Then The Lightning Strikes...

:: 2012 21 August :: 11.42pm

a few people are doing "in memory of andy" stickers....

My testament to my friend is buying a fucking camaro...

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rayray

:: 2012 17 August :: 6.21am

My kid won't nap. And some people might think that, that is no big deal. But you've probably Never met Reagan. She is a major crab without a nap. She is sleep deprived and has been since she was about 4 months old. Her dad is no help with that. He contradicts everything I say or do.. She hasn't napped since Tuesday. And that wasn't a very long nap. Maybe a 20 mile drive. Wednesday, she fought it for 4 hours, and screamed bloody murder for 2.5 hours. I am seriously going insane. She doesn't ever let me do anything. Other than watch cartoons with her. I'm to the point where I'm ready to send her to day care just so I don't have to deal with nap time... But I would feel super Shitty about dumping her off on someone else when she wont go to sleep on her own.

And complaining and being this frustrated with her makes me feel like a Shitty mom and a Shitty person. Which just makes me cry along with her.

spud	:: 2012 22 July :: 12.04pm Set to the tune of happy fucking birthday: Happy hump day to me, Happy hump day to me, At least I'll have Wednesday And Thursday to sleep. 1 left me one! \| Leave me one?

:: 2012 18 July :: 7.20pm

5 months for me and jordan today :) Think I finally found a keeper. Passed my boards and officially a nurse. I had a really good interview at holland home can't wait to start my nursing career. On vacation this week, shadow is loving camping life. Feels so good to be on the water everyday and nice that its so close to jordans work so seeing him everyday :)

:: 2012 4 July :: 1.59am

sometimes i'm just so angry...

:: 2012 29 June :: 6.29pm

Things are going great. Taking my boards next week, nervous and excited all at the same time. So ready to start a new job. Things with Jordan are still going strong were moving in together the 1st weekend of august. I cant wait :)

:: 2012 19 June :: 11.02pm

ugggh, i hate depression.

:: 2012 19 June :: 1.22am

sometimes i don't know the next road to take.

:: 2012 14 June :: 1.28pm

my woohu is more than 10 years old, thanks andy.

:: 2012 24 May :: 4.45pm

Two more classes left then I graduate, so happy it is finally here. So ready for Jordan to come home, sucks only having him for weekends.

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:: 2012 9 May :: 6.44pm

Loving life! 10 more class days then I'm done with school! Cant wait! So ready to have a summer free of school. Things are still going great with Jordan, cant wait to start living together. Even though we pretty much already are now. Shadow just keeps getting bigger, learned how to swim in deep water yesterday so proud. Other then that just happy with my life right now :)

:: 2012 25 April :: 5.13pm

Life
Things are going great, almost a month left till I graduate. I cant wait. Me and Jordan are doing great. We plan on moving in together between july/august. Pretty much already living together with how much time we spend together. Started biggiest loser again, so ready for the wt to fall off by summer. Shadow is getting huge, already 42 pounds. House projects are coming along, going to be finishing the basement soon and making it in to a fun room or as jordan calls it his " man cave". Disc golf league started and softball will be soon, love summer.

tuwang

:: 2012 26 March :: 1.31pm

strange argument last night.

Over the smallest thing too. Not really relationship-ending by any stretch of the imagination, but strange.

Did pass that dreaded 6 month mark, which may seem like nothing to you, but means a lot to me for many reasons. So here's to that.

:: 2012 20 March :: 8.50pm

Happiest I have been in a long time :)

eddy

:: 2012 3 March :: 1.23am

Holy shit, woohu. How ya been?!

Going through some friends' posts. Really wish woohu had a 'like' button, and also disappointed with myself for being that ingrained with facebook.

I feel like I had more to add here....perhaps not. I'm terrible with updates, even on facebook people post pointless little trivial updates sometimes every minute, and I can't seem to post one update to even sum up my week. But from what I hear people prefer that? Nah, people talk shit but they know they love the facebook. I think they shoulda kept the 'the'.

And now I'm just rambling because it's almost 3 am and I shouldn't be conscious right now. So I will stop.

Now.

Night. =]

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rayray

:: 2012 29 February :: 3.13pm

Its been almost 2 month since Darielle has been over. She has barely said anything to Mike. I only saw her long enough to drop money of to her at school (for her mom because she forgot to give it to her before school and her mom was in the hospital having surgery) and tell her I deserve an apology. Mike saw her long enough to pick her up from school and take her home because her mom was at one of the other kids sporting events. She has asked Mike to bring her food at school and he probably would have if I hadn't been home. She told him her trip money was due in March and he told her that her attitude adjustment and better grades were due a long time ago.

I feel guilty because she hates me so that is ruining her relationship with Mike and Reagan. And it breaks my heart that she hasn't even asked about Reagan. It probably makes me seem really petty that I am really upset and hurt that she never says one thing about Reagan on facebook and on the rare occasion she has, she deletes it before too many people see it. Yet she posts tons of things about her nieces and nephews.

I can't help but think she is ashamed of Reagan and hates her or resents her. What the hell am I supposed to say to Reagan when she is older and asks where her sister is? I'm not going to lie to her but I definitely dont want to break her heart.

I want to punch someone in the face.

:: 2012 27 February :: 7.08am

I'm sitting here on my bed.... wearing socks....

:: 2012 19 February :: 11.31pm

}ust when you give up something great comes along :)

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rayray

:: 2012 19 February :: 8.28pm

I will no longer have a relationship with my mother.
I have had all I can take.
Apparently I am the only one of her kids who didn't turn out..

Fuck her. She can't even come over to see her granddaughter. She drops Reagan's gifts off at my sisters, and sends me a text telling me i can go pick them up. Really? That's fucking ridiculous.

I have turned out better than I should have considering she was my influence.

I am DONE!

:: 2012 12 February :: 7.54pm

Reading my woohu journal shows me how much I have grown as a person. Funny how much my friend group has changed. I guess were all growing up differently some good and some bad. I will always remember the good times though. So excited for what this year will bring.