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2003 30 December :: 12.00am
:: Mood: happy/not happy...im just a mess right now
tonight was fun, sara called me at 6 and asked what was going on - i really dont understand why everyone calls me to find out plans, for once i would like someone to call me and be like hey this is what we're going, i guess i can wish right? - anyway, she wanted to play the game doug got her so we (me megan and stevie) met her and her house and then played while watching a movie...good movie and a good game, it was fun, then i had to go home and they went for ice cream...lifes really not fair sometimes
then i was on my way home, and there is one thing i hate about driving home - there is no one but me, therefore the only thing there to entertain me is my thoughts, and my thoughts normally arent happy ones, and i came upon a very depression conclusion on my way home tonight, thus the reason im happy and not happy, but i dont really want to go into it in this journal, im sure not everyone wants to read about it, so i guess if you care enough you can always ask me and i'll talk it out with you, thats what i really need right now is someone to talk to, not something to type on...
tomorrow i think is a slumber party at stevies, that should be a lot of fun, we havent had one of those in a long time, yet i fear some of the topics that will be brought up...like this new insight that everyone seems to have about my lovelife...ugh, i just dont know anymore, with what i thought about on the way home tonight theres not even a beginning to that discussion
i just dont know anymore
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2003 29 December :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: blank
last night was a lot of fun - we went ice skating, and normally i hate ice skating, but it wasnt horrible, i didnt fall and no bruises or blisters so i think next time i'll be a little more reluctant to go. it was me megan jackie nick stevie hess goph and kellie, it was cool
amanda showed up as we were leaving the ice arena and she took me to arbys to get a milkshake :) that made me happy, then we were off to the mershmans...i swear there will be a day that goes by and im not there, someday! but we played pool, and jacoby and herringshaw joined us, it was a lot of fun, i love pool, i was just in a pool playing mood so that made me happy and i came home, by curfew, thats the first time in a long time, i even had a minute to spare...quite odd actually
talked to abby for a bit when i got home...talked about january 5th...neither of us seem to be too terribly excited but frankly it must be done so we can be buff in blue haha
after that i just went to sleep...and slept until 11 this morning, i wish i wouldnt sleep in so late, i feel like a big loser when i do, but i guess it cant be helped, so tomorrow i'll work on waking up a little sooner
and so far today has been rather uneventful...talked to jacoby, and thats pretty much it, hopefully something will go on tonight, but in order for that to happen i'll probably have to plan something...my life is so dull
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2003 28 December :: 12.30am
:: Mood: sleepy
Christmas with the family was awesome, i had fun, i dont see me cousins very often because we're all busy people, but about once every three months is enough for me...they're quite odd, but entertaining to say the least. I didnt come out half bad though, i got pretty much everything i asked for with the exceptions of the overly expensive things i asked for, but i wasnt really expecting them anyway
on friday i went to the motor city bowl with the mershmans....that was amazing! such a good game, so close the entire time!! the ride up was funny..interesting letters that family receives in the mail...then we had lunch at hockey town...that place is awesome, so yummy. then off to the game, we got there early, so megs and i went on a adventure...saw some people...avoided some people, good times. Jackie called me right after northwestern scored so i thought she was just calling to say that but it turns out she was at the game, stretchberys had an extra ticket so she got to come along, so we went and found her during halftime - saw herringshaw so we waved at him...he also sent me a few text messages and such, all in all a very good game
not a whole lot happened today...went to mershmans...i swear i cant go 24 hours without seeing them, and we went to the boy basketball game - we won, happy joy, then off to devers! i love the dever household, its so much fun. we ate food and watched monty python and jackass...i dont think i have ever seen james laugh so hard
so fun
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2003 25 December :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: yay!
TRACK QUOTES
"The muscle pulls hurt. The cramps hurt. And sometimes you want to give up. Then you realize congratulating the winner would hurt the most of all."
“Don't be afraid to give up the good to go for the great.”
it's taken hundreds of years for scientests to write the laws of phsyics... and one meet for me to break them!
Never turn your back on the ring!You run the risk of death or decapitation if you do!
my dog can run and my dog can jump but my dog can't throw
obsessed is just a word that the lazy use to describe the dedicated
To give anything less then your best is to sacrifice the Gift
“Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.”
"If you can read this, the race hasn't started yet."
"There are two types of pain in life; the pain of discipline and the pain of regret"
“Whether you think you can or think you can't - you're right.”
TO WIN YOU MUST BE PREPARED PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY;
STRIVE FOR EXCELLENCE;
ANYTHING LESS EQUALS MEDIOCRITY.
