I'm not gonna let you break me

:: 2004 7 January :: 8.03am

Its over-*
Winter vaca that is.
Ah, tis was fun.
I don't want to go back to school.
I don't want face him.
I don't want to live another day without you.
I don't want to wait 6 months.
I don't want this to be over.
I don't want this to last any longer.
I don't want to spend another second worrying bout this.
i love you. i hate you
i cant live without you

1 I'm almost there | HOLD ON

:: 2004 6 January :: 8.18pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: katie being weird..=)

Well i jus wanted to say hey in this thing since its been a while..and yeah i dont know wat to say really..

Well i jus wanna say dat i luv you lots britters and i miss you soo much and i hope dat i can go home 2marro so dat i can talk to you I MISS YOU TONS!! and yeah i wanna talk tyou soo much

Yeah other den dat...i really dont wanna leave here cuz its fun here..katie n me r gettin alone better and talkin bout stuff and its really fun to be able to talk to her..shes great. But yeah im gonna miss her when i leave..maybe ill come bak to visit her sometime =) I luv my cuzie wuzie!!

hehe yeah neways luvya chels n miss n meg n ali n mike n all of you boogers =)

love..ME!!

:: 2004 5 January :: 10.29am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Duffey complaining to mrs rodman.. =)

Hey were jus sittin in class again..since i cant get online at katies house really..cept it dont matter cuz we've been majorly busy lately..yeah last nite was da best..i aint seen steve in a while tho..a couple of days..=/ dunno..oh well tho..

Yeah gotat go tho..britt i miss you loser..hope to talk toyou t nite or something..i mite be on after we go to da tanner and after we go over to whas her faces house and all of dat good stuff..=/ i unno..but yeah ill try n get on t nite..if not email me..

luv you too chels and miss n megz!! =) latah everyone!!

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:: 2004 3 January :: 2.42pm

Hey ....
Whats been going on...
I hung out with geoffrey and andy wednesday night, thursday night, friday night, and this morning before geoffrey left. i had tons of fun..last night we built sand castles *wink* it was great =P
he left this mornin round 11 to go back to Indiana (where he lives)..
I miss him already.
<3.

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:: 2004 3 January :: 9.10pm
:: Mood: indescribable

awwe man!! Whew im at katies so i dont have very much time..plus steve n mike n katie are all watchin jeepers creepers we jus rented it..and yeah thier gettin mad cuz they want me out there cuz im da only one dats seen it and thier scared lol..=)

Well this has actually been fun time here fo once..and omfg new years was da best ever!! *Britt i have to tel you some thigns..good *really good* and kinda realy bad..=/ ut oh wells*

Steve stayed da nite last nite and is stayin t nite..cuz katies mom my aunt lefted..hehe i luv katie =) shes soo sweet..but yeah liz n danielle and katie and me and steve and mike aare all going out t nite..and were goin rockin bowling and den were going to like prank some pplz ya kmow fun stuff like dat..liz n danielle are comin over bout 11 or so..so yeah i dont know wato tsay

I miss yu freaks soo much..ex britt n chels n my baby ali..i miss you ali sooo sooo much!! Its weird not talkin to you..but newyas yeah im gonan go..luv you lots everyone bye!! =)

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:: 2004 2 January :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: miss y0ou...

.the worlds a ugly place...
but your so beautiful to me.

Last night was the shit.
I talked to Jay for a while round 9iish..than i hung out with Geoffrey -n- Andy. Tis was fun. We hung out till 11ish..than i got home and called jay again ..he didn't feel good =[ we talked till 12:30 or 1 n then he went tO sleep n so didd i. i love him oh so much <3. i want to see him soon..

its been 5 days since ive talked to kevin. i called him a couple times, he's never home. i miss him. blah.

i talked to *michelle marks* last night..i love her! ..we might hang out tomarrow! <3333

i talked to court to yesterday..i misS her tOo.
<3.

Jilly is at her cousin's..i hope she comes back soon...

jay calls me punkin
i like it.
<3.

:: 2004 1 January :: 4.50pm

`Never again...
`Hubby is MEAN.
Its 2o04..weee...

So last night, emily came over (i invited kevin daniel n kimmy but no one else showed..big surprise.) we went to subway n the movie store n than ran 'round the neighbor hOod. we met thez 2 guyz..there realley kool..were gonna hang out again latah. One of 'em is from indiana and tha other one lives around the storms feild, but he's here every sat. cuz his gramma lives a few houses down..

thats it.
later.
<3.

:: 2003 31 December :: 6.14pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: jays song

...
So Cal 1449: my wifey brings all the boys to the yard and they're like she's better than mine, damn right she's better than yours, you could borrow her but i love her too much!

