:: 2004 14 March :: 11.19 am

SHIT AS ALWAYS
you people don't know fucking shit about my life, and the stupid gay ass slim fast joke is getting fucking old, it's not kool.


Okay, if you are soo interested in me then why don't you write a book about me, here i'll give you all the grusome details...

My mom is a drug attict and she left me when I was 5, I go through alot of shit with it to, I've been to counselling and all that shit to get over it, and I still haven't. She lies to me, and breaks promises, and cons money off of me and my dad for dug and beer money, and then she lies and says she bought stuff for us.

I've been teased ever scinc I moved to the shit ass town, 1st grade up untill now. And themoo cow thing is getting old, and so is that fucking slimfast thing, eh em, people don't fucking drink that shit anymore, I'de think of something new here people!

I get sick easily because I have asthma. and i can't run as fast as everone else, or do as much b.c. then I get sick, or can't breath.

Yeah so what if I live with my dad and my grandma?
yeah so what if I am like my mom and look like her?
Yeah so what if I am dramatic, so Is everyone else, it's called life.

And yes Vanessa, I do know what a life is, b.c. I have one, everyone does, people just say they don't because they are jelous that some people's is better then thiers.

And, I may not be cool like some people, and I may not be sluts like some people. But the things I do know is that never trust someone, unless you have known them long enough, or unless u feel like u really can.

And I don't make up people Vanessa, your just jelous that I can get someone cuter then you can. Wait...

Why am I even wasting fucking space writting about your fat ass mouth and remarks,
because...
they
don't
mean
SHIT!

So I hope you burn in hell, b.c. I don't care about what happens to you, or anyother of your little Vanessa possies, b.c. people that follow in your footsteps, really need mental help....

Oh, and the next time you look at one of my journal entries, make sure to look at the date, b.c. It does matter, when i wrote that entrie that your mad about, it was when we were in a fight, learn to read asswhipe, maybe then ya'll learn better and how to keep your fucking mouth shut, oh and the next time you have soemthing to say,




SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE AND NOT TO SOME IDIOTIC FUCKING ASS JOURNAL OF MINE!

Oh, and if you don't like me like you say you don't, then stop finding out what the fucking is going on in my life, then you might realise something,

"oh wow, I finally realised, why am i wasting time getting into her life, when I should be wasting my time shoveing my fat ass hand up my own ass, I mean b.c. I have a dick as can't shove anything up there. " - Vanessa

Love
always
and
forever


Megz

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:: 2004 13 March :: 7.54 pm

everything gone wrong....
Everything:
Perfect:

GOD I HATE THE FUCKING ASS GOD DANM WORDS!!!! ERrRrRrRrRrRrRrR!!!!!

Tomorow my grandma leaves for a week, and then I'm gonna go to my grandpa's.... and then Ian and his cuzin migt comeover for a little bit, atleast I know that Ian's always there for me, that poopy bum though rarely ever talks to me, but I still love him like a brother, b.c. he is my brother! YAY!!! lol,,, I love Missy and Amber too!!! My one and only true blood sisters! HeeHee

So yeah, but still, I feel as if everything around me is GREAT, but everything with me is, blah... errrrr

well gotta go,,,,

love
always
and
forever

Megz

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:: 2004 13 March :: 7.32 pm

I don't know what's wrong with me. It just seems like everyone has forgot about me, like I'm not wanted. I mean, am I really that hated by everyone like I think I am, or am I just going through a phase? But I hope not. I mean lately I've felt like shit, but things having been having thier ups in my life! but my body feels like shit, and I must be fat like everyone is saying, I dunno, I think I need a break from it all... I think I might run AWAY!

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:: 2004 8 March :: 10.49 am

CHELSIE AND I ARE FRIENDS AGAIn!! YES! YAY!!!!1

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:: 2004 5 March :: 8.05 pm

Chelsie... remember all these?

From Chelsie, to megz...

AWWE MEGZ PLEZ PLEZ PLEZ lipgloss wont help hunn it wont help at all trust me on this one i luvv ya thing 1 !!!

*ThInG 2*


WHY WHY WHY WHY DO U HATE LIFE ?!?!?!?!?!?! MEGAN U ARE PRETTY AND I LUVV UR HAIR MOMMY PLEZ DONT DIE I ALREADY HAV JILLIMS DIEIN :'( I LUVV U



hey i luvv u too!!!!
o yea and i kno what u mean bout the grace thing shes been makin me feel bad bout myself lately



(Fevorite one) hey hun i care bout u :) u kno that dont forget about me

paul said no to megz hes a loser he doesnt see wht a great grl megz is

me n megz are friends again im soo happy i dont kno what id do wit out her i was so sad after we got in that fight

im really srry megz i luvv u thing 1 and thing 2 forevr



From megz to Chelsie~~~

atleast.... Chelsie is happy!


