:: 2004 31 December :: 12.16 pm

I don't really feel good right now for some reason. I'm so excited though because Chloes here and this whole weekend we are hanging out and tonight we are going to Muskegon and tomorrow we are going shopping at the mall and ive decided that I'm not buying anymore winter clothes or any clothes really because as I was looking through all my clothes last night I counted 28 pairs of pants and I think I have enough. I'll just buy jewelry or something. Well I g2g get ready..have a good new years everyone!

TTYL PEACE, ASHLEY***

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:: 2004 27 December :: 7.45 pm

I went shopping today even though I bought things I don't even need. I bought some clothes - which I don't need and I bought a whole bunch of stuff from bath and bodyworks..

Chloes coming tomorrow, happy about that!

I'm going to start taking dance soon. I'm going to do hip-hop and I don't know if I'm going to do anything else. Thats all for sure for now..

I hate making plans with people when I have to cancel them. I feel horriable. I was supposed to hang out with my friend jessica from modeling on new years eve and day and then Chloe asked me to hang out too and I want to hang out with both really bad but Chloe is my best friend and I haven't seen her since spring break so Im going to hang out with her and Jessica just called and I had to tell her I couldn't and I feel so bad and she wasn't even mad because she understands because she has friends that moved too but I feel so bad still-its dumb but I do. I worry to much about things and it needs to stop. I need to stop worrying about things that I shouldn't be worrying about.

Anyways..

I g2g..my break has been fun but I'm suuper busy!ttyl

you know you love me,
ashley

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:: 2004 25 December :: 12.51 pm

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

I got a whole bunch of cds for x-mas and I'm making copies of them so I can have a copy at my dads house and my moms house so while I'm waiting I'm going to say what I got for christmas.

Umm ok..

Well I got these cds from my dads and my moms:
*The diary of Alicia Keys
*Kelly Clarkson
*Avril Lavigne
*Nelly (Sweat and Suit)
*Black Eyed Peas
*Ashlee Simpson
*Maroon 5
*Desitinys Child
*The O.C. Mix 2

I got some dvds I got the
*First Season of Friends
*School of Rock
*13 going on 30
*Cheaper by the dozen
*Cat n the Hat!
*Cindarella Story
*Elf
*Secret Window
and some other ones but I forgot

I got an outfit from abercrombie, an outfit from forever 21, and 2 shirts from hollister.

I got 3 purses. Umm alot of picture frames. I got a lamp for my nightstand. I got a digital camera and a printer and some other stuff for it and I got this little fridge thing for my room. I got 3 pairs of slippers. 2 pairs of pajamas. I got alot of nailpolish and nail stuff. I got jewlrey and some other random stuff I dont know I forgot what all I got. Oh yeah I got this black purse with a whole bunch of little victoria secret perfume and abercrombie kids perfume...and I got a real pearl necklace and bracelet and earings and I got a livestrong bracelet and I got pink and white converse shoes too...

yeah thats the only thing about having divorced parents is getting double the presents......

It was my cousins birthday yesterday! Happy 2nd Birthday Brina!

im going to get fat. Ive ate so much this break already. We had spaghetti and meatballs last night for dinner and we had our traditional breakfast this morning and tonight we are having christmas dinner...blah..

what did you all get for x-mas?

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:: 2004 23 December :: 8.14 pm

The O.C. is on and it's back2back episodes. The episode on right now is the christmukkah episode from last season and the episode on after I'm assuming its the new one for this week! I'm so obssesed. It's a dream come true(2 episodes in one day)!!

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:: 2004 20 December :: 11.05 pm
:: Mood: angry

your such an idiot, im such an idiot to believe you and everything you once told me. your so immature. grow up and stop being a liar. stop telling lies to me or to her or to anyone. your not who I thought I was but in a way you are. you turned out to be someone who I cant stand. I hate people like you who only care about what they want and put themselves 1st. I dont even want to think about all the lies you once told me and how all of it was lies or could have been lies. I cant believe I listened to you and believed you. if your happy with her then everyone else is supposed to be happy right? yeah try again. stop being selfish for once, maybe you should try it. if you hate high school drama so much stop causing it. im not going to sit around and wait for you like a moron when waiting for you to realize what is right is like waiting for something thats never going to happen. useless and disapointing. thanks for ruining everything.

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:: 2004 20 December :: 10.26 pm

I came home today from Detroit. It's the most fun I've had in so long that I wish I could have stayed longer. It made me realize how lucky I am sometimes and how all my relatives mean more than anything to me.

