:: 2004 2 July :: 10.37 am

HEY HEY, WELL AS U ALL KNOW, mEANA CAME HOME YESTERDAY...WE TALKED ABOUT WHAT WENT ON IN US. AND IN PERU....SHE REALLY MISSES IT THERE AND REALLY WANTS TA GO BACK... :'( BUT YEAH, I SPENT THE NIGHT AT HER HOUSE, BROKE MY dvd PLAYER, GOT HER cd'S STUCK...LOL.....IT WAS SHREK 2 ....LIKE ALL dvd'S IN PERU ARE BOOTLEGGED, SO SHE GOT SCARY MOVIE 4, SHREK 2, THE DAY AFTER TOMARO, THE PASSOION AND SUMTHIN ELSE.....SO YEAH, UNFORTUNATLY WE DIDNT GET TO WATCH EM, BC I BROKE MY dvd PLAYER :-/ AND GOT THE cdS STUCK IN THE dvd PLAYER, LITERALLY...SO WE JUSS WENT TO SLEEP...THEN i WOKE UP LIKE 10 TIMES, BC AT NIGHT, HER HOUSE IS FREZZING, WHICH FEELS GOOD, DURING THE DAYM ITS SUPER HOT...EVEN AT 10 IN THE AM...SO I GOT UP TOOK MY dvd PLAYER AND CAME HOME....AND MY DAD WAS TALKING TO TARA ABOUT COMING TO CAPE CORAL FOR THE WEEK...AND YEAH, I GOT ON AND WE TALKED ABOUT HOW: OK....HMMM, BC LIKE i HAVE NOTHING TO DO UNTILL THE 8TH OF JULY, CEPT WORK ON THE 4TH AND BAND PRACTICE ON THE 6TH.....THEN ON THE 9TH I AM LEAVING UNTILL THE 17 AND THEN SARAH IS COMING UNTILL THE 26TH....BUT I MIGHT BE IN NY 4 OF THOSE DAYS INBETWEEN THE 19-26....THEN I HAVE NOTHING UNTILL THE 30-AUSGUST SUMTHIN FOR BAND CAMP.........
SO YEAH, NOW SHE IS COMING TOMARO AND STAYIN TILL THE 8TH......SO HOPEFULLY THAT WILL WORK OUT....BC ME N HER, R STILL NOT LIKE...B4.....SO, WISH ME LUCK....(THAT EVERYTHING WORKS OUT)......OK, WELL, IM GONNA GO BC IM TIRED AND WANNA GO BACK TO SLEEPZ...! OH, BTW, ME N TODD R GOING BACK OUT NOW...HIM N CHRIS ARE LEAVING ON THE 7TH TO GO TO OHIO UNTILL LIKE AUGUST 1ST.....:'(PEACE

YoU

:: 2004 1 July :: 10.27 pm

"MY SonG"
Hey, I Am wAtching GreAse...And I wAs listening to this song And it reminded me of....ME! KindA.....*ouch* dudes, I juss crAcked my bAck And it hurt reAlly bAd!!!!! Ok, I need to go mAke some popcorn for me Mommy...so I will bbl....


"There Are worse things I could do
ThAn go with A boy or two
Even tho the neighborhood
Thinks im trAshy And no good
I suppose it could be true
But there Are worse things i could do

I could flirt with All the guys
Smile At them And bAtt my eyes
Press AgAinst them when we dAnce
MAke them think the stAnd a chAnce
Then refuse to see it thru
ThAt's A thing id never do

I could stAy home every night
WAit Around for Mr. Right
TAke cold showers ever dAy
And throw my life Away
On A dr3Am thAt wont come true

I could hurt some one like me
Out of spite or jeAlousy
I dont steAl And I dont lie
But I cAn feel And I cAn cry
A fAct I'll bet u never knew
But to cry in front of u
ThAts the worst thing I could do"

YoU

:: 2004 1 July :: 10.00 pm

yaminahs home yaminahs home yaminahs home!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! I am sooooooooooooooooo happy!!!!! my best friend is home, i havent seen her in a month, and I prolly only tlked to her about 4 times....!!!!!!!!!!! so yeah imm a go with her...peace

YoU

:: 2004 1 July :: 9.07 pm

"Your the best son money can buy!"- Rich guy to his son on "Little RAscAls...

