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2003 4 September :: 8.30 am
:: Mood: unwated
:: Music: finch- she burns
this this is the last time i will write to you
well i woke up at like 10 today and just lounged around the house...i went next door and played with the little kids for a little while
5 little kids tackled on me, it was interesting
then i had practice, im really sore and my coach is a fucking moron...i got my backhip circle down today tho, i was very excited and kept doing them till i got tierd haha
then i came home and took a shower and went to staples sam was there and i talked to him for a little bit :-/
a ton of people were there tho and i was about ready to kill my sister #$%^&
my dads being gay and he wont let me eat right now so i am about ready to go cannible and eat him hah
im starvingggg
all for now
im being stressed out and i hate my family
their all gay
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 4 September :: 8.54 am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: none
i bevlie in yesterday
im sick of this....
im sick of going to bed in tears
im sick of crying myself to sleep
im sick of being left out
im sick of being stuck at home becuz no one botherd to pick up the phone
im sick of being lonely
IM SICK OF ALL OF IT!!
it feels like all my friends have been stolen from me
ex. caity, angela etc. etc.
especially angela....
whenever the group of them gets together i never get a phone call or notice of whats going on...but its funny how kylie sumhow gets one?
i havent even talked to ang in like two weeks maybe? except online and those dont even really count....
ughhhhhhh god damn it this isnt fair
its like in the past week my life has gone down the tubes and sentenced to be dammed
leave me some to cheer me up, i have to go and try and help matt :-/ poor kid
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 3 September :: 11.43 am
:: Mood: working
:: Music: none
just random pics :)
thats me today on the first day of school
my mom me and then kylie
nate and josh, gotta love them!
i think my hair looks cool in this picture :) but it was from easter and i dont look the same ne more cuz its black underneath
oh well note me
<33 cassie*lou
ps. i know im not the prettiest thing you've ever seen so dont leave me hate notes telling me how ugly i am...
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2003 3 September :: 9.07 am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: matchbook romance-14 balloons
i pulled my utterus
girl 1: omg i ment to do a fly away but i did a sole circle
girl 2: that sucks maybe you should swing less next time
me to marissa: i can do a cast :)
hahahahaha
a fly away is where you do a straddle on the bar and "fly" away
a cast is where you just kinda bounce on the bar
i guess you have to be a gymnast to under stand
me: ahh my stomach hurts i think i pulled something
suong: maybe you pulled your utterus
i laugh
suong: i mean stomach muscle
tomarrow i have off...i am going to sleep and hopefully see sam?
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 3 September :: 8.23 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: matchbook romance- hollywood and vine
first day of school
i dont even know where to begin...
well my alarm clock didnt go off today but i still managed to wake up at 8....and caught the bus at 8:30..then met up with nicki and we went to homeroom
daves in my homeroom :) that kids awesome
we got our lockers and thank god i have the old ones cuz the newer ones are sooo confusing
and then we went to an assembly, and i ended up sitting between dave and ryan walker-grey
that was....fun?
me and dave passed notes and stuff most of the time and i ripped out parts of my planner and gave them to ryan and he made designs with them hahahaha
the english teacher seemed nice, ryans in that class with me along with jaimie and christy
then i had biology and that class sucks major balls....i dont like most of the people in that class :(
then its lunch and i sit with jen jaimie satin lindsi tracey mal and a bunch of guys...its soo funny all they do is make fun of people
then i have intro to occ. that class seems fun, mal and krystal are in it with me :)
then i have health, and its cool
i have alot of 9th graders in that class but its all good
then we ran through our block two sceduales....
i have global and it seems ok, beth sits in front of me and hillary sits behind me haha
then its gym...and it sucks,,, jess is in it tho so its all good...but friggen mary and cait some of the people i hate the most are in that class....ugh figures right?
then i have math and that class seems cool, ashley and satin and marissa burkett are in it with me so its all good
then i have french, i sit with jess and i hate it
she yelled at me for looking out the door today cuz some guy walked out of the girls bathroom and i was watching him ughhh
i was so glad to be done with school but then i had gymnastics practice, i think i did really well with vaulting today but my friggen beam routine sucks ass ahh i hate coach with a passion
i wish i killed her doing cartwheels on beam today while she was "spotting me" she fuckin hurt my waist by like pulling on it and making me fall >:-()
then my mom took me to get subway haha and i came home talked to sam and then took a shower and did my *gasp* homework
it was easy tho...i have to do my block two homework still...:-/
thats about it i think im done for now....
