:: 2004 1 June :: 8.48 pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: ~Strawberry Wine~

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:: 2004 30 May :: 11.16 am

Some people really need to get a life.

I went to the mall yesterday. That was fun. I bought some more clothes. Thats about all thats been going on here.

I need to go and find something to do today and tomorrow. Yep, So I'm going now.

Ash

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:: 2004 28 May :: 4.33 pm

L	Light
I	Inspirational
T	Twisted
T	Tender
L	Lazy
E	Eccentric
O	Outrageous
N	New
E	Energetic

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:: 2004 26 May :: 3.44 pm
:: Mood: Content
:: Music: California - Phantom Planet

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:: 2004 24 May :: 9.17 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

Chloe and Skaterboy are together now. cute. hehe.

People annoy me. Why do I even care about them or why do I even try? They dont care about me, just about their stupid boyfriends.

I hate making decisions. I have like a choice of either going to California where I love or going to Florida which isn't anything that exciting but seeing my best friend. I cant decide and its not that my parents wont let me go to both its just I dont have time cuz me and sam have d/t all of august and I would be going back with chloe in july and thats when i would be in cali ..idk but i think im staying in cali if i go for 3 weeks!

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:: 2004 23 May :: 10.00 pm
:: Mood: bored

Yeah I'm kinda confused here.

So my weekend was okay, just ok. Friday I didn't really do anything. I went to my dads house and we went out to eat and then rented movies n hung out with my little brothers and their friends..fun. Saturday I went over to Erika,Maddie,Haileigh,and Nicks house and spent the night and we went out to eat for Erika's b-day and we played basketball alot. Yeah it was like 11:00pm and we were outside playing in the street and everytime cars would come buy we would throw our basketball's at them and run and hide..they all slammed on their brakes while we sat in hid laughing histarically untill Erika tripped over us and fell on the cement. not fun. Another time we just stood in the middle of the road and wouldn't move when the car came and they just sat there and honked at us, like we were retarded. It was soo funny. I like hanging out with other people for a change. Sunday we went and seen Shrek 2. It was pretty good. yep that was about all. My dad let me drive the truck all by myself, without him in it with me!

I realized when I was hanging out with all them that I would give anything just to be younger again. Yeah im still really young but not as young as I wish. I want to be like 10 again when you have nothing to worry about, no problems, nothing. It was so fun and so easy.

Schools almost out. This year went by soo fast. I hope the next 3 years dont. I know most people could think im crazy but sometimes I actually like going even though everyone has to put up with ppl and teachers we hate and do work we dont wanna do but its worth having fun and messing around and seeing your friends.

Im spending the night at Sam B. house Tuesday. She was like "your coming over whether you want to or not" lol. Her mom is all excited about it because Sam never has friends over anymore becuase of volleyball and working. Her mom luvs me.

I hate being in the middle of things, trying to help other people when it's not even my problem. Yep thats exactly what im doing right now trying to fix 2 peoples relationships cuz some certain person, not mentioning any names wanted me to talk to her boyfriend or ex w/e and try to get them back, why the hell am I doing this?

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:: 2004 17 May :: 9.34 pm

haha I just got home a lil while ago from the store with Emily Sorensen..we had to go buy tonz of food to make stuff for our picnic in food and nutrition.... we both were pushing carts and I ran into someone on accident..and I ran into the beer and almost broke stuff..it was really fun. I was the 1st one to ride with her since she got her license :S yikes...but it was okay...we could have died thooo because a big bird was flying right at her car and it looked like it was gonna hit us so we just screamed and ducked, which good thing we werent by tonz of cars cuz she let go and closed her eyes..it was funny lol..I had fun.. its weird buying food by ourselves..but we managed..

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:: 2004 17 May :: 6.58 pm
:: Mood: crappy

wow do I feel bad. It's those little things that you don't pay attention to and then when you find out about them you feel horriable. I feel like I did something wrong, like it was my fault. I admit that it probally was a small percent of my fault and its everyones fault for being like that but I really didn't thin about it, but I feel really bad. I try to be nice to everyone, ignoring people and being mean is just not me..I don't think I was/or am mean to her but when she told me, it made you think twice..who cares what other people think. I don't care anymore...I'm done worrying, I'm not gonna see anyone in school, after school anyways besides a few select friends....if that...chloe I presume.... so why does it really matter what people think of you now? It really doesn't... Yeah I just feel bad about it and all the things that she has to do..I'm going to start being nice to everyone even if I can't stand them at all...even if I force myself..I think im nice to everyone that likes me and if they hate me then im usually not nice..but why should I be if they dont like me in the 1st place..?

