:: 2004 25 May :: 3.17 pm
:: Music: Graduation- Vitamin C

YoU

:: 2004 22 May :: 9.22 pm
:: Music: sweet home alabama

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:: 2004 22 May :: 6.55 pm

last two days....
ok, yeah, impshycic, yesterday was defantly laid back! i had SO MUCH FUN @ THE DANCE!!!!me n Mal...yeap, def looked hott in our same dresses...alot of ppl had the same dresss and we were dancin like crazy and took TONZ of pictures!!!!!! I danced with Logan, jarett, jay, austin, zach, collin and i think thats it! and me mal leanne danielle kristen nicole and i think that is it danced together......jarrett toldme he still likes me...omg jay is sooo friggin tall its crazy! he is soo funny tho!!! *jay dance* and then me, leanne, mallory and austin went to the beach and as soon as i got there, charlotte (mals mom) came up to me and i thought they were waisted and she told me that they forgot my clothes in her car and i was like dont joke with me yadda yada yada....and yeah it was funny, so Krissy ran down the stairs and gave me a huge hug and we went to go get abby and jonathon buck....and went onto the beach and hung out and went swimming and juss went into our room and hung out and danced and stuffed our faces and jumped all over each other and stuff it was sooo funny! and then we went to BED at like 1 and didnt get to sleep till 230 bc we were scaring eahother...KRISSY!!!! scared the crap outa me, me n leanne were jumpin and mals like something fell off the bed so i went to go c what it was and krissy jumps up! it was crazy...so, then this mornin rhonda wakes me up at like 7:20 bc abby woke her up at 5 and she couldnt go back to sleep so she went to get my stuff and we were awake and walked down to mc donalds and i spilled my icee all over and then we went swimmin and me n abby laid out and taned and we went tubeing and me n leanne went crazy on the tube!!!! and i got stuck and it waas reaalllllyyyyy funny and then i skim boarded...actually i think i did that b4 tubing idk...and then we went down to go see shane and jonathon and jay came over and he is soo funny..and me jon shane and leanne went to the beach by the peir and went into the water and hung out, and i juss had to tell jonathon i was scared o he kept freaking me out and dunking me under water and we kept fighting ( I kiked his ass lol) and we were juss fighting and me n leanne jept acting like lezbians to make shane jealous lol...**SHane, i got to sleep with leanne hahaahahaha** and then they started kissing (leanne and shane) so i was all jealous and jon made me watch and he kept holding me :-) ahhh he is sooo hott!!!!! and then we had a boob contest, me n leanne against each other and shne and jonathon againstr eachother and me n jonathon! i won with jon, leanne won with me, and shane won with him n jon... and yeah, god, i wanted to kiss jon soooo bad, and i was right about to when rhonda came (damn) and yeah...so we went back to the hotel and Lauren was there and i gave her a HUGE hug....i missed her!!!!!! and so was tyler, god, that kid iss sooooo funny!!!!!! and really cute, and i told him about shane and leanne and so he kissed abbey and i was liek nooooooooooooooooooo!!!!! lol!!! and i was pissed , and then jonathon and shane came and yeah that was fun.....and then my mom came and i left......oh i was walking and these ppl hit on me n they were soo grody!!! i was like ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!
so yeah, i liek jon now.....and its gonna suck....i can tell now....X0 MiSsIn U143X0: why ddo u want me to comeover so bad?
X0 MiSsIn U143X0: lol...aw, im sry
maximus: because i want to patch things up between us
maximus: or atleast try
maximus: i bought you a necklace

convo with me n todd.....yes i still liek him.....idk what to do, but i gotta go now....