I starting crying after you signed off... I couldn't believe that you said that... but I was being mean to... you probley do kno what it's like... but I love you and miss you so..... much!!!!!! lol... even though u are down the hall!!!! LOL!!! well... lyl... see ya at lunch!

Chelsie, I love you more then anything else in the world!


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Remeber all the fun times? With gummiebears and bitting thier heads off? lol,a nd then walking to school in the cold?

See Chelsie, I know I made mistakes at your party, and I need your help more then you would ever think, and I...

I'm sorry....
I love you, and I really do, please, don't keep being mad at me, I made a mistake, and believe me I have payed,

I miss you...

Love always and forever (even if you don't want to) Megz...

*I can buy you gummie bears, lol!*

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:: 2004 5 March :: 8.00 pm
:: Music: until the day I die

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:: 2004 4 March :: 9.01 am

Yeah, today I guess u could say was bed, mianly this week, Chelsie and David are going through a crisis, and then, this morning I went to say sorry to Chelsie and she was just like, get the fuck away from me, i HATE YOU! and yeah, that ruined most of my day....

And the worst part...

Nobody knows that my mom is dying...

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:: 2004 3 March :: 4.20 pm
:: Music: Amber

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:: 2004 2 March :: 9.12 am

Well lately I have been having a bad time with my friends. Like Andria and Chelsie and Missy. And yeah... I also think Paul is avoding me.

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:: 2004 29 February :: 7.40 pm

Chelsie's party...
Got lotz of stuff to say....

Chelsi'es party was the BEST!

Okay...
A- Chelsie, I wasn't being over dramatic... I was crying b.c. I made a mistake... I didn't know that Megan still liked Eric and that's why I dared Kathryn... and then I made a mistake and Jenny forgave me... I shouldn't have Kissed Eric... and that was wrong... so sorry if I seemed over dramatic... but I usually don't think b4 I act and I need to start doing that... so sorry...

C- Andria and Daniel are going out! I really do think that they are a cute!!1 HEEHee
D- I saved Vanessa and Brett's LIFE!
E- I really do think Chelsie hates me now...
F- MY DAD IS LETTING ME HAVE AN END OF THE SCHOOL YEAR/ BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

g2g lyl xoxo Megz

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:: 2004 24 February :: 10.44 am

yeah... well riht now I am bored!!! TO DEATH!!! Yawn! Yeah... soon I better go... but I LOVE YOU ALL!

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:: 2004 22 February :: 6.38 pm

Happy Birthday Chelsie!

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:: 2004 21 February :: 9.48 am

life and how we live it...
This is my life... and this is how i'm gonna live it...

Vanessa can go suck fucking cock for makign me ALWAYZ feel like shit b.c. everytime I get happy... she has to bring me down with some fucking line about my clothes... like...

"Megan needs to throw away all her clothes b.c. fat people don't look good in skinny peoples clothes..." - Really said by her!
errrr I want to tear her apart and burn her...

And then I heard that Paul agreed with her and then I wasn't talking to him untill yesturday... When he told me he didnt... so i said sorry... and now we are friends again!!!!

My bottom eye lid keeps twitching... OH NO!!!! IMMA GONNA DIE!!! AHHHH!!!

Last night I went through a breakdown b.c. of all this stuff... Yeah... Vanessa uninvited David to her party... and invited IAN instead.. of all the people out there... she chose the BIIGGEST jack ass....

I CAN'T WAIT untill March 24th b.c. Paige comes to school with me.. YAY!!!

Love alwayz... the bottom eyelid twitcher...

Megz

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:: 2004 19 February :: 8.28 pm

I'm Sick and Tired of everyone talking about me behind my back... and im sick of people saying theya re my friends when they aren't... :-( *tears*

I keep on going through these breakdowns b.c. I can't trust anyone anymore... I really can't and that make me feel even mroe like shit.... and Kelly is pregnate again!

Kelly... please... dont get an abortion.... keep this baby... I love you so friggen much... I will help babysit!

Vanessa... The next fuckign think you say behind my back... get ready to be slapped... b.c. I hate it when people do that... same to you to Brett....

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:: 2004 18 February :: 4.34 pm

Why does everything have to happen to me?? Like the thing with people and yeah...

I'm friends with Erica again! :-D

My grades: :-(

Science- Mr.Jolly just says it's *good*
Math-B
History-B
Tech-A
Chior-B
Spanish-B+
English-D- But I am getting it up <>

yeah... and Danie and I said our appoliges... and Kelly is pregnate (Again :-/) and I am still going through alot of stuff that I can't handle...... EERRRRGGGGGG!!!!!!!

lyl

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