We got there Saturday morning and I got to meet my 3 new cousins for the 1st time. They are so adorable. Michael is 13, Derek is 10 I think, and Matthew is 6. They are really nice and polite and its just so different having them in our family now because usually it was just me, lindsey, brina, sarah, rachel, and haileigh so all girls but now that we have 3 boys it gives everything a whole new outlook. I'm blessed to have 3 new cousins who I love so much already from just spending 3 days with them. When I first got there they wanted me to play hide-n-seek with them so I was like "sure" and then it was snowing outside there so me, rachel, derek, and michael played tackle football in the snow. I have so many stories just from this weekend. But Im extremely glad they are in my family now and they are extremely lucky to live in LA and go to a private school and be rich, and michael dating a famous actors daughter, couldn't ask for more right?? yeah right.
Anyways there fav. food is spahgetti and meatballs so for our whole family being italian my grandma made 15lbs of meatballs and we ate like all of them lol but we had a million people there too.

On sunday we went to the great lakes crossing and went shopping and we ate at rainforest cafe it was so cool with the sharks in the tank and the real fish. We found nemo and dori in the tanks too..lol and we got pictures.. ummm idk what else we did that day.

My dad gave me his credit card today and told me to order some more stuff online for x-mas..I ordered this shirt that says "I <3 CA" its so cute...and Im ordering more now but i cant decide which ones I want since there are about 14 pages of shirts. Theres so much to do with my dads credit card..lol *thinks* hmmm...

j/k but yeah im going to Florida for spring break..im excited.

but yeah i should go order my stuff since ive been sitting here for like an hour looking. ttyl

bye

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:: 2004 16 December :: 9.28 pm

I went shopping today and bought stuff for my cousin Brina's birthday. Shes turning two. I bought her 3 outfits they are soo cute. I love her. I can't wait until I see her. Her birthday is on Christmas Eve but my whole family is flying in from CA for x-mas and her birthday so yeah we are celebrating it all this weekend. PARTY! WHOOO...haha and I also get to meet my new cousins. I'm extremely excited about this. hahaha..

but anyways I g2g chow

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:: 2004 15 December :: 7.14 pm

okay now im almost sure you know what your doing and that just pisses me off. your horriable.

screw yoooooouuuu


yah I was just checking my email (italia_forever7) and yeah my dad had to use my email to order my lil brother somethin for x-mas and I just found out he used it for me too because when I checked it, it was like " your order from www.abercrombiekids.com" blah blah and I could track it n stuff so i'm happy I got clothes from there lol since it was on my list..hehe..im so bad.

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:: 2004 14 December :: 6.56 pm

One of these days I'm going get enough courage to say something to you whether or not you get mad at me, which I am almost positive you will since you can never actually just talk to me about something like that without getting mad and ignoring the whole situation or me for that matter.

And maybe you should watch what YOUR friend says about MY friend. A little word of advice (Dont talk bad about someone unless you actually know them or the situation they are/were in)

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:: 2004 13 December :: 6.00 pm

I'm going to update about my weekend. I went to Detroit for the weekend as usuall and on Saturday I was in a Fashion Show and I had modeling school and I babysat too for the rest of the weekend. Fun Fun.

I'm getting sick of you being selfish like always. You could care less about what I think or feel because you assume that I'll always be around so it doesn't matter if we used to be best friends and now we can't even compare to that. You don't have time for me..you make that quite obvious..

I wonder if you ever know that some of my entries are about you. can't you just imagine that? If you can't tell yet then your a moron, a complete moron.

cant things just be how they used to be..can't I for once matter to you, cant you just for once care about me, can't you actually try to keep our friendship...?



anways..change of subject. 15 more days until chloe comes to michigan..I cant wait!

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:: 2004 12 December :: 3.40 pm

you make me sick. you just keep showing me everytime how selfish you really are.

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:: 2004 10 December :: 5.56 pm

I kind of feel bad about it all. I have been acting like a bitch to him but it's just because I can't stand it when he touches me all the time and then the other day he told me he loved me and I just said thanks because I'm not going to say I love him back because I don't and he said he was just joking but I can tell he isn't. Ryan even told me that ____ said he thinks im hot and likes me but I don't like him like that at all and then he makes me upset when he does stupid stuff and I have to sit right next to him in class too. How much longer will this go on??

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:: 2004 7 December :: 8.23 pm
:: Music: You Lift Me Up

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:: 2004 6 December :: 3.03 pm

My mom is in her room wrapping x-mas presents and she comes to one of my and goes "ohh your gonna love this" and I'm like "what is it?" and shes like " I cant tell you but I want it" and then I was like "well was it something on my x-mas list that I wanted" and she goes "maybe but your sisters both want it too" and so now its bugging me because I want to know what it is really bad.

I still have alot more Christmas shopping to do. I spent like $200 of my own money yesterday on everyone and I still have to spend about $200 cuz im buying my mom more stuff that is expensive..one is like 100 dollars and the other thing is 50 and I still have to buy my sister some stuff and my grandma since shes coming up for x-mas too...

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:: 2004 5 December :: 9.03 pm

woohu is now ugly.

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