Hmm...not too much has been going on with me recently...Monday and Tuesday were the first days where I didn't spend time with Carmen...I survived though...hehe...Wednesday night, I taught her the bassoon basics, and hopefully we'll continue with those lessons...she did do a very good job, for a first time bassoon and woodwind player...maybe this will renew her confidence in driving my car...who knows...I am always ready and willing to be a teacher...Thursday, I woke up on time, but to my stomachs delight, she felt like blowing up inside of me today...that put me back about 20 minutes, so I almost ran late...Sara was absent today, which was not fun...All three must be present...but yeah...work sucked today, and it will suck on Saturday...went to McSuck and had a hella awesome McFlurry, compliments of Doug...sat around while Doug and Carmen ate their dinner...had a grand old time...went to Carmen's, hung out a tad too long, rushed home and did my paper...now I'm going to bed...

Would saying it be too much? I'm sure I do, but how can I ever know?

Quote of the day:
"They were embraced by sadness, but not afraid to die"

Let's see...tonight's Sunday, been three days since my last update...I seem to be getting more faithful, eh?

Friday, school was alright...after school, I went and saw "Master and Commander" with the Coomes...quite an amazing movie, with a equally amazing soundtrack...after that, I watched "Dark City" "with" Carmen...yeah...she was tired...

Saturday, I woke up quite early, went to work...forgot to tape my morning shows, so bleh...After work, I went over to the bowling alley to pick up my mother, and then we went shopping...we went to Elder Beerman, and bought me a pair of jeans and her a shirt...it cost us a total of $40...I went and ate some Luca's and purchased the new Dream Theater album at On-Cue...we then went to the bookstore and bought me two hoodies...I went home and chilled for awhile, and then drove Coomes and I up to the play, where we sold tickets and had a good time...after the play, I drove us home, dropped Coomes off, then found out some of us were going to DQ...Britt, Sara, Jackie, Carmen, Stevie, and Megan were there, along with me, the only guy...I made a gross concoction with my Blizzards, that Carmen forbidded me from eating...heh, lucky for me, I guess...

Sunday, woke up, went to Church...had a good time...Britt came in and watched "Path of Glory" which was a good, but extremely depressing movie...kinda effected my day after that, as I was in not a good mood...I also physically didn't feel well, but yeah...Went over to Carmen's tonight and watched the extras from Finding Nemo with Joshie and her...yeah...good night all...

Quote of the day:
"These are the seasons of emotion and like the winds they rise and fall "

Hmm, it's been awhile...not as long as last time, but still...

Tuesday, not much happened...I slept in a bit too late, but other than that...had a Canadian speaker come into French, talked to us about Canada...supposedly I asked a question that was "rude," as Madame Kern puts it...I think she's way off with that one...she's jealous that I'm smarter than she is and I can sleep through her class and still do amazing...Hung out with Carmen while she cleaned her room...I read Grapes of Wrath a little bit...

Wednesday, I woke up on time...and the day went almost the same...had a pleasant trip to the museum...slept on Britt there and on the way back...some people need to not talk...especially Whipple, and his comment regarding me leaning on Britt...pretty much uncalled for, and it also shows that he only thinks of women as things for sex, nothing more...kind of horrible if you ask me...that sure did piss me off...

Thursday (today), I slept in...tired...school was boring and monotonous...yeah...work sucked, as usual...no visit from anyone today, nor yesterday...well, my dad stopped by yesterday, which was pleasant...I went and got gas, cost me $13.90 for 10.213 gallons, giving me a mpg of 24.3...not too bad, if I say so myself...While I was getting gas, I saw 3 state troopers arresting 2 men from Nashville...I didn't really catch what for, buy I believe it was a combination of no I.D., breakage of parole, and drugs...exciting, no? Carmen stopped by after she got in town, from Owens, for their theater work. It was pleasant and nice...