"I'm going to bed b4 either of u get us killed, or worse......expelled....

YoU

:: 2004 1 July :: 2.38 am

Hey yall i am at leannes right now...i went to cold stone at like 10 30 or sumthin.....that was cool, me her n louis tlked....the only reason we really tlked was bc Leanne called me from work and she put him on the phone and we chated for a lil while...so yeah........then we came here and watched u got surved....thats an awsome movie! alot of hott ppl! lol ....she doesnt think so tho...so hmmm, yeah.......Jon stopped by tonight, he like knocked on the window and scared me and then i was like ah leanne someones knocking on ur wondow so we went in there and she was all like who r u i c u and i was like its jon....so yeah, jon if u read this, I dont have a bf..........dont listen to Leanne, she is going crazy! and yeah, now we r doin sumthin......juss watchin TV....well,im gonna go now...peace...........

YoU

:: 2004 30 June :: 11.13 am

yesterday
Hey, well, basically today, I did nothin but sit online and tlk to ppl...at like 3 tho, I went to Julians house....that was cool....I was there for a while, his dog doesnt hate me ne more so I am all good with it now lol!! So yeah, the power went out so we juss sat in his room and tlked....I havent seen him in forever...since spring break...so yeah, and I ate bc I am a fat pig...lol...then we walked down to Lisa's in the rain and hung out with her and Sarah Stetzer and they danced and julian juss walked around her room...and i sat in this chair with a back massager thing, it was soooo comfy! ah, ok, so yeah thats abbout it...we came ome and looked at pix...Leanne, he thinks ur really hott lol!!! ok, so yeah, now I learned how to do this, so thats good...and I am gonna put this other thingy in here and it should look really cool!f
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:: 2004 29 June :: 6.18 pm

Sarah, I have a ? for ya if u read this b4 I tlk to u! ok, well u know how Im gonna go to NY?? well.......do u wanna go with me...we will be home the 26th...............and maybe u can stay in fl for the rest of the day, and if u n ur mom wanted to stay here u can.....think bout it! and tlk to me later!!!

YoU

:: 2004 28 June :: 8.58 pm

hey...i juss got home from Escape.....(Dory: "es-cape`) wow, lol, sorry im still a lil hyper! ok, so Matt and Elyse were there, and Elyse wouldnt kiss the fish...and we played this weird game and then this one where u had to get coco pufffs into pudding...Elyse had to eat it tho bc she wouldnt kiss the fish...then we went inside and listend to a "skit" on respect and they played r-e-s-p-e-c-t and at first it was only 3 ppl dncing, then they piked lauren up and took her onstage and then ppl could volenteer so me kelci and courtney went....that was fun....then we had a sermon on respect....and he dismissed us, he's like "ok...whose gonna be the first to get up" bc no body would leave...so i got up and walked...hehe, u can always count on me to b the first one! lol....then we all juss ate and yeah....

YoU

:: 2004 28 June :: 5.55 pm

Austin's...kinda...
Hey, wow, todayz was funn! I went to Austin's around noon, and uh, Matt was there, and we hung otu in his room untill collin adn his cousin came and we all got kiked out bc Austin had to clean, so we went to Collin's and I saw Mallory....and watched this Slipknot DVD thing...and I was laying on matt.....:-) it was pretty boring tho....and i found a dime i kept plyin around with....lol...then, we walked back to austins and hung out outside...me n Matt were on the four wheeler together, and they kept spraying me q/ weed kiiler, so now my black pants are white now thanks to them...but it doesnt matter, I was like leaning on matt, hes really comfortable for yall who dont know him...and Austin was being a jerk and telling Chad (his def lil brother) that I liked him, and i felt bad, bc i had to keep telling him i dont lol! and they were settin off fire works and throwin em at me....ne ways, then Leanne and Mallory rode down on the four wheeler...and then we all went to Leannes and pigged out on chips and hung out, then Jon <<3 came over and we went to the golf course (sp?) and we hung out n det off more fire crakers and me n jon were together!! :-) and then we went back to leannes and we were washing our feet off, and Chad took the hose and spraid me! ahh.....i was soaked ...ne ways, then we juss hung out i guess n tlked about skewl stuffz....and oh yeah, I was leaving and I said bye to Matt and hes like backing away now and he fell out of his chair...it was fun...i missed everyone! I still do....it was fun........
ok, thats about it...

