:: 2005 31 August :: 6.33 pm

I guess this is what friends do. It doesn't even matter now. You missed the whole point. I really need to stop caring, that could be a start. Why even have feelings for you? Why even have friends?

Anyways I just got home from the mall or malls we could say. Lisa and I went to The Lakes mall just so we could go to Hollister. We had to bring Brina with us and she was horriable. She made me carry her the whole time and when she actually did walk she would run away from us and then I would just ignore her and she would scream "Ashie, Ashie hold me". It's sorta funny how she can't say my name right. Oh well shes cute anyways. Then we went to Olive Garden and she kept talking to the people directly behind us. I thought they were going to get mad at us but they actually liked her. We wanted to go to Woodland mall so it tooks us forever to get from The Lakes mall to Woodland mall. We got lost and then when we were on the freeway I accidently made Lisas car go into Neutral and we didn't know what happend until ten minutes later. It was fun but we suck at directions. Seriously.

I got The O.C. Season Two today in the mail so that makes me happy. It definately made my day. I'm going to stay up all night watching it.


Thats all for now I guess. I've got too much on my mind.

Love Always,

Ashley

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:: 2005 30 August :: 12.51 pm

I was fine with everything. I accepted the fact that things were always going to be this way and I moved on until something happened that shouldn't have. I do not need a reason to be mad. I shouldn't have to feel like this anymore when two weeks ago I could care less about you or what happened but it looks like im not fine with everything now does it!? I'm back in the place where I promised myself I'd never be again. Cleary, it's my problem now.

lie awake

:: 2005 29 August :: 10.32 pm

(EDIT)

Hey! I'm really tired so I'm not sure why I'm even on the computer lol. Nothing really is new. I went to Brittney Themms yesterday and at like 11:30 we made these things over the fire called doughboys and then she felt like roasting hotdogs lol what a weirdo but it was fun and then today we had to get up at the crack of dawn for dumb orientation. We talk about the same things every year but I wont get into that. I think my pictures turned out okay. I hope. Then Emily, Me, Brittney, Megan, and Ashley all went to Big Boys after that. After that Brittney and I went and developed her pictures. They were interesting. I swear I'm always there developing pictures or with someone who is *cough Andrea cough* lol. I don't remember what we did after that but my dad and I had to go to Detroit to get my two year old cousin Brina. I'm watching her for a week. She is laying in my bed right now watching Finding Nemo, she was watching Laguna Beach with me but it's over now. Wednesday I'm going to The Lakes mall with Lisa and then after that we are probably going to both of the other malls. Of course Brina has to come. Everyone will probably think shes my baby or something haha oh well. Thursday I'm going to the football game with Brittney and Kourtney. Brittney is making me bring Brina to the game so that should be intresting. She'll probably be bad. Then Friday I'm going to Micahs. For the rest of the weekend I'll probably hang out with Kevin.

I changed my mind. I don't miss him or care right now. Screw that. You'll just walk away like you always do.

Ashley

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:: 2005 28 August :: 2.56 am

Hey! I'll update this really quick since I don't really go online much anymore. Last night I hung out with Lisa and then we went to the football game which was alright--I never pay attention to it anyways and then Andrea, Lisa, and I went over to this guys bonfire and then we left at like 2am and went to Nicks house and we just ended up staying the night. It was a blast and then in the morning we went to chinese and to get her pictures developed and then after that I went home and slept for a while. After that we went to Aarons house and now were here at GVSU and I only came on here too update but I will be home from GVSU tomorrow and Im probably going to Brittney's, But I g2g I have better things to do. <33 Ashley

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:: 2005 27 August :: 7.21 pm

Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try

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:: 2005 26 August :: 2.28 pm

OOPS!
Did my sarcasm hurt your feelings?

get over it.

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:: 2005 24 August :: 10.59 pm

I’m not even going to get mad. It’s not worth it anymore. I’m just going to expect the least from the people I thought the highest of.

I thought you changed. I thought maybe for once you meant what you said but obviously you didn't if you can go and tell ten other people the same thing.

So-thank you for once again, prooving my point.

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:: 2005 24 August :: 5.22 pm

Aww I love my kissing picture!


I give up. I never can win. I hope your happy.

