:: 2004 30 July :: 7.22 pm

...I am no longer going to use Woohu any more. No one else writes cept Tommy, and I dont think even he is going to write in it much ne more. I am not using ne other journal, I think they are becoming quite stupid! alrighty, buh bye

3 FuCk | YoU

:: 2004 30 July :: 7.21 pm

...I cant get him out of my head...
....It really ruined my day today. I had band camp today, and I did pretty well, but I kept thinking about Preston and I messed up alot bc I wasnt concentrating enuff! But, as soon as I got up, i listend to Fall Out Boy, on the way to skewl, and on the way home too.....Mr Porter (my band teacher) is going to Warp Tour tonight :-/ damn him, I wanted to crawl inside his trunk and go with him, even iif I had to just wait outside the thing so I can c Preston, I was soooo mad I didnt know which car was his tho :( Oh well, and then Chris called me, and i dont know where to call him back at and I called everyone but Estone bc I dont know his #, and no one else is answering their phone......It pisses me off, but Alex said that he would call back in a half hr or so...hope so!

Jessie is supposed to come to band practice tomaro. I hope so, I will finally have someone to talk to other than the triplets, bc we all got bored and wanted some one else to tlk to LoL. But naw, I haven't seen her in a long time, since skewl ended...

Usher was in Ft Myers yesterday at my friend Kyle's mom's hotel....thats soooo cool! ok, yeah, I am gonna go, I need a shower and I needd to get ready for the movies tonight! yay :-D

YoU

:: 2004 29 July :: 5.14 pm

...past two days...
....Well, Ive been grounded from the computor for the past two days, so I havent updated....Well, Tuesday, I went to the library....that was ok, I guess. Me, Kelci, and Preston were in a chat together, and it was quite funny! But then, I told him that I was stuck to him, and he seriously started messing with me. Like he said that he didn't want to be some one to be stuck to and he will hide his love in the bottom of his soul, or something like that. And I told him I was just kidding, and he told me that he didnt want to hold me back from anything, so we started talking just the two of us, and he really scared me because he told me he liked some one else, and he wasnt joking this time. He still likes Kelci.... I will deal...it kind of hurts because she is like my best friend almost! Any ways, then Eric showed up with one of his friends, and we hung out... and then I spent the night at Yaminahs again, and Preston called me, and we were on the phone for quite awhile...

Yesterday- I went to Perkins :-) that was yummy! then we went to the mall, and that was awsome. SImone isnt shy AT ALL. And I saw Chad Odem...(I dont know how to spell his last name) and we hung out for a little while. But, I saw Jon Economy and I met a bunch of people. Hot guys! LoL, then we came home, I spent the night at Yaminahs AGAIN. Took a shower, called Preston, (10:37). I talked about Eric and Todd alot, and it pissed him off, so we got into this little argument......He wouldnt talk to me, and I knew somthing was on his mind because he told me that if your sad or mad, it helps you work out or something like that, and then I knew somehting was up. SPecially when I told him not to hurt himelf and he was being a jerk. So, he asked me a bunch of questions about Todd and Eric and then he told me that he didn't want to hear about me n them or what ever and he started talking about Candace and where he fingerd her and all this stuff, and really made me felt like shit.
Him "you dont liek that very much, do u"
me "no, not really. and now i feel like shit, i guess i deserve it thought"
him "no, you dont"
me "next time I do this, just tell me to shut up, and yeash, I did deserve this"
him "Sara, shut up please"
me "haha, ok"
him "you know what you dont talk about enough?"
me "what"
him "how beautiful you are"
me *spaz attack*
lol, yeah, that was our conversation...Last night, I had ALOT of spaz attacks, man, he was sweet to me after I started crying. I really did feel like shit, but yeah. Now I feel ALOT better. He is coming to Cape Coral, maybe soon. I hope he does, we are supposed to wrestle at the beach! That should be fun, Im kinda scared though, because he said he was going to untie my top, and I was like freeking out on him because I dont want my boobs to hang out all over the place! But then he started singing to me, and thats why I had a bunch of spaz attacks, but all was good. The we both were really tired, so we juss hun gup (3:00 AM)

