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2003 23 November :: 5.01pm
Well i made an online journal community thingy fo all of us *Brittany me chelsie Megan and Hellana!!* But rite now theres some kind of error thingy, im gonna write to Andy *the dude in charge of this site* cuz like i really wanna get it to work..but its doing something stupid..but oh well ill get it to work some time..ill try gain 2marro!!
Not too much happened t day! But everyone got journals..YIPPIE SKIPPIE!! lol but neways gotta get offline now, so be bak latah britt if u get online read da entry before this one! I luv u soo much and mis syou! latah babe!
Everyone else, LUV YOU ALL TOO!! =) hehe
love..me!!
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2003 22 November :: 9.50pm
:: Mood: good
Wow..i actually feel good..
Well t day, i had like soo much friggin fun!! *Thanks chelsie fo everything t day, i had a friggin blast*
I was surposed to call steve at 9 when i got home..but like uhm yah i didnt cuz i was hopin dat britt would come bak and would wanna talk to me..but nope..i guess ill jus try gain 2marro.. =( even tho shes busy then too..
I jus dont know wat to do anymore..i heard soo much lately..and its jus like wtf? Its stuff dat i would never expect to be true..but i guess if i think bout it..it is..but oh well i dont really care anymre..
BriTt ReAd::
J d shortier 623: u gotta take care of her down there fo me sinc ei cant..:-\
Rockergurl215: if u wanna ask that from time to time dont worry u can talk 2 me "OK I PINKY PROMISE I WILL"
J d shortier 623: thank u soo friggin much emily..dat means alot to me!! U better take care of her;-)
Rockergurl215: ::OF COURSE THATS WAT IM HERE 4 ::
Rockergurl215: and plus ur tha bestest friend any 1 could ever ask 4
Awwe ur best friend is soo sweet! srry dat i was talkin wif her! I luv u lots gotta go cuz im not feeling good..if u wanna talk call me, if not den i hope we can talk 2marro if not den wateva but i luv u and miss u soo friggin much!! Bye!
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2003 22 November :: 7.33pm
Jill spent the day with chelsie today.
n she met megan n everyone...
i wish i was there.
but instead im here.
that breaks my fucking heart...
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2003 22 November :: 12.00am
:: Mood: restless
Geesh ive already wrote in here 3 times t day..oh well lol..
Well hey im jus writtin this to britt really:
Brit srry i had to go, but im like dead tired and like ive gotta wake up early 2marro..gotta take cassie home, den gotta go to courts house to get my math book n binder, den gotta drop wilson off at her dads..den gotta go to da bank..den gotta drive to chelsea..to go to chelsie's haha chelsie who lives in chelsea..okay srry lol, neways yah im doing dat 2marro..and den im pretty sure dat im goign to courts after i get bak from chelsie's if not den ill be here, but i prolly wont be online..cuz i promised steve id call as soon as i get home..and if i dont call him 2marro nite he said hes gonna cry..lol long story nvm..lol alots happened in da past couple of days dat we really havent been talkin..lol yah im going out wif a dude named steve as u will hear bout in da other 3 entries i wrote t day =)
Neways courts bout to get offline so i am too..have a great day 2marro luv u lots n miss you bunches! latah babe!
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2003 21 November :: 11.09pm
awwe sweet! becky dawn is fine wif me n steve!! YaY! Im soo happy shes kool wif it..and she like is really excited..cuz thier like good friends lol..but yah dats it latah!
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2003 21 November :: 10.49pm
:: Mood: relieved
Im very wise beyond my years.. =)
Awwe i luv givin advice..ex on things dat i know lots bout..like boys..yippie..steff never really talks to me about stuff like dat..i tell her things but she dont really talk wif me like bout boys..other thigns..but not boys..but she did t nite! And i helped her!! WOo HOo! I luv when ppl r happy.. =) makes me feel better lol
Oh gosh, steff called me boy crazy..im not boy crazy am i? I dont think so..but alotta ppl seem to think so..my mom also thinks i am but dat bitch is crazy lol newyas..
me done latah!
love..me..! =)
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2003 21 November :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: giggly
Sad to Happy, Happy to Sad, wen will this ever stop..?
Oh wow..im going out wif Steve now..i hope dat becky dawn is okay wif it..i think dat she will be cuz like after skool t day when i was walkin her to her bus, shes like so whas up wif u and Steve *fo da million time* and im like i unno, shes like well do u like him, im like i unno kinda, and shes like i used to have da biggest crush on him, im like well hes a kool guy, and shes like yah he is, and im like well yah ive gotta get going babe, and i left..I really hope shes okay wif it..but i dont think dat it'll last very long anyway..
