should be unhappy with some of the situations that are going on, but I’m really unbelievably happy.

I probably won’t be able to see Chris this weekend. And that sucks a lot, but I’m still so happy with us. I feel like if I ask for anything more I could jinx it. So I will not.

This coming Monday it will be three months for us.

:O)

I'm a bum



I NEED A CAPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don' expect anyone to read this....
Long-ish survey.
001) What time did you start this?: 1:20
002) Name?: Jackie
003) Date of birth?: May 10 1987
004) Sex?: Female.
005) Height?: 5' 9 1/2
006) Eye color?: brown
007) Hair color?: Brown
008) Location? Michigan.
009) Do you currently love anyone? Yes.
010) Do you have crush on someone? no
011) Do you have a bf/gf?: Yes.
012) what are you wearing right now? Light blue jeans and a concert T-shirt
013) Would you have sex before marriage?: I’m not sure
014) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: no
015) Do you smoke? no.
016) Do you drink? On occasion
017) are you a player? No.
018) What are your favorite colors?: green, pink, red, basically everything
019) what is your favorite animal? Turtles and bunnies
020) Do you have any birthmarks? yes
021) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? yes
022) have you ever beat someone up? yeah
023) Have you ever been slapped? yes
024) Do you get online a lot? Yes.
025) are you shy or outgoing? outgoing
026) Do you shower? yes
027) Do you hate school? no
028) Do you have a social life? Sometimes lol
029) how easily do you trust people? Way to easy
030) Have you ever lied to your best friends? Yes, nothing serious though. Yeah I know its still bad
031) Do you have a secret people don't know? Yes.
032) would you ever Sky Dive? yes
033) Do you like to dance? yes
034) Have you ever been out of state?: Yes.
035) do you like to travel? A lot
036) Do you want to get out of your hometown? I don’t really have a hometown…..
037) are you a brat? My parents think so
038) Have you ever been dumped? Yes.
039) what’s your favorite soda? Diet vanilla coke
040) do you like Snapple? I don’t think I have had it
041) Do you drink a lot of water? Yes but I should drink more
042) what toothpaste do you use? Crest whitening something
043) Do you have a cell phone or pager? yes
044) Do you have a curfew? no just whatever my parents say
045) Who do you look up to? There are certin traits in everyone I look up to
046) are you a role model? I don’t think so
047) what kind of jewelry do you wear? A ring, a bracelet, peace earrings and usually a necklace
048) what do you have pierced? Ears
049) do you like taking pictures? I do
050) do you like getting your picture taken? no
051) Do you have a tan? A little?
052) Do you get annoyed easily?: no
053) Have you ever started a rumor? No
054) Do you have any siblings? Yeah.
055) Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers are cool, briefs are cool, and hey! So are boxer briefs!
056) Do you get along with your parents? Most of the time
057) how do you vent your anger? art, music, crying, stuff
058) have you ever run away? Once in sixth grade
059) Have you ever been fired from a job?: No.
060) Do you daydream a lot? Yeah.
061) Do you have a lot of ex’s? no?
062) what do you want a tattoo of? It depends
063) what do you have a tattoo of? nothing
064) what are your favorite flowers? Lilacs and daises, also black eyed Suzan’s
065) are you rude? I can be.
066) what was the last compliment you received? That I’m creative
067) is your bellybutton an innie or outie? Innie.
068) are you flexible? kinda.
069) what is your heritage? Irish, Native American, French, Dutch
070) what does your hair look like right now? messy ponytail
071) could you ever be a vegetarian? Yes.
072) if you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? Some sort or red
073) would you ever date someone younger than you? It has happened
074) would you ever date someone older than you? yes
075) when was the last time you were drunk? Awhile ago…..
076) when was the last time you went on a date? Lol not that long ago
077) Have you ever had an eating disorder? no
078) How many rings until you answer the phone? 2
079) Do you look more like your mother or father? I look like my dad?
080) Do you cry a lot? Enough. But Not a lot.
081) do you ever cry to get your way? no
082) if you had to amputate one limb, what would it be? A leg
083) what phrase do you use most on the phone? “yeah”
084) are you the romantic type? Oh hopelessly romantic
085) Have you ever been chased by cops? no
086) What do you like most about your body? nothing
087) what do you like least about your body? Most of it
088) when was the last time you threw up? When I had the flu this spring
089) in the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? Brunettes.
090) what do the shoes you last wore look like? flip flops black with a green and purple design
091) do you ever wear shirts to show your belly? psh no.
092) what about cleavage? yes
093) is your best friend a virgin? yes
094) what color are your underwear right now? black
095) what size shoe do you wear? 8 or 8.5
096) would you pick a wedgie in public? Hahaha
097) how are you feeling right now? ,I feel good.
098) when was the last time you were at a party? About a week ago
099) have you ever given a lap dance? no.
100) what do you sleep in? pajamas?
101) has there ever been a rumor spread about you? Yes.
102) what is one of your bad qualities? When I get angry, the whole world knows it. I don’t finish everything I start
103) what is one of your good qualities? I’m creative and preseptive
104) would you marry for money? no.
106) what do you drive? 99’ white Toyota corolla.
107) for two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy? Im sure it would not happen
108) what time is it now? 1:44