Quote of the day:
"Come into this night
When you're able
To undo your deeds
And atone with your lonely soul
Once you're into this night
All minds are stable
Forget all your needs
Lose the grip of all control"

CD's I need to get:

Edge of Sanity-Crimson
Edge of Sanity-Crimson II
Opeth-My arms, your hearse
Opeth-Deliverence
In Flames-Whoracle
Tiamat-Wildhoney/Gaia
Jethro Tull Christmas Album
Testament-The Legacy
Testament-The New Order
Testament-The Ritual
Testament-The Gathering
Slayer-Reign in Blood
Dream Theater-Metropolis pt. 2
Dream Theater-Train of Thought
Cryptopsy-Blasphemy made flesh
Cryptopsy-None so vile
Death-Human
Death-Individual Thought Patterns
Iron Maiden-Killers
Iron Maiden-Number of the Beast
Iron Maiden-Iron Maiden
Steely Dan-Aja
Steely Dan-Gaucho
(and more to come)

Games I need to beat:
-Gameboy
Lunar Legend
Final Fantasy Tactics
Phantasy Star 1
Phantasy Star 2
Phantasy Star 3
Golden Sun: the Lost Ages

-Playstation
Tactics Ogre: Let Us Cling Together
Ogre Battle: March of the Black Queen

-GameCube
Skies of Arcadia: Legends
Viewtiful Joe
Resident Evil: Zero
Soul Calibur 2
Robotech: Battlecry
Metroid Prime (Hard Mode)
The Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker (2nd quest)

-SNES
Tales of Phantasia
Final Fantasy V
Final Fantasy III
Secret of Mana (Seiken Densetsu 2)
Secret of Mana 2 (Seiken Densetsu 3)
Secret of Evermore
Super Metroid
Behemut Lagoon

Wow it's been awhile...hmm...

The 10th is today, so that's a whole week since I've updated...quite a lot has gone on, well, I think so anyways...I'm staying ahead in school, so that is good...been turning my stuff in and such, especially art, so that's good...I've had more time now that I'm no longer in Quiz Bowl...

Let's see...Thursday night, I hung out with Joshie (first time in a long, long time) and we watched Haunted Junction, a fucking crazy anime...we then proceeded over to Megan's where there was a few people over...that was a good time...Joshie had to be home by 11, so I took him home and came home...Carmen came over eventually and we hung out a tad...

Friday was band day...that was alright, I really need to do something about my shoes and my feet, because the end up hurting like a bitch...rather than being alone on this trip like the preceeding ones, I sat next to Carmen both times...made it quite a lot more enjoyable for me...we played well in band, and the Symphonic Winds were amazing, even though a tad bit long...dinner was fun and full of vomiting goodness, along with sprinkle goodness...

Saturday, I worked in the morning, and then just kind of hung around my house...I rented Gallipoli, picked up Coomes, and we went out to Britt's to watch it...a good movie...I get home, around 6:30-ish, and Carmen calls me wanting to see if I'd go to a play with her...I did, and it was quite a good play...we came back into town, and went to Piso's, then bought Finding Nemo...watched that until 1:10 or so, and yeah...

Sunday, I wake up at 8:45 only to find out that we wouldn't be going to church for another 3 hours, but being me, I cannot get back to sleep...bah...visited Carmen at work...that's always fun...Jacoby's came over for dinner, for salmon, which was good but reacted adversly with my stomach...went to Carmen's after that and had a good time...It is always quite enjoyable when I am with her...

Quote of the day:
"Do you realize
That you have the most beautiful face?
Do you realize
We're floating in space?
Do you realize
That happiness makes you cry?

Do you realize
That everyone you know someday will die?
And instead of saying all of your good-byes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do you realize?

Do you realize
That everyone you know someday will die?
And instead of saying all of your good-byes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do you realize
That you have the most beautiful face?

Do you realize?"

Argh, this is the fourth time I've tried updating...so, this is pretty much a fuck it all...my weekend was horrible, it is not healthy for me to not see Sara or Britt or Carmen at all...especially with a weekend like I had...Saturday wasn't too bad, but Sunday was, for obvious reasons...

Monday, in an action which could perhaps be a detriment or a benefit, I quit Quiz Bowl...Got a hug from Carmen, which I always like...rest of the day droned on, until I went out with Carmen...I managed to get barbarque sauce on her windshield, so hopefullly she doesn't hate me too much for that...Chris and Kat came over for awhile, listened to really bad 80's covers...hung out until it was neccessary for her to take him to work...and here I am...