"i think i can lick my eyeball" LMAO MARISSA hahahahaha thats the most random thing ive ever said...
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 2 September :: 11.39 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: the drew carrey show
what happend to *us*
well today i had gymnastics practice....
i almost killed mr.suddaby doing back tucks on the trampoline..i like landed on him ahh it was horrible
and then i was like dying at practice i seriously think i have something wrong with me like my intestines blew up or soemthing...ahh it hurts so bad
i cant sleep right now...me and sam just got in another fight..ahh it was horrible and i bawlled my eyes out...:(
LoserkidBnb: im sorry for all this shit i put you through you probally wont execpt that but i am sorry, and i dont know why im acting like this but i just need you to trust me with whatever little trust you have of me ill try to stop this
LoserkidBnb: now i love you
LoserkidBnb: and im sorry
i dont no what to do, i love him so much and were just like falling apart, our 6th month is on september 12 if we make it to that...
well img onna try to go to sleep now
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 2 September :: 2.13 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: matchbook romance-the greatest fall of all time
promises we couldnt keep
ok well last night i ended up going to blockbuster and renting pretty in pink and harry potter 2 haha it was my dads idea
kylie slept over and watched them with me
and we talked to mYke on the phone for a long time shhh sneaky sneaky
my mom came in to tell me goodnight and she saw my backround on my computer (its matchbook romance) and she flipped out
mom: what the heck is that
me: what?
mom: get out of that
me: get out of what
mom: MATCHBOOK
me: yea what about it
mom: ROMANCE
me: mom are you ok
mom: MATCHBOOK ROMANCE CASSIE?!?!
me: mom its a band
mom: ohh i thought it was a dating service
me and kylie started laughing sooo hard
my mom and dad went out and got me a black zip up hoodie yesterday for my birthday :)
i was happy for a split second....
i have practice to day from 3-6..i dont wanna go freeze my butt off
oh yea
ITS TOMATO SOUP DAY
right ash? hahaha
<33 cassie*lou
ive got 14 balloons we can watch them take to the sky
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2003 1 September :: 7.58 am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: matchbook romance-14 balloons
rest assured im moving on
my boyfriend is a fucking stupid asshole....
of course he gets home from deleware today but does he call me? no...instead he called kylie..did he forget i exist or something?
another thing happy fucking labor day, the day where its always shitty weather >-o
oh yea id like to give a special thanks to angela for not comming over when the rest of her family did and instead going to rens house and no one even thought to call and invite me...cuz ya know im just cassie after all and i have oodles of fun at home doing nothing by myself
ahhh labor day sucks
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 1 September :: 12.10 am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: snow birds and townies- furthar seems forever
i feel like shit
link click*
yea thats my dad when i got bored... hes cool sometimes...i got bored and he let me give him a makeover...if you cant see the pic click on the link
murphy5532 (12:59:34 AM): well cas....im goin to bed...your like one of the coolest people to talk to haha sounds pathetic cus i dont even know you really but its true...too bad we dont live near each other cus we would party....but im out...im me some time...peace
^^ matt said that a while ago... were two peas in a pod him and I
<33 cassie*lou
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2003 31 August :: 11.05 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: The Early November- I want to hear you sad
No one knows for sure
well i just got home from the fair...i went with my family this time and we didnt really do anything...just walked around and looked at a bunch of stuff...and got butterfly fries yummmm....on the way home we almost hit a possum, it was the cuteset thing ever <33
thats about all did....
