alright lets vent now before i go insane to start it off i really dislike someone and she really needs to be quiet and leave me alone and out of her dramatic life that i really dont care about not trying to be mean but she does this all the time. ok anyway last night went awful. i was looking forward all day to the bridge so i can see mark. so in the time between i went to the mall with stephanie than went home and got ready, kelly came over and than we left. i went to the bridge and me and kelly were speaking spanish so i can tell her where mark is, what hes wearing and who everyone else is. than kelly was hungry so we went to the gas station it was very funny lol bc sheshe bought a whole lunch lol and we did some wierd stuff there and the lady laughed at us lol so she ate it and we went back and i watched mark play basketball and i was talking to these other girls. than he came over and talked to us and i was so nervous i think like everything i said came out dumb. and than we went to hess and the lady from before looked at me and kelly and started cracking up. ok we went back and tasha said something that i really wouldnt have preferred her to say mark gave me a look and he left.. yeah with that girl i talked about earler. me and him didnt talk for the rest of the night and i was sooo upset. no one can tell him but i was sitting there almost crying and kelly told me the mean girl wanted me to call her so i did and she started like yelling at me bc i thought at the time mark told her all my secrets so i hung up and i started bawling (spelling, it means crying really hard) and taira and kelly were like its ok its ok. but i was thinking like how can he do that and tell her all this. and a few mins later someoe called i picked it up and like i knew it was marks friend and i was just being a brat and kelly picked it up and was yelling at them. and i was like at the end "tell "anna" (the mean girl we will call anna) and mark i said hi. and i hung up. i was upset mark was around her. and after that i did the stupidest thing ever. he said bye to me and he was next to anna and i like gave him a look like i hate you go away and just turned my head when i knew i should have called him over and talked. than i realized at that point why was i doing this to him? but i had a talk with his friend jeremy and we just hung out and than we left i got online and had mark call me and we talked about everything and the way anna was yelling at me made me think that mark told her everything i told him not to tell


but he didnt, and i know he wouldnt

so i invited him over today to hang out idk if he'll come but i hope he does so i can talk to him about everything. i trust him, i really do and im really mad that i doubted him and i didnt talk to him more yesterday. i think he forgives me bc we talked last night for a long time and got everything straight. if he read my journal id say sorry but he doesnt so id say sorry to him i think i already said sorry yesterday. but still. i have a feeling he wont come over today, but i need to clean so ill talk to you all later! byeee

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