today- me, Meana, and Simone went to our freshman prep day today. I got my ID, Locker, and books. I saw the triplets and Matt, and kinda met Caleb and Bo.... they always seem to get some cute BFs!!! LoL! Then, we went to the mall, and some spanish guys came up to us and asked us for our number :-) LoL....but yeah, I got pants at Pac Sun, Converse (dang, finally LoL Leanne!!!), uhm, and we went to Wal*Mart and I got a skirt and some shirts and "Fall out boy" cd....and yeah, thats about it. Now, I am home talking to Elyse and watching Starsky & Hutch...It's funny, yet, I haven't laughed once.... hmmm, pondering........hehe..... wow, Alex and Sean are freeking out bc the girls are kissing. And the little boy in the movie almost died, and it reminded me of "You got Served" when the boy died, and I started cracking up. Leanne knows what I mean :-) lol....ok, well, I am done now.peAce!

YoU

:: 2004 26 July :: 12.51 pm

.....I am really tired........I was on the phone with Preston for 4 and 1/2 hrs.....
But yeah....Me n Sarah went to the movies yesterday afternoon...we saw The Notebook....It was really good....I cried....The movie follows two young lovers named Allie Hamilton and Noah Calhoun, who meet one evening at a carnival. But they come from different backgrounds and when World War II breaks out, they are separated. Seven years later, after waiting for Noah for several years after the war, Allie meets a handsome young soldier named Lon. He proposes to her, she accepts, and they are engaged. Allie then sees a story about Noah in the newspaper and she stops by his 200-year-old home to see if he's okay. It is still evident he has feelings for her..............

Its a really sweet movie....I wanna c it agen...hmmmmm....then we went home (to the hotel) and we were kinda not in the best moods so we didnt tlk to long....and then we went out to eat and yyeah, then went back to the hotel and tlked to this one dude who told me I was to young....but then him n his brother walked by me n Sarah......and apperantly he thought I was fine, and wrote a note and put it on the car last night or this morning and it was like " Hey, me n my homie were the guys walking past u last night and I was the one in shorts. I just moved here and want to party and hang out, but not too much. My brother told me that u were 15 and 16 and AI am 17 and single so yeah. I thought the girl in the pants was fine, her friend was to. and I wanted to holla at her but I guess u didnt hear me. But tell me if yall r single and leave a note on my door" not exactly what it said....but close enuff.......so yeah,i am going to call him later I guess...? lol.....and then we came here and yeah got online for a while, and i got my pictures........:-) I will put em in here later....

But yeah, then after everyone left, I was on the phone with Preston from 11:30 pm. to 3:00 AM....It was funny.....he kept teasing me about Kirk... :'( and uhm, I told him I wish I could see Jordan at RTU and he was like ah ur hitting on him....ne one else? and I was like uhm....I called Chris...? and hes like woah, now ur taking my best friend...and I was like yeah, ne hes like ne one else and i told him who else and he said wow, juss take estone and jesse too.....and I was like ok, but they wont mean ne thing......

(Im tellin yah all our interesting stories)

Ah, we r going to conduct an expeirament........to c if I am fat or not....but it involves him putting his arms around me and a kiss......but of course, it is all juss expeiramental! He said it might take all night and the next two.... But I will deal with it...! and then, we r going to wrestle and he has to try to pin me down, and I have to try n pin HIm down....Ill win...! hehe ;-) and then he asked me how I am going to do it and I said that I would strattle his stomache and hold down his hands and he said that he would juss have to make me fall and we would juss lay there like that! hehe......then he got mad at me for not telling him me n todd broke up in NY.......I thought Chris told him!!!!!!!!!!ahhhh.......n yeah, there is more but I am too lazy to write it and I dont think yall wanna hear ne more?????????


Oh, I told him that I was scared to let him meet Tara and he was all like "In case u have short term memory, I like u" and i was like "In case U have short term memory....I live down here and she lives up there and shes alot prettier than me...." and yeah he told me he wouldnt bc he likes me....:-)......yeah, Meana has a point....they prolly wouldnt like the same stuff so they wouldnt get along too well bc Preston is all like skater and she is all like....not.....im not quite sure what she is ne more....but yeah....she isnt what he is....ok thats bout it, gonna go now...buh bye!!!

