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2003 13 December :: 12.33pm
courtney is here =] i love her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!! <333... last night evan piked up me n court n sarah n we went to the moviez.. it was really fun. my hubby was there =]. Ryan, Shane, Matt, Jon, Danielle, Amanda, n some other people were there..! It was really fun =] i squeezed jay'z guts out just like i said i would ..hehe. -n- i met this kidd named matt. hes in my laungage arts class and hes really nice. jay spilled water all over my shirt and matt was drenching me in popcorn.. it was awsome <3*.. jay switched seats wit matt cuz he was mad ='[ I LOVE JAY THO HES SOOO AWSOME N SEXYFUL!!!
i love courtney g. stephenson!! <3*
i love jay m. gamester!!!!!! <3*
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2003 12 December :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: lonely
If only i had a friend.. =/
I jus wanted to say britt if u get on n read dis..i luv you and i miss ya babe..n hopefully we'll talk 2marro nite..*got a double at work* so prolly wont be home till latah..but neways ur da best luv u lots chicka latah!!
If ya need me call me otherwise..forget i ever existed..
Sincerly the forgotten child.. =/
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2003 11 December :: 11.03pm
R.est. I.n. P.eace.
Jillane Elizabeth Dahms..died December 11th 10:48 pm.
Cause of death-a broken heart..and a shattered soul..
Funeral wont be held-on the grounds that nobody would attend, so why waste our money..
Body will be barried-in and old cemetary where nobody ever dares steppin into anymore..*the forgetten place..wif forgotten ppl and memories..*
Her tombstones last words will read as follows-All i wanted was for everyone to be happy..but i guess taht was a little too much to ask for now wasnt it.. =/
Sincerly..a writter..who wishes to remain nameless..since they didnt care either..since nobody ever really did..=/
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2003 11 December :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
Work-da only place where i can be totally fake..and get away wif it..*cuz were surposed to act like were soo happy and smile all da time* so yah i luv work!!!!
Mhmm had a bad day..but dont feel like tlakin bout it rite now.. =/ i think im going to bed now..mhmm i dont know..=( bye!!
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2003 10 December :: 9.18am
:: Mood: nauseated
:: Music: *Hands down*
I wonder to me..
Me and britt had a very interestin convosation about me not believing in god and all of dat bs..
Rockergurl217: well can their be a special heaven
Rockergurl217: jus for me n lyk 3 other people
Rockergurl217: ?
J d shortier 623: 3 other ppl?
J d shortier 623: who mite dat be?
J d shortier 623: cuz u can..but im not so sure bout 3 other ppls..
J d shortier 623: and why we have to call it heaven..dat implys something todo wif god.
Rockergurl217: hmm
Rockergurl217: then "jill n brittanys after-life party"
Rockergurl217: how bout that?
J d shortier 623: no cuz i cant go..
J d shortier 623: member..Jilly is giong to hell..:-\
Rockergurl217: no
Rockergurl217: all of us mother fuckers r jus g onna lie in the dirt
Rockergurl217: thats nasy as hell anyway..prolly worser then hell!
Rockergurl217: nasty*
J d shortier 623: hahah:-P
J d shortier 623: but hey did u knwo dat even satine believes in god?:'(
J d shortier 623: :-\**
Rockergurl217: brb ass:-P
J d shortier 623: fine leave!
Rockergurl217: yesh..everyone but yOUI!
J d shortier 623: not everyone..
Rockergurl217: yea!
J d shortier 623: and personally i dont think dat i sould have to believe in something jus cuz everyone else does..and jus cuz *its da rite thing to do* and really hes da one causin pain and grief in dis world..hes daone dat kills every friggin body..and he made us all da way we are..some of us r friggin killers..O:-) haha but neways yah i wouldnt want to dedicate my life to someone dat has soo much power over us and is takin advantage of dat power and causin pain to da rest of us lil ppls
Rockergurl217: no actully
Rockergurl217: I THINK UR WRONG
J d shortier 623: well i think ur wrong
J d shortier 623: i think we have totally diff beliefs..dats bout it..
Rockergurl217: who sed i believ ein anything;-)?
Rockergurl217: :-P*!
J d shortier 623: hah u fucker:-P
J d shortier 623: do u even believe in god?
Rockergurl217: probably
J d shortier 623: probably?
J d shortier 623: lol dats weird
J d shortier 623: so u dont know wat u believe?
J d shortier 623: dude ya know wat..i think im going tobe come jewish!! lol
J d shortier 623: dat would be sweet
J d shortier 623: but i wonder if i would still celebrate x mas..since i have my whole life..
Rockergurl217: lmao
Rockergurl217: lets make our own religon jilly!
J d shortier 623: sweet!!:-D
J d shortier 623: dats even better!!
wow aint dat great..jus thought id write something in here t day.. =/
Brittany u mean everything to me..i luv u soo much!! Thanks ur da bestest!! BEST FRIENDS FOREVER NO MATTER WHO COMES ALONG!! =) haha luv yo ubye!!
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2003 9 December :: 11.09pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: semi-charmed life
yay!
