:: 2004 23 September :: 9.13 pm
:: Mood: full

My stomach hurts really bad, I ate to much hehe.

Anways we had our final test in d/t today and I passed *smiles*. I only got 8 wrong and I could have got 20 wrong so I guess thats good..?

Everyone says I look like Mischa Barton and I know I do *smiles again*..theres nothing like looking like your favorite actress on your favorite show, can't beat that..I think people in California thought I was her because when I was there in Hollywood Highlands people started waving at me and taking my picture it was like "CLICK CLICK CLICK HEY CLICK CLICK" so Im like "ok" and just smiled, it was cool. lol

Anways, I should go study for my umm 3 tests I have tomorrow, yep...

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ttyl peace out ya'll ashley*

lie awake

:: 2004 21 September :: 9.13 pm
:: Mood: sad

im crying....im sad.....i miss you so much...

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:: 2004 19 September :: 8.59 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

so much for that...obviously that isn't going to work...

anyways..I think things are falling apart already..i'm not sure..maybe there just hasn't been enough time to see..but I really hope not...ur so stupid sometimes...

lie awake

:: 2004 18 September :: 4.42 pm
:: Mood: sick

Im still sick. It really sucks.

Akaysha and Trista are coming over soon!

Erika you better call me today and if your mom wont let you come then we can just come to my moms house since its close :) k?

ok.

School is ok. I have had some good days and some bad days. I always try to be happy when Im there though.

Anyways "shes" getting really annoying...i hate that she follows me...*slaps her*

and this other girl really scares me...she wants me haha erika...im not mentioning either of those 2 peoples names...but they both are crazy...

my sister really bothers me some times...this is what she did.. well we both have this same army skirt and I bought mine in Cali and she bought hers here and they are the exact same from the exact same store and i tried mine on when I bought it but she didn't and I got a small and she got a extra small and so then today I was going to wear my skirt and i tried it on and it was way to short so im like hmm..?? so i looked at the tag and it was an ex. small so im like "she switched em" so i went into her room and frantically searched for my skirt and i found it..thats my story of the day...yep..

great story.....

ANYWAYS AKAYSHA IS HERE SO I SHOULD GO. PEACE OUT,

ASHLEY*

lie awake

:: 2004 16 September :: 10.44 pm

wow me and erika talked on the phone for 2 hours...lol..anyways tomorrow is the 1st time I drive in d/t so im scared but I am tired so I have to go to bed...night

2 shooting stars | lie awake

:: 2004 15 September :: 9.26 pm
:: Mood: shocked

I just got home from the hospital! Akaysha is doing good..I got to hold her for a long time too...shes so pretty *smiles*..hehe..

well umm im not so sure what my point in all this is... im just bored.. but I have homework but right now I kinda have to stay online for a few minutes..

my mom did my drivers training homework for me..i love her.. lol

erika i'll call you tomorrow I promise! I gotta talk to you ...

anyways I should get going...luv ashley!

lie awake

:: 2004 14 September :: 8.17 pm
:: Music: Tim McGraw

lie awake

:: 2004 13 September :: 8.42 pm

I can't decide what I want. What do I really want. Is this all worth it or should I just give up on it and forget it, would I miss you more or not. Do I care anymore? I don't know what I want or what to do..im lost and confused in my own life..i wish this would all go away, its not worth it..

I think my kitten is dying, i'm not joking..he can't breathe and we took him to the vet and he might have something I forget what its called and I feel horriable he is the sweetest thing ever..he just always jumps up on me and goes to sleep..hes so sweet and cute..I will start crying if he dies..i love him..anways

school is going ok so far..I'm not to impressed by some of my classes..*hint hint*

well anyways I still have to study for biology and econ and do laundry and do all sorts of other stuff so i shall be on my way..

chow

ashley*

lie awake

:: 2004 11 September :: 7.59 pm
:: Mood: sleepy

lie awake

:: 2004 10 September :: 10.48 pm

Save your breath cause here comes the truth
I'm over the drama of you
And that's something new.

