Play? Charlie? ME?
Ok, had a looooooong talk with Izzy earlier. She's going out with Brooks (so even if she isnt mad at Charlie anymore, he still cant have her) and SHE thinks I'm perfect for him, and I find it hard to disagree. She says I should ask him if he wants to go to the play on Friday, kinda break the ice. But just as friends, you see. Yeah...its not a bad idea. I mean, I've got a ticket and all that....the hard part would be asking. But how do I go about that? I've no idea, I'm way over my head here, although my recently gained daring at school will probably help in situations like this. But not that much! I'm so out of it recently, but..I dont know. Mom isnt mad, yay. She said it was a good day to get a ride home because she ended up helping Ms. Huddleston and staying WAY late, although she was mad she had to find out from Nikki and not me. Oh well..she wasnt THAT mad, just put on that tone to make sure I remembered next time, which wont be a problem. Izzy just says I should ask him to go to the play with me on Friday, but do you know how much daring that takes? Especially from me, I mean, come on. Its craziness. Well, even if I dont gain the courage to do that, I'm definately asking him if he's going to the Panther Chorale concert on Sunday afternoon. Because that is supposed to be AWESOME, and even if he doesnt go, I'm going. Although it would definately be nice if he was there. But seriously....man, I have so much I want to say, I just dont know how to say it! I like him A LOT, and I know he at least KINDA likes me..but..I mean....!! Its nice that I have Izzy at my back now, and I dont have to worry about her, but I mean, seriously..she cant ask for me, that's FAR too middle school. But I mean, yeah...I dont know what I mean. I dont know anything, cept that viruses arent alive and are actually made mainly of DNA and proteins, although a few have RNA in them....sorry, been studying for a quiz in bio tomorrow.

But seriously, how can I just ASK him if he wants to go? I was really tempted to call him last night and ask him if he was busy, see if he wanted to go to the pool and swim a few laps (he's an excellent swimmer, made state last year in the summer. he doesnt do swimming in the school year, too busy with band playing french horn, I found out earlier today), because I was in the mood to swim anyway, but I ended up just getting home, taking a shower, and sitting on my bum, shaking my head at my shyness. I feel so stupid worrying that he's just going to totally reject me, which I know he wouldnt do...I hope? But whatever, enough of going on and on and on and on and on (yes, a whole 5 "on"'s, you know that's what I've been doing). I'll just grit my teeth and ask him tomorrow. Like Jason told me, if I dont ask, I'll never have an answer. So that's that. And maybe I'll ask him if he plans to go to C-groups tomorrow night too...that would be another chance to hang out, in a fun and churchish atmosphere. So yeah...he seems most at ease at church, so maybe that would be a good idea? I dont know, whatever. You guys make sure to leave your comments.

Mindy

Arent you proud of me? I wrote a super long entry! Yay! I havent done that in a while, and you know it, dont even TRY to deny it!! I guess I just had a WHOLE lot to say for once..

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