nadia told me that she kissed luis and piper and haile on the cheek but not me. not like i am jealous but i am wondering if she likes luis and piper more than me as a friend,or mabye it was b/c she fells uncomfortable doing that w/ me b/c i asked her out like 5 months ago.....but then again so did luis and she kissed him on the cheek.....then again i don't have a crush on her anymore so i don't care that much.....but then again it is nice to know sumone loves u (as a friend) like when she or another girl hugs me so a cheek kiss might make me feel twice as good b/c a cheek kiss is twice a powerful as a hug so i donno. i'm not jealous and i don't want her to kiss me(like in a kissey kissey way,but i would want her to kiss me in a friend way) but i probrubly would like her to kiss me in a friend way b/c it would make me feel good.

safir, james and nadia came over to my house today and it was fun. i taught nadia to skate...although she almost broke my foot,but she is learning fast and is getting good. james was being an asshole to her though. she licked his dinner napkin. it was fun.

lyrics : nadiaa put these here
One! Two! Three!

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that you make
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love

But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again

i am a safirs house and nadia is not fat at all.

i am sooo good at my bass now. nadua and i r really good friends now. yay. and same thing w/ paulina. ashley is out of the movie and now nadia is in it. it is going to be sooo much fun.

i donno
dude i am so good at my bass now.(not really good but pretty goood) i made sum beats in class by hitting my desk w/ a pencil and acually made up sum good stuff so i wrote it down in bass notation,tabliture ,and left hand fingering on a piece of papper. i got an amp now. then i played them and it was good. i might go to safirs house and if i do we will rock out.and i don't care if nadia doesn't want me to, i'm not going to rape her or anything. i won't say a word to her of that is what she wants. laters

bass is ssssoooooo cool!!!!!!!
i am learning my bass and i know alittle. i have been teaching myself w/ this book i got(just until i get lessons from kacy) i can read basic music(the little upside down f's w/ the dots at the bottum)i made up a beat and wrote it down in bass and/or F notation,tablature ,and in H.L. fingerings. i am desperste for money for an amp and i gig bag. then later(a month or2) i'll neeed cash for a monotreme,an effects pedal, and a cleaning rag. laters

i went to my friends house and we were skating and a bunch of girls were having a party(they were really hot) and were whatching us skate and 1 of them was 13 and we were talking and she was really hot and it was cool.i can play my bass pretty well now. it i scool.

i got my bass guiter. it is so cool.
i rock!!! it is boring. it i sspring break and safir and nadia went to maui to visit there dad. thats cool and all but now i am bored b/c safir is in maui,paulina and jasmina are at papaloa,i don't wanna hang with my friend jered b/c he is being a nerdy puss bag lately,james is up the moantain( hard to get a hold of him)(probrubly hanging w/ noah,he is such a prick) so i am going to try and get together with my really good friend kane( the other guiterist in my soon to be band) he is my good friend since age 2. i wanna set nadia up with him when our band is going.i think they would be perfect for eachother. kane is a really nice guy.its almost like being friends with jesus.he isn't a goody tushuses pussy,but is really nice and sweet.(i am not gay)he used to have a crush on julian, nadias friend. laters

u know whats awsum. jesse(super hot) and kirstie(hot) both styled my hair at recess with there bare hands. OH RIGHT. damn i am cool and i kick ass

my life kicks ass. i love myself. i have many friends.heres a list.

my friends.

james
safir
kane
jered
nadia
nicky(once in a while)
luis
ashley(sumtimes
kelli(sumtimes
will
stephan
steven
ola
carl
ron
kelson
yannie
kaya
jasmine
kuuipo
manoa
chucles
miriah(not really but i met her once and she was really nice)
my dad
my mom
josh(most of the time)
matt
jesee(matts little bro)
catlin
jessica
julia
my big cock
alvin
nathin
clint
haile(mabye & sum of the time)
sean
i'm probrubly forgetin sum peaple. sorry to whoever i forgot. I KICK ASS. damn i love myself and all of those around my (friends and family)yeah

i don't love nadia anymore at all.(for reals) it feels like a 9,000 l.b. wieght was lifted. also if she did like me her mom made it clear she didn't want me dating nadia when she said "keep your filthy paws off my daughter" she was joking as she usually does but i don't blame her for thinking that. i don't care what she does or who she dates or likes or anything now. now were just friends. it is going to take a while for us to be good friends again. when i went over it was so akward.we started to loosen up but it will take awile for it to be normal. i had a dream(vision) and diecided to get over her and i did.it was ruining both our lives and destroying my friendship with nadia and safir.
i love not loving her anymore. its awsome.

i love her.i need her.even though she rejects me,dousn't love me,won't be with me i still know in my brocken heart she is the one and only girl for me.i'd do anything just to hold her in my arms.the way i felt when she wrote I LOVE KAYA on her leg,when we put our arms around eachother,when she sat on me,when i slept on her bed ,when she rested her head on my lap was so happy..everthing she dous is like magic.there is not one thing i don't like about her.she is the perfect girl in every way imaginable.i would love her more than samson or any other guy on the planet.i would give up 1,000,000,000 dollars to be with her.i would pass up a date with any girl to be with her.i am lost without her.i am jealous of everyone in her house b/c the can see her everyday and don't have to look at her at recess out of the corner of there eye so noone will notice,or look around corners to see her solid body.i have to skip class and sneak out of lunch early just to get a glance at her.her pretty glowing heart-warming face and her sparkiling smile,her long gergious black smooth shiny hair running down to her shuolders by her perfect size boobs.then as i look i see her well flattened stomach that goes to her nice pefect size(not too big or small)ass.i would give any thing to just be with her.i am sad when i'm not by her,knowing that she doesn't love me,when i get a small glance of her from affar i become so happy i forget how miserable i am in the inside ,wondering what the point of living is when the only person that makes you happy doesn't like you.will a pill or a knife end the pain,no i will not,even if the pain is more painful than anything i know if i kill myself nadia will be sad,even though she doesn't love me she still likes me and we are still friends,so if i kill myselfshe will be sad and i want her to be happy more than anything in the world so even if the pain kills me on the inside i am willing to live my life in misery and not kill myself to keep nadia from being sad.i love you nadia.i love you nadia.
Nice
Affectionette
Dark
Iintellegent
Artistic

i abulutely loth dispise hate hate hate hate hate hate living in a world were nadia isn't at my side.it makes me sick.when you hear songs about brocken hearts you think it is an expression,but it is a medical term.my heart is acually brocken.if you took an x-ray of my chest there is 2 pieces.1 of 4 things can happen.i can express my pain through music and use music to ease my paine,i can kill myself and/or slice my wrists,or i can do lots of pot,or i can be a depressed goth kid and give up on girls completely and dress like a goth kid and be social outcast.i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate living without nadia at my side.

what the fuck that little fag kona got that i don't got.godamitt i hate that fucker.