im in the shittiest mood ever, ive been reading some peoples live journals and woohu's and stuff...it just makes me sadder and sadder, comparing some peoples lives to mine just makes mine look horrible. They have soo much good stuff going for them. Great friends, Great times, Good families and basiclly everything that i could ever ask for in life and they say that they arent happy with it... god if i could just trade places with them id give anything...my life gets so sad/dull/depressing that i just want to crawl up in a shell and die THERE HAS TO BE MORE TO LIFE this summer could have been so much more fun that it was, i mean dont get me wrong ive had fun and stuff but half the time i was stuck at home because no one wanted to even pick up the phone and say "hey cass a bunch of us are getting together wanna come?" its always oh its just cassie its like im just there im taking forgranted i mean half the people that say they are my friends are prolly just saying that because they think they have to...i can fucking handle it if you dont like me, ya just have to tell me and ill dissapper.. its bull shit when people say they are your friend but dont really want to...or like some people have friends just so they have someone to hang out with when they are bored, or its always second best. im fucking sick and tierd of being second pick...its bullshit....and people wonder why i fucking act the way i do...they say "oh its just a cry for attention get over it" ever think that i may be acting the way i FEEL... its not like im gonna fake being happy to please others....and then theres this bullshit that i am trying to be like others....i have my own style and my own choices, why the fuck would i want to be just like someone else, i mean yea, they have some stuff that i want, good friends, nice clothes cool gadgets etc. etc. but i mean its not like i can get all that stuff by trying to be like them....arghhh people piss me off
and then theres the type of people that give me shit for how i act/dress/and the kind of music i listen too....
NEWSFLASH:
IVE CHANGED/IM CHANGING AND NO ONE CAN FUCKING STOP ME
you cant control wha ti like and what i dont....so im into a different kind of style, so i wear alot of dark clothes, and so what if i listen to alot of emo...am i gonna give you shit about what you do? Do i? no i didnt this so...im fuckin sick of this oh cassies emo now what a poser shit....so i used to be one of those YAY RAP! people...ive changed..ITS NOT LIKE ITS ILLEAGAL some of these people now are freaking acting like the old people that sit in the back of the church and dont want anything to ever chagnge...its bullshit....
ok i think im done venting for now...
THIS IS ME if you dont like it fuck off and leave me the hell alone...ill do what i want when i want...i dont have a lable im just CASSIE and its bullshit if you wanna catagorize me
<33 cassie*lou
love you sam
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2003 31 August :: 6.11 pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Story Of The Year- the hero will drown
jaded stupid and wreckless
Which Donnie Darko character are you? by Shay
i slept like a motherfucking bear in hybernation today...
i went to bed at like 12:30 last night woke up at 6:30
then slept for 2 hours in the car at church
then i slept the whole time my mom was in the grocery store which was like 45 minutes
then i slept from about noon to 5:30
im gonna be like an insomniac tonight :(
freaking a it figures and i need my sleep for tomarroww
on another note
SCHOOL STARTS ON WEDNESDAY
im sooooo nervous if that even beginns to describe my feelings
ahhhh i dont wanna gooooo
all for now
<33 Cassie*Lou
sams comming home tomarrowww :)
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2003 30 August :: 10.25 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: finch- letters to you
make yourself at home
well last night i slept over at kylies (surprise surprise) we were very hyper indeed and everything we said we laughed about...
then mike ended up breaking up with her and after he said "fuck off i hope you die"
where the hell did he get this hostility from?!?!
then she got all sad and i gave her d d dunk a roos to make her hhhappy haha
::i burp:: me: GOD I LOVE THAT!!!
haha kylie
we had fun last night
i left around 2ish and then came home and downlodaed a bunch of music and such...
then i went to the mall and got some jeans and new underware omg their awesome haha
i hung out with laura for a bit then met back up with my mom and my sister then we ate and went to target and got a bunch of stuff...
omg there was a bat in target and it was the funniest thing i ever saw...the guy was trying to get it out with a tennis raquett LMAO
umm i am very bored,,,, all for now
<33 cassie*lou
Cheer Up Emo Kid
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2003 29 August :: 9.20 pm
:: Mood: sick and silly
:: Music: this freakin awesome song margaret sent me
today ive changed to late cuz everything feels the same
last night i had a dream that angela died...and i woke up crying...it was horrible
umm i went swimming with the little kids
and didnt go to practice cuz my allergies were horrible and i couldnt see out of one eye
dorkxandxproud: whose <33 sam
prEtty 1n p1nk06: samuel johns wright
dorkxandxproud: who the fuck
dorkxandxproud: ????
dorkxandxproud: your seeing someone else!
dorkxandxproud: WHY
dorkxandxproud: I LOVED YOU
prEtty 1n p1nk06: if you saw him you'd know him
prEtty 1n p1nk06: haha
dorkxandxproud: you dating sam wright!?
prEtty 1n p1nk06: yes
prEtty 1n p1nk06: have been
dorkxandxproud: i thought it say samuel jackson
dorkxandxproud: for some reason
dorkxandxproud: hahahahaha
prEtty 1n p1nk06: 6 months on september 12th
dorkxandxproud: you are?
