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2005 15 August :: 4.27 pm
I'm not going to get upset over this. I'm done waiting around for you, and im sure as hell done making my life revolve around you.
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2005 15 August :: 1.49 pm
:: Mood: shocked
What did I tell you Brianna!? I knew my sister (Danielle) was going to tell my mom about me drinking because Bryce was there with us at Rachelles and she parties with him so he told her that I was there drinking and she told my mom. So last night at Lisas we didn't go to sleep until really late and the past two days before that I have been out partying so I haven't had much sleep so I had to get up at 8 today to go to the dentist and I came home and went back to bed and I just woke up so I wake up and my mom goes "why are you so tired, did you stay out at Lisas last night" im like "not really no, but I did the nights before" and she goes "oh well Bryce told your sister that you were partying with him" so at this point I was like oh shit..so im like "umm yeah I was there but I didn't really drink. Ha notice the didn't really part of that sentance. I don't know if she believed me and I don't know what she would have said if I told her I was drinking. I don't really want to find out but this weekend I'm going to another party and maybe Nicks too so Brice will probably be there and once again he'll tell my sister and my sister will tell my mom. Bright Idea.
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2005 14 August :: 2.21 pm
Were young and dumb but at least we had fun.
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2005 14 August :: 1.39 pm
This weekend was the best weekend ever. Seriously. Nothing could compare to it.
Friday I didn't go to bed until 4am and then I had to wake up at 9am and then last night I barely slept again so im extremely tired.
1 (Shopping) At hollister I cut in front of about 15 people waiting in line lol Brianna. I told your mom that I was going to tell them to suck it haha.
2 (Olive Garden) Lady offers us wine. Do we look like we can drink lol? The waitress asked if I wanted cheese in my soup and I said yes and of course she puts just a little in Briannas but she gets to mine and she keeps pouring cheese in and I was like "thank you", meaning that she needs to stop and she just kept on pouring so I had this big cheese ball in my soup and Brianna was laughing at me and then her mom tried to tell me to use "used" napkins lol.."were not touching those. thats sick lol"
3 (Bries) Brianna lost a bet with her mom about what time Dan was coming to get us. Five dollars lost.
4 (JDs) Pointless.
5 (Bowling) I sucked. I lost the 1st game by far and I'm almost positive Kevin won and the next game I came in second, finally. Kevin, Dan, and Brie tried to make me eat mustard but I refused. That shit is sick.
6 (Taco Bell) Kevin and I waited for Dan and Brie to get their food because we didn't want anything.
7 (Park) We went to the park at like 11pm and we went on the stupid merry-go-round and Kevin started spinning it faster and faster while Brie and I were on it. We almost threw up lol. It was fun though. Kevin and I just sat on the swings and talked. I actually talked about things. My life, my feelings, everything. I said things I never would have told anyone else. How I managed to trust Kevin so much. I don't know but it was just nice to talk about things that needed to be talked about.
8 (Back to Bries) We had to find more trouble to get into.
9 (Rachelles) Crazy time. Some girl was nuts there and she was talking to Brie and I about some oger or girl. We couldn't understand her.
10 (Nicks) We went to Nicks house with Andrea Towns. It was fun.
That was really it but we didn't get home until like 5:30am and now I think I should go to sleep.
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2005 12 August :: 5.17 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Papa Roach-Scars
Feelings I used to have really aren't there and for the first time in so long I really don't care.
Oh well..It's not my problem anymore.
This is really weird and it sort of freaks me out but a a week ago when I was at my Aunt Loris in Detroit I had this dream that Mischa Barton was on the cover of Cosmo Girl and so in my dream I went home to get my magazine since I was so excited she was on there and the cover was ripped of so I got really mad and then I woke up so thats all I remember from it, but anyways when I was there my cousins friend and I went to the store to buy candy and I was looking at the magazines and she was like "what are you looking for" and I told her I just wanted to see if Mischa Barton was on the cover because she was on it in my dream. And of course she wasn't because they didn't have the new issues of it there yet so today when I got to my dads house, I walk in my room and there sitting on my bed is my Cosmo Girl magazine with Mischa Barton on the cover! It's freaky that I knew she was going to be on it before it even came out, and now she is and the cover looks exactly like it did in my dream. I scare myself sometimes.