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:: 2004 21 May :: 9.40 am
:: Mood: sleepy

hmmmm.....
hey hey yall....well, i got a new bathing suit, its like a lime green camo, its soooo cute, and i got bord shorts to go with it so i defanatly look pimp now...i have something to say to mike (meana dad):
Hey, i am juss relizing it, but i am sooo eternally grateful for the way u treat me and for letting me hang out with Meana...I know I am not the best person in the world with the drugs and smoking and cussin and bein a lil bit slutty.....I dont know why u let me, but i really am glad that u treat me like a person who has never done these thigns and for all the advise u give me!!!! thank u....

now to my friends (yall know who u r):
I was on the bus yesterday thinking about life.....if ne one has ever seen the movie SPEED, then u'll know what i am talking about....i had a lil day dream that we were on the bus and there was a bomb on it.... and that i blew up along with all my friends and the ppl i dont like that were with me....and i relized, if that happened, there would be no beach trip, no cd's for leanne to make me, no more seeing u guys or todd or chris, no more hw, no more ne thing...it juss made me relize how importnant u guys r to me...I love u all sooooo much and i thank u from the bottom of my heart for being my friend...it made me think of the lil things in life! "I live for the nights I wont remember, with the friend i will nvr forget!"

ne ways, sorry, juss had to write all that....tonight is my dance woot woot, im soo happy....:-) i have a feeling today is gonna be pretty laid back, bc its gettin close to the end of the skewl year and all that and we have all our exams next week, so there is nothing really for us to do....well, i am gonna go home after skewl, take a shower, get ready for my dance and I WILL have a ball!!! I am DETEERMINED to not let ne thing get me down tonight....and then me, austin, leanne and malllory are all going to go down to the beach and krissy is gonna meet us there and we r juss all gonna hang out i guess....that should b fun, i have this lil dream liek u c in movies after prom when everyone gets out and they go to the beach and mess around in their suits and dresses ya know? and tomaro i am supposed to go down to town square annd shop and we r supposedly meeting shane and jonathon there but i doubt i will bc i was on the phone with shane yesterday and i told him he needs to get up early and hes like juss for that we rnt......oh, speeking of jonathon, him n mal broke up wednesday lol...they went out for like a day!!!! n then saturday night, i am supposed to go to Chris's if my mom lets me....hope so...Jessica is prolly going to after work if she doesnt get fired......and imma feel all weird if it is juss me chris and todd....any other time when me n todd were going out, i wouldnt feel weird, but now i do....and the funny thing is, chris said todd wanted me to go??? and i know chris wants me to go bc he told me so and he doesnt want either of us to leave early....:-) oh n me n todd r friends agen i guess...well, as much as we can b ne ways....idk, i will find out saturday whats going on.....woot woot n then sunday i am going to church, and then after i am prolly gonna sleep until i have to go back to church for missions trip...! okie, well, imma go now so ttul! (who am i tlking to??? lol))

EMILY -
I love u...ur the bestest and i would never say that i didnt wanna be ur friend.....that really honestly WASNT me!!!!!! i didnt even know that sn until u showed me that IM and even if i didnt wanna be friends, i wouldnt have told u like that!!!! I miss u!!!

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:: 2004 21 May :: 9.17 am

juss a survey
PART 1

1. Name:Sara Nicole Austin
2. Nicknames:Sir Austin, Serta...Matress, flippy,
3. Feet size: 9 (1/2?)
4. Do you have a crush? yes....
5. Girlfriend/Boyfriend? nope....TOdd i miss u
6. Age you act: defanatly do NOT! I am so childish lol, but i have fun so yay :-) but i can act older if i need too
7. Where Do You Live: cape coma Fl
8. Where you want to live:Bradenton or Leannes neighborhood
9. How many siblings: 1
10. Favorite Salad Dressing: ranch
11. Ever gone skinny dipping? yep
12. What are you watching? the computer?
13. Last person you talked to:the lady @ walmart
14. Favorite movie:finding Nemo
15. Favorite Book: "dont die my love"- lurlene mc daniel
16. Favorite Type of music:emo and country and what ever is on 99x
17. Favorite types of cars: not a car fanatic
18. Favorite Saying:fuck a duck, "if u were me, i'd be ugly"- peter pan, and "what r u looking at?" "im still trying to fgure that out!"
19. Favorite Fast Food: Mcdonalds
20. Favorite Ice Cream:cookie dough
21. Favorite Non-Alcoholic Drink: mountain dew
22. When Do You Go To Sleep: when i get sleepy
23. Most Embarrassing Moment:no sure, ive had too many!
24. Stupidest Person you know:depends on stupid...stupid funnny stupid:Leanne! stupid stupid stupid....no one...