dorkxandxproud: really!
dorkxandxproud: ahhh
prEtty 1n p1nk06: ?
dorkxandxproud: isnt he really shrort?
prEtty 1n p1nk06: haha yes
prEtty 1n p1nk06: verrryyy short
dorkxandxproud: he was little sammy
dorkxandxproud: for drama club
prEtty 1n p1nk06: haha yes
dorkxandxproud: ahh thats so cool
<33 leave me notesss
-cassie*lou-
sams comming home monday :( i love you sammmmm
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2003 29 August :: 7.04 pm
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2003 29 August :: 6.42 pm
jhonny depp, booya monkey lickers :-p
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2003 29 August :: 2.56 pm
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2003 29 August :: 12.05 pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: dashboard confessional
dont wake daddy!
ok so yesterday i had pictures for gymnastics, then i had a hardcore conditioning practice for an hour
we had to run up and down the bleachers and then do sprints and then do pushups and crunches AND THEN do handstand things...me and margaret cheated on the handstands cuz i suck at them and we were tierd
then i get home and i was all ready to go back to sleep cuz i got up at 8:30 but this kid IMed me and i wanted to talk to him....
so then at like 11:15 i decided i needed sleep so i was in bed and then i had to pee...
so i go and come back and check my messages and sams on...except he said he wasnt gonna be home till SUNDAY :(
well then i went to sleep till about three when my dad freaked out on me for nothing
so i decided to take a shower and get ready and all that stuff....
when my mommy came home she talked to my dad about waking me up when i have headaches cuz they get really bad and then she took me to TJ-MAXX to get some shirts. I got a longsleve roxy shirt and a black kinda baseball tee that had goldfish for sale 25 cents on the front, it was so cuteee <33
and then we did some shopping for my sister and i picked out some cool stuff for her and she liked them all but freaked out cuz I picked them out...god shes weird
then at dinner my dad put sausage in mine and i didnt figure it out until halfway through
i thought i was gonna be sick blah
so i yelled at him cuz he knows im a vegitarien@##$%^&*
then i came upstairs and chillaxed for a while watched tv and talked to matt and his girlfriend leah...shes cool we had like a 20 minute conversation about hair hahaha
then i go to bed and i woke up at 6:30 this morning from a bad dream...i dreamt that angela died...i woke up crying and i wasnt sure if it happend or not and i was like NOOOOOOOOOO hahaha and i went and talked to my mom cuz she was getting up to go to work and she said it didnt happen so i went back to bed and here i am i just woke up and im bored as hell
My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me
So wont you kill me? So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury, or wear as jewlery
Whichever you prefer....
<33 cassie*lou
i love you sam cant wait till you come homee
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2003 28 August :: 11.54 am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: tv
aww man
Sams not gonna be back until sunday someone kill me now.
LoserkidBnb (11:39:19 AM): let me guess your not here
Auto response from prEtty 1n p1nk06 (11:39:19 AM): today i woke up mising you another day goes by alone
tierd....be back never
-cassie*lou-
thank you ashley ;-)
LoserkidBnb (11:40:10 AM): well ill be back sunday
LoserkidBnb (11:40:20 AM): hope to see you soon i miss you
so that means 3 days :(
oh well i love you and miss you tons sam
<33 cassie*lou
leave a message after the....
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2003 27 August :: 10.23 pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: television
im soooreeee
i woke up cuz my uncle and his new wife stopped by and wanted to see me and sarah... then i just was lazy around the house till about 5...
then i got ready for gymnastics and went to subway cuz my mom was kinda in a hurry
it figures the one day i need to get there early
an old lady was ahead of me and a mentaly disabled person was serving them AND THEN THE OLD LADY WHPPED OUT HER PENNIES WHEN IT WAS TIME TO PAY ughhh
gymnastics i didnt really do anything, me margaret and soung were kinda just pretending haha but conditioning was hardcore, stupid pushups >=o
ummm joan picked me up and then i came home and im laying in bed doing nothing...so im gonna watch tv then go to bed...
leave luvv
<33 cassie*lou
oh yea while i was gone sam was on and he left me a message
LoserkidBnb: ehh well i love you and miss you and cant wait to get home
ahh i love you sooooo much sam, cant wait till you get home :-*
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