I can`t wait for tomarrow!! im making myself go to school even tho im sick..for 2 reasons tho..1) jay is gonna be in muh readin class!! yay!! and 2) i get to get muh picature taken with mah mark!! i love that kidd! we look dorable 2gether...! soo yea nothing really is going on lately..kimmy is happy again =] yay! i love kimmy so mucho much! so called me today!! i am oh-so special. well i think im gonna call daniel n go to bed..xOxOxO.. brittany
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2003 9 December :: 6.54am
WOo HOo!! i get to leave skool early thurs cuz yah dats when karis funeral is..and yah steve wants me to go wif him cuz he knew her..yah dats majorly sad..hes all depressed n shit and i dont know wat to do..
wow isnt everyone tho..and i dont know wat to do.. =/
I luv you britt!! Im srry bout da stacey thing..i dont know wat to do!!!! Tell me wat to do and ill do it
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2003 8 December :: 6.30pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: The voice within...
Work work work work work..
::Work schedule::
Thurs- 5:30pm
Fri- 5:00pm
Sat- 10:00 am
Sat- 5:00 pm
Sun-10:00 am
Sun- 3:00 pm
geesh lots and lots of work..but ill get lots n lots of money!! =) hehe
But da bad thing is ill have no time fo britt..i think dat after all of dis shit..i think dat im jus goin to not work dis week..or somethin i unno..maybe jus not work a few nites like only work thur n sat or something..im pretty sure she needs me now..=/ tho i have no idea wat to do!?
I luv u britters and i'll do anything fo you..jus tell me wat u want me to do..cuz i'll do anything i luv u sooo much and im really srry..YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME!! I dont know wat i would do without you..you mean everything to me!!
Your the only thing ive got left, plz dont ever leave me..
Chelsie im srry i got soo mad at u earlier t day..its jus u really dont have any idea wat ur taklin bout no offence..but i do luv u and i am srry!! Thanks tho babe =/
love..me!! =/
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2003 7 December :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: lonely
Everything is always my fault..
kimmy is all feeling left out cuz of me and daniel.. i hate it when people feel left out. i hate being left out. and ive had my fair share of that, trust me. But yea..i reallllly love kimmy! n i hope eveerything turns out good =]
i wanna hang out wit daniel again though, soon. he is by far the coolest person ive ever met. i love you daniel =]
everything is not okay with me and jill. yeah, i lied.
im so fuckin ugly. i feel fuckin fat around most mah f'n friends...i just really dont wanna feel that way anymore. i eat. but like not as much as i should..ick. somedays i eat abunch, lyk yesterday n some days i dont eat barly at all. maybe one meal cuz my mom makes me...i cant fuckin control it god.
and jill is doin that one thing ..alot . so who gives a fuck right?
how can i trust anyone..if i dont even fuckin trust myself??
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2003 7 December :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: high
:: Music: *More to life*
Lets see had a busy day t day at work!! And now im soo fuckin busy cuz ive got hw in EVERY FUCKIN CLASS!! And im dead tired..2marro is my first day off.. =/ Steve will prolly come over tho..so i really wont get to rest..we'll prolly fuckin get high.. =/ dunno anymore..
Other den dat nothing has happened lately..
Brittany marie gamester i luvu soo much and ims rry dat i really havent been dat good of a friend lately..i will try harder..but youve gotta talk to me babe i luv you!! I hope were okay..things seem weird lately I LUV YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF!! YOUR DA BEST THING DATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME IL UVYOU!!
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2003 7 December :: 9.10am
:: Mood: drunk
Urgh work now..now ive gotta do a funeral all by myself.. =/ wif 100 ppl im scared usually youve got like 2 or 3 ppl for dat amount..im scared.. =/
Oh well neways..i miss britt..i wont really get to talk wif her this next week either..work every single day..and den da next week ill get to see her!! so dats good hehehe =)
I luv you brittany marie gamester and i mis u and i hope dat your not mad at me i luv you soo much babe!!
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2003 6 December :: 11.29pm
still laughin
Today was sooo great--*
i slept in till lyk 2 pm today!! holy shit, i didnt feel good so i didnt/ n culdnt go to the moviez..but instead i went to DANIEL's house.. i love him!!! he is sooooo fuckin funny we watched simply irristable n darkness falls n omg we were laughin soooo hard i started crying !! ahh it was great!! we would start screamin cuz it was SCARY n then start cracccckin up..omg i love it..im gonna come back tomarro..loli love you daniel!!
ahh thats bout it for now..write more later.
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2003 6 December :: 10.57pm
:: Mood: grumpy
Well lets see here..not much has been going on lately..havent talked to steve since uhm yesterday lol and he was pissed at me after skool.. =/ oh well who cares..
Talked to britt t day!! I luv dat gurl!! Shes da bestest in da whole wide world!! hehe I LUV YOU BRITT!! =)
talked wif chelsie t day too!! Had a great talk wif her..she helped me mucho much..i luv her too!!
And rite now im talkin wif Megan..were taklin bout some pretty deep n interestin stuff..im really glad dat i met her! =)
Btu da best part was..i met this gurl..he name is Katt or Katrina really..shes friggin awesome!! We've got sooo much in comman and shes soo easy to talk to!! We were talkin bout how we cut ourselves and wats going on wif our family and wats going on wif our boyfriends and like friends and all of this diff shit!! Shes funny as hell too!! I think dis could be da start to a very awesome friendship lol.. =) IM REALLY GLAD I MET HER!!!!!!! =)
nuffin else happened really..so im gonna go..luv you all bye!! =)
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2003 5 December :: 11.48pm
:: Mood: busy
*If i hated you as much as i luv you..it would be like you were hitler and i was a group of jews!!*
Very well put Tiffany..i luv u soo much sweetie..thanks fo always being there..ur da best!!
I LUV YOU TIFFANY!! =) hehe u damn fool lmao!! Great times..latah babe..
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