25. Funniest Person you know: Leanne and Melissa and Chris
26. Favorite holiday: 4th of july
27. Favorite Food:PiZzA
28. Favorite Song:love to love u outloud- rascal flatts
29. Favorite Television Show: degrassi (how lame am i??)
30. Favorite Radio Station:101.9,100.1,103.9,99x
31. Favorite junk food: gum
32. Favorite happy love song: there goe my life- kenny chesney (what a babe)
33. Favorite Drink: mountain dew or pina coladas
34. Favorite article of clothing:my white and pink thong that says "kiss" and his red lips that are like lil sequens or sumthin
35. Favorite Animal:cat or horse

PART 2: The Future

1. School: NORTH FT MYERS HIGH!! WOOT WOOT GO RED KNIGHTS
2. How Many Kids You Want:2
3. What Kind Of Job You Want:phsycatrist
4. Wedding song:Love
5. Pets? ?idc
6. 5 years from now? i will prolly be out of my house chillaxin with mah hommies!
7. 10 years from now? idk

PART 3: Have You Ever..

1. Done Drugs:yes...
2. Run Away From Home: yes
3. Hit A Girl: yes
4. Lied:alot to my parents but not to mcuh to my friends
5. Stolen Anything: yep
6. Broken A Bone: nope
7. Cheated On A Test: yep
8. Cheated On A girlfriend/boyfriend: yes :'( (thats how i ended up single...duhhherz)
9. Gotten Drunk: yep
10. Been With Two guys/girls At Once: no
11. Been In The Hospital: yep
13. Fell asleep in the shower/bath:no lol
14. Gone to Church: yea
15. Never slept during a night:yep
16. Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike: yep
17. Been to a camp: yes
18. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: yap
20. Gone a week w/out shaving: ew, discusting...but yes
21. Didn't wash your hair for a week: no
22. Broken something valuable: not that i can remember
23. Thought you were in love: yes too many times...damn, i need to stop
24. Streaked the streets:no
25. Screamed at someone for no reason: yep
26. Said I love you and meant it: yes
27. Been hurt by a guy/girl you loved: yes really badly hurt
28. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: yes..
29. Pulled a prank? yes...didnt go too well either
30. Made fun of someone?LE@NNE!!!! LOL
PART 4 which is better?

1. Coke Or Pepsi: coke
2. Cats Or Dogs: cats
3. DVDs or VHS: DVD
4. Deaf Or Blind: there both evil cause you can falin love with someones voice and you can also fall in love with someones looks
5. Pools Or Hot Tubs: Hot tub
6. Television Or Radio: radio
7. CDs Or MP3's: no clue, both
8. Apples or oranges:oranges
9. Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries
10. Gold or silver: both
11. Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
12. Movies or music: music
13. Park or Beach: beach
14. Hot or Cold weather: cold cause then you can just have a good excuse for your BF to warm you up.
15. Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset

SECTION 5:when was the last time you:

1. Took a shower: last night
2. Cried: l@st night
3. Watched a Disney movie: uhh... dont member
4. Given/gotten a hug: yesterday <<3 u Elena!
5. Been to the movies:2 weeks ago
6. had a boy/girlfriend: 2 days ago
7. kissed someone: uummm, this past saturday
8. Said I love you:last time i talked to todd w/o fighting
9. Danced: onthe bus yesterday...(gonna tonight woot woot)
10. Did a survey like this: last time i was bored

PART 6: What is..

1. Your Fondest Memory Of This year:the time Matt said I was pretty, both to my face and online....
2. Your Most Prized Possession: Todd's ring
3. The Thing That Makes You The Happiest:being with my friends, i lvoe u guys idk what i would do with out u!
4. Your Favorite Food For Breakfast:bagel bites

5. Your Favorite Food For Dinner: tacos
6. Your Favorite Slow Song: suga suga
7. Your Ideal BF/GF?: Hmm someone thats there for me and sees past my pain, always knows how to cheer me up or when to be serious and cares for me, not how pretty i am or how slutty i am

PART 7: What do i feel about...