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:: 2004 16 May :: 5.57 pm
:: Mood: Loved

I just got home from The Lakes Mall with my sister and Brie. Fun fun that was. I finally got this hat that I wanted from wet seal for soooo long I was soo happy and I got an outfit from Hollister. Yep that pretty much sums that up.

Today, I started doing something really great that I haven't done in almost 3 weeks.
Laundry.
I swear my laundry was piled up my wall and it was pretty close to the ceiling. Pretty bad. I just haven't had the time to do it all, not that I do now or anything but I had to make time. I'm proud. It's about time I did something useful as my dad would say.

Seniors are gone. Kinda makes me sad. kinda not. o well.

I really like my hair now. Exciting.

So in other words, I can't think of any thing else to say. So.. im out.

ash

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:: 2004 14 May :: 5.42 pm

Today was a sad but good day. I'll miss a few seniors, including my sister, even though I will see her at home, it's not exactly the same.

I just got home a while ago I got my hair highlighted and Sam Ballew got her hair cut. We were in there forever. My mom and her mom would not stop talking. Long trip that was.

Well I'm pretty sure I'm taking drivers training in August with Sam Ballew because her mom and my mom talked about it and yeah we just want to. It will be fun, even her mom said so. hehe. yep. pretty damn bored.

I might go to the muskegon mall sunday with my sister cuz we want to go to Hollister. yep and tomorrows my dads b-day so pretty much it. oh yeah.

In drama our skit kinda sucked. Some things happend that lets just say weren't supposed to like when belk was "dead" laying on the floor, the door we built out of wood n stuff, haha obviously. well it fell on belk when he was pretending to be dead and everyone started laughing, I couldn't see because I was laying on the floor dead too facing the other way. It was funny though, I hope we get a good grade, we worked hard, for a supposed to be scary skit that turned out into a hilarious ruined one. O well....we couldn't do much when we had to do it in the band room with all those damn chairs.
Well I suppose I'm off now.

yep


bye

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:: 2004 13 May :: 4.00 pm
:: Mood: Sitting Here

So yep. School today, pretty boring. I was kinda a little bit upset, well lets say alot and lets just say pissed off. I can't help it but I tend to get mad at the dumbest things but I dont think this was dumb. Well in drama our little exam skit things were due today so we were supposed to perform them today, which was fine. My group was ready and then we planned everything around the auditioriam since mr. h said thats where we would be doing it at so then today we find out we can't use the auditoriam we have to use the lunch room and our whole skit now is ruined becuase it was about a murder and we needed the curtains n stuff so you couldn't see who killed us all so that ruins it, yep, Sam ballew was a little pissed off..me and her planned everything for this to work and then it just changed.

In other news. If I had some.

Well recently I've been talking to my uncle in California about acting and this is what he emailed me today.

"I think this could be a good aspiration...

You’ve got a little work to do. First, you need a tape of you performing or showing a variety of moods (laughing, crying, smiling, frowning, etc); a few good head shots that show off your best assets, and a resume that lists your credits.

Then we could pitch you to a someone who would rep you and pitch you to casting agents"

so thats exciting for me anyways... hope it all works out as I want.

Yeah, I'm kinda sad schools almost out.

I don't have much else to say so I better go. Love ash

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:: 2004 12 May :: 8.47 pm

Boredness
I'm extremely bored so I'm just gonna fill this entry with stuff. It's gonna be long. yep. long.

Random things
Do you have your own room?:	Yeah
How many computers?:	2
How many phones?:	3
TVs?:	7
How many people live in your home?:	8
How many bathrooms?:	2
Where is the computer located?:	Right here
ceiling fans? how many?:	alot
how many rooms?:	7
what is in your fridge?
soda?:	ya
alcholic beverages?:	oh yeah!
cheese?:	yup
veggies?:	mm ya

What is in your house? brought to you by BZOINK!

