In the Mind of the Mellow

:: 2005 14 December :: 6.32am

Only 11 more days until christmas.

:: 2005 1 December :: 9.02pm
:: Music: Shania Twain- No One Needs to Know

don't tease me
Am I dreamin' or stupid?
I think I've been hit by Cupid
But no one needs to know right now
I met a tall, dark and handsome man
And I've been busy makin' big plans
But no one needs to know right now

I got my heart set, my feet wet
And he don't even know it yet
But no one needs to know right now

I'll tell him someday some way somehow
But I'm gonna keep it a secret for now

I want bells to ring, a choir to sing
The white dress the guests the cake the car the whold darn thing
But no one needs to know right now

I'll tell him someday some way somehow
But I'm gonna keep it a secret for now

We'll have a little girl a little boy
A little Benji we call Leroy
But no one needs to know right now

And I'm not lonely anymore at night
And he don't know only only he can make it right

And I'm not lonely anymore at night
And he don't know only only he can make it right

I'm not dreamin' or stupid
But boy have I been hit by Cupid
But no one needs to know right now

No one needs to know right now...

rachely

:: 2005 28 November :: 11.56pm

All she wants is a story with a happy ending
All she needs is a moment to feel pretty
All she says is she loves me and she's not pretending
All she wants is me

:: 2005 19 November :: 10.23pm

You fit in with:
Humanism

Your ideals mostly resemble that of a Humanist. Although you do not have a lot of faith, you are devoted to making this world better, in the short time that you have to live. Humanists do not generally believe in an afterlife, and therefore, are committed to making the world a better place for themselves and future generations.

20% spiritual.
80% reason-oriented.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

2 Smashy?s | Step in a Mellow

:: 2005 16 November :: 9.45pm

Told ya.

I just didn't know it would start that early.

Girlfriend time was great though.

:: 2005 15 November :: 11.20pm

I am fully prepared for tomorrow to suck big time. Despite this, I will be disappointed when it does.

:: 2005 12 November :: 7.13pm

what did they do right that I'm doing wrong?

:: 2005 10 November :: 5.03pm

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2 Smashy?s | Step in a Mellow

:: 2005 6 November :: 2.25pm

maybe i should just leave and....start over.

:: 2005 6 November :: 10.51am

Oh oh oh! I just realized...

I'm an aunt!

(Well, we're not technically related, but her mommy says I am going to be her aunt Rachy whether I want to or not)

:: 2005 5 November :: 10.27pm

We had a baby today!!!

She came at 11:12
8 pounds 12.5 ounces
20.25 inches

Lots and lots of pictures will be coming whenever I get them

:: 2005 2 November :: 7.57pm
:: Music: Ben Folds- The Luckiest

I don't get many things
right the first time
in fact, I am told that a lot
now I know all the wrong turns �
the stumbles and falls brought me here

and where was I before the day
that I first saw your lovely face
now I see it everyday
and I know

that I am, I am
I am the luckiest

what if I'd been born
fifty years before you
in a house
on the street where you lived
maybe I'd be outside
as you passed on your bike,
would I know?

and in a wide sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
and I know

that I am, I am
I am the luckiest

I love you more than I have
ever found a way to say to you

next door there's an old man
who lived into his nineties
and one day passed away in his sleep
and his wife, she stayed
for a couple of days and passed away

I'm sorry I know that's a
strange way to tell you
that I know we belong
that I know

that I am, I am
I am the luckiest

5 Smashy?s | Step in a Mellow

:: 2005 2 November :: 5.54pm

i have so much trouble doing things of substance.

:: 2005 1 November :: 8.08am

is anyone a journal lurker of mine? i was just thinking about how I lurk through a whole bunch of people's journals on a regular basis but they have no idea that I'm reading. i wonder if anyone does that to me. (paul, you don't count)

5 Smashy?s | Step in a Mellow

:: 2005 30 October :: 12.35am

All the possibilities run through my head, and as much as I want to believe the positive ones, I keep coming back to the most negative and I can't get those out of my head. And it all brings me back to one question...

Why am I doing this to myself?

Thank you for listening to me vent. You keep me sane. I love you honey.