2 FuCk | YoU

:: 2004 20 July :: 9.46 am

....Preston called me last night, around 11.....we were only on the phone for about an hr...not even. But we talked, and we laughed basically the whole time....and the last thing he said to me, juss outta the blue, b4 my phone died, was "u have a nice ass" lol....I have no clue what we were talking about that made him say that bc we were arguing about me not getting off the phone bc he doesnt want me to go....man, why do i always gotta like guys in Bradenton...? argh....! But he was all sweet to me last night, and online especially...I'll put our convo in here soon....
Well, Sarah is coming over today......in about an hr.....(ewww, this lady is drawing blodd from my mom and im not looking but i can still c it....juss bc it is gonna hurt ME...like seriously i am turned all the way around.....ok wow, enuff bout that...) but yeah, so I am kinda nervous, and my voice is some what gone, so she will prolly make fun of me...and its weird bc my voice juss seems to get worse the less I talk....:/ but I look like crap bc all my make up is @ Meanas and shes in Miami....gr!

ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: talk to me here while the pix send
2: ok
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah
2: i miss u
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: aw, i miss u too
2: i wanna see u really badly
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ahhh
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: awww
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ur gonna make me cry agen
2: dont cry sara
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: but it sux ya know, bc i dunno if ur messin with my head or bein for real...and if ur bein for real than i am gonna cry bc i cant c ya for a while
2: look i wouldnt mess with u...i really like u....but like i dont want to mess up anything if u like kirk
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: no....u wont, bc kirk doesnt want a gf so he wont be liking me n time soon
2: oh
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: with me n kirk its complicated bc of somethin that happened between us last year
2: whats that?
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, him n my cuzin used to b close and so were me n my cuzin...and one day we went in our canoe that my family shares with kirk and right when we were going home, kirk broke on e of our paddles so me n him had to switch, and i tipped the canoe...then i left his glasses down at the dock and for got to bring the bucket and lost all our stuff...... and then I liked him and the next day some one said i liked his best friend...so he didnt like me, and i said do u love ur mom and i forgot his mom died earlier that year, so this is the first time weve actually hung out
2: oh ok
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah...
2: well i like u so
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ...and I like u
2: awsome
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah i guess
2: u guess?
2: do u not want me to like u?
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: i do, its juss weird bc it isnt like we can go out orne thing
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, thats what chris says ne way
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah c...
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: but yeah, i def wnat u to like me (lol)
2: lol well i def do
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ok well, thats cool
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: do u like maroon 5
2: not really
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: nvm then
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: oh, did estone tell u i found the song u told me to c...uhm, letters to u
2: ok
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: its so sweet
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ...so u do have a sensitive side to ya
2: yea lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr:
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: have u talked to ur sis about comin to cape coral?
2: nope not yet lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol........
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: I want u to, bc Im not sure if imma be able to go up there ne time soon
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah
2: id like to kinda pt my arms around u and hold you...taht is ONLY if u let me
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: why wouldnt i??
2: idk idk
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ...dang, why do i always gotta fall for ppl in bradentonm
2: sorry i can get u to hate me if u want
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: no....the last guy did that, and man, i hurt myself...really badly
2: ok i wont ever do taht then
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: thank u
2: yup yup
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr:
2: u wanna come over
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: too bad i cant
2: what if u could
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: then yeah i would
2: awsome
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol
2: like what would u wanna do ....what do u do for fun?
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: what do u mean??
2: like if u came over i dont want to bore u to death so what would u wanna do
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol, lots
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: jk...
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: (wow, that made me sound kinda slutty)
2: na def not lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol
2: i was think the same but
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: haha
2: lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, atleast we r on the same page
2: yea lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, i gotta go
2: NO u cant go
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: i haveta....if u want u can call me
2: yes i def will


ahhh, c he is so0o0o0o sweet to me! But it will prolly juss end up like Brett did....:( I juss know it will and I dont know why I continue to do this....But its like, different from Brett right now....Brett never called me like every single day or even every week or ne thing, Preston calls me 2ce a day at least and everyday....:) And Tara and her friend think he's cute too....and I asked her if I go to her house, if I can c him, and she said yeah....:D YAY!!!

