Will this never-ending-cycle ever end? It feels like im trapped in a down hill spiral and i cant get it...feels like i cant breath, cant see, cant help myself at all...and den when i scream fo help, nobody can hear me, or they r sittin around me gawking me like i was on tv or something, like it wasnt real. I scream help help help, but nobody helps, they jus go about thier business and ignore the lil nothing me thats falling into a deep dark hole to never escape again...not dat it matters weather or not i escape, since i was jus like a black hole anyway, i sucked everything into my deep darkness and ruined everything fo everyone including the best thigns in my life. And so i jus sit there gettin sucked in, waitin fo my entire existence to jus be forgotten in sucha short period of time. And when im takin my last breath and givin my last farewell...i look up, and there you are, standin there before me, smiling at me, as if you had done this to me, as if this was exactly wat you wanted, and i as i look into ur eyes, i see, that this was, exactly wat you wanted...

How do you like my lil story there? Geesh my week well my like last week n a half has been so horrible, everything is screawing up, and im not sure if i can even stay here at my own house yet t nite...i had to leave again yesterday and i didnt get to talk wit britt again *sigh* But ahh oh well, i unno this whole journal thing rite now seems really dumb...ill write more latah i guess...bye!

Love always,
~*Jilly*~

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