<<3

YoU

:: 2004 28 June :: 5.55 pm

Austin's...kinda...
Hey, wow, todayz was funn! I went to Austin's around noon, and uh, Matt was there, and we hung otu in his room untill collin adn his cousin came and we all got kiked out bc Austin had to clean, so we went to Collin's and I saw Mallory....and watched this Slipknot DVD thing...and I was laying on matt.....:-) it was pretty boring tho....and i found a dime i kept plyin around with....lol...then, we walked back to austins and hung out outside...me n Matt were on the four wheeler together, and they kept spraying me q/ weed kiiler, so now my black pants are white now thanks to them...but it doesnt matter, I was like leaning on matt, hes really comfortable for yall who dont know him...and Austin was being a jerk and telling Chad (his def lil brother) that I liked him, and i felt bad, bc i had to keep telling him i dont lol! and they were settin off fire works and throwin em at me....ne ways, then Leanne and Mallory rode down on the four wheeler...and then we all went to Leannes and pigged out on chips and hung out, then Jon <<3 came over and we went to the golf course (sp?) and we hung ou

YoU

:: 2004 27 June :: 11.44 pm

hey....wow, I look hott today lol...but alot of ppl think im going goth! bc I am wearing my new pants, a black tank top and my eyes were all black and my hair.....but I was wearing Austin's DC Hat and I looked good inthe neighborhood lol...so yeah, we went to an old folks home today and hung out with the old ppl..Joey and Josh and Geovani got stuck in the bathroom haha...and yeah, it was really boring....but I hung out at the triplets house b4 and after w/ Elyse too <<3 and yeah....it was cool.........so yeah, I came home and Karen was here, I havent seen her since she left like in the middle of 7th grade and Debbi and Dascha were here.....(these r all my moms friends from work) and then Cindi got ehre !!! I was soo glad to c her....even tho we teas each other like crazy, its all bc we love each other! (cough, thats what she says ne way lol....naw, j/m I love Cindi!) and uhhh, I called Austin and Matt and I believe I am going to Austin's tomaro...? that'll be cool if it actually happens! so yeah, thats about it...Im gonna go

YoU

:: 2004 27 June :: 11.06 am

yesterday...
ok, yesterday was REALLY fun! I met up with Lauren, Kelci and Matt....he is so0o0o weird! ok, so we shopped for like 3 hrs, and then went back to the triplets house to get ready for teen night and eat n everything....and we dropped Matt off at his house and went to teen night...at first it was boring bc no body was there or ne thing and they played a bunch of slow songs and rock....so me n Lauren were juss sittin on the wall singin lol.....but we started dancing when they played rap..........and then I saw Eric, Stephanie and Tedd......and we hung out the whole night....it was cool, Lauren and Stephanie already knew each other from Ty's party....so, we danced, and they played techno and it was really weird, bc Eric was raving and me n Tedd were dancing to it, but like it was a really fast dance type thing, it was funny! so yeah, and then Tedd met this one chik he doesnt like, and they danced and he got sik of dancing with her, so he juss went to get a drink but he only came over to hang otu wtih me eric lauren and steph... and me n eric slow danced, and that girl came up to tedd and asked him to dance and he told her he doesnt slow dance so she walked away...and we all just went to sit down, then eric and tedd got up and after a while i went with em bc i was sik of tlking.....so Tedd started break dancing, that was quite funny too...Tedd was dancing with that one girl and I went over to him, and he mouthed "help me" and i was like..."uhh, stephanie needs to tlk to u" and yada yada yada and we got past the wall and hes like omg thank u so much!
...and then we all juss danced together, and we had this big line goin...ok, not that big, but it was Tedd, me, Lauren, Steph, and Eric......that was fun...and I saw Alex Coomer....hehe, i havent seen him in ten yrs! an yeah.....haha, so yeah, we were juss all dancing haveing a grand old time, and then like the last 2 songs were slow, and one of em, we juss sat out, and the 2nd one, Stephanie danced with eric and tedd asked me to dance :-)....aww, stephanie and eric kissed...that was actually quite funny! and yeah, I took eric's keys so he couldnt leave till I did......hmmm....all in all, it was really fun...I havent seen Eric in a while, he isnt goth ne more, now he's wearin that south pole junk...and he got his hair cut :'( and Im suprised he showed up..and I am really grateful that he did! bc me n lauren would have been really bored with out him...i saw a bunch of ppl from skewl, but most of em didnt know me, and i didnt know them, juss recognized em....ne ways, we came home to my house and talked for 2 hrs about "benny" and Caleb and other ppl...ah, Eric brought up all this stuff like me n James fighting and him n james dancing @ t/n....hes like "oh, i better be ready u might slap me" and we juss joked about that the whole night and we hugged alot....:-)....ok, well yeah thats bout it...I gotta go....buh byes!
oh, PS..Tedd.....is REALLY Hott!!!!!!! (but he has a gf :'(

