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2004 10 November :: 5.52 pm
you always make things better
you always make me smile :)
your the best.
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2004 9 November :: 6.51 pm
49 days until Chloe comes! yay
I'm on the phone with Chloe and all I can hear is Taylor screaming in the background. lol so loud...
my boyfriend ran away today..chloes mom caught him though haha.
no one has any clue what im talking about but us.
I dont feel good...
yah....
i have nothing to say..
ttyl
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2004 8 November :: 6.48 pm
My dad walks into my room today and looks at the floor, he sees my coat, backpack, books, and clothes on the floor. He goes "Pick all this up" and I say "It's my room" and then he goes "I don't care, its my house" so then the battle stopped because I knew if I continued fighting with him about it I would lose, as always. He's always right.
Im such a daddys girl though its so pathetic.
My birthday is Sunday Im so excited. I got my present from Chloe today but I didn't open it yet since its at my moms.
yeah anyways I might get an i-Pod for my b-day if I want one or I can get the money for it and go shopping lol..
ASHLEY
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2004 7 November :: 8.32 pm
I just got off the phone with my cousin Lindsey who lives in California. She is moving back along with her mom (my aunt Lori and my baby cousin Brina) in early december. I'm sorta happy because Lindsey and I are really close probabaly because we are the same age, shes only 2 weeks older than me and we've always been together ever since we've been born. I miss Brina alot too...I love that little girl even though she is extremely spoiled and bratty for being 1 1/2 years old but I love her. She's turning 2 on December 24th. Horriable day for a birthday if you ask me. She was a good x-mas present for us all.. ya ya well back to the whole point of me updating. We were talking and she was saying how she was going to miss California and I said how I missed it there and we are for sure going back this summer to visit my uncle and my new cousins. That was our first plan and our second plan is that when we graduate we are going to move out to LA and live together and try to go to college there and all this other stuff that I cannot explain but that is our plan and Chloe and I also had the same one so maybe we all could just live together since thats what we would do anyways. yep thats our brialliant plan..and we also want to become FAMOUS..haha i know...a little far fetched but thats what we want to try to do..we've got the hookups. :D
but I would miss everyone here but if your one of my best friends than Im for sure we would still see each other.
ttyl
ashley megan*
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2004 6 November :: 1.58 pm
I talked to Chloe the other day and I have a feeling they are moving back. I'm not sure though. They could move back as early as Jan. if they do move back. I hope so. I miss her so much. I don't even know what it's like to have her here. Shes coming up in December! I can't wait. I'm going to hang out with her all through break. We go shopping every year together by ourselves and to Kahuna Ville or however the hell you spell it and we get the same thing every year. We've done this for a long time. It's like a stupid tradtion we have. haha..We might all go somewhere for spring break but I'm not sure yet..all depends on if she moves back. She bought me a birthday present too.. Shes all excited about it.. I think she sent it out today .. :D
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2004 5 November :: 12.43 pm
:: Mood: okay
this is soooo boring. i don't care about stocks.
im supposed to be doing econ work but I'm not, obviously.
today is a stupid stupid day. It's not a good day.
things are good for one day then the next day things between us aren't...its annoying...
things will change, things will get better..we'll make this work.
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2004 3 November :: 9.26 pm
I went and seen "saw" tonight. I swear when I was watching it I was going to throw up. It was really good and scary and gross and the end was totally twisted. I keep thinking theres that man in my closet when I go to sleep and is all I can see is his eye through a crack and he says "hello little girl"..if anyones seen that movie then you'll know but I swear I'll have nightmares tonight.
I think I'm just going to forget about it all and just pretend nothings wrong when there really is. Pretending is so much easier than the truth. I'm not going to sit there and tell you whats wrong since you already know it, you just choose not to show it. If you really care out our friendship then please do something.
It's my brothers birthday today. He's 14. This week and the rest of next week until Sunday is the only time we are the same age. Well my birthday is soon! yay
..anyways.
g2g tty'all l8ta..
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2004 2 November :: 9.27 pm
It's always times like these when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me. Because I need you, and I miss you.
if you only knew....if anyone only knew...
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2004 2 November :: 3.08 pm
thats why we aren't friends.
You've had tons of chances and you've ruined them to many times. which leads to this.