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2005 12 August :: 12.11 pm
I killed my cat. I ran it over. Last night my sister and I left at like 10:00 and before we left I thought I seen my kitten run under her car but I didn't say anything because It was dark and I assumed that I probably didn't see anything. So we left, nothing happened. We came back and I opened the door to get out and there right next to me is my kitten and I almost threw up. I kept saying "omg" and my sister was like "what happened" and I told her so we went inside and told my mom and they went outside and obviously she was dead. I feel horriable as it is, even though, yeah it's just a cat but still she was my favorite cat and I killed her. It was an acciden't and shit happens I guess.
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2005 9 August :: 12.55 pm
I'm back from Detroit. Well I was back last night but I didn't have time to write about it. Detroit was quite eventful.
My cousin Brina is here. She is two. She came back with me last night and she is staying for a couple days. Shes so cute and usually my cousin Lindsey who is my age (her sister) watches her but my Aunt says she doesn't think Lindsey does a good job so she wanted me to watch her. She loves lip gloss and found all my makeup and is destroying my room and she makes me take her in the pool every five minutes.
My cousins friend was over when I was there and for some reason my cousin got mad at me and her friend so we just left her went outside and talked. It was nice talking to someone that doesn't go to my school or who didn't use to go to my school. She views things differently I guess and it just helped talking to someone for once because I don't trust anyone here at all.
Anyways my cousins friend was there like 3 days before I got there and everyday she would walk to this party store right down the street and buy candy so then when I got there she wanted me to go with her so I did and this guy was in there that was there when she went too and he kept flirting with us. Then the next day we went there and there was another hot guy working there and he started talking to us and he was like "your all cuties" and hes like "you should come party with us" and were just like "umm right" and anyways it was really akward. We went home and like 5 minutes later my aunt was like "can you guys go to the store and get chocolate milk" for my cousin Brina so were like sure but were not going inside the store because of those guys so we made my cousin Haileigh go in and she went in and the guy asked her where her crew was and she told them we were waiting outside and so we were sitting outside and I go "wouldn't it be funny if they walked out" and soon enough the guy walked out and hes like "why are you guys standing out here" and we were laughing hysterically and he made us come in the store and we told him we felt dumb for going twice in one day and he was like "well thats what a store is for" so we talked again and the next day only one of the guys was there and my cousin wanted candy so we went with her but didn't go in with her and the guy told her to tell my cousins friend and I that he was mad at us for not coming in but we didn't really want to because once again we felt dumb. The next day we went there again and made my cousin Haileigh go in there and buy us more candy and the hot guy that was working there wouldn't give my cousin Haileigh the change from our candy unless we went inside so we told her to tell him to keep the change and she came out with two packs of cry babies for us because he told her to tell us we were being cry babies. It was really funny and then the next day before we left we went insisde and talked to him and we gave him our cell phone number just so he would be happy lol.
When I was there my cousin and I went running everynight and we would run 2 miles and anyways she lives right by 8 mile and we were running at 10:30pm and we seen a hooker on the corner and we started laughing at her and she said hi to us. It was really gross.
I have to go take Brina in the pool and then im going to the mall. <3
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2005 8 August :: 9.14 pm
Thats all I needed to know.
Things are finally, finally looking up.
So what, I'm better off everyday.
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2005 1 August :: 1.43 pm
I'm leaving again tonight. I'm going to Detroit and we might be going to Cedar Point but I don't know yet. Reguardless if I go to Cedar Point or not, I wont be home until Saturday. Somehow I'm never home and I still manage to be okay and I'm never homesick. I think that if I moved far away from here I would be happy with that as long as my mom and dad both moved. Only two more years and im outta here.