YoU

:: 2004 24 July :: 9.19 am
:: Mood: sad

hey yall...I juss woke up...and man, I am tired....! Yesterday me n Magen and My Aunt and Cusins went shopping.....This was the first time I've met her, it was cool...she is really nice, then we just came home and talked for a little while, and got online....At like 10 she went home, and we talked online.....she lemme "meet" her friend, he was really nice, and said I was pretty and nice and that I could be beating boys off me with a stick! I was like awwwww!!! Preston tells me Im beautiful all the time, but never that :-) so I was happy.......and me n Preston talked, well, he talked, I more like cried...Man, why do I always gotta fall for those kind of guys?????? Especially when they live so far away...? Well, thats the only thing thats keeping us from going out.....for now :( I am really scared he is going to find soem girl up there that he'll like...I brought that up to him last night and I said "Im scared to let u meet my friend when I go stay with her" and he said"why" and I said "bc shes alot prettier than I am and she lives closer, so u'll be able to go out with her" and he said "incase u have short term memory, I like u" and I said "incase YOU have short term memory, we live to far apart to go out." and thats where it ended with that convo.....that last statement was kinda harsh, but man....right now I could really careless about the distance....:-/but yeah then he called me, and we were on the phone from uhm, 11 sumthin till 1 sumthin :) it was sooo funny, bc he was singing to me agen...but Chris was with him, n they were ddoin a duet....that was not a pretty noise! lol...I miss them! argh!

X0 MiSsIn U143X0: hey
2: hey
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: how r u
2: im awsome how bout u?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: hmm,ok iguess
2: y just ok?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: how far away from venice beach r u
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: i dont feel to well
2: oh im sorry...i wish i could make u feel better.....im about an hour awayf rom there
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh bc we might go to that beach tomaro and my aunt wanted to know if u wanted to meeet us there if u went
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: *8if we go
2: i would love to but i got to see i someone can take me
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: alright
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: im not 100% sure if we r goin or not
2: ok
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeah
2: so how was ur day
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: hm, went shopping with some girl i juss met who knows no one here....it was fun
2: awsome
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: how was urs
2: it was great i went to the beach and then a movie
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh....r u ne tanner
2: yea a lil u wanna see sometime ?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: lol, yeah!!!!
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: lol, u know that pic of ur ass we took.....well i got it
X0 MiSsIn U143X0 wants to directly connect.
2 is now directly connected.
X0 MiSsIn U143X0:
2: awsome lol
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: haha
2: i got my pics back today
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: uhoh
2: yea...i got a ton of u
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: :-(
2: whats the frown for
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: bc if they r of me...then idk
2: yea ur beautiful and im glad i have alot of u
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: well im glad u think so
2: i do
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: well, u mind tellin the rest of the world that
2: ok
2: well i gotta go but call me if u want to
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: uhm, idk if i can im at my aunts....why do u have to go?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: everyone says we should go out lol
2: cause we got to watch a movie
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh..............
2: i would i really would
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: .....?
2: go out
2: but we have a lil problem
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh.......yeh...what
X0 MiSsIn U143X0:1290: but even wit tha distance problem i'm sure u guyz qwould still see each other more than me n Bo do n we don't have that problem
2: yea distance
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ...hmmm
2: yea
2: well if u can call me tonight
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: .....alright, ill try...
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: if u can, will u get back online?
2: yea if i can
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: alright......
2: i'll ttyl....i miss u
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: u might have to call my aunts tho
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: i miss u too
2: ok
2: bye bye sara
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeah how long is the movie, i dont wanna inturupt u
2: na just call my phone anytime
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: alright......
2: bye bye
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: bye
2: i'll cry myself to sleep til u r here

Auto response from X0 MiSsIn U143X0: Hey....I am tryin to sleep....thinkin bout somthin :'(

YoU

:: 2004 23 July :: 1.51 pm

Hey there......I have a new email adress.....its rejected dr3amer@netscape.net
.....so yeah, thats that....uhm, Sarah juss left, she spent the night last night.....it was fun...>Simone snores and sleep talks so we were up most the night laughing our asses off!!!! Then today we went to Mc Donalds.... and uhm, got online and watched Finding Nemo...and now we r "watching" LOTR......... and yeah, I am leaving in about a half hr to go to my aunts....and I wont get to tlk to preston unless I call him on my dads cell and have him call my aunts.....or if I get online over there...