1. Bill Clinton:hewww
2. Love at First Sight: it can happen...
3. Abortion:i agree but would nvr do itbc its killing
4. Smoking: i smoke, no biggie, but i dont do it like every friggin day, jus like once a week, and thats only one ciggerette....
5. Death: sad, wish it would happen to some ppl, including me @ times
7. Rap: eh
8. Marilyn Manson: YAY!
9. Premarital sex: its fun
10. Suicide: the worst way to die but i now how it feels to want to.

INFORMATION

1. full birth name:Sara Nicole Austin

2. hair color: brown
3. eye color: hazel
4. current height:5'3-5'4
5. glasses/contacts: glasses
6. birthdate: 12-28-89
7. ethnicity: white....lol, leane omg omg omg whats that on my shoulder....oh its dirt **wipes shoulder off the white girl way**
8. religion: christian
9. current age: 14

SOCIAL

1. best guy friend: Austin, Vicne, Chris
2. best girl friend:Yaminah
3. current crush:Todd
4. boyfriend/girlfriend: nope...:'(
5. are u center of attention or wallflower: both, depends on the mood
6. what type automobile do u drive: none yet
7. are u timely or always late: timly...
8. do u have a job: nope, im gettin one with leanne soon :-)
9. do u like being around people:yep- when im happy other wise LEAVE ME ALONE
10. hobbies: i play flute... hanging out, sk8 boarding (lol, the only thing i can do is move but oh well) hanging out juss pretty much covers it all...

LOVE

1. have u ever loved someone u had no chance with? unfortunatly, yes...brett
2. have u ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did? yes to many times.
3. do u have a "type" of person u always go after: skaterish... and gentle
4. want someone u don't have right now? todd
5. ever liked a close guy/girl?yes, kinda liking austin right now, but im not sure if it is real, i will find out tonight
6. are u lonely right now?yes
7. ever afraid u'll never get married? yes bc i dont wanna end up like those ppl on TV
8. do u want to get married? yes
9. do u want kids? yes
10. would you rather love or be loved? loved

FAVORITES

1. room in house:my closet
2. type of music: emo and country
3. location for dates: their house, the movies, the mall, the beach
4. memory: when me n todd were making out in the rain...oh my god, that was sooo much fun and romantic!
5. day of the week: sat
6. color: pink, blue, BLACK!
7. perfume or cologne: orian axe (cologne)
8. flower: rose
9. month: december

10. season: summer

In the last 48 hours have you..

1. cried: yes
2. bought something: yes
3. gotten sick:yes
4. sang:yes
5. said i love you: yes
6. wanted to tell someone you loved them? yes
7. met someone new: yes
8. moved on: nope
9. talked to someone: yes
10. had a serious talk: yes
11. missed someone: yes
12. hugged someone: yes
13. kissed someone: nope..
14. fought with your parents: yes
15. dreamed about someone u can't be with: yes

YoU

:: 2004 20 May :: 9.19 pm
:: Mood: depressed

lately
Hey yall....yesterday wasnt as bad as i thought it would be....i was sad, but i managed...Mike, the asnwer to ur question....its still Todd....I am not going to do drugs bc we r still friends, and i would like to keep it that way!
but yeah, i got my nails done and found out Logan lieks me agen :-/ idk how i feel about him....i dk....
today i went to Bush Gardens and that was fun...Jake was really nice to me for once...Leanne called Shane on the bus and him n Jonathon r supposed to be at the beach Saturday with me, krissy, leanne, and austin...:-) but yeah, I called chris from bush gardens and it was fun...i made hiim cry tho lol, chris, im sorry<3!!! and me n leanne and mellisa went on like every ride and we got soaked on the tidal wave....and ahh, we went on the phenox and melissa camera fell and wen she found it it was all busted up...it was funny, but i was mad bc acording to leanne there was some good "footage" lol..>LEANNE: whats that on my shoulder omg omg omg!!!! 590: i'm just so funny i dunno how i dont pee my pants everytime i start talking! wel, yall i gotta go...oh yeah, i got a new bathingsuit it is defanatly pimpinG lol...(WHITE GIRL!) + my 8th grade dance is tomaro night :-) and i am going to the beach...with everyone ok well i gotta go

