yea so friday was almost a complete nightmare. So i go 2 six flags and alyssa talked me into going w/ her druggie friends...britney, ashley, denise n them. I really only went kuz Allie was meetin me up there n i jus figured i'd use them 4 a ride n then jus ditch 'em. No prob rite? Wrong. It took 4ever 2 find allie...n alyssa wasnt helping at all...her constant bitching jus got 2 me 4 some reason..ha who woulda thunk? r ya pickin up my sarcasm? yes, good. So anyway, i finally find allie and as planned ditch the druggies. So then we meet up w/ dan n jarob oh and tommy too. omg..tommy was like saran wrap..i mean he's kool to talk 2 and everything but omg hes like a puppy dog. ahhhhrgggggg. But thats ok...heh. i got over it. So that night pretty much sucked...'cept 4 seein Allie, shes always fun n can cheer me up no matter how pissed i am.

soo...saturday i went 2 the mall w/ my mom 2 return the other 2 homecoming dresses. but as it turns out..one of the dresses was over 30 days late...n they refused 2 return it. heh but my mother...being the stubborn person she is, complained n bitched...n finally she convinced them 2 take the dress back. it was pretty damn funny actually. Then sunday i went tanning, kuz i really needed to do that. my back is all messed up kuz my cheerleading outfit left tanlines from the games we were at. it's pretty sad actually. Im thinking ill tan some more this week kuz it still needs 2 even out more in time for homecoming. Which is this saturday! im sooo excited! I finally talked 2 lauren and have the whole carpool, etc. figured out.

So i stayed home from school 2day. it was great sleepin in til 12:30. i also got 2 miss a test, so that was good. Except 4 the fact of making it up 2morrow. arg. and from wut i hear from jake, its really hard. he got a C on it, so that means ill be getting....a D. that sux. o well ill get over it.

So 2nite i go 2 the football game, not completely b/c i wunted to but b/c we had 2 perform with the little girls from the clinic. It was ok. I'm not big on lil' kids, they tend to bug me at times. omg..we decided to do a post elevator w/ this one little girl...so we get her up there n she musta been scared in front of all those people b/c she just bent her knees and came flying backward...on ME! so..thank god i caught her! That coulda been so bad if i hadn't. But whew. So after that..we all go hang out n talk...but im like freezing my ass of kuz i 4got my pants n jacket...so its like 60 degrees n im in my lil skirt and a t-shirt. So that deff. was not fun. Other than that...well I saw Ben, but didn't say much...i should have worked my charm...but i guess sometimes i get nervous in front of him...wow. thats weird kuz i dont usaully...i mean 4 the most part im pretty confident w/ whoever. huh. funny how that works. I saw Brad of course...hes fun. Horny. but always fun. I need 2 do something w/ that boy pretty soon. O boy...2nite tommy was tryin 2 make the moves...n if it was ANYONE else...well almost ne1 i would flirted right back...but he was all tryin 2 put his arm around me..i was like uhh no. that aint gonna happen. He's 2 clingy 4 me. I am very independent. I suppose that's a good thing though. O yea...I also talked 2 andrew. my god that boy has changed so much...i dn wut happened 2 him. But like....hes jus...different, kinda into himself or something. So that bugs me, kuz i cannot stand ppl who are like that. Well...i got my 3rd dress the other day. It's very hot...n it is the winner. The other 2 dresses are goin back. Ok..so its black, sparkly, AND strapless. N wuts nice is its long, but has a slit..so it looks flowy. Its sooo pretty, i absolutely luv it! That reminds me..Allie's dance was 2nite. Ohh i hope she had a blast w/ Mario. Kuz if not..aww ill be hearing about it soon tho, that's 4 sure. I bettin its over at 11ish? Yeah..somethin like that. I'm gettin sleepy now...see i was gonna wait 4 benny 2 get on but it doesnt look like he's gonna so...hmm darn. I wunted 2 talk 2 that boy. ah well, later i guess.