Hes sucha friggin sweetheart, hes jus like mike, cept hes a bit more of a perv but not really, i know wat he really wants outta dis relationship even tho he said dat he would do without, he wants to have sex..i know it..prolly cuz we talked bout it lol but dude he said dat i didnt ever have to do anything dat i didtn wanna..but now hes talkin bout coming to my house, and dat he wants me to come to his house..and hes in 11th grade..and has a rep bout that kind of thing, i mean like not dat he like plays alotta gurls, jus dat he goes out wif gurls dat he really likes..and has sex wif em alot alot!! So its not like hes a player..its jus he finds gurls he likes..and he has sex wif em..is dat real bad? I dont know if im ready fo dat kind of thing again..i mean he wants to meet my mom he wants me to meet his dad..I like him alot, but i unno..hes not going to be at skool monday..so ill have time to breath..ive never seen this guy, cept on challenge day, but like t day..i saw him before skool, I met his friends, and den he walked to my 1st hour, and den we met after 2nd hour, he walked me to my second hour, and den we didnt see eachother before 3rd hour but he skipped his lunch and came to my lunch, and den we walked to my 4th hour, and den like he walked me to my bus..awwe hehe, plus like he told me dat he would call me at 3 10..and den like i got off at 5 and now im callin him at 7..yikes! Alotta of him fo only da first day going out!
Well yah srry dats prolly really friggin long! Im gonna get going now..big day 2marro..going to chelsie's house!! Yippie skippie!! LUV U CHELS! =)
Britt plz if u get on..den like write in ur journal or something..and call me latah if u can..like at 9 or something..but if not den hopefully ill talk wif u like sun..oh wait no ur busy..uhm prolly monday!! I LUV U MORE THAN ANYTHING IND A WHOLE WORLD..NEVER EVER FORGET DAT!! Latah babe!
*Plus Cassie *mcCann* is here..shes hilarous were havin a blast!* lol
:*:M&M's and Skittles* =)
*Jilly n Cassie lol*
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2003 20 November :: 10.47pm
:: Mood: excited
Well things got a little better for me. All cept i didnt talk wif britt like at all, and i know that something is bothering her, and now its bothering me cuz she wont talk wif me about it! So yah dat really sucks..
Then becky dawn was kinda mad at me lol..i unno i hate skool i never ever wanna go bak to skool..
But then Steve called while i was in the bath, and like yah he called me bak in 10 but we talked from like 9 10 until 10 o clock! dats not very long, but ive only really talked to da kid once, at that challenge day thingy! I talked to him yesterday after skool tho, but i was jus introducin him to my friends, and like we were talkin bout how hes gettin his licence soon *2 months* and like he said dat he would give me a ride everyday when he got it, and like i was like kool, and i was like well when u get it call me, and hes like well i dont have ur number and cuz i was leavin rite then i was like well ask becky fo it, and i really didnt think nuffin of it, but he called me t nite! I wa slike hello hes like hey is jill there im like yah this is, whose this and hes like take a wild guess, im like i unno whose this, and hes like ur fav person in the whole world, and im like omg it steve-o!! hehe hes sucha sweetie! Hes soo easy to talk wif! And its perfect timing, cuz me n mike jus broke up *sniffle sniffle* but like he kept hintin at how he wanted to go out, and like he keep sayin dat someone like me wouldnt go out wif someone like *stuff like dat* and he called me a FRIGGIN PREP..dats why i wouldnt go out wif him, cuz hes a skater dude ya know! Yah rite hes friggin hott!! Lol, but hes in 11th grade..i dont know how dat would work out, he told me dat i need to come sit wif him 2marro before skool at *his table* lol, i liked dis guy da first time we met..now i like him more hehe! But i unno hes crazy! And when he called becky to get my number she said *wat ur gonna go out wif my best friend now* awwe hehe..so i unno im gonna ask her bout him, and see if its kool dat we go out or not..but oh well hehe i unno im done now..
me n guys..bah! Jus cant get enough of em! =) hehe..
I LUV U BRITT, AND HOPE UR NOT MAD AT ME! I LUV U SERIOUSLY MORE THAN ANYTHING IN DA WHOLE WORLD, NEVER FORGET IT!! I LUV YOU!! =)
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2003 20 November :: 6.41pm
:: Mood: restless
I've finally become my own worst nightmare..
Urgh t day was pretty bad..i got sick at skool t day, so i had to go to courts n stayed there da whole day..n hung out wif her awesome friggin mom, im soo glad i work wif dat lady shes soo friggin awesome i luv her! But den we picked up court n we hung out n stuff, and den she brought me home! Dat was fun since i aint seen her a lil while, but i still feel like shit, and like i only came home so dat i could talk wif britt, but now shes gone.. =(
I think britts mad at me, shes been actin really weird lately.. =( And i really think dat shes upset bout something..she jus wont tell me wat..Britt i know ur not fine so dont friggin lie to me! Talk to me, im always going to be here fo you, and im srry dat i wasnt!! I luv u, so talk to me!
Ahh, 1 month and 2 days fo me n mike.. ='( i guess dats kinda good fo me..but oh well, i guess i dont really care..neways..
Nuffin else really happened t day..so write more latah! Bye!
BRITT I LUV U AND IM SRRY! PLZ TALK TO ME!!
love always,
me.. ='(
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2003 19 November :: 11.13pm
everyone wants to die ...
so what if im one of them.