YoU

:: 2004 19 May :: 9.48 am
:: Mood: lonely

ok, i will write as much sa i can, but if i get cut off in mid sentence, sry....ok, i called todd from the library and he blew up on me for "not telling him i made out with vince" and then my aunt got to the library to pick me up so i had to go, and i called him when i got home and he kept telling me i didnt tell him when i know he did bc he wouldnt have gotten mad at me for juss kissing him bc he does that to girls all the time! so we fought, and i lost....he told me it was over, i ran to meanas bathroom and cried my eyes out..literally, they were red and puffy and my cheeks were black from mascara and eyeliner.....so meana hung up with ty and called todd and told him what a jerk he was and that he didnt really love me like he said he did bc he wouldnt give me a second chance when i gave him 3...Yeah, todd, i know i said that i liked kissin him @ the time, but that doesnt mean that it ment soemthing to me, bc in ll reality, ur kisses r the only ones that have met ne thing to me since we started going out (and no i havent kissed more ppl), and i dont care that we r broken up (wait, what am i saying, yes i do, or i wouldnt be crying!!!) but i hope we can be friends agen, but since seeing how u hate everyone but chris and i made u as mad as roswell does.....then it doesnt look like it will happen...but idk, w/e some one comment.... i gotta go..<<3

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:: 2004 19 May :: 9.46 am

....me n todd broke up last night...hope yall r happy...:'( bc im sure as hell not! and yes, it has to do with Vince, I will write more when I have time

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:: 2004 18 May :: 7.15 pm

WOW, LOOKS LIKE IM JUSS A SCREW UP ALL AROUND HUH?!?!? ME N TODD R FIGHTING, AND NOT BC OF ME N VINCE...(LEMME REPHRASE THAT: THERE IS NO ME N VINCE!!!) BUT BC I imED CHRIS (THINKING IT WAS CHRIS) AND I ASKED HIM WHERE TODD WAS AND HE SAID "OH U DIDNT HEAR" AND I WAS LIKE NO, AND HE SAID "IM SO SORRY" AND I WAS LIKE HWTAS GOING ON!!!!! AND HE GOES "I HATE TO BE THE BEARER OF BAD NEWS" AND I GO NO U DONT, TELL ME WHERE TODD IS.....AND THEN A FEW MIN LATER "HE IS RIGHT HERE ACTUALLY HE IS TYPING!" AND I GOT SO MAD, BUT NOT REALLY.....BUT HE DID REALLY SCARE ME, I THOUGHT SOMETHING BAD HAD HAPPENED.....AND THEN WHEN I WENT TO HIS HOUSE SATURDAY, HE TOLD ME HE HATES ROSWELL (ULL UNDERSTAND WHY I PUT THAT IN HERE IN A SEC) AND THAT NIGHT WHEN I GOT HOME FROM BABYSITTING CHRIS WAS ONLINE AND I TOLD HIM MY LITTLE "PLAN" ( TO TELL TODD THAT i AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH CHRIS AND THAT HE WAS MADLY IN LOVE WITH ME...) BUT CHRIS TOLD ME IT WOULDNT WORK BC TODD KNOWS HOW MUCH HE LOVES JESSICA, SO CHRIS SAID "WHY NOT SAY ROSWELL, BC THATS HIS WORST ENEMY" SO....I TOOK HIS ADVISE AND I TOLD TODD THAT ROSWELL ASKED ME OUT AND THAT I THINK WE SHOULD BREAK UP BC NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT, I REALLY LIKE HIM.....
AND HE HASNT TLKED TO ME SINCE, WELL, EXCEPT FOR WHEN I'VE BEEN ON THE PHONE WITH CHRIS AND HIM...AND THAT IS LIKE 2 WORDS....TONIGHT IS THE MOST THAT I HAVE TALKED TO HIM IN 3 DAYS........SO, TODD IF U READ THIS, U KNOW HOW SORRY I AM, AND IF WE HAVENT BROKEN UP ALREADY, I HOPE WE DONT, BC I LOVE U WITH ALL ( WELL MOST OF IT) MY HEART.....AND I AM EXTREMELY SORRY, IF I KNEW U WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THIS MAD, I WOULDNT HAVE EVEN DONE THE STUPID JOKE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!! N I HOPE U FORGIVE ME....REALLY I DO, I KNOW IM MAD, BUT ITS ONLY BC U R....N BC URNT TLKING TO ME...:'( WELL, I GOTTA GO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE HELL U R SAYING TO ME BC UR TLKING IN GERMAN!!!! SO I LOVE U BABI AND I HOPE WE GET OVER THIS...**GIVES TODD A "PLEASE FORGIVE ME" KISS**