Man, I want some Pizza! ah! OH, Mike got his hair cut!!!! I saw him yesterday....and wow, it used to be all long and what ever, but now its really short.....it looked better longer!!!!!!!!

hmmm, I miss Preston!!!! I think me n Tommy are the only ones who actually write in Woohu ne more........hmmmmmmmm.......lol.........oh wells..........kk, well, imma go , email me some time :)

YoU

:: 2004 22 July :: 6.24 pm

Well...Last night I spent the night at the hotel with Sarah.......We went to Ft myers beach for a lil while, then mini golf....that was fun :) Then we went swimmin and went to Iguana Mia.....yummy :) and uhm, then we came back, talked a lil while... uhm, had some fun...Talked to Preston for about 2 hrs.... that was fun and sad.....but all was good.....and yeah, then we went to bed...........and slept till like noon (agen) and I went to ggo pick up Simone....and went to Burger King and saw Stephanie :) and now I am home...I have to clean my house....so I will bbl................<<3 and peAce......

YoU

:: 2004 21 July :: 12.20 am

hey there.... Sarah is here.... :-D It was funny, when she got here i like gave her the biggest hug! and she like fell lol......her mom got scared...and we went to naples and got REALLY soaked.....and uhm, juss hung out all day then went to band practice for 3 frikin hrs and then to mc donalds and then home...i got my pics bac :-) hehe...well, yeah, I am gonna kidnapp Sarah so she can stay here man! and she has to talk to who ever she is talking to so im gonna go no...buh bye!

YoU

:: 2004 20 July :: 9.40 am

....Preston called me last night, around 11.....we were only on the phone for about an hr...not even. But we talked, and we laughed basically the whole time....and the last thing he said to me, juss outta the blue, b4 my phone died, was "u have a nice ass" lol....I have no clue what we were talking about that made him say that bc we were arguing about me not getting off the phone bc he doesnt want me to go....man, why do i always gotta like guys in Bradenton...? argh....! But he was all sweet to me last night, and online especially...I'll put our convo in here soon....
Well, Sarah is coming over today......in about an hr.....(ewww, this lady is drawing blodd from my mom and im not looking but i can still c it....juss bc it is gonna hurt ME...like seriously i am turned all the way around.....ok wow, enuff bout that...) but yeah, so I am kinda nervous, and my voice is some what gone, so she will prolly make fun of me...and its weird bc my voice juss seems to get worse the less I talk....:/ but I look like crap bc all my make up is @ Meanas and shes in Miami....gr!

ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: talk to me here while the pix send
2: ok
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah
2: i miss u
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: aw, i miss u too
2: i wanna see u really badly
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ahhh
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: awww
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ur gonna make me cry agen
2: dont cry sara
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: but it sux ya know, bc i dunno if ur messin with my head or bein for real...and if ur bein for real than i am gonna cry bc i cant c ya for a while
2: look i wouldnt mess with u...i really like u....but like i dont want to mess up anything if u like kirk
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: no....u wont, bc kirk doesnt want a gf so he wont be liking me n time soon
2: oh
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: with me n kirk its complicated bc of somethin that happened between us last year
2: whats that?
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, him n my cuzin used to b close and so were me n my cuzin...and one day we went in our canoe that my family shares with kirk and right when we were going home, kirk broke on e of our paddles so me n him had to switch, and i tipped the canoe...then i left his glasses down at the dock and for got to bring the bucket and lost all our stuff...... and then I liked him and the next day some one said i liked his best friend...so he didnt like me, and i said do u love ur mom and i forgot his mom died earlier that year, so this is the first time weve actually hung out
2: oh ok
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah...
2: well i like u so
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ...and I like u
2: awsome
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah i guess
2: u guess?
2: do u not want me to like u?
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: i do, its juss weird bc it isnt like we can go out orne thing
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, thats what chris says ne way
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah c...
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: but yeah, i def wnat u to like me (lol)
2: lol well i def do
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ok well, thats cool
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: do u like maroon 5
2: not really
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: nvm then
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: oh, did estone tell u i found the song u told me to c...uhm, letters to u
2: ok
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: its so sweet
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ...so u do have a sensitive side to ya
2: yea lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr:
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: have u talked to ur sis about comin to cape coral?
2: nope not yet lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol........
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: I want u to, bc Im not sure if imma be able to go up there ne time soon
2: yea
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah
2: id like to kinda pt my arms around u and hold you...taht is ONLY if u let me
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: why wouldnt i??
2: idk idk
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: ...dang, why do i always gotta fall for ppl in bradentonm
2: sorry i can get u to hate me if u want
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: no....the last guy did that, and man, i hurt myself...really badly
2: ok i wont ever do taht then
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: thank u
2: yup yup
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr:
2: u wanna come over
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: yeah
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: too bad i cant
2: what if u could
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: then yeah i would
2: awsome
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol
2: like what would u wanna do ....what do u do for fun?
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: what do u mean??
2: like if u came over i dont want to bore u to death so what would u wanna do
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol, lots
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: jk...
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: (wow, that made me sound kinda slutty)
2: na def not lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: lol
2: i was think the same but
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: haha
2: lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, atleast we r on the same page
2: yea lol
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: well, i gotta go
2: NO u cant go
ReJeCted Dr3AmEr: i haveta....if u want u can call me
2: yes i def will