"You don't know how high you are until you are asked to rise"
track needs to start soon....
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2003 25 December :: 12.11am
crazy!!
well technically its december 25th, so Merry Christmas to all :)
craziest thing ever though...i cant sleep, so i was catching up on jjhuddle....and there was a message up about the defiance team this year...granted they only talked about the male team there and that really doesnt affect me i still found it interesting. there is a shot putter from defiance...his name is dan otra i believe...was he the hawaiian? does anyone remember? anyway, doesnt matter...he threw a 55 last year - that in itself is amazing....well his goal for next year is to hit 60 feet, thats crazy! thats almost double mine, i thought i was being all cool by making a goal of 34 feet, now i realize hes a male and they throw so much farther and crap, but still, idk, i just find it crazy...so yea, metcalf and bob will have one hell of a meet at defiance's invitational, no offense, but dont be expecting a blue shirt....now if only they would update with some girl stats id be all set, but i think abby and i will have a good year this time around...we're both thowing over 30 consistently, which combined will set us hopefull past 65...plus with the few meets where we have three throwers we can try to get stacie to throw close to 30 we should be getting some bright blue shirts from defiance...i cant wait until track season, it should be a great time
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2003 24 December :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: no doubt...singles!
yay for Christmas
i had Christmas with my moms side of the family today...it was sweet, a lot of fun! my uncle bill is hilarious when playing pool, the man can never remember if hes stripes or solids, and shelly was funny as usual, and it was just fun
then i had Christmas with my family and heather, i got some sweet ass shit, im a very happy person right now :)
i found a picture of Bernard today...then i cried, i need to learn to not cry when i see that mans picture! after that i played a hand of solitaire with the cards i have from his house, i didnt win...i never win lol - it was really cool, today my aunts got a wooden case for the american flag that was used to drape over Bernards casket...it was nice, we put it on the mantel :)
ian sent me another text message today - he says hi to everyone, and wishes you all a Merry Christmas :) i havent sent him one back yet, we'll see if i can talk my mom into letting me send another one since it costs extra
i hope everyone has a happy holiday :)
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2003 23 December :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: tired
ok, so i just finished Christmas with the Wulffs....not too bad, got some socks, earrings, black and white prints, and a scarf, plus money....food was amazing, complany was alright...they can be a tad disfunctional, but oh well...it was fun
ian sent me a text message...he's bored, so i sent him one back telling him that i missed him and to have a merry Christmas
thats all...quite the boring update...sorry
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2003 23 December :: 3.10pm
:: Mood: cheerful
last night was fun, we went up to see the lights before Christmas, it wasnt that cold either, so i was excited :) it wasnt anything extravagent or anything, but it was great just walking around and talking and laughing, just fun - plus we went to fazolis and i was starving! it was sooo good, and we acted like a bunch of goofs, especially amanda and the napkin throwing over her head
doug took me back to his place since he was my ride, and we took a much faster way home so i had to wait to head over to megans. we played video games, and i sucked it up at first but i got better and we ended up being champs so it was fun, and we were both dead off our feet so we werent too entertaining
after that we crashed at megans house - i got to see aunt elaine! :):) i was excited, i love that woman, we all just hung out and chatted and answered holiday trivia from the paper with the merhman family, it was a lot of fun, then it was just me megan and daniel, so we sat and chatted...they seem to have this idea in their heads about me and a friend, idk, i think hes just a friend, but they're stuck on the idea, they say that he and i just dont realize it yet...we'll see
then today megan aaron and i went shopping with jacoby because he needed to get gifts for everyone in his family. we went to eat at that italian place on main st and then to the mall...it was so much fun though, constant joking around, aaron and jacoby are hilarious when they're around each other, it was just tons of fun
now im home, and my house smells wonderful, and me family will be here in a few hours and we get to celebrate Christmas! im happy, this is what ive been waiting for for awhile. im just happy now
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2003 21 December :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: the ataris
bored!!
not a whole lot happened today, i didnt end up going shopping with jackie an jason because my mom wanted to go shopping instead, and i needed her to get me a few things so i just went with her...and i watched pirates of the carrabean and bruce almighty...and thats pretty much it, hess called, we're going to go to nelsons hockey game tonight at 9. That should be fun, i havent seen hess in awhile, so its cool, i think jackies coming along also, and possibly the dever child (im hanging out with doug too much) maybe i can actually learn about hockey now, i know the basis, but having someone next to me that knows should be helpful
no more mentioning metcalf in journals, he gave me his permission to stop, so im taking that as a hint that i should stop
i think im going to dye my hair again soon...i have the color, its just getting the ambition to actually doing it? idk? maybe...