And on a perhaps unrealated tangent to our current state of being, Britt and I are going to watch X-2 the day it comes out on DVD! Yay!

Quote of the day:
"Maybe I might have changed
And not been so cruel
Not been such a fool
Whatever was done is done
I just can't recall
It doesn't matter at all"

Casabianca-Felicia Hemans
The boy stood on the burning deck
Whence all but he had fled;
The flame that lit the battle's wreck
Shone round him o'er the dead.
Yet beautiful and bright he stood,
As born to rule the storm;
A creature of heroic blood,
A proud, though child-like form.

The flames rolled on–he would not go
Without his Father's word;
That father, faint in death below,
His voice no longer heard.

He called aloud–'say, Father, say
If yet my task is done?'
He knew not that the chieftain lay
Unconscious of his son.

'Speak, father!' once again he cried,
'If I may yet be gone!'
And but the booming shots replied,
And fast the flames rolled on.

Upon his brow he felt their breath,
And in his waving hair,
And looked from that lone post of death
In still yet brave despair.

And shouted but once more aloud,
'My father! must I stay?'
While o'er him fast, through sail and shroud,
The wreathing fires made way.

They wrapt the ship in splendour wild,
They caught the flag on high,
And streamed above the gallant child,
Like banners in the sky.

There came a burst of thunder sound–
The boy–oh! where was he?
Ask of the winds that far around
With fragments strewed the sea!–

With mast, and helm, and pennon fair,
That well had borne their part–
But the noblest thing which perished there
Was that young faithful heart.

Do you know how good it feels to just lay down with someone? So relaxing, waves of calmness and serenity wash over you...you realize it's good, but then the bitches of time kick you in the shins ending something that truly should not be ended...well, in my opinion anywho...I don't know how anyone else feels...

Well, it started this day off with a paradox, something which was both a bad way and a good way to start it off...school kind of just dragged past...Didn't really do anything for AS that was due today...oh well, I did my editorial eventually...went and hung out with Carmen, relaxed while she cursed her Calc assignment...I came home, and here I am...

Quote of the day:
"Like the wings of a dove, folding around
I fade into this tender care"

Well, not much out of the ordinary has gone on...school has just been dragging along, but I expected that...hanging out with Carmen a lot, having good times...makes me very happy...Saturday night, I went to Kat's party, had a good time there...although it was raining, and I would have contracted pneumonia if I had been outside near the fire...

Hmm...

Quote of the day:
"Memories of a life on earth go flashing past,
Of home, of Grauben, friends of whom he's seen his last
Contemplating what his life's been worth,
While trapped beneath the earth,
An embryo at birth

Pain and fear destroy the beauty I have seen,
Of caverns, where no other man has been
Silurian epoch hosts me as my grave,
My final blow I wave,
A life too late to save

Crystals of opaque quartz, studded limpid tears,
Forming magic chandeliers, lighting blistered galleries"

Saturday morning started off with my mother waking up and getting after me for having someone over when it was approaching 3 o'clock...so then Carmen left, and I fell asleep eventually...I woke up sometime later, and went to work 30 minutes early, so it was 10:30 rather than 11, which was nice, because I got out earlier in the afternoon...I went home and did chores...I eventually went to Brendan's, went and saw Kill Bill with him and his father...quite a good movie...extremely violent...we then went to an Anime showing at BGSU, had a good time with that...saw a crazy anime called "Haunted Junction" and an amazing one called "Memories"...After that, we met up with Britt and Sara, went to Dan's for a bit, and then went back to Brendan's...we hung out there for the rest of the night...Sunday, we went to church, and then I went home...I did my homework, and wrote a poem (eventually, like at 10:30)...most of the day was spent in the lawn, working with leaves and mowing it...I went out to eat with Britt, Megan, and Aaron...after that, I went home and hung out there for a while...went to Carmen's after that, and stayed that till 10...as always, it was a good time...I don't think I've ever had a bad time with her...it's a good thing...