Name:	Ashley
Nicknames:	Ash, Megan, Ashmeg, and little one.
Age:	You know so dont ask
Birthday:	November 14
Nationality:	umm yah
Current Height:	dont know
Hair Color:	brown
Eye Color:	hazel
Family:	yes
Location:	here
College:	ucla
Piercings:	yep
Red or Blue:	blue
Spring or Fall:	spring
Santa or Rudolph:	neither
Math or English:	english
What are you going to do after you finish this survey:	write in my journal
What was the last food you ate:	ice cream - im eating it right now hehe
High School or College:	college, will be better
Last movie you saw:	Godsend
Last noise you heard:	birds
Last time you went out of state:	spring break
Things you like in a girl/guy:	personality
What book are you reading now:	in school romeo and juliet
Favorite board game:	sorry
Favorite magazine:	teen people
Worst feeling in the world:	not being loved
First thing you think of in the morning:	not much
Future daughter's name:	Daveigh, Alexis, Taylor
Future son's name:	Brandon or Nicholas
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal:	no
Dream job:	actress
Whats under your bed:	magazines and purses and books

Overview Survey brought to you by BZOINK!

yep, I probally already took thoses ones, I can't remember but I'll take them again because I just dont care.

So any who.

Well In a way im excited about school getting out soon because I'm really tired of getting up early and getting all ready for school (well sometimes), and I'm tired of people that I can't stand seeing at school everyday. yep, those people that annoy everyone but then again I'll be kinda sad cuz this year went by really quick so that kinda sucks. I wont get to see alot of people during the summer either. Just mostly close friends that I normally hang out with. In other news

So I'm going to California soon. My dad told me I could, and we are going to figure out when soon. ya, sounds exciting. I think im going for 2 weeks. 1 week with my cousins Lindsey and Brina in Palm Springs at their house and 1 week In Los Angeles with my uncle. I hope so, this will be so much fun. Im excited and when chloe comes up in july, I might get to go home with her and fly home alone :S

yeah I got a detention yesterday from mrs. babbit, for a retarded reason. It was my 1st detention ever, im not serving it. Mr. A just said that he didn't care and that I didn't have to serve it. so screw her.

yeah im eating ice cream right at this very moment and its soooo good.. you want it. I know it.

I feel different. I'm not who I used to be. I don't know if its a good thing or bad.. I just dont know. I'm fine with it, I guess but when I look back to last year and who I was, Im so much different now. I guess its better.

Thats really all I can think of to say.

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:: 2004 12 May :: 4.26 pm

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Your first full name
Your personality rates a	12
your best quality is	youre responsible
your worst quality is	theres nothing bad about you
this is because	its genetic
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:: 2004 10 May :: 10.02 pm

Umm..yah didn't really turn out as planned.

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:: 2004 9 May :: 8.58 pm
:: Mood: hot

So um my weekend I guess.

Friday- Katy came over and we went to tgi fridays then came to my house and watched movies n stuff.
Saturday- Katy and I hung out then I went to Amandas baby shower then Trista came over for a while then at like 9:00 I went to my dads house.
Sunday- I slept in really late until like 12:00 go me! Then cleaned n stuff to get some money to get my hair highlighted. Yeah my lil brother bought a slip n slide so I went on that with them haha.... and we put baby oil on it, awesome it was. That was about it.

The show I wanted to watch just now isn't on!!

So I'm really getting sick of living here in Michigan.. I mean c'mon whats to like thats here? I can't think of anything besides my family n friends but nothing else. I really miss California, alot. I think about living there all the time and I think about all the fun stuff there is to do there. I wish I lived there but if my dad moves to Arizona he said if I wanted to then I could move to California with either my uncle or my aunt and cousins. Sounds good to me! I just am really depressed here...its so just BORING..nothing to do, nothing to see, just nothing. I think that maybe if I never would have gone to Cali then I wouldn't hate it here so much but since I've been there a couple times, I know what its like, I know what Im missing out on. I just dream about life there and how much diff. it would be and how much more good things would have happend to me if I was there and I wish that I wouldn't have ever lived here and I wish that my parents would have lived in California, but they dont. Im here. Thats all thats 2 it. But im gonna get there soon though, someday. Next year I hope.

Thats really all I have to say. Im sad the seniors are leavin :(

yep.

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