ahhh, c he is so0o0o0o sweet to me! But it will prolly juss end up like Brett did....:( I juss know it will and I dont know why I continue to do this....But its like, different from Brett right now....Brett never called me like every single day or even every week or ne thing, Preston calls me 2ce a day at least and everyday....:) And Tara and her friend think he's cute too....and I asked her if I go to her house, if I can c him, and she said yeah....:D YAY!!!

YoU

:: 2004 19 July :: 9.12 pm

the song Preston wrote for me :-)
This is the song that made me cry!


As I drove away, today
I wish that I could be with you now, right now
To see your smile appear.
Your lips, your eyes
Intoxicating to my mind
And its all so far, its all so far away

Tonight
I'll be thinkin about you
Tonight
I'll be dreamin about you
Tonight
I'll cry myself to sleep til you are here

As i fly away, today
I realize that im getting farther from
Your touch, its hurting me inside
Your skin, so soft
Your body beautiful
And i cant live without you, cant live without you now

I made it home, today
Your just so close but really far
Away, from me
Im fallin to my knees
Prayin that you are here, praying that you are here with me

YoU

:: 2004 19 July :: 5.33 pm

hey there....well, as yall know, i talked to brett.....it was well worth it...I am so glad to hear that he is going to change or already has changed his life......and now, when I go to Bradenton, and if I go c him....I know he isnt fukin with my head bc he is high....dude, I am so0o0o happy....for realz! It kinda makes me wanna go to Bradenton more, and juss c the new him...(and not juss go to c Preston...even tho I am DEF goin to c him!) I dont like him when he is doing drugs and what not.....I thought i was really roud of him when he got a job...man, I am so happy for him right now! Really, I never thought that something like getting pulled over and having the dogs almost find his drugs would turn him aorund, ya know i thought it would be some one that is close to him (and no, i am not talking about me, bc i dont even know him ne more)...but i dont care who it is...Im juss glad that its over with! Man, yall have NO IDEA how happy I am for that!!!!!
God really works in mysterious ways now doesnt he....? Well, I gotta go bc my mommy needs to get on....later....

YoU

:: 2004 19 July :: 3.27 pm

the rest of my convo
05: hey
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: hey
05: so anywayz sorry i had to do that...
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: its ok
05: what are you doin
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: lookin up lyrics...u?
05: chillen bout to do some laundry
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ahh
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ok, but u gotta explain about this whole thing
05: ok well like i said i was hittin some bad times and i got back into certain (very bad) drugs again... and the cops pulledme over when i had a very good amount of it on me, but i had a hiding place in my old car inside of my horn that the cops couldnt figure out... they brought a dog in to sniff out my car, the dof went nuts, but they never found it... i got lucky, and i concidered that a sign from god tellin me to stop it and start doin right sso i changed
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: I guess its a good thing that u got pulled over....if u dont mind tellin me, what kind of drugs
05: the hardcore drug that dea ot me into
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ...?
05: the only things i eva do now is drink and occasionaly take a pain killer when im out or at work cuz my work is very physical with all the stuff i do....the cops pulled me over with and i had cocaine on me
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: wow...
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: I thought u had stopped doing that stuff
05: i get a drug test once a week now by my mom and if i come up positive for anything im goin to rehab... which i like cuz i need to stay straight.... i did up until that week that was all messed up, but this was months ago, im a different man now
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ok.....well, yeah......u do need to stay straight bc u cant get into a good collage much less a law skewl with drug records
05: well ive been a lil over 3 months clean... im makin 8.50 at work, new car, new life... im stayin straight... i got 8000 sittin in a bank account waitin for me to go to college
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: listen, i dont really know what to say, but that I am glad u got pulled over, and parts of me wish u would have gotten arrested but i guess you got ur wake up call with out gettin in too much trouble...but I am glad ur clean and I hope ur life is a good one.....
X0 MiSsIn U143X0 wants to directly connect.
05 is now directly connected.
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: got a bad pic...but i look a lil different now than the last pic u saw
X0 MiSsIn U143X0:
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: its me n this kid from bradenton
05: oh
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeah
05: thats kool
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeah i guess
05: hey u dont think of me as a bad person now cuz of my past mistakes that are now behind me, do u?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: No, I think that what u did was wrong, but I am hapy for u that uve decided to change ur life around....
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: I am juss glad that ur finally relizing things, and it sux that u had to be pulled over to relize that what u were doing was wrong
05: last question for you... if we eva got the chance to meet up in the future... would u want to knowing now what you know?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: want to...as in meet u, or want to as in do what we planned?
05: i was refering to meet... but either of them
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeash, meeting is sstill in....as i said, i dont think any less of u now.....and the other thing, I dont knwo
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ive kinda changed alot, im not so slutty ne more, juss giving my self to ne one, even the person i love..........and not now especially bc we dont even know each other ne more........
05: true... well i would like to start talkin to u more often if i get the chance.. but right now i gotta do some more laundry... if im done and ur on ill talk to u... ttyl... peace