YoU

:: 2004 16 May :: 3.11 pm

a little while ago I wrote that I did something horrable but wouldnt tell ne one.......but I guess since ppl already know, I will write it in here.....I made out with Vince....I know, I am a bad gf.....it isnt like I didnt like it or want it, and at first i liked it and didnt care, and then I got home and i called todd and i almost started crying, so I told him, and we r still going out, which is good, but i know he wasnt happy @alll, and I dont blame him! He has put up iwth me alot, and Im sooo suprised we made it this far, like hith the whole pot ordeal, and then Vince....I love him so much!(Todd, not Vince) well, I gotta go get ready to leave.....

Todd, I am sooo sorry for everything, I love u!

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:: 2004 16 May :: 12.27 am

haha, i had the best ending to the day....it started raining when me n todd were in the kitchen so we decided to go outside and we were standing there making out in the rain and it started pouring so we went under the cover and then hes liek ah fuck it i have to change ne ways so he stands there in the rain and pulls me out while we r making out...it was sooo great and he wouldnt let me go back inside, so byy the time we got inside we were soaked so we went into his room and he gave me clothes and we changed and yeah...thats about it....oh, we spent the last half hr i was there making out it was absolutly wonderful...:-) now, i am tlking to matt, and he is so horney and i wish he always acted liekt his with me...

YoU

:: 2004 15 May :: 6.27 pm
:: Mood: exhausted

hey i am at todds right now, ,but he is cooking so I am in here online:-) well, today has been pretty fun, i was at leannes, then i came here and we were makin out for a while and all this junk and listened to music and then Chris came, and that was super fun bc like always, he gives me some reason to hit him so i chased him around the house and he was acting like the caterpiller from a bugs life and sayin "imma pretty buterfly" n all this junk and then him n todd started fghting and his dadd joined in and then we juss layed down on the bed and chris missed jessica so we gave him a pillow and he pretebnded it was her...pretty funny! and then we went outside and they threw matches at each other and Chris left so we came in here to get online and this is where we have been since, and i got mad at todd and wouldnt let him touch me, after like a half hr, i gave up and we went into his room to make out and this lady comes and he has to cook...:'( and i am leaving soon...o well gotta go bye

YoU

:: 2004 15 May :: 1.53 am
:: Music: leanne breathing

YoU

:: 2004 13 May :: 9.28 am
:: Music: tracy laurence- paint me a birminham

YoU

:: 2004 11 May :: 8.33 pm

I am really hating life right now!!! jeeze....me n Vince r fighting like crazy and me n Mel...well, im not quite sure whats going on with us bc she is explaining it to me.....and I am going crazy bc i dont know whats going on in my own argument...Vince likes me, its plain as day! Mel can see it, everyone else can but ME?!?!? WTF! and im so scared that they might break up juss bc of me.......and it hurts bc if they do, Mel wil be pissed at me, and I dont want that to happen! I like Vince, yes, but if it is going to hurt someone else then I wont even bother....later i think i will put our convo in here...and it seems to me like Logan likes me agen and wants to go back out bc heres what happened: me: what happned
him: brit lied to me yada yada yada
me: oh, well, if she lied to u like that than maybe she doesnt really like u and doesnt wanna hurt u or she does juss not that much...and u can find some one sooo much better...
him: i think i can
me:oh
him: r u n todd still going out?
me: yes why
him:jw

does that seem to yall like he was gonna ask me back out?!?? gotta go lata!

YoU