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:: 2005 23 August :: 4.32 pm

So since I didn't talk to you for two days for reasons because (day 1: you were sleeping) and (day 2: because I was sleeping) doesn't make it okay to do that. Most people don't have conversations with other people while they are sleeping so since I didn't talk to you for two days it doesn't make it okay for you to go screw some girl and say it was because of me. I don't think thats the way it works. Who knew. And next time I see you, stay the fuck away from me.

Brianna by the way. The song you wanted me to find out for you when Anna leaves is called "If You Leave" by Nada Surf.

Last night I seen The Notebook for the first time and before that I went and seen The 40 Year Old Virgin. It was hilarious.

The whole thing still bothers me and the fact that you blame it on me makes it even worse. I could go out and do the same thing with someone, just so you can see how it feels but I'm not like that and I wouldn't do that.

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:: 2005 22 August :: 12.28 pm

The O.C. Season 2 comes out tomorrow and guess who just bought it!?!?

Thats right. Me!

Brianna now you have to come over and finish the 1st season and then we can watch the 2nd one.

LUKE- Shut up queer!
SETH- Well at least I don't shave my chest!?
LUKE- What did you say!?
MARISSA- Luke..come on.
SETH- I just said you look nice in a sweater vest. It was a compliment. --The O.C.

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:: 2005 22 August :: 11.55 am

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.


Thats my favorite song as of, right now.

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:: 2005 21 August :: 7.56 pm

Today I slept all day. It was so nice.

Yesterday morning I went to the mall with Andrea. It took us like five hours to get there. The traffic was horriable. I was extremely tired so after the mall I went home and not even five minutes after I fell alseep, Kevin Meek calls me and wants me to go to the mall with him so even though I just got back from the mall I went anyways. I was so tired. I hadn't slept in two days straight. So we went to the mall, met up with Andrea and Brie and then I went back with them and we went to the mall again to see Dan. I was at the mall three times in one day, it was great. Then we went to a party but we didn't stay long because I was extremely tired from lacking two days of sleep so I went back to Matt and Stuarts house with Amy, Brie, and Chad. The minute I got there I walked right into Matts room and went to sleep but like an hour later everyone at the other party showed up so they kept coming into Matts room every five minutes and waking me up. They all insisted that they wanted to see/talk to me so I really didn't get that much sleep. Everyone was being loud as hell so I was listening to my iPod and I woke up and it was missing. I freaked out because if I lost it then I would be in soo much trouble but it turns out Andrea came in there and I was sleeping so she took it from me. Thank god Andrea told Stuart the truth or otherwise I would have felt even worse than I already do now. Last night when we all finally went to bed there was like six or seven of us all laying on the floor. Stuart and our friend Brock who we now call Broccoli locked Andrea and I outside. It wasn't cool at all. Stuart was mad at us because we wouldn't tell him what we talked about with Matt. It was the dumbest thing ever and we were out their for like 20 minutes just chilling on the porch with Matt. We had to two way Amy and make her wake up and let us in. Thats really all I remember about it.

Where is Fred when you need hiim!?!?

-EDIT-
Matt: "Well if you guys don't want to come with us you have to stay here with Stuart!"
Me: "WE DO!?!??"

@ Olive Garden
Waiter: "Do you want a box for that?"
Me: "Umm *thinking* yeah...
Brie interupts: "you can bring it back for Stuart"
Me: "Actually....no, no thank you"

lol what insides jokes we have brianna and andrea

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:: 2005 20 August :: 12.03 pm

That was seriously a bad idea. I hate having a cell phone for the fact that when you call I hate having to answer it but then I hate not answering because I then feel bad.

Yesterday I went to Michigans Adventure with Andrea, Brianna, and people from Andrea's work. It was fun and we went in the waterpark and it was freezing cold and there was barely anyone in the waterpark because of that. We still had fun though. After that we went to Andreas and got ready, went to Olive Garden, then we went to Stuart and Matts house for a while. Andrea stayed there but I left at like 3am to go to hang out with Kevin. I don't even know whos house it was but we stayed the night their and watched Old School. We didn't go to sleep until 7am and I haven't slept in two days. I'm extremely tired.

Today I'm going to the mall with Andrea and later Chris's party.

I really don't have anything else to say so I'll get going now.

Ashley

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:: 2005 18 August :: 2.45 pm
:: Music: Goodbye To You

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:: 2005 17 August :: 2.28 pm

lie awake