Right....my last journal was not to make anyone upset. I'm sorry if i did. I was just saying that the thought of it crossed my mind. And i hope you all know i would never ever in a bajillion years do that. I guess i was just trying to say that i was extremely upset i even thought about it. Its been more then a year since i have considered it, and its been a little less then a year since its crossed my mind. But it was short, and left quickly. I think its selfish anyone who has done it. And i could never cause other people so much pain, just because i had the brief pain of a teenager. So please don’t worry. I’m all better.


Thank you though. And much love to you all.

oh.....!

Your #1 Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

Your #2 Love Type: ENFJ

The Giver In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail. For you, sex is not seperate from love and caring. Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational. However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner. Best matches: INFP or ISFP

Something seems off.....
I was dying of heat today cleaning. Emily called me and asked if I wanted to go to the beach. So me her and nick went.
It was just great timing.
But the beach was awesome. Just what I needed.

I feel bad because I didn’t talk to Chris much.
I guess I’m just a jerk like that.
But I am sorry.

:S

Oh yeah thats the ticket!
I’m tired! But tomorrow is Friday so woot woot. I think im going to see batman tomorrow. I really want to see dark water, but its not out yet, and I need someone to go with. I cant go to scary movies alone.

School is a pain in the ass, but necessary.
I start my job at meijer’s Tuesday.
I have to go shopping for a certain someone’s grad party.
I think I have to go take a shower, then draw something….

So this is where I leave you.
Goodnight my loves.


“You drained my heart
And made a spade
But there's still traces of me
in your veins

You wanted perfect
You got your perfect
But now I'm too perfect for someone like you
I was a dandy in your ghetto with
A snow white smile
and you'll
Never be as perfect
whatever you do”

no one has to be, just do.
Apparently my parents were never teenagers.

I don’t have any trust left with them because i didn’t call. Excuse me for not being perfect.
It's like they only notice me when i mess something up. Who cares what i have done right, because the only things that matter to them are what i do wrong.

Im not Liz, Luann, or Justine. Im smarter then they think.

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"I'm Talking Bout Da FUNK!!"
Today was a great day. It was just so relaxed and fun. Everyone was fun to be around. I think there is just something in the atmosphere shouting that school is out in two more days.
And today was the first REAL food fight i have ever seen. It was mad crazy.

I'm excited to see my baby tomorrow. Yes i can hardly contain my excitement, so i will...............go clean the bathroom…….. then take a shower!!! Hooray for me.

anyway..........today i got 40 extra credit points added toward my final in science.


It was just an awesome day. I wish i could make you all feel better. To those of you who are having a rough time.
If i could spread my happiness i would. But for right now my love will have to do.

So i will talk to you kids later.

I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey...
I got my spacers on today, and man do they hurt like a bitch.

Braces next week.

oh boy.......

so i could say to her "fuck you, go to hell" But i wont because i figure that she just does not understand what shes saying. Maybe im wrong, but i'm going to give her a chance to come around.

but anyway, its hot out. so im going to go shower and sleep.

night