YoU

:: 2004 19 July :: 2.46 pm

Hey, This is Brett from B-town. Sara is my girl and if i ever get the chance i will go see her, sara be safe in everything u do and know that im always here for you if you ever seriouslly need me. i might not always be online but i try. and you know that ill help you if i can. Your still my great girl and i hope soon some day we can see each other... gotta go...peace
-Brett
.......thats his guestbook signing thing in my guestbook! wow, i miss times like that when i could actually know hed be there for me! I miss him, and I miss everything from the old days....wow, i guess he is serious about changing this time...idk if i will beleive him yet...i cant believe it unlesss i c it...so I am gonna have to let him prove to me that he is changed!here is our convo:

05: hry
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: hey
05: how are you
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: whats up
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: im good....very happy at the moment
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: u
05: im doin really good
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: thats good!
05: so u talked to allan elliot
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: wow, u scared me, ur IM juss popped up...
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh and now i know why
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeah i did for a lil while
05: kool
05: i havnt seen him since school let out
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh.....hes cool, very funny
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: we were in NY together
05: reall what for
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: for a missions trip for church, FBC Bradenton went and my church and ones from other states and i asked everyone if they knew u or tara or mitch.....and only allen said he knew u from skewl......
05: well thats kool
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: it really is, i met some guys up there that live in bradenton..........and we all (cape coral chiks) started likein them...... and im juss happy bc one em called me and he wrote a song about missing me
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh, uhm will u sign my guest book.........
05: thats sweet
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: lol
05: yeah sure... how do i get to it....and there has been a lot goin on in my life too i need to tell u about
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: oh, ok.........yeah ya do...
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: uhm, do to my profile, and where it says solely a dreamer....clik dreamer
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: and go all the way down to where it says sign ****** guestbook
05: jus so u know i dont like signing guest books cuz i think what i write is always stupid... but i try
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: lol..
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: ok, so whats going on that u wanted to tell me?
05: i dont know if it worked cuz nothing really happened when i pressed the button so if it didnt work ill do it again in a lil bit.... well lets see i got a new car, new phone, new look, new life.
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: wow, what happened to the old car old phone old look and old life?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: yeah it worked
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: awwwww!
05: well last that we seriously talked i think i told u i was trying to change and everything and i was doing a good job, and this one bad week came up and i messed up on so many levels where i screwed up my trust with my dads side of my family and a lot of things happened that alinated me from my family.... and then bout a week after that i started doin thinks i shouldnt have been doin again and eventualy got pulled over by the cops one of the nights and well lets jus say what happened that night changed everything... hold on and ill explain i gotta go take care of my dogs
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: alright
scratguy05: how long are you gonna be online?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: uhm, im not sure, prolly like another half hour or so
scratguy05: ok well im gonna run up to the store i want to talk to you so if u can stay on but if not ill talk to u later... but ill be back soon....

well, im gonna update this, and when he gets back on, i will ffinish writeing....later....peAce....

YoU

:: 2004 19 July :: 2.38 pm
:: Music: "Letters to you"- FInch

YoU