so last nite me and alyssa were SUPPOSED to sneak out and meet kevin, ben, and jeff. It didn't work, arg that sucked. Kuz i know we woulda had fun. But then later that night kevin was like well i dont have ne thing to drink but we could still have fun so...hmm. hehe. They're fun, n it was ok kuz i talked 2 them like all night ne way...found out some interesting things about ben...ex- his fantasy. wut doya know? it invovled a beach so i was like aw take me im yours! Ben is so fun...we need 2 hook up, maybe not go out but be like fuck buddies ya no? Yea, that'd be nice. So..i got another dress today, this would be number 3. yep. But this one's a winner...its hot! Black, sparkly, STRAPLESS, n long but thats ok. I think it looks better long ne way. So im set 4 homecoming...I am gona look hot i tell ya. Heh so will Allie...even if her date is well..not. heh thats mean but true. O well...we can ditch our dates n get on other guys like...i dunno Ben! n Allie can find Brandon...oo she'd like that. haha. Anyways, lately ive been working out..it seems 2 make me feel better about myself or something. Im gonna try 2 start eating healthier too. Like, my stomach would look so incredibly hot if i worked w/ it a lil'. Then i'd be set. Well..ill continue this and see wut results ill get! Then ill know.

Ah i smell like BBQ..since i just got back from Bandanna's. That place is so good. yumyum. So 2nite i go w/ Alyssa 2 the zoo. It was like her dad's company's picnic/party..thing..w/e. Hell if i know. It was alrite i guess. Me n' Alyssa can make any situation fun tho so hey. But I gotta say last nite was alotta fun. Allie spent the nite after we went 2 the mall w/ tom, dan, paul, n later on adam. (hes hot rite allie?). So we shopped 4 homecoming dresses kuz Allie still hadn't had hers n im well 2 damn picky. And then tom n dan jus kinda followed us where ever...heh even into the WOMEN'S dressing room. I found that quite funny. Then later than night after we got home Ben tells me he wants 2 meet us, so im ok yea right this will back out kuz i didnt think ben would actually do it. Well I guess he proved me wrong on that. He had his bro drive him over which was good...I actually thought he was gonna walk his ass like 6 miles. So he gets there were all jus sittin on the drive way n well its cold so we gota get some drinks. Hey, it warmed us up....even tho i coulda thought of an even better way 2 stay warm..hehe. He left i guess around 2:30...oh hes so hot, i woulda got on him 2. heh, well wut can i say? O great...robby has next friday planned..heh id rather get on ben but if im jus wunted some..id get on robby. itd be kinky at school 2..heh. listen 2 me. Ok well..i dn we'll see what happens.

so it\'s official..i hate my biology teacher. He must be the biggest prick alive. ha that really doesnt make sense but he is! omg. but ne ways..besides that school was ok. Scott came up n kissed me..it was like so random it prob looked funny..n who jus happened 2 be RIGHT there? Robby of course. He still won\'t let me hear the end of it, typical. So me n\' Benny were talkin about butts and thongs 4 some reason..we have pretty random conversations. Ben is so fun, i luv him 2 death. Too bad i dont have much of a chance, or do i? I can work my charm, i know 4 a fact that hes not, not interested. so that\'s good. Right now Robby is going on about how he can\'t belive i settled 4 goin 2 homecoming w/ scott. I think ill have fun w/ him. The boy can dance, n i dn hes jus fun! well heh now im takin\' a lil\' poll askin all my boy\'s wut they go 4..if they\'re an ass guy..or legs..or w/e. It\'s quite interesting! But they\'re really shallow too..so ugh

Friday...I think im having second thoughts on my whole scott issue. i havent told ne1...i mite still have feelings 4 him. its weird like that...like its just i feel like when i dont see him i miss him and want 2 be w/ him but then when hes there...it's too much. I cant explain. So ne way...i stayed in 4 the night on friday..i pulled a muscle in my back i think from carrying so many damn books in my bookbag, yup thats gotta be it. so i rented movies and relaxed...i really think i needed that. school stress was really takin me over. Then, 2nite i went 2 the mall w/ tommy, jeff, danny, n alyssa. It was actually pretty fun. Jeff can always make me laugh. n Danny's jus a cutie..lol tommy...well he tries 2 hard, but ya no thats ok. so tommy asked me out..and of course..i said no. hes really not my type at all. but then who is? i am so damn picky. Im starting to think somethins wrong w/ me heh. well...another good thing 2day..i got my homecoming shoes! so yey. lol n they're so sexy! teehee..well thats all 4 now.