mike came out today with heather, and he put his gift under the tree for me, its a CD, im not sure which one though, maybe no doubt? possible cake? or white stripes? i asked for like 8 lol
lights before Christmas tomorrow night :) that should be fun, a girls night where we're actually going out, should be fun and interesting...and COLD!! im going to freeze, oh well, i'll live
i love break :)
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2003 20 December :: 11.58pm
ahh! i feel like the worst perons ever! i didnt even realize that it was metcalf's birthday today, i am so sorry, but i really hope your birthday was wonderful even if i am a horrible person and forgot about it :(
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2003 20 December :: 11.52pm
:: Mood: happy
yay for first day of break
i did absolutely nothing today, and it was great, i slept, and then stevie called, so i went shopping with her, and then back to her house to watch a movie with sara and herringshaw and jacoby, it was a lot of fun, very relaxing
tomorrow im going shopping with jackie and jason, that should be fun, i need to get dougs other gift and then im good to go for Christmas gifts...except for actually making the other ones, oh well
im happy:)
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2003 20 December :: 11.42am
:: Mood: mmm...sleep
i slept for 10 hours...it felt soo good!
and today, the official first day of break...i have done nothing, and it was good. I saw my gma and my aunt for awhile, played dirty minds with my mom and grandma...my grandma has a funny mind, and ive watched television, it was good. i finally found out when we were having Christmas, i had no clue, my family doesnt clue me in on anything, probably because im never home, maybe today will be a day home with the fam, too bad they've already left for the day..damn them and their massive schedules
i didnt see any of the guys last night except for winston...they actually planned something for themselves, maybe this is a turning point..maybe i wont get calls every night wondering whats going on, its not that i mind it exactly, its that i dont understand how i was the appointed one to know all when it comes to who's doing what and when? why me? normally im as clueless as anyone..oh well
hmm...i need to work on Christmas presents
Metcalf mentioning...
bye!
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2003 19 December :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: sleepy
yes...break....
today was fun, three tests, all of which werent too bad, movie in AS was very good, i enjoyed it, joel came in and sang the hanukkah song...very interesting, jacoby enjoyed it...then madrigals caroled through the halls..they sounded nice, even though it was hard to hear over dougs complaining at times
went to see a movie tonight with the girls...chick flick, but it was still very good, im normally not a chick flick kinda girl, but its julia roberts, who cares? it was nice, then we all partied at dougs because he was home, i gave him his gift, which i think he will get great use out of, i bought him a back scratcher to take to AS now, dever and dunn will appreciate it im sure, but eh, oh well, he told me there was no use for me now...i took it as a thank you
now im home, and really tired, and no plans for tomorrow except sleep...and finally coming to the realization that im not going back to school for awhile...:)
Metcalf
thats all
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2003 18 December :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: busy
oh busy night...at least theres only 1 more day :)
i have 3 tests to study for tonight...chem math and spanish, spanish is a no brainer, math will be a little work, and chem is one to cram for...plus i have a paper due tomorrow...at least thats like 85% done already so just finish it and then revise it...it shouldnt be too too bad i hope
yea so i was really planning on giving out Christmas cards...that plan feel through so im really sorry you guys, i procrastinated too long and have too much school stuff to do tonight, plus i still have to buy yi's gift...gah! so much
but im very excited because if the mershman family is all well, i shall be traveling with them to the motor city bowl :), that makes me extremely happy
people are going away over break...that makes me sad, no megan for a few days, ians gone for a week, i think daniel's leaving, doug's going away if the weather cooperates :( i'll live, but i'll be extremely bored! hmm
well im off to start some mucho studying...
mentioning metcalf...
:)
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2003 17 December :: 10.37pm
:: Mood: its so close!
2 more days!!
ok, just thursday and friday, and thats it...
just got home from the choir concert...after i got over the initial shock of instruments not being present i had a great time, very cheerful, i had fun :) great job to everyone
well tomorrow shall be dedicated to school...three tests to study for, and a term paper, gah! im such a horrible procrastinator...oh well
not a whole lot else has happened really...one more solo for band, but its at the beginning of wizard of oz and its really simple and im quote "the most important part" and its just me...its crazy really, but a lot of fun, i enjoy it
hmm...i need to start working on Christmas cards...
mentioning metcalf....
thats all :)
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