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2003 19 November :: 9.52pm
:: Mood: cold
How about i jus fall over and die? =(
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2003 19 November :: 6.34am
:: Mood: *sTiLL TiReD*
Ahh britt ur sucha mofo! =) I luv you tho! Ur da best person in da whole world, if you read dis in da morning, have da best friggin day ever! I luv you soo much! Latah chicka..p.s. dont forget to read da other entries not jus dis one :-p Luv you latah!
love..me! =)
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2003 18 November :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: *FuCkiNg TiReD*
Omfg dude i seriously feel like a zombie, im soo tired i cant even really think..its only 9 30 rite now! I feel like i could jus roll over and die!! My whole body hurts im soo tired..im not sure dat i can keep going on like this much longer..i feel like im slowing dieing, FROM BEING SLEEP DEPRIVED!! *dont ask i cant spell* =(
No becky dawn t day..ick! I miss her already dang it! I really want her to come bak soon! 2marro rite after skool im going to visit her..i think dat im going to take like a face mask thingy so i dont get wat shes got.. =) hehe But yah im really worried bout her, so i got all her hw and im takin it to her 2marro! i really cant wait to see her!! Well neways..
Ahah t day i was sendin steff pix of like all these diff ppl like mike and kristie n steph and angela and amber and trixi and courtney and brittney n all these fun ppl =) and like shes like do hve any of brittany! OH YES HOF KORSE I DO! IVE GOT PLENTY WANT TO SEE SOME?! hehe so i showed her a million and shes like awwe shes so pretty and so did kristie and chelsie and lisa and cassie and duffey hehe..hehe britts so friggin lucky shes sucha friggin cutie pie! PLus shes da best person in da whole world! Shes sweeter than sweet, shes da smartest, funniest, craziest, specialist, i unno she da BEST! i luv her more than anything! hehe!
I unno early t day, it was bad..now its GREAT! i luv britt she makes my whole life better..write more latah bye!
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2003 17 November :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: numb
Uhm..t day was an okay day i guess..Becky Dawn wasnt at skool t day so dat really sucked..*whines* and shes not going to be at skool 2marro either..shes really really sick! She said dat she would try n come jus fo me, but i told her not to, even tho i miss her and really want her to..Ahh its crazy dat me and Becky *Dawn* r friends tho..cuz last year..she was best friends wif Jamee, and me n Jamee got really close n we kinda excluded becky, i didnt really like becky all too much, i mean we were okay, but i wouldnt go outta my way to talk wif her or anything ya know? And like she really ditn like me cuz i was *stealin her best friend* even tho we werent even dat close me n Jamee, she jus liked to smoke n shit and so did i, and she loved to go to riot everyone fri and so did i, and becky dont smoke or nuffin, and she didnt go every fri so ya know..Jamee n I did alot together! But i would never want her to be my best friend..*Ive already got a really great one..and..* cuz shes not a very good friend really..becky deserves mucho better! Hehe i luv dat girlie shes awesome!
Lets see 1 month fo me n Mike..but im thinin dat were gonna break up soon, cuz hes ignorin meh, i unno i really really like him, but i didnt thin it would work out anyway.. =( Oh well..
Plus i think dat britts mad at me fo some reason, i unno y but she jus seemed upset/mad at me t day! I sure hope she isnt, tho i prolly did something wrong, i didnt mean to..well dats enough fo now im gonna jus go to bed..cuz i didnt sleep last nite, n im pretty sure britt went to bed hehe =) but yah latah..
*I feel like a god damn zombie* zZzZzZ..*starts snoring* =/
Love always..me..of..korse.. =)
I LUV YOU BRITTERZ!! hehe! =)
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2003 17 November :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: loved
gymnasticfrk: sidnee loves you
J d shortier 623: uhm where'd dat come from?
gymnasticfrk: just cuz i thought i should tell you how much you mean to me
gymnasticfrk: and that was the silly way to say it
gymnasticfrk: i don't know what i'd do with out you
gymnasticfrk: your one of my closest friends,
J d shortier 623: whoa duffey u feelin okay?
gymnasticfrk: i'm bein serious
J d shortier 623: awwe well dats sweet sid!! I luv you too!:-D Thanks fo everything ur sucha sweetheart n sucha great friend! *Jilly luvs yew* :-P;-)
gymnasticfrk: thanks!
gymnasticfrk: i love you more though
gymnasticfrk: its a proven fact
J d shortier 623: Ahaha ur soo funny!!
J d shortier 623: I luv you way way more!!!
gymnasticfrk: nope!!
J d shortier 623: YESH!
awwe sidnee is soo friggin cute! i luv dat lil girlie!! =) Shes sucha great friend..i dun know wat i would do without her..
Well i think dat im going to get going and go to bed now..since i didnt sleep AT ALL last nite..too busy thinkin bout some of da shit my bestest buddy britt said to me..ahh oh well..neways nitey nite! =)
Brittany I LUV YOU SOO MUCH! *Ill try n get dats stupid pic to work* luv u lots chicka latah!
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