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2004 21 March :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: sore
People change and forget to tell us..
Wow today was eventful..hung out wif my baby most of the day..that was lots of fun!! And then rents get into it and both of em leave and i guess neither is coming home today or 2marro. Damn aint taht a shame =p
Talked plenty wif brittany today, that was fun as always * luv you babes* and chelsie..and korse my baby Ali jean!! Ya know these days im starting to realize how friggin blessed i am..my friends are the best and i luv you all!!
I am going to get going James is surposed to be coming over in a bit..he said i sounded upset on the phone and he needs to come over to make sure im okay..haha nice excuse big boy =p hah..gosh i wish i could talk to Britty on the phone sometime..but no she never answers or i can never call her..either way we dont talk anymores..oh wells!! I hope her n whats his face are okay now..well im gonig to go!!
I luv you all soo soo much!!
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2004 20 March :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: upset
`if i was with yOu nOw
ugggh
thursday.. my birthday =]
had a lil party .. [ if i didnt invite u im sorry it was xtremly last minute ] .. kimmy ,sarah, marissa, jay, ryan, nick, mark, josh, daniela , felicia , daniel , stephen , carissa , kaela, stephanie , cassandra, chris, lindsey darren, jamie .. all went .. it was pretty funn.. kinda krazy lol.. we broke my couch, the applesauce jar , my canopy thang n 3 bowls lol.. n than carissa, cassandra , kaela, sarah, marissa , stephanie , n fefe spent the night =] .. every left round 4iish n i slept the rest of the day lol..
today i cleaned & than i was soposed to go bowling w/ daniela n jay but jay;s mom couldnt drive me .. so i told him to jus go or come over here .. n he went bowling .. n than nick never called me back n now hes there n bein all stupid. n sayin its my fault ii didnt go n they are all havin fun... n im sittin by myself . i gave jay permission to ditch me but i didnt think he would really leave me... i had american weddin in the dvd player all readii cuz i thought he was comin over =/
o well its all gOod i love him sOo much and its realliie not his fault...but yea i called them n than josh is lyk why arent u here im lyk cuhz jay dithed me n than jay got on the phone n told me i ruined his night by not going....i was freakin all ready to go and than his mom couldnt take me and he knows i couldnt go cuz my mom cant fuckin drive w/ her hurt arm.
so yea i ruined everyones night.
everything wOuld be Okay
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2004 20 March :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: flirty
Anytime you need me..im already there
Awwe..i just had to tell Mikey boo that i got a bf..yeah that wasnt too easy =/ But oh wells its over now..but omg hes the sweetest lil boy ever!! I luv him soo much too!! This is what he said after i told him..
SupraDude5: ya well thats ummm....kool
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: yeah..i knew i wouldnt be able to stay single long:-P but why you say it like that..likei ts really a bad thing..
SupraDude5: i mean i am happy for ya and all that but if someone hurts you i am gonna turn mideval on there ass!!!!!
SupraDude5: cuz ur to nice for someone to hurt you
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: awwe babes..your soo sweet!! I luv you!!:-D
SupraDude5: i luv you to
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: i always have n always will:-*
SupraDude5: same to you
SupraDude5: :-*
xSwEetoXoKiSseSx: hehe your the best babes:-)
SupraDude5: u r to
SupraDude5: i don't want anybody to hurt you
SupraDude5: i don't care how old they are
Awwe isnt he the sweetie guy!! hehe i feel soo loved!! Dont wrry James its nothing like that were just good friends!! =p
James i luv you more than anything in the whole world!!
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2004 19 March :: 8.22pm
I wouldnt trade you for anything baby
SilentLoVe87: Jill I do love you, your not only my girlfriend, but my best friend. Please do not take that away from me!!!!
SilentLoVe87:I want you to be the girl that I marry, the one to have my children. I want you to be the one i hold in my arms every night until the day i die. You just have to have faith in me that i wont hurt you. Baby girl I love you!!!
James baby i luv you soo much and i never want to lose you!! Your the BEST guy out there, i couldnt imagine life without you!! :-*
yeah that was in my info..but ya'll knw how i dont like to show off guys in my info..so ima shw it off here =p
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2004 19 March :: 7.59pm
Time will change your mind..
Well lets see here today..was actually friggin fun!! German day at U of M was soo fun!! Wow, i love Derek, and Emily, and Erik, and Tyler..thier all fuckin soo funny and fun!! We all sould get together again!!