Today at school, I was pretty tired...I have a lot of work to do tonight and tomorrow night, so I believe I will not go into work tomorrow...oh well...I'm off to work now...

Quote of the day:
"Red sun rising somewhere through the dense fog.
The portrait of the jaded dawn who had seen it all before.
This day wept on my shoulders.
Still the same as yesterday."

Hmm...a lot...has gone on...Symph was fun, Sara, Carmen, Joshie, and I hung out in the parking lot afterwards...it was a good time...I'm looking forward to Symph, the music we are playing is kind of a challenge, but good none the less...

Thursday, Carmen had an appointment, so I didn't see her in band, but saw her inbetween 5th period...Sara was back though, so that was good...I was hacking my lungs out throughout the day, which wasn't good...Didn't see Carmen at all, until quarter of ten, when she had just finished candy roses...it was nice seeing her, and being there for her after a bad day...

Friday, Carmen was finally in band...the band went over the senior show, which was cool...in AS, we took a field trip to Wintergarden Park, and there, Sara and I walked around...we ended up being 20 minutes late getting back, but it's all good...After school, I go home only to find out that my uncle died during the day...then my day became really bad...I was really depressed, and still am...Hanging out with Carmen helped...yeah...

Quote of the day:
"But life, without death
Is just impossible"

I'm pretty sure that my life was more confusing that it had ever been before as of Sunday...not like it's a bad thing, a little confusion never harmed anyone...but now, I believe we have gotten this sorted out, so yay...*Hug*

Sunday, Sara's grandfather passed out of this plane and into the next...she also went into a ditch, but she was, and is, alright...I finished up my Endurance project, and now I need to be working on the Grapes of Wrath...yeah...

Monday, two of the three (or four) most important women in my life were not in school...Carmen for a sinus infection and Sara for, well, losses...at least I have Britt to rely on, eh? French is beginning to get dumb again...Pre-Cal is quite easy, and American Studies...well...our Lit Circle was interesting, to say the least...I beleive we utterly failed it, but eh, it's all good...Sara is at the end of school, and needed a hug...Quiz Bowl got out early, so I used that extra time to visit Carmen...I worked, and then went home and ate a little...I went and kept Carmen company again...

Tuesday, yet again, Sara and Carmen were absent...my school day kind of slid by really easily, slept through part of the Twain thingy today...I went to see how Carmen was after school, and she is feeling better...I went to Quiz Bowl, where I didn't play at all, which sucked...a waste of 2 and a half hours of my time...I hung out with Carmen the rest of the night, keeping her company and such, hopefully not wearing out my welcome or being a bother...had a good time, and she seems to be well now...and as fate should have it, I am beginning to succumb to sickness, so she can visit me now...heh, but I'm not going to be sick tomorrow, I've got a field trip and a band rehersal I don't feel like missing...there is always work, but I shant get too far behind in that...well...goodnight all...

Quote of the day:
"He who made kittens
Put snakes in the grass"

Hmm, Friday, school kind of went by quickly...after school, I hung around with Carmen, we went to Wendy's for dinner, and then rushed over to the park soon after that...that parade route has to be the dumbest one in existence...The football team actually won! 10-nothing also, a shut out! After the game, I went to Megan's and hung out...I took Amanda home, and then returned to my house...I gave Carmen a call eventually, and we talked a while...Saturday, I worked from 9-12, then picked up my Opeth cd and the corsage for Carmen...I went home, and got the living room ready for dinner...I picked Carmen up at 5:45, and boy, did she look good...her parents took some pictures, then we went over to Bekah's house for more pictures...we came back to my house for a filling dinner, and then went to the dance...I had a good time at the dance with Carmen...

After the dance, I took Carmen to Jimmy John's so that she could show Chris her dress and hair...we went to Liz's after that, got minimal sleep and watched a few movies...it was a good time...I took Carmen home, came home and fell asleep...now I need to finish up my Endurance assignment...so I will be doing that...

I had a really great time with you Carmen, thank you so much...

Quote of the day:
"But your new shoes are worn at the heels
and your suntan does rapidly peel
and your wise men don't know how it feels
to be thick as a brick."