Ugh..why do i have to do everything for you? "Don't make any plans tomorrow so you can call her and blah blah blah" you owe me dude... "bahh" (your not a sheep erika haha j/k) im not a sheep either..I never have once said "bahh" till now..that word scares me..unless im acting as a sheep which is unlikely to happen ever.

4 shooting stars | lie awake

:: 2004 9 September :: 9.14 pm
:: Mood: sad

I'm crazy. Why do I care or bother to "even care" about you anymore, your such a liar. Your two-faced also...glad to know ur happy...

anyways

but umm drivers training is sooo boring I cannot stand it...I really hope its not as hard as they tell us.. I read the stuff but I never remember what they say...its just so boring that I honestly don't care.

I don't really like my lunch either..most of my friends have C lunch I think so in my lunch i have like 3 of my close friends and the rest are just aqauintences*sp* idk...its okay..

Well I have alot of stuff to do still so I should go..

Ashley

lie awake

:: 2004 4 September :: 8.11 pm
:: Mood: worried

God I hate when I get sad, more when people make me sad.

"I just want to say I luv ya, and come back home"

I miss Chloe so much...its so hard having her being away..and really I feel so bad for her..she wants to come home so bad and she can't..she feels quilty about leaving her mom n everything and I don't know its just a huge mess and I have to try to help her stay happy and get out of it and thank god she has a boyfriend because otherwise she would go insane..but they are fighting now and when they fight..she cries..and then I have to try to make her feel better and theres nothing I can do besides fly out to visit her and thank god shes coming up for Christmas so I'll see her then n stuff but its not the same..I doubt any of you people know what it feels like to have one of your best friends move so far away...and as im talking to her right now, shes crying because she wants to come home ..but she really cant...its sad....

:( I miss her so much...its making me cry...

/this is one thing i hope nobody ever has to go through\

2 shooting stars | lie awake

:: 2004 3 September :: 9.23 pm

wow...that was fun.

I think he likes me.. well he wouldn't have done what he did if he didn't. I don't know if I like him.

Anways

I might be going camping tomorrow, might not. I have no clue.

But anyways...Lately I've been getting so annoyed by people its horriable..everything they do is annoying... I hate when people say things and then they don't keep what they say and I really hate when I'm talking to someone online and they just get offline right in the middle of a conversation..its rude....

yep..

im mad right now.so i should go. soon..



She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

1st Chorus
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

2nd Chorus
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

so sad...but true..ppl can relate

ashley

2 shooting stars | lie awake

:: 2004 1 September :: 9.53 am
:: Mood: thankful

I got my classes changed to the ones I wanted. I'm happy, about that, but my teeth STILL hurt....its really annoying..braces are really annoying now.

lie awake

:: 2004 30 August :: 10.31 pm
:: Mood: bored

Schedule:

Sophomore Comp/Lit - Millard
Intergrated Math 2- Modisher
Government- London
Spanish 1- Ryan
Drama 3- H
Biology- McDonald

I hate when people make me feel bad. Their like "We used to be best friends last year and then ever since this summer we haven't even hung out once and I hope that it doesn't ruin our friendship" and blah blah blah..well I feel bad because they are right, very true..I haven't seen them all summer besides today and I didn't even know what to say to them..I was like "hi" and its my fault because I've been gone so much this summer on vacations that I haven't even seen my friends that much. These past 2 weeks I've been hanging out with them non stop so I actually get to see them. Like example: friday I went to the football game for a while and hung out with some people then later that night i went to brittneys house and we had megan come over and then really late like midnight tyler and collin came over then the next day I went shopping and went back over to her house and then we had aaron c. over and then hung out with him and then we had tyler and collin and aaron f. come over but we fell asleep so they came over for nothing lol..so like ive been trying to hang out with people but ive been soooooo sooo busy..and then when im not there i have something else to do like get braces..which i got them today..they hurt sooo much..but ill live..and then ive been trying to go shopping alot for school and hang out with my cousins while they were up from cali. and my grandma is up from florida and shes here now and then i have drivers training on the 1st day of school and then after that im taking like dance and stuff like that so im always busy..its retarded...seriously it is....well i have to go..my mom needs the computer...

Ashley

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