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2004 29 May :: 11.06am
Wow..when is my sister going to grow up. I'm guessing around mid thirties...
I can not wait until summer. As soon as school is out it will be phase one of rebuliding myself...mentally, physically, emotionally. It's just something that needs to be done and I've always just put it aside so why not do it now?
I'm also going to be redoing my room which will take probably forever since I have so much shit but I'll be happy when its done. I'm going for a pretty pink sparkly royalty type of theme lol Hey I can't help it..that is my sanctuary..it needs to be glamorous. I want to find art to hang in my room. I forget where I was but I saw this painting of a Vogue magazine cover from the early 70s maybe..hm. I think I'm going to get a hot pink satin bedspread at Pottery Barn. Sexxxyy oh yeah lol. Carinna, you're coming over to help me paint when that time comes. I'm going to be painting my funature too..not sure what color yet. light pink..probably Colors will probably be like light pink, dark pink. silver, black..I'm not sure... It's not going to look kidish it will be...Hot. lol Trust me.
Today I plan to spend doing nothing since it's my last day of freedom. Tomorrow I'm going to try to get out of a wedding shower so I can make Sunday and Monday my study days.
Later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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klayman
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2004 28 May :: 10.16pm
Its nights like these that keep us alive
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 28 May :: 9.42pm
hehe fire at my house tonight..it's a neighborhood thing..
I'm only in to eat my pizza real quick and to watch alittle friday night stand up
later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 28 May :: 7.18pm
:: Music: Seether f. Amy Lee- Broken
Eh, I don't know if I want to do anything this weekend....There could be alot of hanging out this summer.. I'm avoiding studying...I need to though.
My mom is being a bitch as usual. Sometime's I want to know what she thinks just so I can know why she has a huge ego...fucker.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 28 May :: 4.04pm
:: Music: Velvet Revolver- Slither
Another thought
I stumbled upon the band Velvet Revolver and liked their music video for Slither...felt bad for thinking the blonde guitarist and lead singer was hot because they are probably in their 40s. It was like I was trying to look at porn, looking around my room to see if anyone was looking..that's how I felt lol.
So I downloaded the song..... lol
Also saw the video for Broken of the Punisher soundtrack. Good music video Seether and Amy Lee make a good mix. Seether is hot in a dirty band playing at a local club way..hmm. mmm
Well, today all I accomplished was the cleaning of my room. I should vaccum...eh later. Maybe tomorrow..or maybe I'll wait till Monday.
I ABSOLUTELY HAVE to study thou sometime within this period of 4 days..
Later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 27 May :: 10.55pm
Graduation was gay. I have a headache.. I saw kyle. He gave me the claw.
Boring..
later.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 27 May :: 3.32pm
ERgh...
Graduation night...I still don't want to go. We're (Mom, Dad, Me) meeting up with my Gparents from Battle Creek at Logan's. I still haven't decided if I like that place or not yet...heh..
I'll probably find Carinna and go sit with her family to be honest with you lol. God I hate my grandparents...especially when they arent't giving me money. I need shopping money..Maybe I'll bring that up. "heyyyy granddmmaaa I don't have any money to buy clothes.. I had to wear the same pair of underwear for 4 days in a row.." That might work but I'd start gagging at the thought of me sinking down that low in personal hygine lol Even just for a joke...
Anyways, I should get going I have to help Ash get ready or get myself ready....
Later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 26 May :: 3.10pm
Cookies always taste better microwaved for 20 seconds....
Today was decent. I payed this guy in my Design class to go up to Ms.Kent and be like "Hey what are you doing this weekend?" None the less, it was funny. Almost peed.
That was about it really...When I was walking out of the school to wait for Ashley to pick me up Jimmy was walking behind me and singing "Amy's the biggest faggot" lol Wow...Jimmy you're cool. haha all jokes.
Tomorrow is Thursday. My gma and gpa are coming up here for the graduation. Ergh, I honestly don't want to go. I'm ready for my Memorial Day weekend.
I better go, watching peoples court and fresh prince...gulity pleasures. haha
Later
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 25 May :: 9.48pm
:: Music: Finger Eleven- Broken Words
New woohu..new summer
Well, I thought about being "cool" like everyone else and deleting my woohu and starting from scratch but...no.. I'd be robbing myself from memories..good and bad and I don't think I'm ready for that. I'm not down for throwing away like almost 3 years of just nonsense...
Anyways. I like this look I have now. It's very summer-y. My computer is going crazy though so I'm not on aim at the moment.. ergh. I still have math homework to finish and I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
Ashley's graduation is Thursday. It's crazy to think that will be me in 3 years. It has come faster than maybe I wanted it to. I'll have no regrets in the end if those years fly by.
I have a bad feeling about this summer though :-/
Anyways...
Zach if you still read this thing, HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND?!?!?!! lol
Later.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 25 May :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: blank
Ergh...
2 more days.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 24 May :: 8.47pm
*dancing in the strobelights*
corbin" dude, you just put your fingers in my mouth"
alex: "oh im sorry, i thought you were a chair"
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 24 May :: 7.19pm
:: Music: Finger Eleven-Stay in Shadow
Hmm..
Maybe all the years of being ignored and not being noticed will pay off...Or maybe I should look at it now as a privilage instead of something bad....hmm..Put it this way..I can get away with more..Like I have. Hey, I'd still be drinking if it wasn't for Ashley. The funny thing is that they would have never known. How stupid are they, mainly my mom. As long as I got the shelter and money I could live without seeing either of them for a long time. Then when I think about 3 years until graduation it puts a smile on my face. The day will come when I can say "Fuck you" to them....Oh quite possibly sooner than expected. My patience is becoming smaller with time.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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klayman
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2004 23 May :: 9.37pm
:: Music: Between the buried and me
These hours seem like years...I've been staring at this wall, wondering
when it's going to take all of our lives. I'm just glad we have jokes. I
think way too much back here. My eyes are slowly closing; boredom is
causing this loss of interest. When will I awake? Asleep...
This party of four includes three grown adults and myself. The first
adult is very shy and wise enough to keep the second one from
conversation. (They're on a mission). Gender is not recognized. The
third adult is a male and talks too much. The stench of shit is in the
air...
The room storms with laughter...fours turns into a hundred and the noise
is unbearable. "It's time, you are in hell, this place will kill itself
soon!"
I cry, and the hands surround me. Born into a hell...
I never wanted to wake to this. I hae experienced nothing, yet I feel I'm
the only one who has not done harm. If only I could understand how to
change things...I can't fucking think. The noise is unbearable. THE
noise STOPS.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 23 May :: 2.30pm
Yay
I feel remodivated to redo my room..
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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