I need to talk to someone, before i seriously go nuts!! Urgh everyone has thier own fucking problems, i called everyoen today..tried to get outta the house but then Josh's gf is staying the night *wif me* haha yeah but were not even really friends..oh wells..I called Brandy and talked to her for a bit, but ya know her and her boyfriend of 2 years broke up tonight so yeah she had some problems so i had to help her and comfort her ya know..when really i need some fuckin comforting too..im not complaining because i will always be here for her i luv that gurl but ya know i need someone to talk to too =(
Oh well..no big deal i guess..well ima get going..nobody is online because every1 is at riot..where i sould be and was going to be until my fucking mom had to go to the hospital!!! Urgh..shes prolly sick because shes prolly fucking having pill withdrawls..and needs more!! I fucking hate her!! I hope she is sick and gets something HORRIBLE!!
Well bye..love..me!!
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2004 18 March :: 2.19pm
yay
xBoOtyBaLLaX69: HAPPY FUCKIN BIRTHDAY MY BABI BRITT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UFLArocks: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEXI SUGA MAMA CUPCAKE!!!!
So Cal 1449: HAPPY MUTHA' FUCKING BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!!!!
Naer2003: happy birthday
sweetheart91824: happy b-day
JsBrattyGirl05 HAPPY BIRTHDAY
SwEeTnCuTeDC: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITT!!
KiMmYLiKeWhOa7: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANY WOOOO!
KiMmYLiKeWhOa7: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUCK MY DICK LOL
COBIA69: HAPPY B-DAY BRIT
RiEsEsPiEcEs116: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
MoOsEyDoOm080: HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MoOsEyDoOm080: THIIIIIIIIS IIIIIIS YOOOOUR BIRTHDAY SONG IT ISNT VERY LONG, HEY!
PRiMoSkHaTer69: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANY!
XXTiKi iNnXx69: happy birthday (again)
i feel loved
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2004 18 March :: 12.03pm
:: Mood: confused
Its more than you'll ever know..
Well today was rather horrible..i started bawling my eyes out in gym class..i refused to do a carthwhell..last time i did one i broke my arm and it was really bad so i wont even try to do one ever again. So yeah mcdowell yelled at me and told me to go sit out but then i talked to natalie and she talked to him and then we talked and now things are okay and he wont make me do them..but he wants me to try..i guess..Im scared to death to do cartwhells..=(
Then i was walking outta like gym and i was walking past arkinsons room and i went to say into her room and say hey but then i saw kyndra in there to drop off my paper she had to give me so that i can leave wif her on tuesdays to go to counsling..and yeah i freaked and like walked out but christan saw me and said hey so i had to go back in..that was odd..i hate her i dont wanna talk to her anymore.. ='( Except i need to talk to her..urgh i dont know wat to do ='(
I seriosuly was like soo fucking close to killing myself last nite it wasnt even rite!! Urgh im soo sick of everything..but neways
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANY MARIE GAMESTER!! I LUV YOU MORE THAN ANYHTING IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!
I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY AND EVERYTHING GOES GREAT FOR YOU!! YOUR THE BEST EVER..NEVER FORGET THAT!!
Love always..Jilly!! ='(
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2004 18 March :: 10.47am
Today is my fcukin' birthday
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2004 17 March :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: crushed
Up..and..down..up..and..down..
Seriously everything for me for a while there was soo UP^^^^!! Now..today..and yesterday..yesterday it started..i feel like i seriously just want to die..i wish i could.. =(
If only i had the courage or WHATEVER it is to kill myself..i would seriously be the happiest person!! I fuckin hate life..i hate ppl..i hate teachers..i hate skool..i hate KYNDRA!! URGH I REALLY FUCKIN HATE HER!!
Nobody can help me anymore..im too far gone..Kyndra was helping me..but not now..fuck her..fuckin bitch ='(
I WANT TO FUCKING DIE DAMMIT!! ='(
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2004 17 March :: 12.13pm
i remember the look in your eyes
Yesterday was Krazzii
me, sarah, daniela, mark, & nick went to anisa's party.. it was fun for a while.. i pushed nick in the poOl w/ his clothes on lol n than he pushed me in sOo we were all FREEZING all night.. n than all thez ppl were bitchin at us =[ lol..but yea than we left.. today im gettin muh new phone.. my bathing suit.. my hair done.. n than im going bowling w/ jay daniela mark n nick
JAY CALLED ME THE GAYEST PERSON IN THE WORLD!
but i love him anyway =]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!!
tomarrow is mine =]
when i told you this was goodbye
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2004 16 March :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: Tipsy--j kwon!!
Oh wow, today was very interesting..went to skool late..had to skip 1st hour..i had woodruffs class!! Then right when i was walking into 2nd hour i had gym so i was walking there and i was walking past arkinsons room thingy, and i saw kyndra in there and stopped walked in and they were like oh we were just putting a pass out to get you lol so i stayed there all 2nd hour. 3rd hour was fun..me and ashley had fun buggin renteria the whole time..then lunch hung out wif brandy n had to go to mrs johantgens class so i could get help wif my math cuz i need to do better in there..4th hour was fun..german is never fun so thats weird lol talked about german day at the university of michigan on friday..yayay!! lol So that was skool..