:: 2003 31 December :: 1.01pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Perfect *Simple Plan*

Those who do not know how to weep with thier whole heart don't know how to laugh either..
Here is a cute lil poem i jus found in this book, and thought dat i would share it wif all of you!! =) *Book-Chicken soup for the teenage soul on Love & Friendship*

Why they are friends

Because...they smile.
Because...they understand just be looking into your eyes.
Because...they finish your sentences and know what you like.
Because...they know you better than you know yourself.
Because...with them you aren't afraid to be yourself.
Because...you can say something stupid or expose your deepest secrets to them.
Because...everything you do together becomes a memory.
Because...you don't need to do something special to have fun...fun just happens.
Because...you don't need to explain anything...they just know.
Because...they tell you the truth, no mtter how much you'd rather not hear it.
Because...they would do anything for you and get you out of trouble.
Because...they make you laugh harder than anyone.
Because...they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for you.
Because...you can trust them.
Because...they believe in your dreams, no matter how silly they may seem.
Because...they dry your dreams.
Because...you are good enough when you are with them.
Because...they love you for who you really are.

Now a lil thanks to all my friends, that have always been there fo me

*Brittany* *Courtney* *Stacey* *Ali* *James* *Adam* *Becky Dawn* *Trixi* *Sidnee* *Mike* *Brittney* *Rachel* *Chelsie* *Megz* *Ashley* *Kristie* *My homefluffs* =) n anyone else i forgot!! =)
Luv all of ya!! =)

Brittany n Jilly best friends forever!! Luv ya babe!!

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:: 2003 30 December :: 11.29pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: ULTIMATE YOU!

me n kimmys convo..
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: im like to my mom..can daniel spend the night and shes like no and i said why not and she said CUZ HE HAS A PENIS!!
XoDrummerGurloX: LMAO
XoDrummerGurloX: lol!
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: lol
XoDrummerGurloX: i asked my mom if daniel can spend the night and she walked away lol
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: LOL
XoDrummerGurloX: :-P
XoDrummerGurloX: we need to chop off daniels penis so he can spend the night
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: yesh i know!!
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: u grab a knife..ill hold em down
XoDrummerGurloX: OF COURSE YOU GET TO HOLD IT!
XoDrummerGurloX: GOD DAN
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: lmao
XoDrummerGurloX: *DAMN
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: well u get to keep it
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: after we cut it off
XoDrummerGurloX: no no...we will cut it in hald
XoDrummerGurloX: u can keep the end
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: yay!!
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: do i get the balls to?
XoDrummerGurloX: i dont want that leaky thing in my house
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: or can we keep them on?
XoDrummerGurloX: lol!!!!!
XoDrummerGurloX: balls can be dangerous luckily there is 2 one for me one for u!
XoDrummerGurloX: (wow that rhymed sorta0
BlOw BuBbLeZ 23: LMAO! yes!!
XoDrummerGurloX: WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

kimmy had it in her journal so i had to add it in mine =]

HOLD ON

:: 2003 30 December :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: stressed

When you think youve got it..think again..
britt: then i dont think we can be friends

britt: yo u obviously dont care bout me
britt: and you obviousily dont care that this hurts me

Brittany marie gamester..before i leave..jus wanted to let u know:: That, wat u said rite there, could be nothing further from the truth, brittany u knw dat im da peacemaker and if someone wants to be my *friend* den im going to be like yeah sure *example da whole cassie deal, u knwo wat shit she did to me, but i took her back..no questions asked* and dats da only reason dat i became friends wif her again, iw ould never ever ever want to hurt you in anyway. I swear britt..=/ And im really srry..i wish dat you understood where im coming from, i jus wanna know why u dont want me to..dats it..i mean i'll stop..but it would be nice t oknow dat my BEST FRIEND trust me enough to tell me something as dumb as this..but wateva..

I luv you wif all of my heart britt..and im really srry, *forgive me* or *lose me* take your pick..the choose is yours..plz make da rite one..

I better go..latah..

:: 2003 30 December :: 3.38pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Brenda's got a baby *Tupac*

Its about time..
I knew things would be different..and now im the one payin for it..i wish things could be back to how they used to be..but instead they cant..and im the one that has to pay fo it.. =/

Well lets see..not too much happening around here really..cept coming home from florida..and den my rents gettin into a huge fite last nite..yeah but oh well nothing new wif dat..they always fight..so who cares anymore rite..? neways..

Me and steve r doing good i guess..he'll prolly break up wif me soon tho..but im hopeing dat my mom will let me stay home while they go on vaca and den he can like come over n everything.. weee =) but i dunno bout dat..

Me and Ali are becoming alot better friends..its great..i luv dat gurl shes soo hilarous and shes always there fo me..were planning a road trip to see eachother..lets see ive known her fo like 2 years too..i luv dat chicka soo much hehe!!
LiLAliJEaN xoX: I have been having Jilly withdrawls <
I luv mah baby gurl ali Jean

Other den dat i dont really have anything giong on..well yeah dats enough fo now..bye!!

Love..me!!

HOLD ON

:: 2003 30 December :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: Better off alone *cranium bob*

weee heee deee!!!
Hey..its Jilly on britts journal..

Britt i jus wanted to say dat i luv you oh so much sweetie..ur da best ever!! Never forget it!!

Best friends forever!! No matter wat!!

Love..Jilly!! =)