Brie: I called Dan back last night and he gave me your number and then I called but it was busy so I told him to tell you to call my cell phone sometime this week.
Kevin two wayed me twice yesterday. Were going to hang out soon. I miss him.
Other than leaving there is nothing new. My sister keeps going in and out of my room because shes trying to find something to wear today and it's really annoying me. I hate when people wear my clothes. I need to go pack though.
P.S.-looks like you'll never know what happened then, will you? ;)
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2005 31 July :: 8.51 pm
Your fucking dumb and if you thought that I wasn't going to find out, your wrong because guess what?
I heard.
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2005 30 July :: 11.38 pm
Ahh my little brother is annoying me but finally he stopped talking to me because he found out I got my iPod so now he is sitting on my bed listening to it and he thinks it's the coolest thing ever. Well it's cool but not the coolest thing ever.
Today was actually really fun. I had to wake up at like 8:30 and last night I didn't get home until like 2:30am but anyways thats besides the point. I went up north and we went tubing and we stayed on the sandbar most of the time. It was really fun because theres like 20 other boats on the sandbar and we know most of them so we went with them and everyone was drinking like always. My friend Casey has this tube that is huge so my cousin Haileigh and I decided we wanted to go tubing together on the same tube so we went and my uncle was driving and his girlfriend was spotting us to make sure we didn't fall off and this tube could fit like 3 people inside of it and so anyways we couldn't get comfortable when we were tubing cuz the handles were really screwed up so we both were like just hanging on barely and we never fell off and then we hit this huge bump from another boat and it sucked us all the way into the tube and you couldn't even see anything but our arms and it hurt so bad we were screaming so loud because we couldn't breathe and it kept sucking us under it since it was so huge and we tried telling my uncles girlfriend to stop the boat with our hands but she thought we were waving so she supposably was waving (we dont know because we couldn't see) and finally after like 3 minutes of still tubing like that they figured something was wrong and they stopped but it was so scary because we couldn't get up and my uncle said all he seen was our little hands waving and then we went tubing again later that day and my leg got stuck under there and I thought I almost broke it lol. I have such bad luck but it was really fun and then we were listening to my friend Jordans iPod and the song Dont Cha came on and we made up this dance to it so everyone made us do the dance for them and like 20 people were watching us. Casey wants me to go back up there tomorrow so after I go to this party I probably will. I was going to stay the night with him because hes camping somewhere by where we went but I couldn't because I already had plans for tomorrow but they go camping almost everyweekend so I'm probably just going to go up there next weekend and stay with him.
(Cheryl I don't know how many periods are in that paragraph but it wasn't many lol. I was telling a story so it doesn't count!)
I wish you would just see that I don't like you. I never have and I never will so why are you still trying to get me to like you? It wont happen and after everything I've seen, heard, been through it makes me want to hate you and I know when I say hate everyone freaks out since it's such a "strong" word but im really trying not to hate you. You need to get your own life and get your own dreams so you can stop living through mine. Just do me a favor and stop being nice to me and then saying how your jealous of me and how im spoiled the next minute behind my back to all these people who don't like you in the first place. People like you and people like me don't get along. Were from two differen't worlds and please stop wasting my time. I don't care.
I just needed to say that. Brianna we need to talk. It's important. It's about that one person who we don't like and who we used to call robutusin *sp*. You know who it is.
I was thinking about what I wanted the other day and I realized that I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change. Thats really all im going to say about that right now.
Do you ever wonder what your life looks like through someone elses eyes?
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2005 29 July :: 12.35 pm
Pictures.
Read more..
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2005 28 July :: 8.48 pm
:: Mood: Stressed
:: Music: Rhianna-Pon De Replay
I'm really annoyed right now. I shouldn't be but I am. People talking to me is just annoying me and thats pretty sad but I'm in a bad mood.