Then Donna picked me up and i went to counsling at the aware shelter, yeah that was really interesting today, talked about alot of diff things, too much thinking for me lol =p then mom picked me up and like i guess jelly and her got into it again..yeah it was horrible this time again..once again my fault dammit!!
But omg today urgh i was soo fuckin freaking out, called Lisa she coldnt talk, Cassie is being a bitch and ignoring me, Brandy was in Holt, so yeah every1 was busy, so i called..uhm Kyndra i felt like SUCHA DORK!! But we actually talked for like an hour..but i let her go 1. cellie was going dead 2. i bet i was bothering her anyway.. 3. ill see her 2marro anyway!! I cant wait, she seriously ist he best i luv talking to her!!
Neways just wanted to say happy b day to britty again..like just in case ya know!! lol =) CHELSIE I LUV YOU!! Megan hope your feeling better!! Ali jean you mean everything to me i luv you!! everyone i luv you!!
Love..me!!
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2004 16 March :: 11.01am
:: Mood: safe
:: Music: jays' voice/weird song he's playin?!
Perdy Baby.. why kant yOu seE..
Yesterday was awsome =]
i went to the mall w/ daniela n sarah n me n sarah got matchin outfits =] n daniela got the cuuutest dress that she looks adorable in .. n than nick & mark came .. that was fun lol me n nick tied each others shoes together n were hoppin round lol <33333
n than i came home round 10.. n jay called me and we fell asleep on the phone again =]
n i had a bad dream =[ but i woke up n jay was still on the phone n i could head him sleepin sOo i felt safe
yoUr the une that i belOng tO. <3.
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2004 15 March :: 1.01pm
I fOrgOt what it waz lyk
Spring break so far has been really great =] . . . Saturday sarah was still here n we stayed in bed fOr 19 hOurz !! wOop wOop new recOrd lOl.. than round 7ish jamie came over n than at lyk 1o [ @ nite ] we picked up cariSsa n went 2 tha movies.. met muh babii... but nO one wuz there sOo we all walked to mark'z house `nd it was sOo fun =] & than we walked over to nick'z hOuse.. `nd that i hadda leave round 12:3o.. daniela, sarah, carissa, n jamie spent the night.. stayed up till lyk 5 =] n than daniela n sarah left .. me carissa n jamie went swimmin =] n than carissa left.. me n jamie watched american weddin.. than jamie left @ lyk 9.. n i talked to jay most of the night .. fell asleep on the fone w/ him =] .. today me & sarah r going shoppin hopefully n than im going to muh babey's house..
3 days till muh bday =]
xOxO -Britt- xOxO
`tO B hAppie =]
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2004 14 March :: 11.38am
:: Mood: sad
Always and forever, remember..
Too often we don't .r.e.a.l.i.z.e. what we have until it's gone
too *often* we wait too long to say "I'm sorry I was wrong"
Sometimes it seems we -:-hurt-:- the ones we hold dearest to
our •hearts• and we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart
Far too many times we let `unimportant´ things into mind and
then it's . *usually*. too late to see what made us blInd. . .
Well now i can say that i know how it feels to be..second best ='( Urgh i want things back to the way they were..when everything was perfect inside our own little dream world, i miss those days, and would give anything to get them back.
You know who you are, so dont try and ignore it!! I luv you more than anything in the whole world!! I just wish that you still felt the same way.
James i luv you soo much!! Thanks for everything!!
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2004 14 March :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Have you ever--Brandy
Arent i the lucky one..
You guys you guys!!! Guess wat!!
Omg im soo friggin happy now!!
Of course i bet you prolly can guess,
Its about some guy lol, but still,
Does anyone member me always
Talking about that James kid that,
Is my best guy friend, well yeah..
He asked me back out, urgh im soo
Happy Tiffany will not, and is
NOT going to ruin our relationship
again, I told you all that me and this kid will
Get married, hes my best friend,
And now again my boyfriend, im soo happy!!
Other than that amazing thing, this
weekend Has been awesome, went
to Lisa's n than Babysat, Sounds
boring, but omg you have No idea
whenever lisa n i are Together we
have the BEST time ever!! lol I love
that gurl shes one of my best friends!
One bad thing, Martin is mad at me,
=( he Says that he was going to
ask me out this Weekend, *yeah
WHATEVER..lol* and that he really
liked me, and Its stupid that im
going back out wif James, Urgh
hes being childish but i luv
him and i MISS HIM, so babes plz
stop this stupid fight, And come
back to me =p i luv you!!
Well thats enough for now, im
tired, and i Think that im gonna
call my baby tho he told Me to
call at like 12..oh wells, he
hopefully wont mind lol
I LUV YOU CHELSIE!! Glad i got to
talk to you today, your the friggin
best, i cant wait to talk to you again!! lol =)
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