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2005 18 January :: 9.31pm
So I had one of these moments yesterday... sitting there filtering through the Northfold Manor in the Arathi Highlands for Syndicate Highwaymen. Not quite an astute revelation, more of a paradoxical contemplation if you will.
I'm sure everyone has these at about this time in their life. You know, the stereotypical moment. The one where you ask yourself, what the hell are you going to do with your life. It was one of those. However, it's beyond the deciding portion of the journey, I've now moved on to the eagerness.
There is no word to describe my sickness of this place. By this place, I do not mean the people, or even really the town, I mean the whole country. The culture, to me it seems almost barbaric. I'm so incredibly fascinated by other cultures that I'm about This ---> | | close to jumping the gun and applying for the study abroad program right now. However, I know in my mind I'm not ready for this.
This is a problem I have, I think in a broad sense too much. I'm thinking too far ahead.
I. WOMEN
I've also come to the conclusion that I will most likely never marry anyone from this country. As horribly cliche as it be, I've decided the women here are too, how you say, full of shit. This may be partially drawn from the fact that none of the women I truly attempt to attain will date me, but it's more that in america, there is a skewed image of fun. Fun to the average girl of my age and within the age of 26:
A) Get drunk
B) Act like a whore
C) Pretend to be too pretty for her own good
D) Find a hot muscly football player to attempt to
concieve children with, followed by conception
that reveals the football player is infact fucking
her in the ass
That, however, is only one type, theres the other type. I'd like to refer to these as the untouchables. They're the egomaniacal power christians who you can't even talk to without feeling like you've sinned and are not worthy of the presence of a "real" christian. That's about 80% of the population right there, leaving us with about 20%.
Also, think me not a loser, for the only way I know about these archtypes is through experience... except for the whole ass fucking thing...
so this other 20% splits in half. One being what I will kindly refer to as the gimmick girls. This means that they will only talk to men who have a gimmick, whether it be with that they're in a band, they're state champion something, they deal crack, they're gay, etc...
the last 10% is dived into two simple categories 5% being the friends, and the other five being the datable percentile.
Half of that being cut away by my own inabilities to cope with different personalities, usually resulting in a theorem.
I haven't been anywhere in america, but the media tells me that all women are slutty and don't want anything to do with me, so I'm just going to suppose that all women in america are the same.
II. Celebration
Now back to my origional point. I've always felt that in other cultures, even the ones similar to our own, Their ideals of fun are different. I'm sure there's the exception, but for the most part I've found it to be true through exchange students, of my age and of my brothers age, and others. But other cultures aren't afraid to have fun in a mature way, while still keeping it fun.
For example ( taken for testimonies of foreigners, half the reason I find this so appealing):
A night in america:
Get drunk, fuck dancing (nothing wrong with it, but some people, correction, most people, get too carried away with it and it just ends up being dry humping), stumble home, pass out
A night anywhere else:
drink a little, dance, have a good time, talk to friends ( no nagging or bragging, just talking ) , drink a little more, dance some more, sing, have a good time, drink a little more, end it all by about 6 in the mourning and not be plastered.
Now don't get me wrong. My obsession for foreign culture is not merely derived from women and parties, those are about 20%. These countries are all so old and filled with knowledge and history. We, as americans, whether liberal or conservative, democrat or republican, often forget our own history. The capitalism and the darwinism has become what our culture is all about.
III. Culture
Culture to me is food, celebration, music, and family... In america, the general consensus is Burgers, Christmasly ( Lovingly filled with K-mart Comercials for those "last minute gift ideas), Britney Spears, and divorce. No offense intended for those who have had parents split up, love last minute gift shopping, britney spears, and favorite food is a nice cheesburger, but to me this is our stereotype. We could atleast with upon ourselves a good stereotype. I mean, everyone has a stereotype. some may have it worse but that's pretty bad to me. The british have David Beckham, fish and chips, The Beatles, and not so many divorces. They're kickin our ass in the stereotype competition.
This all really, is just my own ranting on how I feel my life should be. If you don't know, I want to go into translation and interpretation, ironically enough international business. God knows how I'm going to get into any of these, but I hope to do it.
Well, for a final end to this nonsensical compelation of thoughts, I want to get out of this country, and unlike most people who just complain about how stupid we are, I actually plan on leaving....
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