I really don't understand you or why I have to go through this. is this what you want? Do you want me to be sad all the time? well I sure hope not but thats what your doing.
Everything will be okay right?
yah ok.....
why dont you open your eyes for once.
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2004 1 November :: 7.11 pm
:: Mood: okay
My birthday is November 14th along with my grandpa's (he said I was the best birthday present ever :D, and along with my dog Eli's and my grandma's dog Kate) haha all these dogs.... I think my birthday is on a Sunday but I'm not for sure. I have modeling school that weekend so that kinda sucks. It seems like it's always falling on the wrong weekends but theres nothing I can do about that.
I've been practicing my walk lol I sound retarded but anways I have been practicing and at fashion shows you start when the music so I've been listening to random music and walking to it, mostly lets get it started since its fast.
yah im just rambling on about stupid things so i'm done now. I just like to write in here.
ttyall lt8a ashley*
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2004 31 October :: 12.18 pm
On friday I went to see the grudge, it was sorta dumb. I don't know if I would see it again. Some parts were scary and some were not at all. Then I went to Britt's house afterwards.
On saturday I had to get up at 6am and then go to Eastpointe which was like 3 hours away. It wasn't bad though because all of us girls just talked and watched movies and slept lol. It was fun though except it wasn't what I expected I guess. Theres so much more to modeling than just what everyone assumes, its not just walking down a runway and smiling and turning around and walking back, its so much more than that. You have to walk in a straight line and you can't move your feet off the line and they have to be pointed out and ur chest has to stick out and at the same time your butt has to be in and you have to smile and do all these hisitations and pivots and all this other stuff that i learned that I cant even begin to explain. After we did runway sutff we talked about our hair and makeup and all this other stuff and it was really fun but theres alot of things I never really knew and then a model named Anya did our eyebrows, well she did one of them and we had to do the other one the exact way. It was alot different than I thought because usually your eyebrows dont have to be a certain way, well at least I didn't think and they do..they have to be so long and so short and so thick and they have to be arched and all this stuff..afalsjfalsjfdaljfa so much confusion but I need to practice my walk.
anyways
Trista is here right now. She came over last night. I'm not sure where she is at.
Thats about all thats new.
ttya'll l8ta mucho luv.. ~aShLeY mEgAn~
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2004 28 October :: 7.53 pm
I don't think you ever cared.
I don't think you ever will until we aren't friends.
I don't think you really understand.
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2004 27 October :: 8.02 pm
Today was a bad day. He was VERY mad at me and he started yelling at me..It wasn't even my fault. I'm stupid, I thought wrong. It doesn't matter anymore I can't go back to a few hours earlier and change it. It's done.
it's done.
My dad is in South Carolina I think. I haven't talked to him since Monday. He was supposed to call me yesterday or today but he hasn't.
I think your actually trying and I actually do think you care about me but theres still more that could be done.
you know.
I will update more later but I have to go. peace out. luvs..
AshleY
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2004 27 October :: 7.57 pm
I was reading through all my old entrys and I came across my first entry ever. I remember that day so well too. I had no clue what woohu even was but my sister had it so I wanted it.
:: 2003 13 July :: 11.09 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Good Charlotte- Boys n' Girls
I want to go to BED!!
Okay... Today my sister helped me with this journal since I had no idea what I was doing.. So finally I got it but now im really tired and have nothing at all to tell anyone so im leaving.BYE
¤ With a wink and a kiss im srry to anounce thys little hottie haz got to bounce so with an X and an O im out like wo ¤
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2004 26 October :: 7.10 pm
Im working on my drama project still, I've been working on it since I got home from play practice which was like at 4:30.
I cant wait until this is all over. I'm sick of doing her work because she is the one who is a bitch and doesn't even do it and tells everyone else that Brittany and I are going to screw it all up when shes the one who said she was going to wing it and it didn't matter to her, well it matters to me since its worth 400pts but w/e..I'm basically doing all my work plus hers since she gave us all the wrong info. Stupid people..
I'm so tired of doing this, so im taking a break by writing in here, complaining actually.
I think I'm done...
wait maybe not.
I think I'm getting sick. For the past 2 days I feel sick and I'm dizzy all the time and I feel really hot one second then cold and today people were annoying me.I was being a bitch but I couldn't help it..grr......
thats all.
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