YoU

:: 2004 26 June :: 2.09 pm
:: Mood: sad

i hate my fuking mom!
OMG, she is sending me back to NY to visit ppl Id even k! I hate this....and Im leaving July 23!!!!!!! I am sooo bumbed, its like, Sarah might as well not even come!!!! I knew something like this was gonna happen....god, I hate her!!!!!!!!!!! well, I need to go get ready, I am supposed to Meet Lauren and Kelci at Coralwood and then go to their house and to teen night....now its juss all gonna suc...i cant even stop fukin crying!

YoU

:: 2004 26 June :: 8.32 am

I dont really like this song...or the person who sings it.....but parts of it are OK...I GOT MY POPTART! WOOOO

You're The Only One
by Maria Mena

Well I saw you with your hands above your head,
Spinning around, trying not to look down,
But you did, and you fell,
Hard
On the ground

Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes,
And I said I've never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said
“I still know how to turn you on though”

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like the time when I forgot to tell you about the scar,
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected,
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me,
And you're such a great kisser,
And I know that you agree

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

I hope you can forgive me for that time
When I put my hand between your legs and said it was small,
Cause it's really not at all
I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around,
Cause the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me!
(my notes: I woul dhave highlited the part where it says cuz the day u realize how amazing u r, ur gonna leave me....well, he cant leave me since im not with him....)
And you're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

Exactly what I need

Well I saw you with you hands above your head,
Spinning around, trying not to look down,
But you did, and you fell,
Hard
On the ground

YoU

:: 2004 26 June :: 7.56 am

dudez,its like 8:00am and im friggin tired but i cant go back to sleep.....I was allowed to get online here, and since i cant go back to sleep...this is what I am doin! well, yeah, i totally wasnt underpaid last night, i got 30$ for 4 1/2 hrs.....usually i only get like 10-15$ so yeah, its all good in the hood! I had a dream last night, but i cant member it...:-( oh wellz...but since i couldnt sleep and was really freeked by the noises, I had to think of something peaceful, so I thought of "benny" and if i should tell him that I like him and what not....I still havent decided... :-/...Im thinking of all the worse possible outcomes of me telling him this, bc really...there rnt ne good ones.......n I mean, he isnt gonna juss up n leave his gf for me, I know that, so basically I am juss hurting myself more if i tell him...and then, I doubt he would like me since his brother* does........and yeah, it would be kind aweird going over there and making out with him when his brother* is there ya know???? SO yeah, I am super confuzeled.......(I took Chris's word since he took mine)...hm, o, speaking of Chris...he's going to Ohio for 3 weeks bc his aunt is dieing.........:-( (To Chris-even tho he prolly dont read this- Im sorry)...aw, n I feel really bad bc I was a jerk to him @ Todd's bc I was sad.......:'-(....I like didnt wanna c or tlk to him, n I especially didnt wanna laugh bc it would seem to them I was cheering up, but I wasnt....but there is no stopping me from laughing when Chris is around....he can ALWAYZ make me laugh!!!! ok, its 8:04 now hehe.....Im gonna go put on a movie or somthin n try to go back to sleep...
<<3....

YoU