Today was great. heh. See..thats the sarcasm kickin' in. OK so..I find out there's this bet going around about me and Rachel. Apparantly Tommy and David bet eachother they could go farther than the other 1 w/ us. Im kind of offended by this...even if it is not that big of a deal. o well. I should slap Tommy. Just for laughs. I guess im not that mad but the fact that like every1 knows and continuously asks me about it...well that jus kinda sorta pisses me off after a while. So...I think i'll have a little word w/ Tommy about this. Oh and I think Rachel should hear about this too, since it is about her as well. ..but other than that the day was alrite. I mean it went by fast n lunch was fun, seein Tony. Still hot as ever I mite add. So..that was my day in a nutshell..so until next time!

omg..im very scared b/c 2morrow i have this HUGE biology test. I mean basically ive studied everything but..ah im still freaking out about it. Yeah..so at cheer prac 2day Tony was there at the end (looking hot as ever!) he jus sat w/ Shane n watched us prac. ohh id get on him in a mili-second. darn. ok..back 2 school mode-i got a D on my spanish test and a D..maybe a C now in my microsoft computer class..but wow thats gota be a record 4 me. and in the same day. im SO PISSED ABOUT THAT. And 2morrow I have that other test. I HAVE to do good on that or else..im in deep shit. Yeah..I better go study my ass off now!

Today I got picked up early from Lauren's. omg I was so tired. I dn why either...I guess school jus wears the hell outta me n w/ cheerleading as well...its just an overload. So ne way last night I went to the football game. It was alot of fun. I brought Allie but we werent always together which was kool kuz that way she got 2 visit w/ old friends n what not. And I got 2 talk 2 Tony. aw hes so hot. Ben is cute too but I only talked 2 him a little. I was w/ Dan alot of the time..and Tommy too. Tommy is never boring to talk to. Gosh I miss him...he's not in any of my classes so thats sucky. He can always make me laugh. Scott also was there..but he didnt stay clingy 2 long which was nice. That way I dont get completely annoyed w/ him. We talked about homecoming...n it was jus like blah..w/e. I wanted to say...you know were jus going as friends..n I wunna dance w/ other guys too. Maybe he'll realize this kuz I dont wunna be mean about it. Anyways...o yea how can I forget? Ohh Robby was like..hey how bout a quickie in the bathroom? N' I'm thinkin..uhhh. lol. Then towards the end Robby came over, took my hand i was like ok..n he jus put my hand down on him. I was like wha..lol and perfect timing Lauren n Ray came walking over n were like..whoa there. lol. I guess it was funny but then Allie dissed on robo..lol it was great. n well..lol yea. I guess that was my night...interesting huh? I thought so.

OK..wow 2day was definetly a great day. I have so much fun in my lang. arts class, its great. I sit by Ben and Jeff...they crack me up! I mean it's bad kuz I learn nothing but..then it's good kuz I have so much fun w/ them! Like they're always makin fun of our teacher 4 marrying a japanese guy..lol go back 2 Japan! no...but like 2day I was fixing my shirt b/c otherwise...it'd be like hey! look at my bra! so ne ways i adjust that n Jeff says "wut r u doin there ben?" n they both start cracking up..n im like confused hmm..yeah they're lookin at my chest. The exuse was the funniest I think.."well hey, now u know im not gay." Hey it works. But I luv Benny, he's such a cutie. And so is Jeff...and as it turns out he was gonna ask me to homecoming also, thats a shame kuz he woulda been fun to go w/. Then another good thing...after school we had cheerleading practice n I got 5 things checked off! yey! So this means I can fly..and do my elevators at the games now! I am sooo happy! And the coach says by next week, we'll all have the cradels as well. I am hoping she's right on that one.

Today was nice..it was like a half day I guess. Classes were only like 30 min or so and we got out at 12:52. So hey, always a good thing. Gosh..I talked to Tony today..him and Alisa broke up so this strikes up an interest for me ne way. Tony is very hot, ive always thought that. So ne way, he asks me to homecoming and dammit..I already said yes to Scott. I mean I cant just say.."O sry Scott, I'm gonna go w/ ur best friend instead". No that'd be too mean. So the game plan is to not hang out w/ Scott the WHOLE time..n just well...get on a lot of other guyz there.(but Id still have gone w/ Scott so he'd get 2 brag or..ya no be happy or w/e. I dont know. Alyssa is going stag...unless hottie Dan asks her. I hope he does kuz that way I can talk 2 him too..n we'll hopefully have some fun :-) yea..that'll be good.
Another thing..i'm excited b/c 2nite I have a tumbling class w/ Angela. We always have fun w/ that. I hopefully will get my back handspring soon so I can do them at the games we cheer 4. So yey! Arg. that reminds me I have practice 2morrow and games the rest of the week. What a bitch. O well..i'll get over it..I always do!