Anyways I got my iPod today. It's pink and it's so little. I love it except I'm really confused on how to upload songs on it and I hate reading directions so I'm skipping that part but my uncle has an iPod so tomorrow hes going to help me. I'm really impatient, I've found that out today.
The other day we went to The Soaring Eagle Casino and Resort and obviously we didn't gamble because my cousin and I can't but we stayed there in the resort and it was so much fun and they have so much stuff to do and next time we go there I'm getting a massage but anyways I was playing this basketball game with this guy who was probably 17 and all you had to do was make the basketball in the basket so many times more than the other person and you would win and the basketball hoop would move back and fourth and anyways I won and I was playing aganist a guy and all these people were watching us and then the guy was like "it's pretty sad that I lost aganist a girl" but I thought it was funny and then in our hotel these two guys kept following me and it was really annoying. They followed me for like 30 minutes. Do I look like I liked to be stalked?? Then finally they decided to come up to me and talk to me but it was really annoying at first but anyways were going back up there in a couple of weeks to stay there again.
seth: Dude, what do we do?? I don't want to get thrown out of the hotel. I love the hotel. I want to marry the hotel and have little alcholic, gambling-addicted kids with it. Is that wrong?? -- the oc
On Monday-Wednesday I'm pretty sure I'm going to Cedar Point. Ha that should be fun.
I was gone all this week up until today and somehow I forgot to bring my phone charger with me so my phone was dead all week and it really sucked.
Im so random but today I got all my composite cards for my modeling place and so now I can send them out to modeling agencies and they gave me a a list of other agencies to send my comp. cards to and that was really awesome. I got a certificate that says "This is to certify that Ashley Sonego has satisfactorily completed the course of training in Professional Modeling blah blah blah" It's just so weird but I'm really excited and I hope that someday soon I can just get out of Michigan. I'm never going to live here again. I hate it. It's a waste of time. I'm going to live in California whether anyone wants me to or not. I'm finally on my own. Don't try to tell me no. Theres so much more for me. Just watch what I'll be. I'm not just going to sit and waste my life doing nothing with it. I want to be somebody. I'm going to be somebody.
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2005 25 July :: 1.42 pm
I'm going to try to make this quick since I have to get going but NY was really awesome and so was Canada. We went shopping in both places and stayed in really pretty hotels and we went to Niagara Falls (obviously) and we went out to eat alot and the rest of the time I was there we went and did alot ot tourist type stuff and then I came back to my cousins house and they live in Lake Orion which is by Detroit and my uncle has a boat and a paddle boat so we went swimming alot and their neighbor used to be a professional soccer player so we played soccer with him but now hes a doctor and one day my cousins and I were laying out on the boat and there were a bunch of people in the doctors backyard and we went and asked him who they were and he said they were people from the hospital that were poor so he let them come over and swim and go fishing which was one of the nicest and sweetest things someones ever done for someone else. Those people probably thought we were just a bunch of spoiled rich kids but I was really happy that he would do that for them and we went fishing on the lake too but I never caught anything because I suck at fishing so I just stopped and I talked on my cell phone and my cousin kept asking to talk to my friends and they all talked to her and at the end shes like "I made 4 new friends" it was really cute. I can't really remember what else we did but it was an amazing trip.
I'm going to go lay out in my pool and then I have to go unpack from NY and pack again since I'm going to go up north for a few days and then I'm going back to Detroit for modeling and to see the rest of my family. I think I'll be back on thursday. I sort of feel bad for my mom and dad because I rarely am home in the summer and when I am all I do is unpack and repack for something and the truth is they don't see me that much unless they are taking me to an airport or something but it really is sort of sad but once school starts hopefully things will calm down and by then I can hang out with my friends from school because I don't even have time for anyone right now, thats sad to say but I really don't. It's not my fault that I have modeling stuff and that im so busy but one thing I can say is who doesn't like going on vacations to NY and CA?
But anyways I will update when I get home.
& when you start to miss me, remember you let me go
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